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Authors: Chris Womersley

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That afternoon I was sitting with David Blake. David and I weren't friends in the manner in which I have subsequently come to understand the term; we had been thrown together in the way one might befriend another tourist in a restaurant abroad — for no other reason than you shared a common language and could moan about the public transport or the quality of the food. Isolated among Dunley's beer-swilling, ute-driving football players called Macca and Robbo, David and I needed each other.

We had become acquainted four years earlier, when the Dungeons & Dragons craze swept the school — or at least captured the interest of those students who considered themselves brighter and more imaginative than the others. At lunchtimes, a cabal of bespectacled, Monty Python-quoting nerds assembled in one of the spare classrooms to listen to Kraftwerk, throw polyhedral dice around, and debate the relative merits of the broadsword against the ability to render a troll immobile for twenty seconds. For an hour or so each day — and sometimes, if it could be organised, for a rainy weekend afternoon — we embarked on campaigns to villages called Riverweft or Dugshen, squalid settlements populated by scheming wizards and elves, encrusted with smoky
taverns in which one drank mead and gathered information for the onward journey to Nighthawk Cove, where (according to legend) a trove of treasure could be found.

I became mildly obsessed with the world of Dungeons & Dragons. For hours I pored over large books with the heft of grimoires that outlined the various monsters and the types of characters who might attempt to slay or woo them. I always cast myself as a Ranger (daring, handsome, heroic, physically powerful), the character perhaps most removed from my real self (plain, weedy, impractical, cowardly).

Older than me by nearly a year, David had finished high school and joined the ranks of restless teenagers in country towns with not an awful lot to do. He rode his (by now too small) bike around, trying to convey the impression he had an urgent task at hand when, in fact, he was going to buy milk for his mum; he smoked pot when his dole cheque came through; he saw movies at the Dunley Odeon during the day. To me, he exuded a kind of diffident, louche charm but, crucially, he was also the kind of teenager who had a sixth sense when it came to dealing with parents. He asked after people's ageing relatives; he could advise mothers on baking, discuss with fathers the shortcomings of Holdens. Parents adored him, and invariably considered him delightful and responsible for his age. Even my mother, who was by nature suspicious, thought David a ‘very nice boy' and would rise, cobra-like, to his defence should a rumour swirl and threaten his pristine reputation.

David and I both despised the parochialism of Dunley, and over the years we had developed an elaborate fantasy of escaping the place, a plan that, like a many-roomed mansion to which we were constantly adding new parlours and wings, had expanded over hundreds of late afternoons. In essence, however, the plan was simple and embarrassingly familiar to teenagers the world over: as soon as I finished high school, we would get jobs at the local peach
cannery and save enough money to travel to exotic countries. In many respects, the route of our adventure — even the specific countries to which we would travel — was unimportant and varied from month to month.

What remained unchanged, like some great palace steadfast in the shifting sands of the desert, was the desire to escape to a larger life and, for me, to become a wholly different — and far more interesting — person. To remain in Dunley would be to risk ending up like David's older brother Jason, who had transformed from one of the few vital students at Dunley High School to a pothead living in the leaky bungalow at his Aunt Milly's place near the railway station.

This, most certainly, was not for us. In our future lives, David and I would argue in Parisian cafes with beautiful, troublesome women who wore stockings and high heels; we would climb the pyramids at dusk; we would urge our faltering ponies through the snow of the Russian steppes. We would take risks; we would live. What a time of life is youth! To have all of that in front of you, unsullied by reality or — as in my case — by the shortcomings of one's character. Yet embedded in such dreams is, inevitably, an irresolvable tension: the persistent lure of elsewhere, the longing for other, better places.

Such a life was, for me, part of some vague, unarticulated plan to transform myself into a scholar — or an artist at the very least. Not that I had any obvious artistic talent; moreover, in my family such a thing was not encouraged. I suspect my ambition, if it can even be called that, was a matter of seeking to transform my clichéd alienated adolescence into a tale with a narrative roughly commensurate with biographies of actual artists I had read about. I sketched things on scraps of paper, as I had read Henri Matisse did; and, recently, acting on the advice of an author I had read about in the serious weekend papers (found abandoned on a table at Eddie's Cafe; my mother would never buy such a thing), I had begun to keep a journal in which I scribbled quotes from books or
films and earnest observations about my oh-so-unique troubled interior life.
Love is a battlefield. L'enfer, c'est les autres
.

On that evening in 1985, the local footy team, the Dunley Tigers, were training out on the oval, and their hoarse cries were like those of drowning men as they barrelled about on the floodlit grass, their shadows circling and re-circling as they tackled and ran. Every so often, the team huddled in the middle of the ground to receive instructions from the coach, where their steaming breath plumed around them before dissipating in the night air.

David and I observed the footballers with the potent mixture of envy and scorn that is, I suspect, the default emotional setting of teenagers the world over. Many of those training on the oval were our classmates at school, friends even, but those bonds were gradually loosening as we began veering on our separate ways through life.

‘They look like trolls, don't they?' David said as he riffled through his coat pockets and produced a packet of Marlboros. He lit one and inhaled deeply. ‘Running around stinking, crashing into each other.'

I asked him if any jobs had come up at the cannery yet.

‘Nah. Bugger all. They say things are pretty bad. I don't reckon they'll have anything all year.'

I doubted this but said nothing. In the past few months I had noticed a change in David. He was becoming impatient with me, querulous, reluctant to engage in discussing our plans even as their fruition grew ever closer.

We watched the Tigers practise kicking for goal from a variety of difficult angles. I recognised Spider Murphy, who insisted on trying to dribble the ball through from impossible positions on the boundary line in imitation of a Collingwood player famous for such a talent; Dale Freck, the butcher's kid, notorious for punching the maths teacher Miss Dawson after failing surds in spectacular fashion last year. The shouts of frustration and triumph — the phrases and
intonation lifted directly from radio commentary of matches — drifted up to us through the thin air.
He goes for it and, aaarrrghhh, so close. Frecky shoots aaaaaannnnnndddddd, did you see that? What a goal!

David smoked in monkish silence, popping out fragile, trembling smoke rings. ‘I'm going to do an apprenticeship with Mr Wilson, starting next month,' he announced.

I felt as if the air were drained from my lungs. Graeme ‘Sparky' Wilson was an electrician with his own business. We saw him driving around town in his van with a yellow light bulb painted on the side.

‘I thought you said you'd
never
do anything like that in a million years, that you'd —'

‘Shut up, Tom, will ya.'

I was wounded and couldn't help but stutter in a whining tone that appalled even me. ‘What about our trip? What about the pyramids? Paris? I'll finish school this year, remember. Then I can start saving some money. I can get more work at Eddie's. Full-time. It'll only take me six months or so. An apprenticeship takes
years
.'

David jammed his cigarette butt into the damp ground where it sizzled before going out. ‘God, don't you realise? Those things are only dreams.' His voice rose above my protests. ‘Don't be such a baby. What else am I going to do? I need money, don't I?'

I thought of the stash under my bed — the maps on which we had scrawled proposed routes, the colour pictures of ancient ruins scissored from
National Geographic
magazines, the postcards we'd hoarded from the few people we knew who had travelled abroad (
Salut de Montparnasse!
) — and I understood at once, with sudden, humiliating clarity, that David had never intended to follow through on our plans. He had been humouring me for years. And now I was on my own.

David smoked another cigarette, then hopped on his bike and left with a curt ‘See ya'. In retrospect I can recognise that he was as
disappointed as I was, but life lived backwards is of no use, is it?

I wouldn't be exaggerating to admit that at that moment, on a low hill in a wintry dusk, I had to resist the urge to weep with frustration. It was a betrayal of the most heinous kind. I wandered home through the empty town, taking the back way past Sarah Lumb's house. I dawdled on the other side of the street in the hope of glimpsing my latest crush but only saw her mother at the kitchen sink, brushing her hair from her forehead with the heel of one sudsy hand.

It was dark by the time I stepped through the back door into the kitchen. My sister Meredith was sitting at the kitchen table with a packet of Iced VoVos, flicking through an old
Women's Weekly
. She was wearing a woollen coat over her blue nurse's uniform. Meredith was ten years older than me, and although she lived with her husband Bill, she was often at our kitchen table or sitting on the sofa, drawn back by the sweet biscuits in constant supply at our house.

‘Oh,' she said with a smirk, looking up long enough from the heartbreaking exclusive story of a soap star's marriage bust-up to register my arrival. ‘It's you. Hi, Spaz. How's your existential angst today?'

I counted off on my fingers. ‘That's a big word for you. Four whole syllables. But it's pretty good, thanks. How are you?' I waited a beat. ‘Still barren?'

Meredith stiffened, and for a second I regretted bringing out the big guns so soon. In the four years of her marriage, Meredith had so far been unable to fall pregnant. That alone would have been bad enough — she had wanted to have children since she was a child herself — but her misery was compounded by the fact that our sister, Rosemary (younger than her by two years), had two children with her idiotic husband, Jason. This was a source of distress for Meredith and the main reason she could be found so often at our
house, seeking solace from our mother and a packet of biscuits.

When it became clear she was not going to respond to my barb with the venom I anticipated, I opened the fridge and poured myself a glass of orange juice. On the table was the latest edition of
National Geographic
. The historical and the exotic had always exerted an almost irresistible pull on me, and the delivery of a new edition never failed to prompt in me a jolt of pure joy. It was addressed to my father (his late mother had given him a lifetime subscription years earlier), but they continued to arrive at our house with pleasing regularity. There were many dozens of these magazines in the back shed, stacked in yellow-spined piles. Over the years, I had spent hundreds of happy hours immersed in the last days of the Incas or the Ancient Egyptians. Learning about Pompeii, the Battle of Cajamarca, Pizarro, roomfuls of gold, garrotting; a world so far removed from my own that it glittered with an impossible, surreal magic. After an afternoon in the company of such feats and wonders, I would look up, dazed, neck sore, and the dim shed (heavy cobwebs in its corners, rusty tools on the bench) unnerved me, as if this real home of mine — not the historical dramas by which I had been entranced — were utterly foreign.

I tore the wrapper off the latest magazine and flicked through it. Photos of Amazonian Indians with red plates wedged beneath their lower lips, a Mexican boy being tossed from a bucking bull. Meredith watched me with an amused expression, and I sensed her formulating a withering riposte. But, to my surprise, she said nothing.

I rolled up the
National Geographic
and tucked it under my arm. ‘What are you doing here, anyway?'

She made an inarticulate noise, wetted a finger with her tongue and turned a page. She had always been matronly, my sister, hunch-shouldered and plump. It was hard to see her running around after children. In fact, it was hard for me to imagine her
anywhere but sitting right here picking over women's magazines and munching on an Iced VoVo. That we supposedly shared parents was not only unlikely to me, but downright distasteful. I watched her as I might a sorrowful creature in an exhibit and suddenly felt contrite. In an effort to be conciliatory, I asked her where our mother was.

She shrugged without looking up. ‘Still at work, I guess.'

Mystic Medusa's horoscopes snagged her attention and she read for a few seconds, lips moving, eyes narrowed with concentration. What she gleaned evidently chimed with her and she leaned back, popped the final shard of her Iced VoVo into her mouth and nodded with approval. Then she wiped away the crumbs on her lip. ‘What star sign are you again?'

I downed the last of my orange juice and put the glass on the sink. ‘I can't believe you read that drivel.'

‘Come on, Tom. Don't be so stuck up. It's fun. Everyone knows you only read those' — she pointed to my
National Geographic
— ‘to perve on the topless African ladies. You're an Aquarian, right?'

I rolled my eyes. ‘Yeah.'

‘OK, the water carrier. Let me see. Well, it says here to beware of strangers promising great riches. And … that secrets you have been guarding will be revealed, whether you want them to or not. Sounds interesting. What secrets have you got, brother?'

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