Bring me to life (The golden collection) (23 page)

             
Was I that numb?

             
"Blake?" Veronica said concerned. She moved towards me and wrapped her arm around me.

             
"What's she done to you?"

             
I looked up her eyes were warm with care. "I think I'm losing her, Veronica. She's changed....."I ran a hand through my hair. "She is like a different person and I'm not sure whether I like her very much at the moment."

             
"Oh Blake!" She began to run her fingers up and down my leg. "I don't know why you're with her anyway. .. I always knew she would hurt in a way. I mean she's pretty. Very pretty... I just never thought she was good enough for you." She placed her hand on my face and turned my face to look at her. Our eyes meet. She had warm loving eyes without all that make-up stuck to her face. "Let me help you?" My eyes widen.

             
What did she mean? Before I knew it  she jumped onto my lap and her tongue was in my mouth.

             
Fuck!!! Is this why I came here?

             
No!! I pushed her away and she looked shocked.

             
"Veronica! That is not helping me" I jumped up and glared at her. "We are friends okay. I love Georgina and I still want to marry her." I stopped and suddenly the image of Georgina crumpled on the floor clutching her face hit me.

             
I had hit her!! I had hit her beautiful face.

             
Shit!!

             
"I need to go!"

             
"What back to her?" Veronica spat. "What's she got that I haven't?"

             
"What are you talking about?" I yelled. I really didn't understand what was going on. I had come here just  for a friendly chat.

             
How come everything kept getting out of hand??

             
I had to go. I had to go back to Georgina and talk to her. She needed to explain why and I had to understand. We had to move on and get past this. Georgina was my future.

             
Veronica burst into hysterical laughter. She was crazy. "I love you stupid." My mouth opened wide.

             
What was she playing at? Tonight was just getting worse and worse.

             
I closed my eyes. "Please... I really don't need this now." I let out a breath. "You are my friend and we have grown up together. I do love you but like a sister." I opened my eyes slowly and hurt was spread across Veronica's face. "I am sorry if I led you to believe that it was anything more but it really isn't."

             
"What about what happened in Ibiza?"

             
"I can't remember anything. Stop it right now. I love George and I need to go back to her. It was a mistake coming here. I'm sorry, Veronica. I need you as a friend." With that I headed for the door.

             
I needed my girl.

             
I got in it was dark and quiet. Georgina must of gone to bed. I made my way into the bedroom and there she was tucked up in bed. I laid down next to her and pulled her towards me. She smelt fantastic. I had missed her too much.

             
"Your home" she asked. "I thought you were never going to come home." She turned to face me and I could hear the despair in her voice. "What are we going to do, Blake?" It sounded like she was almost begging.

             
I ran a finger through her soft hair.

             
"Is it definitely over with him?"

             
"Yes" She stressed. "I was really stupid. Everything has all been one big massive mistake. I have no idea what I was thinking and I know I have hurt you deeply." Her words were being rushed to me and it was taking a lot to go in. Just hearing her talking about it hurt.

I hugged her tighter. The thought that another man had touched her made me feel sick. "I am sorry and I promise I will never do anything like this."

              I laid back and looked up at the dark ceiling. I guess in a way we were even. I too had cheated the only difference is I couldn't remember. Like it would make a difference. We had both made stupid foolish mistakes.

             
Maybe this was karma?

             
I grabbed her hand. "Let's get married."

             
She rested her head on my chest and I began to play with her hair. "I've cheated. Why would you still want to marry me?"

             
"Because I love you and I couldn't imagine being without you. Do you still want to be Mrs Waterman or do you love that prick?" I couldn't say his name. I didn't even want to think about him any more. I wanted my girl back and would never allow another man to go near her again.

             
She sat up and looked down at me. I had missed those big eyes. "I love you so much it's unbelievable. You are my everything and if I could go back and......"

             
"Shhhhh" I placed my finger on her lips. "Let's sleep. I'll call my mum tomorrow and we will get the wedding plans moving."

             
She laid back down and I tucked myself into her. The sooner I got her down the aisle, put a ring on her finger and declared her mine the better. I was just waiting for Monday. I was going to teach that prick a lesson. No one tries to take what's mine!!!!

             
NO ONE!!!!!

CHAPTER 15

             
I sat on the sofa looking into my coffee mug. All of yesterday events were flying through my mind. I hadn't cried so much in my life. First rejection from Maxwell and then coming home to find out Blake already knew. My Mother-I hated her more than anything now. She never called. What  was with her caring all of a sudden?

             
I could hear Blake on the phone to his mother sorting out wedding plans.

             
Wedding plans?

             
Just the thought of it  made me laugh. How could Blake possibly want to marry me after what I did.??

             
Maxwell had humiliated me making me believe he was love with me. Ha!! What a joke? He just wanted a fuck buddy and fed me any old lie to get what he wanted. I would have to face him tomorrow. The annoying feeling filled my body. I could just imagine his cold stare at me and pretending nothing happened. Another day like last Monday.  At least there would be no dining with the witch!

             
"Right, all sorted" Blake beamed. "Mum is going to see the vicar and set a date. All you need to do is tell your family and choose a dress."

             
Great! Now the witch was going to be in charge of the best day of my life. I grabbed my phone. I needed my best friend. I had to get away from everything. A few hours with her would make everything seem better.

Want to meet up... Need to talk x-
I texted.

             
"Who's that you're texting" Blake asked suspiciously.

             
"Amy! She can help me with a dress." I lied and maybe help me make sense of all the recent events. Within seconds she replied....

Yeah meet you outside M&S in an hour x

             
"I see" He leant over and kissed my cheek. "As long as it is Amy!"

             
I gave him my phone. "Check if you don't believe me."

             
He stood up and threw the phone down next to me. "Oh... I believe you George. I'm just not sure I can trust you!"

             
I stared down at my hands.

             
Trust me?

             
That was a blow to my pride. No doubt I deserved it. I couldn't wait to meet up with Amy and for the first time in weeks have a decent conversation. She was going to have a few cross words with me. I needed it. Anything to help bring me back to planet earth. At the precise moment I felt very removed from anything I would class as normality.

              I waited outside M&S. She was late!!! I thought about turning round and going home. Then the idea of spending a whole afternoon with Blake going on and on about weddings would just get me depressed. I wanted to stay out for as long as I could. I was just about to go when I heard her yelling up the high street. I laughed she was always dramatic.

             
"You were going to fucking leave weren't you" she hissed trying to get her breath back. I shook my head in a mocking manner.

             
"Come let's go and get some coffee. I am so hanging today it is unbelievable."

             
We sat down at a table with our coffees. "So what's been going on with you?" She asked raising an eyebrow. "I know something is wrong as I haven't heard a single word from you in about two weeks."

             
"Oh you wouldn't believe if I told you." I took a sip of my coffee. Amy dashed for my hand and admired my ring.  I  almost spilt the hot coffee all over myself. Her mouth was wide open. She would glare at me and then the ring.

             
"What the fuck is that?" Waving my hand in front of my face.

             
"I'm getting married" I murmured. It wasn't exactly something I would scream off a roof top now. In fact it didn't feel how I thought it would. I thought arranging the best day of your life was every little girls dream. I had the witch doing all my work and that was very frustrating. All I had to worry about was my dress. At least it would be down to me.

             
"To who?"

             
"To Blake!" I yelled. I noticed a few OAP's  glaring at me. I sunk into my seat and leant over. "Who else would I get married too?"

             
"To your hot boss!" Amy giggled.

             
I rolled my eyes. "No! I told you it's over." I looked down at my hands. I had that numb feeling again. "He.. Er... Er...  Finished it yesterday!"

             
"Yesterday?" Amy looked shocked. "I thought you said that it was over last time I saw you."

             
"I thought it was but stuff happened and well it is definitely over now" I coughed and shifted in my seat. "It has to be Blake knows."

             
"Blake knows!" Amy yelled. It was her turn now to get the evil OAP stares. "How the fuck did he find out?"

             
"My mother gave him a clue" I spat.

             
"How did your mother know?"

             
"When Maxwell took me to London."

             
"What the fuck was Maxwell doing taking you to London?" She sat back in her seat and stared at me. "For the love of god Georgina! Why is there so much I don't know? What have you done with the real Georgina? Where has that loved up waitress gone?"

             
I felt a pang of sadness run over me. Where had she gone?

             
Since meeting Maxwell I really didn't know who I was any more or who I wanted. Well he didn't want me. He had made very clear. It's funny what a little alcohol can do to you.

             
"When are you getting married?" She asked ending my thoughts. I looked up and she was smiling.

             
"Blake wants to get married within a month!" I placed my head in my hands. "What am I going to do?"

             
"You want to marry Blake... Don't you?" 

             
I thought about that question...

             
A month or so ago I would of screamed yes. Now I wasn't sure. Was I actually grieving for Maxwell? Like he deserved any of my grief. He had hurt me more than anyone before. In fact more than my mother. I was confused everything had happened really fast. One minute I was madly in love with Blake and then I was madly in love with Maxwell..... Gees, my head was beginning  to spin.