Authors: Jane Yolen
Mom's hands went up to her mouth. She looked over at me, green eyes shining strangely, like a cat about to cry. Then the little pinch lines between her eyes showed up as she struggled to control herself, and I knew that there'd be no tears. There never are.
“Colitis?” I whispered to Martha.
It was the worst thing I could think of. If colitis hits a horse's belly, it usually dies within hours, a day at most. We've never lost a horse to colitis, or anything else.
Martha warns us about once a month that losing a horse is bound to happen someday and we'd best be prepared. Times she talks like that, Mom calls her Aunty Dark Cloud.
Strangely, Martha laughed, a high whinnying sound. “Nah, not colitis. That old pony's up and got herself pregnant.”
“Can't have,” I said. “She'd need a stallion forâ”
“Must be three months gone.” Martha's hand described a small arc over her own belly.
Counting back on my fingers, I got to August, the month of the shooting stars.
Mom must have done the same counting. She said, “That darn Jove. I'll call over andâ¦”
Jove, the big Suss stud, had gotten out more times than we could count. It's why we finally had to build the double-rowed fence between our fields and the Suss farm. We couldn't really afford it, and Mom had called it “the most expensive birth deterrent ever,” but if we left it to Mr. Suss, it wasn't going to happen.
Robbie laughed. “Aggie's gonna have a baby!” he said. “Will it be bigger than her if Jove is the dad?”
Martha ignored him, shook her head, and said to Mom, “Old man Suss would have been over here yammering away at you had that rascal Jove got loose again. Suss would already be charging you a stud fee, like he's done before. But he's said nary a word, Miz Martins.” She never called Mom by her first name.
It was the one question that troubled us the entire year of Agora's pregnancy. But eventually I thought the two of them were looking in the wrong place for answers. I knew this was true magic in our lives at last, and the answer was in the sky.
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I've never seen Martha out of uniform: those rumpled and stained blue jeans, a white or gray T-shirt in the summer and, in the winter, a dark-blue sweater with a hole in one sleeve. She wears sneakers in sun, rain, or snow, not like Mom who's almost always in jodhpurs and boots with a well-ironed shirt during the day and a long Indian print dress in the evening after barn chores are done.
Martha's gray hair is usually tied back in a ponytail with a fat colored rubber band, red when she's feeling good, green when worried, blue when it's best to leave her alone. Mom's hair is pulled back in an ashy blond French braid when she rides, though at night it sits like a cloud on her shoulders. Is she beautiful? Dad used to say so. He called her the princess of ice and snow. He was dark to her light, heat to her ice. Or so Martha said once, and I never forgot it.
Sometimes I think Martha is probably part horse herself. And that's what my English teacher calls a GOM, a good old-fashioned metaphor. Of course she's truly human through and through, something I came to understand during the year after that night in the pasture when the stars fell all around us and a ball of lightning leaped over the fence.
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Mom and Robbie and I live in the big farmhouse. It has fifteen rooms. “Far too many for just us,” Mom says whenever we have an all-family cleaning day. We can't afford help, except for Martha, who only does the barn work. So Mom and I do the mopping and dusting while Robbie in his wheelchair is piled high with cleaning stuff that he hands out as we make our way around the house.
Maybe the house
too big for us, though I remember when Dad was here, how he seemed to fill the place up with all his stuff. In those days, we had a guitar room, a pool table room, plus a band room attached to two recording rooms that Dad called The Studio. And then there were bedrooms for all his band mates and roadies to stay over in as well. These days we just have empty rooms and loads of doors in the hallway that we keep closed year-round.
The old band room on the first floor is now Robbie's bedroom, with its specially made shower that a friend of Mom's built in one of the old recording rooms, trading his work so that his kids could have a year of free riding.
When Robbie was born, Dad left and took with him all the people who'd moved inâincluding the special nurse who was supposed to help care for Robbie but instead became a special backup singer in his band. We never got another nurse, because Mom just didn't have the money for one. She moved her bed into the old pool table room so she could be right next door to Robbie. That left me with the entire upstairs. So I have a playroom and a music room and a room for my riding trophies. And there's two extra rooms for friends, if I ever have any friends who want to stay over.
We even have room for Martha to live with us, but she has a one-bedroom cottage on the other side of our driveway. She'd been living there when we arrived, and she likes her privacy. In fact, she likes it so much, I've never been invited inside. But I bet it has horse pictures on the walls.
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Agora's pregnancy seemed routine, which was good. Because of her arthritis and her age, we'd always figured giving birth would be too hard on her, so we'd never had her bred. But then she accidentally bred herself.
Nevertheless, we were all really concerned. Agora had been a rescue pony whose last owner had nearly starved her to death. Martha said the owner should have been put in jail for life! I'm sure she was just making a joke. Well,
Dr. Herks, the vet, checked her out once a month during her pregnancy, until the last two months, and then he came to see her every other week. Martha grumbled that he was around the farm so much, he was like a puppy underfoot.
Mom just laughed at Martha. “It's nice to have a vet so dedicated to his work,” she said. “And since this is Agora's first foalâ¦”
“And last,” Martha reminded us.
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The day everything changed on the farm was the day Agora went into labor. It was Saturday morning, and I was doing the usual barn chores, mucking out stalls, putting in fresh straw, filling water buckets. I'd just finished the stalls of the old men, as we called our aging geldings.
Robbie was with me, sitting in his wheelchair, telling me bad six-year-old jokes. I mean the jokes six-year-olds tell, not that the jokes were six years old. He gets them from books and from our small black-and-white television set. I didn't have time to watch much TV, what with my homework and barn chores, so Robbie used to catch me up on everything he'd seenâmainly
The Addams Family
. He would have watched all day if Mom had let him. And he could go on and on about the shows to anyone who'd listen. Half the time, I didn't pay any attention, just nodded and did my homework or my chores. I didn't let him know I wasn't completely involved in every plot turn and joke, or he'd never stop explaining.
Martha talked that way, too, on and on, with me tuning out. All she did was tell me how to do what I'd been doing for the past four years, since I was nine. Calling me “Little Bit” and “Shortie,” even though I was neither of those anymore. Calling Robbie “Squinch” (because of his glasses) and “Munchkin” (because he's so small).
Martha wanted things done right, meaning her way, so how could I be mad at her? Annoyed a little, irritated some, but not mad. Martha was an itch we all had to scratch.
And Robbie? He just called her silly names back: “Marmar” when he was little, “Mairzy Doats” from a song Martha used to sing, and now “Marmalade” from his favorite jam, which is so bitter, I won't eat it. “More for me,” he always says.
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I rolled Robbie to Agora's stall next, and we could hear rough breathing. When I peeked in, Agora was standing with her head hanging down, and she didn't look good.
“Keep an eye on her, buddy,” I said to Robbie, “I've got to call the vet.”
“Will she be okay?” I could hear the tightness in his voice.
“Dr. Herks is the best,” I reminded him. “Try and keep her calm.”
He nodded. “I'll sing to her.” He loved singing to the horses. He had a great voice, always right on key. Not like me. Mom says it's the one good thing he got from Dad.
I left Robbie at the open door, not that there was much he could do if things went wrong. He can't use his legs, his pelvic bones are missing, his arms are too short, and his hands are like flippers because the fingers and thumbs grew fused together.
But that voiceÂ â¦ Martha calls it angelic, only not to his face. He was already singing to Agora, to keep her calm. “A horse is a horse, of course, of course.â¦” It was the theme song from
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I'd seen mares in labor before. Their tails twitch high, and sometimes they stomp about the stall as if they can't quite settle. Then, suddenly, they collapse on the ground, rolling over on one side, the water flooding out of their hind ends. Several long pushes later, a white sac like a balloon comes out with one or two tiny horse hooves showing.
The first time I watched a mare have a baby, I thought it was disgusting. Yet once the foal stood up, shaking all over and then walking about on its spindly legs, everything was so magical, I forgot about the icky stuff.
But what I was hearing that day from Agora's stall didn't sound like magic. It sounded like pain. I couldn't take time to comfort her. Robbie would have to do that. He was good with the horses since, unlike most kids his age, he didn't make quick movements or too much noise.
I ran to the barn phone.
The vet's number was written on the wall over the phone in black paint. As Martha said, “Pieces of paper can get torn off or lost, but black paint is forever.”
He answered on the first ring, his voice low, musical. “Gerry Herks here.” He always sounded like a movie star, though he didn't actually look like one. Just pleasant-faced with brown eyes and graying hair.
“Arianne Martins here.”
“Everything all right at the farm?”
“It's Agora. It'sâ¦”
“It's time,” he said brightly. “I'll be right there.”
The Vet Vet
OM ONCE TOLD ME
that the word
was originally French. Or a word sort of like it:
. The French didn't actually mean a pony like Agora, who, even fully grown, is only the size of a small horse.
means a baby horse, a foal.
Agora is a white pony. Yet if you brush your hand over the top layer of her back, underneath the white hair is a gray coat. You might call that magical, but it's real.
Her mane is thick, and so is her tail. When I asked Mom why, she shrugged, saying, “It's characteristic of ponies.” Then she'd turned back to sorting grain sales brochures.
Agora's mane is thicker than the manes of our four other maresâHera, Helen, Hester, and Hope. (Mom has an
fetish, since her own name is Hannah.) Thicker than the manes of our two geldingsâAragorn and Boromir. (I was reading
The Lord of the Rings
when we named them.) Now we just call them Gorn and Bor.
In fact, Agora's mane is much thicker than any of the manes of our nine boarding horses as well. As much mystery as magic.
From the beginning, one of my special chores has been brushing and braiding Agora's mane. Each time I come near her with the brush, she sidles close, rubs up against my hip, then nuzzles my palm, and we begin.
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Once I knew that Dr. Herks was on his way, I ran back to Agora's stall, not even taking time to call Mom out. I knew she was working on the barn bills and hated being disturbed when it was the bill-paying time of the month.
Besides, Dr. Herks had said that since Agora was old, things should move slowly. Especially as this was her first pregnancy. So I figured I had plenty of time to get Mom once the vet arrived. From the way he sounded on the phone, I guessed he was hurrying, and he was only fifteen minutes away.
Agora was already lying down, and Marthaâa blue rubber band in her hairâwas sitting in the straw by her side. Agora's head was in Martha's lap, and the two of them looked as if they were having a friendly talk, though Agora's belly was bouncing in an alarming way.
Martha must have nudged Robbie's chair to one side in her rush to get in, because it was smack up against the near wall and turned sideways. That made it hard for him to see what was going on. And with his shortened arms, he had trouble enough working the wheels on a flat, paved walk. There was no way he could do anything in the stall.
I pushed him around so he could watch. “Dr. Herks is on his way.”
“I told her,” Robbie said.
Martha never looked up.
“He sounded a bitâ¦” I thought a minute before saying it. “A bit nervous.”
“He should be.” Martha was still looking down at Agora, her voice quiet, soothing. She was brushing her fingers through Agora's mane.
not nervous,” Robbie said. “
excited!” This would be the first time he'd been allowed to watch a birth.
“It can be pretty scuzzy,” I warned.
“Scuzzy is my second name!”
name is Connor,” I said, “Robert Connor Martins. But if you get sick, don't expect anyone to help you. We'll be too busy.” I turned to Martha. “Anything more I can do?”
She looked at me as if sizing me up, and finding me ready for the task, said, “Boil water.”