Brutally Beautiful (5 page)

I stared at him a little too long, holding his gaze, which made my senses, all of them, kick into overdrive.  The exchange was maddening and arousing, and like nothing I’d ever felt before, primal and visceral in texture.  It was purely mouthwatering.

My eyes diverted to Dylan, who had just sat down next to him and without a doubt, I knew they were brothers.  Where Dylan’s features were soft and blond, this man was a chiseled, harder, darker version of him.  Serious trouble.

The man’s dark eyebrows were pulled together and light pale-gray, almost colorless eyes, stared fiercely into mine.  Raw and primal, as if I was being hunted. 

Hunted?  For a moment, terror surged through my body.  Could this man have been sent to hurt me? 
Did they find me?
  As quickly as the thought came, I debunked it.  No one was going to be coming after me. There was no way of knowing where I was or that I survived.

No, this man who was staring at me like that
wanted me
.

Squeezing my thighs together against my moist panties, I shivered uncomfortably. I wanted to gag at the pathetic nature of my discomfort.  Whenever I had listened to other women say silly things like, “
Oh, it was love at first sight
,” or “
I felt sparks right away
,” I always laughed.  I guess I just never felt that.  There were other things, more important things than men in my life.  There wasn’t such a thing as love at first sight.  I didn’t even believe in lust at first sight.  I was a true believer of
hotness
at first sight, but that’s about it. I’ve felt love and lust before. But this, what I felt while this dangerous man fucked me vigorously with his eyes, it was
insane
.  Intense. It might have been the first time in my life that being a woman had made me feel
good
.  Okay, it made me feel like a porn star, and no man had ever made me feel like that.  There, I said it.  We’re all adults here, right?  I mean, I shouldn’t be ashamed. I’ve already told you my panties were wet, so my dignity was out the window.

He was still staring at me. Even though I quickly looked away, I could feel his eyes on me, as if they were burning an impression against my memory.  Touching every one of my nerve endings with the rough dangerous caress of his eyes.

Then he just dropped his head down low, spoke to Dylan for another few minutes, ran both his hands through his hair, drained his drink, and stalked out of the bar.  My insides ached to run after him and just pretend to bump into him, just to see him up close, and to see those eyes stare at me like that again.

Just watching him walk to the door had my pulse beating harder.  His gait and long, strong strides had me biting down on my lip.  I smiled to myself thinking that, maybe for the first time in my life, I might have been acting like a
normal
healthy sexual woman.  I shook the thoughts from my head.  It was nice to feel good, to feel confident, and to believe in myself again, but I wasn’t ready to deal with men any time soon, especially one that looked like he should have a triple X rating tattooed on his forehead.  This was one of those men a woman would probably shrink in heartbreak from, weeping loud and bitterly into their extra-large-super-sized apple martini glasses. 
What am I talking about?
  It was silly and immature of me to think I could judge a man by his likeness and not by his character, foolish and naive.  I was not by any means a foolish girl, who fluttered away on whims and heady needs. 
Heady needs?
Maybe I needed a vibrator; it had been way too long.

“Hey, Lainey,” Dylan said, as he slid behind the bar and grabbed a bottle of tequila.  “What put that smile on your face?”

“Oh, nothing,” I said as I wiped down the bottle of whiskey I was stupidly smiling at.  “That gentleman you were sitting next to, just now, that was a relative, right?” 
Oh Lord, why was I asking questions about him?

Dylan rubbed the back of his neck and sighed.  “Yeah, he’s my brother, Kade.”

“It’s sort of eerie how you look the same, yet completely opposite.  He’s like the darker version of you,” I laughed, playfully. 
Is he married?
 
What does he do?  Is he intelligent?  Is he playful?  Does he like long walks on the beach and can you give him my number? Shut up and don’t ask!  Being in the woods this long is making me crazy, and I’m definitely buying a vibrator.  That should have been the first thing I packed when I left!

Dylan didn’t laugh with me.

His eyebrows furrowed and his lips tightened into a small scowl.  “He’s definitely a dark version of something.  Listen, stay away from him if he ever comes in here again.  He probably won’t anyway, but if he does, just ignore him.  He’s tainted with a ton of issues.  He’s a loner anyway, doesn’t date, and doesn’t enjoy being around people, sorry love.  He’s pretty
savage
.”

Okay, he’s not making any sense
.  I was just asking if they were brothers, not to set me up with him. 
I didn’t ask any of those questions out loud
.

“I wasn’t saying I was interested in him or anything, I had just noticed the resemblance, that’s all.  What’s wrong with him?”

Dylan chuckled, full out laughed, and then all the seriousness drained away from his features as his eyes fixed on mine. “Nothing, love.  He’s like a
living-breathing-yet-emotionally-dead
J. D. Salinger, but with more secrets.  I think he just finds his own mind so much more interesting than anyone else’s, that he locks himself away because he doesn’t like distractions.  And he’s got major trust issues.  Savage.”

“J. D. Salinger?  So, he’s a writer?” I asked.

“Yeah, but he’s more of an arsehole, so just steer clear of him.  He could be intentionally hostile to people most of the time just to keep everyone at a distance.  Vicious and savage.”

Third time
.  That was the third time he said
savage
.  Dylan walked away, leaving me standing there, even more curious than before our talk. I wondered if he had drunk too much tonight.  Obviously, Dylan knew nothing about women, because he just intrigued the hell out of me with his warning.  Men were so clueless sometimes.

I spent the rest of that night wondering about Kade, and the reasons Dylan gave me to stay away from him.  However, I ended up wasting my time wondering if I’d ever see him again, because within twelve hours, he was sitting in his dark corner, alone, watching me,
again
.   Dressed in a crisp white button up shirt with the sleeves rolled up, his suit jacket flung neatly over the back of the booth, he looked like he was waiting for an important business meeting, yet his attention was all on
me
. 

I was hoping not to see him again. 

Not anytime soon anyway, and especially not
that
night.  Dylan spent that entire morning grumbling about Kade and how screwed up in the head he was, repeatedly telling me to stay away from him.  Why he didn’t mention anything to Bree, was beyond me.  That in itself made me feel extremely uncomfortable.  Why wouldn’t he be warning Bree about him?  Bree was the one that he should care about,
not me
. 

I chanced a small peek at him from behind the bar.  His jaw was clenched and his eyes looked so dangerous, they made my heart hammer in my chest and echo in my ears.  A muscle twitched in his jaw as he leaned back against the red leather cushion of his seat. Crossing his arms over his broad chest, he
ferociously
stared at me, like a caged animal, and I was his prey.  The common sense in me knew women shouldn’t like being objectified, like the way his eyes roamed my body, but I did. I liked it. 
A lot
. It stirred an emotion in me as if I had just found out I had some sort of super power; it was powerful, raw, and dirty.  It was intensely sexy as hell and my stomach fluttered with the excitement of it.
God, I needed to get a grip and a life.  I definitely needed to get a life
. Quickly, I backed into the kitchen door, pushed it open with a swing of my hip, and ran in.

I found Dylan with his phone to his ear, smiling like an idiot.  He pointed his index finger to the phone and mouthed,
Bree
.  Covering the mouthpiece, he whispered, “I’m picking her up in a few. Are you sure you’re okay for a few hours?”

Nodding a smile in return, I calmly said, “Your brother is sitting at the back table.”

His face went pale, and then an enormous smile brightened his features.  “Twice in two days, that’s a record.  Maybe he’s returned to the human race.  Take his order, let’s see what he does.”  Then he reached his hand out to touch my shoulder. “Just…if he says anything nasty to you, don’t take it personally. Just give it right back to him and I’ll handle him if you can’t.  Then I’ll go get Bree.”  His hands were completely covering his phone now, and I laughed, knowing full well that Bree was still talking to him on the other end.

“Dylan, trust me.  I can handle people.  Just go take Bree out. You guys have been flirting like two sheltered teenagers with me as the third wheel for the last two months, so go have fun.  She deserves a nice date.”  Before I reached the door, I tapped my hand on the frame to make sure I had his attention, “Oh, and be romantic. She likes romance and all those girly things.  She loves when a man brings her flowers.”

I walked out and around the bar, across the floor and stood right next to Kade’s table.  Heat flamed across my body and I forced myself to take a deep breath before speaking.  “Hello, I’m Lainey.  What may I get for you today?”

Kade looked up, but his glare didn’t reach my eyes. He just looked at my shoulder, or just above it. His dark brows furrowed together and his lips turned down like he was appalled at my question, his face as hard as granite.  “Another waitress,” he growled darkly.

“Well, then,” I smiled brightly trying not to show my complete mortification. 
I was confused.  Wasn’t he just looking at me as if I was the last woman on earth?
The sexy man was supposed to flirt with me and ask me for my number. I was supposed to decline kindly and walk away, feeling a little more confident in myself, like I could still
pull off
being sexy.  He was ruining my fantasy. “I hope you enjoy the next few hours without a drink then, because I’m the only waitress here tonight.”

“Where’s Dylan?” he barked.

“He has a date tonight and since there’s never anyone here on a Monday, he’s taking a few hours off and I’m here.” 
All right then, that was enough, hop on out of here, jerk.  Bye.  Off you go now. 
I bent forward and spoke lower, “I guess that means you should leave?”  I know I shouldn’t have said that, but I was angry.  He made me feel like a goddess and now he didn’t even want to speak to me. 

Intense stormy gray eyes flickered up to mine.  There was a strange silence that traveled between us in the empty bar.  His stare was dark and hostile.  Antagonistic. 
Murderous
.   His whole demeanor was tense.  “Fuck.  Are your eyes green?” he asked, venomously.  His fierce eyes maintained complete unwavering contact with mine, the kind of look that makes you want to back down.

I sure as fuck didn’t back down from anyone.  I’ve eaten boys bigger than him for a snack.

I was surprised though. That wasn’t what I was expecting to come out of his mouth.  “Yes.  Scandalous isn’t it?  Maybe I should poke them out for you and insert a color of your choice?  Are you against all green-eyed waitresses taking your orders, or am I the only lucky one?”

  His posture instantly changed. He leaned his body away from me, a look of complete fury falling across his features, as if he just watched me kick a newborn baby clear across the room and do a touchdown dance.  What the hell is wrong with
him? 
We had never even spoken before today.  Maybe he had some mental issues going on. 

From the corner of my eye, I watched as his right hand clenched into a tight fist, the tendons of his arms twisting and straining against his skin.  His left hand gripped the edge of the table, knuckles turning white, as if he were holding on for dear life.

His dark eyebrows pinched together and his gaze averted to the stage behind me. His eye narrowed and with a curled lip, he muttered dryly, “Why don’t you just make yourself useful and lose your clothes and dance.”

Was he trying to piss me off?
  I stood frozen, blinking my eyes blankly at him.  “I’m not a stripper.”

“I’ll pay you,” he smiled tightly, still looking beyond me at the stage.

“I. Am. Not. A. Stripper.”

“I bet you would be for ten grand,” he smirked, meeting his eyes to mine.

The urge to smack him tingled through my hand, but I didn’t.  I couldn’t.  Forcing myself to detach from the situation, which was something I was trained to do, I smiled wider.  “So, you think because you offered me ten thousand dollars, I would gladly jump on that stage and dance for you?”  
Was I on camera?  Was he serious?

For a few slow heartbeats, he glared at me. Leaning forward, his voice dropped into a low raspy whisper, “For ten grand, I’m betting you’d do a hell of a lot for me.”  He was dead serious.

I pulled out the chair across the table from him and sat down, clasping my hands together and plopped them under my chin.  This conversation was not going to end well.  I didn’t want to screw up anything for Bree by attacking my boss’s brother. I certainly couldn’t afford to cause any attention to where we were hiding by beating him to a bloody pulp either, so I had to calmly figure out how to deal with this animal.

“Please, Kade.  Do tell me what makes you come to this conclusion of me, having never met me before.”

He stood up, and I immediately regretted thinking I could sit down and talk this out with him. Obviously, he needed to be taken to a psych ward, the freaking
Freud Squad
, for
immediate evaluation
.  He was glaring down at me, raging gray eyes full of disgust.  “You’re just like all the other sheep around here.  Maybe a tad bit prettier than the rest of them, and I’m certain you
will
use it to your bloody advantage, people always do.”  He flattened down his shirt and backed away from the table.  “Now go make yourself useful, shake your pretty little ass up there for me and earn yourself a year’s salary.  Maybe you could buy yourself something pretty with the money.  And, don’t call me Kade.  It’s Mr. Grayson, since it’s your job here to serve
me
.”  His slight English accent becoming more pronounced the angrier he got.