Blue Heaven (24 page)

“What are you doing?” she asked.

“What are
you
doing? You should be sleeping.”

Annie pushed the door open a few more inches and stepped in. She wore oversized pants and a hooded sweatshirt that was several sizes too
big. The clothes were familiar to Jess; seeing them tripped something in him.

“I woke up and couldn’t find you,” she said. “I was afraid you’d left us. Then I looked out and saw the light out here.”

“Why do you think I’d leave?”

She shrugged. He noticed her feet were bare.

“Couldn’t you find any shoes?”

“I’m all right.”

Jess noted that the cow in labor had now swung her head around the other way, so she could see Annie.

“I’ve got a cow here about to calve any minute,” Jess said.

“What time is it?”

He looked at his wristwatch. “It’s after three in the morning,” he said.

She shivered. Jess stood up and found another empty bucket and an old Army blanket in the tack room. “Come on over here, if you want. Have a sit, Annie. You can wrap your feet in this blanket.”

Annie nodded and joined him. Despite the oversized clothing, he was again amazed at how small she was. He watched her wrap the blanket around her bare feet.

“Have you ever seen a calf being born?”

“No.”

“Have you ever seen anything like that?”

“A boy down the street had a dog who had puppies,” she said. “I saw them before they had their eyes open. I thought they looked like a bunch of mice.”

“This can get pretty, um, basic,” Jess said. “You’ll have to decide how long you want to stay.”

She paused for a long time. He could see how exhausted she was. Her eyelids were at half-mast. “I’ll stay for a while.”

“It’s nice to have some company,” he said.

“You told Mr. Swann something about a fence. I didn’t understand. Was my mother there when you called?”

“We covered that. I assume she was there, but I don’t know for sure. In fact, I’m not sure I did the right thing at all.”

“What are you going to do now?”

He looked at her. “I’m going to help this cow.”

“No, I mean tomorrow. What are you going to do?”

He rubbed the gray stubble on his chin. “I guess I’ll drive into town, see if I can find out what’s going on without showing my hand.”

She was obviously confused.

“I mean, I won’t tell anyone you’re here until I can determine that it’s safe to tell someone. If the sheriff is open to it, without those ex-cops around, I could give him the word. But I’ll need to do a little groundwork first.”

“Groundwork? You talk funny,” she said.

“I’ll do some
investigating
,” he said patiently. “I’ll find out if it’s okay to tell the sheriff and your mother you’re here. I’m still a little confused why nobody has said anything about a man who got shot. There’s something wrong with that whole deal.”

“We saw him.”

“I know you think you did.”

“No,” she said, leaning forward on the bucket. “We
saw
it. I could take you there, to the exact place it happened. I could draw you a picture of the men who did it.”

“You could?”

“I can draw.”

“Then tomorrow, after breakfast, I’d like you to do just that.”

“Okay.”

After a few minutes of silence, she asked, “Do you have to do this every night?”

“I do this time of year. It’s calving season. The rest of the year I can pretty much sleep like a normal person. Unless the cows knock down a fence, or one of ’em gets sick or injured, or something like that. Ranching can be a twenty-four-hour job, Annie.”

“My mom has a job,” she said. “She works at a store. Sometimes she has to work at night, but she doesn’t have to work at four in the morning.”

Another long silence. Jess watched the cow. She was starting to dilate. A wet stream ran down one of her legs.

“Won’t be long now,” he said.

“Where is your wife?” Annie asked.

Jess snorted. “That’s to the point.”

“So where is she?”

Annie asked her questions in a matter-of-fact way. When he answered, she didn’t cluck, didn’t hang her head, didn’t feign concern. She just wanted to know what was what, why he was alone.

“She left me.” It just hung there, and he didn’t like it. He didn’t like saying the words, either. In fact, it was the first time he had ever said them. “I guess she figured there wasn’t much of a future on this place, and she was probably right,” he said. “She is an ambitious woman, and when our son was gone, she didn’t have much to do. I could have changed a little more, I guess. I thought I was too old to change, and that I was still the man she married. I guess I thought wrong.”

“Where’s your son?”

“Jess Junior? He’s around,” Jess said. “He’s sick, though. Spent some time in rehab, spent some time in jail. Got mixed up with drugs, bad ones. He’s not all there anymore, is what I’m trying to say. It’s not a good story.”

Jeez
, he thought.
Why am I telling all of this to a little girl?

“Why didn’t you have more kids?”

“I wanted more,” Jess said. “A couple more, at least. Maybe a little girl or two. I asked her about having more, and she said she didn’t want to bring another child into this world. But she meant the ranch, I know now. She meant
me
.”

He realized he had said too much and turned his head away.

“You do all of this ranch stuff by yourself?”

“I do now,” Jess said. “I had to let my foreman go a couple of days ago.”

“What if you get sick or something?”

“Then things don’t get done.”

“That’s not fair.”

“It’s plenty fair,” he said. “Why wouldn’t it be? Folks aren’t entitled to a living.”

“It just doesn’t sound right,” she said, a little more unsure of herself.

“I’m not saying it’s right. I said it was fair.”

She paused, something else on her mind. “I’m pretty sure Billy wasn’t my father. He’s William’s father, not mine. Someday, I want to find out where I come from. I know I come from somewhere.” She looked up at him.

Jess had no clue how to respond to that.

Her probing eyes finally slipped from his face and back to the cow.

“What’s that?”

“That’s the first sign of a little one trying to get out, and mama is trying to ease it out so she can meet it.”

A gush of liquid burst forth, and it hit the packed dirt with a splash and beaded in the dust.

“Here we go,” Jess said, grunting to his feet and pulling on latex gloves. “Help me welcome a brand-new cow to the world, Annie.”

“Wow,” she said. “A brand-new cow. It’s pretty gross.”

“Life is messy,” Jess said, meaning one thing but realizing it sounded like something else.

W
HEN THE sun broke over the mountains, Villatoro was in his compact on a two-lane state highway headed west, trying to get a better sense of where he was, what this place was about. His back was stiff from sleeping in the too-soft bed, and his belly rumbled with hunger. He’d been awake since five, spent an hour drinking the entire pot of bad weak coffee from the motel room coffeemaker and watching cable exercise shows in his bed. He skirted the lakeshore, plunged into shadow and mist, and emerged on a straightaway and an ancient bridge over the inlet of the lake. Dark, forested mountains rose sharply on his left. The road was bordered by heavy brush and knee-high grass beaded with dew, and when the sun cascaded over the peaks, it ignited the droplets, creating fields of sparks. The air smelled of damp pine.

He got a better read on the area as he distanced himself from the town of Kootenai Bay. It was a community in transition, with a new population and culture superimposing itself over another. Older, smaller homes were near the road. Many of them had lawn decorations made of massive old circular saw blades with alpine scenes painted on them. There was something quaint, but tired, about the older homes, no doubt occupied by past generations of families who worked in the original extraction
industries of logging and mining. These homes had postage-stamp lawns, small white fences, and a sense of humility about them, a conscious effort by the owners not to overreach. Then there were the huge new glass-and-log homes with sweeping grounds, gleaming new SUVs parked in circular driveways, and attractive new signs out front with names like “Duck Creek Ranch,” “Elkhorn Estate,” “Spruce Casa.” And
HOMESITE FOR SALE
signs everywhere. A whole new community was forming around the skeleton of the old one. Golf courses were being constructed. Quaint shops and espresso bars occupied old storefronts that still had fading painted signs on their porticos reading
GENERAL STORE
or
NIGHTCRAWLERS
.

Within sight of the Montana border, he turned around and drove back. There was more traffic on the road now, and more human activity. Newspapers were being delivered, four-wheel-drive pickups were parked in front of restaurants for breakfast, the drivers pausing to finish cigarettes before entering. By contrast, thin, bronzed women of indeterminate age, some with dogs on leashes, jogged along the lakeshore in tight, colorful clothing, iPod earbuds wired to their heads.

As he reentered town, he checked his watch. It was still too early for Celeste to have come to work if she got the message from him the night before, and therefore much too soon to expect any information on Newkirk. He drove downtown, and swung into a space behind a battered pickup across from an old-fashioned diner called the Panhandle Cafe.

As he killed the engine and reached for his keys, he looked up through the windshield and gasped. The massive round face of a bear stared straight at him from six feet away.

It took a moment to realize what he was looking at, and for his heart to stop whumping. It was a bear, all right, in the bed of the pickup in front of him. Despite open eyes and a gray tongue that lolled out of its mouth, the bear was dead, its head propped up and over the tailgate on the back of the truck. The dead bear’s front paws were arranged on either side of its head, making it look like the animal was trying to climb out.

Once his breathing returned to normal, Villatoro opened the car door and slid out, never taking his eyes off the face of the dead bear. He saw now that a long thick stream of maroon blood ran from the bottom of the tailgate of the pickup to the street and had pooled in the gutter.

“Spring bear hunt,” someone said behind him, and Villatoro instinctively jumped, slamming the car door behind him. He was instantly ashamed of his reaction.

“Sorry,” the man said. “Didn’t mean to scare you.”

It was a mature man in his late fifties or early sixties, thin, wearing a stained cowboy hat and light denim jacket. One of his hands was bandaged. Villatoro recognized him as the rancher who had preceded him with Jim Hearne at the bank. He didn’t recall the bandage from the day before. They had not been introduced then, and Villatoro wasn’t sure the man recognized him.
What was the name on the file Hearne had put away? Rawlings?

“I’m fine now,” Villatoro said. “I just looked up and there was that bear….”

“I know,” the man said. “I wish they wouldn’t do that, but it’s sort of a tradition around here. When a hunter gets a bear, he’s obligated to drive it into town and buy a round for the house.”

Villatoro nodded toward the Panhandle Cafe across the street. “Is that a good place to get breakfast?”

“Yup, it is. It’s not as good as it used to be, though. But it’s still sort of the place where the old-timers like me gather in the morning.”

“Do people here go to church on Sunday?”

The rancher paused. “Yup, they do. I’m usually there myself, but not today.”

“Just wondering. It seems like a community of faith. I used to live in a place like this.”

The rancher looked at him with a hint of suspicion.

Villatoro turned again to the bear. “Do people here eat bear meat?”

The man shrugged. “Some folks make sausage out of it. It kinda tastes like pork. I’ve never been very fond of it myself.”

Villatoro shuddered. He wished the bear’s eyes were closed, at least. It bothered him that the tongue was exposed. If he were ever found dead, Villatoro thought, he hoped his tongue wouldn’t be sticking out like that, swelled up, looking like he was sucking on a gray sausage.

“Well, thanks,” Villatoro said, and crossed the street toward the restaurant. Before entering, he dropped two quarters into a newspaper machine and took the last copy of the
Kootenai Bay Chronicle
. As he did so, he glanced over his shoulder. The man in the cowboy hat was still
across the street, examining the bear. He looked back at the man’s truck, and saw the name
RAWLINS RANCHES
painted on the door.

Right
, Villatoro said to himself.
Rawlins.

THERE WAS a time, years ago, when the big round table in the corner of the Panhandle was reserved most mornings for ranchers. Jess had first taken a place there as a boy, with his father. Jess could still remember his elation when his father motioned him over from where he sat at the counter and cleared a space for his son on the half-moon-shaped vinyl seat. It meant something to be invited to sit with the adults, and they all knew it, and they grumbled good-naturedly when they shifted to the left, making a place for him. They teased him a little about the hot chocolate he brought with him, and offered to fill his mug with strong coffee instead. He let them. He knew enough to sit silently, to defer, to listen. The talk was of cattle prices, noxious weeds, predators, politics, cattle buyers. But that was a long time ago. How different it had been when Jess had duplicated the gesture with his own son. Jess Jr. had refused to come over, instead rolling his eyes and turning his back to the table. The other ranchers in the booth had all seen what had happened, and they suddenly found their cups of coffee fascinating to look at. Jess was humiliated. It was the first of many more humiliations to come involving his son.