Breakwater Beach

BREAKWATER BEACH

Unfinished Business Series

CAROLE ANN MOLETI

SOUL MATE PUBLISHING

New York

BREAKWATER BEACH

Copyright©2016

CAROLE ANN MOLETI

Cover Design by Anna Lena-Spies

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ISBN: 978-1-68291-083-2

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This book is dedicated to

the memory of my father, Frank Moleti,

and my grandfather, Alexander Bruno,

captains of
The Sea Mist
and
The Sea Mist II
,

who inspired my love

of sailing, the sea, and of Cape Cod.

Acknowledgements

This book would never have been published if it weren’t for insightful critiques by Barbara Gordon and Andrew Richardson. You will note their expertise on British English, geography, society, and dialect in the historical elements.   

Special thanks to Laurie Sanders for her expert editing, and to my husband John Virzi, who has read every draft and offered suggestions and unending support. The ladies at the Brewster Historical Society were always enthusiastic and helpful during the research process.

I am indebted to Rayne Hall, members of the Professional Author’s Group, critters.org, and the Connecticut Romance Writers Chapter of Romance Writers of America for their help and advice while working on the Unfinished Business series. And to Deborah Gilbert for her commitment to the series and her polishing and publishing expertise.

Disclaimer

This book utilizes British spellings to enhance the historical and paranormal elements. Dialect is a key feature in characterization.

Chapter 1

January 2009

Boston, Massachusetts

A chill ran through her like she’d guzzled ice water. His muscular body drew close and drew her into an embrace.

Liz’s heart hammered against her ribs as she sat up and shook herself awake, expecting the dream to end. But it didn’t.

She blinked to clear the mist clouding her vision and struggled to reach the light. As she floundered, a notebook tucked next to the arm of the sofa fell to the floor. Papers rustled.

Before a scream passed her lips, his hand covered her mouth. “Don’t be afraid, Elisabeth.” Fingertips massaged her neck, relaxing muscles taut from months of stress and worry.

Hypnotized by the elegant British accent speaking her full name, Liz traced his amorphous face like she was reading Braille. His skin, stiff as a doll’s, smelled faintly of salt air.

“I’ve missed you.” His beard caressed her neck as hungry hands traced down her back, slipped underneath her sweatshirt, and glided over bare skin. “Ah, my love.”

It had been so long since someone had touched her, wanted her. “Who are you?” she asked, torn between wanting to yell for help and strip him naked.

“Soon, soon you’ll remember.” He withdrew into the darkness and vanished.

Shivering, gasping, Liz swathed herself in a Scottish woolen throw and clicked on a table lamp. Scattered papers lay on the floor. The drapes were still drawn and the door was still closed. Radiators tinkled.

The experience of grief made everything more vivid, more real, and more surreal at the same time. At night, every shadow came alive, teasing her as she stood on the threshold between the living and the dead.

Liz stepped over the pile of papers and went into the living room. The clock’s red numbers flashed 2:00. Four hours of sleep were better than none. She padded upstairs to be with Gerry, pushed open her bedroom door, and quickly flicked on the light. Spectral shadows lingered amongst reflections off lampshades, picture frames, and Gerry’s silver urn. This had once been a haven; a place to awaken every morning snuggled up next to each other and to fall asleep secure in each other’s arms. Now it was a mausoleum.

The interloper bore no resemblance to the skeletal man who used to be her burly, passionate, and loving partner. Liz clamped her eyes shut to blank out the sight of the urn, to try and recapture the feeling of Gerry coming up behind her, kissing her neck, whispering in her ear. But all she could rekindle was how his withered arms had struggled to hold her close. The spark of life in his eyes had already vanished when Gerry looked into hers and smiled just before he took his last breath. The thud of his hand as it fell on the mattress had marked the end of his battle. Gerry was gone. Their life together was gone. It was all gone.

The dam cracked, and emotion leaked out. Her chest heaved with every sob. Her heart pounded until it ached. He’d promised to always be there in her thoughts, in her heart, but not even a whisper of his presence revealed itself. Liz had taken for granted the nightly ritual of lying next to her healthy husband, turning out the light, enjoying the darkness, and the pleasures of making love. The presence of his absence closed around her.

Gerry’s clothes hung in the closet like disembodied effigies. She couldn’t face giving away his things, getting rid of him. The specters no amount of cleaning could banish: a whiff of urine and the stink of overflowing emesis basins haunted her more than the dream. And for that, she hated herself.

Stifling the cries to avoid waking her son, Liz staggered down to the living room, holding onto the wall and the banister to avoid tumbling into a heap at the bottom of the stairs. She left the lamps lit and stretched out on the sofa. Exhaustion washed over her, and she allowed herself to sleep, hoping a bright, less private place would keep the dream lover away.

Liz awoke to dishes rattling. It took a minute to realize where she was—and remember why. How would she explain this away?

Cinnamon wafted through the room, normally a pleasant aroma, but grief tinged everything with its sour essence. She sat up and saw Jay, with his back to her, at the kitchen counter. The toaster bell chimed. He grabbed his breakfast and turned toward the dining room.

“Good morning.” She dragged herself off the couch.

He almost spilled raisin toast off the dish. “I didn’t realize you were there. You usually sleep in the den these days.” Jay’s emphasis on ‘these days’ smacked more of frustration than commiseration.

Liz’s stomach lurched. “This sofa is more comfortable. Did you sleep well?” She forced a tight-lipped, motherly smile.

“You didn’t.” Jay stared down from his nearly six feet with that why-don’t-you-follow-your-own-advice look.

“No. But I don’t have exams to take.”

Somewhere in the last few weeks they’d drifted apart, each lost in their own sea of grief. And the current was about to suck her under. Liz rummaged in the refrigerator for her own breakfast. Moving helped banish the anxiety rising inside her again.

“Mom, what’s wrong?” Jay put his hand on her shoulder.

Liz squeezed his hand and held back the sobs. “Nothing. Everything.” She flattened her palms against his temples. “Please, focus on what you need to do. I’ll be fine. It’ll just take time.”

“No, Mom. You’re not fine! You’re wandering around the house in a trance. You barely eat and crash like a drunk and sleep it off on whatever couch you land on. How can I just do what I need to do?” He bit his lip and sniffed back tears.

Too jittery to stand still, Liz turned back to her breakfast. Her hands shook so much the milk she was pouring into her cereal spilled onto the counter. She grabbed a sponge to mop it up.

If he knew what was really going on inside her mind, in her dreams . . .

“See what I mean? You’re shaky and can’t focus.” Jay dabbed what had dripped onto the floor with a wad of paper towels.

“It’s only been a month. We both need time to recover and figure out what comes next. I go to work and do what I’ve always done. You have to finish senior year and choose a college.” Liz’s heart fluttered and she clenched her hands to stop the trembling. She couldn’t stay alone in this house but wouldn’t ruin her son’s dream of going away and starting his own life, even though hers was now at a dead end.

Jay exhaled his frustration. “I promised Dad I would make sure you were all right. You’re not, and you won’t let me help!” Jay grabbed his jacket and headed out the door, uneaten cinnamon toast still on the plate.

How long could she hide the turmoil inside her bubbling over into hallucinations? Would her confusion and guilt bleed into Jay’s grief, leaving an indelible stain on their relationship? The ticking of an old cuckoo clock provided no useful answer.

A shower chilled rather than refreshed. The cashmere sweater itched, and the waistband of her skirt was too loose. What used to be comfortable shoes were too tight. Nothing seemed to fit. Liz fled to work, desperate to regain normalcy, respectability.