Cherry (47 page)

The marvellous part of
ibid.
, p. 125.

As I get more . . . Ever since we came
Journal, 10 August 1911.

that really horrible
ibid.
, 11 August 1911.

We felt like boys
Ponting, p. 159.

It seems very far
SLE
, 18 August 1911.

Poor Cherry perspired over
SLE
, 10 September 1911.

It’s you or me
Annotated journal [April 1911].

the cheerful and lovable
WJ
, p. 222.

I intended Oates to
SLE
, 22 October 1911 [1968 facsimile edition].

I personally don’t see
LO to Caroline Oates, 23 November 1910.

great string of rotten
in Seaver,
Wilson
, p. 263.

He is spoken to
ibid.

I dislike Scott intensely
LO to Caroline Oates, 24 October 1911.

more than extra mouldy
Journal, 24 September 1911.

to
appeal
to
the
ACG to ECG, 28 September 1911 & following days, private collection.

worried and unhappy
WJ
, p. 319.

I can’t say I
William Lashly, Diary (‘Southern Journey, Motors’), 1 November 1911.

It reminded me of
SLE
, 2 November 1911.

At the back of
WJ
, pp. 331–2.

My personal impression of
ibid.
, p. 333.

it was about as
HB, Diary, 13 November 1911.

a prolonged Council of . . . serio-comic
WJ
, p. 338.

I go all the
Journal, 29 November 1911.

touch and go
SLE
, 23 November 1911.

Gallant little Michael
Journal, 4 December 1911.

Oh! but this is
SLE
, 6 December 1911.

a perfect piece of
EW,
Diary
, 8 December 1911.

This morning was just
Journal, 17 December 1911.

though both put their
SLE
, 14 December 1911.

I had expected failure
SLE
, 11 December 1911 [1968 facsimile edition].

and a better march
Journal, 18 December 1911.

but things being close
ibid.

I’m afraid I have . . . No, no, no. At
Journal, 20 December 1911.

the best man in
Clements Markham,
Antarctic Obsession
, Huntingdon, 1986, p. 96.

Wilson wrote that I
Marginalia, private collection.

Please write to Mrs
EW to Oriana Wilson, 21 December 1911, in Seaver,
Wilson
, p. 275.

He is the most
RFS to RS, in
WJ
, pp. lxiv–lxv.

mournful air
Journal, 21 December 1911.

pulling his guts out
ibid.

Scott has only to
ibid.
, 22 December 1911.

With the depôt which
RFS to EA, in
WJ
, p. 426.

Had a hell of
Pat Keohane, Diary, 22 December 1911.

puddingy
Journal, 22 December 1911.

a good whack of
ibid.
, 24 December 1911.

Had a bad bellyake
Keohane, Diary, 25 December 1911.

I will take on
ACG to EW, 28 December 1911.

I watched my companions
Postscript, p. 588.

My birthday, and given
Journal, 2 January 1912.

Within a yard of
Silas
, p. 235.

As I lay in
Keohane, Diary, 13 January 1912.

I miss you horribly
ECG to ACG, 23 July 1911, family collection.

I thought as I
ECG to ACG, 28 May 1911, family collection.

absolutely bewildering. England seems
Journal, 3 February 1912.

the rumblings of the
Postscript, p. 599.

Personally I hope it
Harry Woollcombe to ACG, 18 October 1911.

Scott a fool . . . Too
Silas
, p. 221.

as big as Regent
Evans,
South with Scott
, p. 198.

I think the British
HB to Emily Bowers, 3 January 1912.

too great a sacrifice
Evans,
South with Scott
, p. 208.

he is turning black
The Diary of William Lashly
, Reading, 1940, p. 21.

I kissed his old
Evans,
South with Scott
, p. 225.

How funny we should
Lashly
, p. 37.

I’m right in it
Journal, 24 February 1912.

as it would not
RFS to Joseph Kinsey, 28 October 1911, Alexander Turnbull Library, Wellington.

It did not cross Cherry’s mind to disobey those orders
After Cherry died, Deb wrote in his obituary in Polar Record X, 64 (1960, p. 93) that the fact that he disobeyed orders weighed on his mind for the rest of his life. (Deb did not mention this in his other, fuller obituary in
The Times
.) This inaccurate statement reflects the muddled understanding of Scott’s orders on the expedition, and the lack of awareness over the changes Scott made on the march. Cherry did not think that he had disobeyed orders, and he had not. What weighed on him was the thought that he might have taken another decision at One Ton and pressed on in the blizzard. Deb was presumably referring to Scott’s order to ‘take the dogs as far as you can’; but this had been superseded by Atch’s order on no account to risk the dogs.

Deb appeared to confirm that his friend was in no way guilty of disobeying orders in his
Times
obituary (19 May 1959) which refers to Cherry’s depression in later years and his ‘needlessly uneasy conscience about the part he played’.

I had no reason
WJ
, p. 434.

We hope against hope
SLE
, 7 March 1912.

Dear Sir, We leave
ACG to RFS, 16 March 1912.

Lately I have felt
Journal, 14 March 1912.

Cherry-Garrard under the . . . Both men were in
EA, ‘The Last Year at Cape Evans’, in
SLE
II, p. 306.

It’s a miserable jumble
SLE
, 10 March 1912 [1968 facsimile edition].

At last we have
Ernest Joyce, Diary, 26 October 1915, Alexander Turnbull Library, Wellington.

If the depôt had
GBS to ACG, 18 November 1948 (notes inserted in Journal).

Chapter
7
: It is the Tent

Is is sad that
Journal, 17 March 1912.

hardly cared what happened
ibid.
, 21–2 March 1912.

What castles one builds
SLE
, 5 January 1912.

Atch and I look
Journal, 25 March 1912.

Hullo! Cherry, they’re in . . . Who’s cook
ibid.
, 26 March 1912.

hope sprang up anew
WJ
, p. 442.

morally certain that the
EA, ‘The Last Year’, in
SLE
II, p. 309.

I think I have
Journal, 2 April 1912.

more or less an
ibid.
, 1 May 1912.

a garbled, disloyal account
ibid.
, 3 April 1912.

Evans has been the
ACG to RS, 15 July 1912.

This winter is passing
Keohane, Diary, 21 July 1912.

We usually wear our
Thomas Williamson, Diary, 11 July 1912.

It is of some
Journal, 17 August 1912.

that has been one
ibid.
, 7 July 1912.

Cherry was his usual
Silas
, p. 300.

a ghastly experience
WJ
, p. 470.

The scenery has lost
FD,
The Quiet Land
, p. 143.

top dog
Journal, 9 September 1912.

God knows I have
ibid.
, 10 September 1912.

It is all I . . . There is not a . . . And when we got
ibid.
, 4 October 1912.

others sit round the
ibid
.

forgetfulness of self
Postscript, p. 603.

A vague kind of
WJ
, p. 497.

It is the tent
ibid.

like old alabaster
The image is from Thomas Williamson’s diary, 12 November 1912.

That scene can never
WJ
, p. 497.

It was something breaking
Tryggve Gran, in
Scott’s Last Journey
, BBC 2, 19 March 1972.

All the day-dreams
SLE
, 16 January 1912.

It was a very
EW,
Diary
, 17 January 1912.

our poor slighted Union
SLE
, 18 January 1912.

We are going like
Roald Amundsen, ‘Sledging Diary’, 8 November 1911, Oslo, trans. Roland Huntford.

rather dull and incapable
SLE
, 4 February 1912.

We are in a
ibid.
, 2 March 1912.

living among the fleshpots
Amundsen, ‘Sledging Diary’, 7 January 1912, Oslo, trans. Roland Huntford.

I am just going . . . Should this be found . . . and though we
constantly
SLE
, 16 or 17 March 1912.

amputation is the least
ibid.
, 19 March 1912.

For God’s sake look
ibid.
, ‘Last entry’.

Death has no terrors
EW to E. T. Wilson and Mary Wilson, 21 or 22 March 1912.

all is for the
EW to Oriana Wilson, 21 or 22 March 1912, in Seaver,
Wilson
, p. 293.

Your ever loving Son
HB to Emily Bowers, n.d.

He was one of
WJ
, pp. 213–14

How cold are your
ibid.
, p. 298.

We are weak, writing
SLE
, ‘Message to the Public’, n.d.

The Lord giveth and
WJ
, p. 499.

I do not know
ibid.

They died having done
Huxley, p. 257.

I for one shall . . . The question of what
Journal, 12–13 November 1912.

Subsequent climate data reveals
Until recently little was known of the weather deep in the Barrier. But in the early 1980s American researchers positioned automatic weather stations at sites near Scott’s route. Susan Solomon, a leading atmospheric scientist, analysed information yielded by these stations. She concluded that Simpson’s prediction that in an average season Scott would have experienced temperatures of about minus 20 on his march back was correct – but 1912 was no average year out on the Barrier. Only one other year in the century was as cold. Scott was, in this respect, exceptionally unlucky. Solomon sets out her results in
The Coldest March
(New Haven, 2001), and in her scholarly monograph, co-written with Charles R. Stearns, ‘On the Role of the Weather in the Deaths of R. F. Scott and his Companions’,
Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences
(November 1999), pp. 13012–16
.

We were always careful
Journal, 12–13 November 1912.

Hereabouts died a very
ibid.
, 15 November 1912.

his face transformed
EA, ‘The Last Year’, in
SLE
II, p. 349.

It is the happiest
Journal, 26 November 1912.

The road to hell
George Murray Levick, in
WJ
, p. xlv.

Hope I have set
Silas
, p. 355.

a terrible fit of
Journal, 28 November 1912.

Truly Shackleton’s expedition must
ibid.
, 5 December 1912.

more like a steeplechase
ibid.
, 25 December 1912.

Are you all well . . . The Polar Party died
WJ
, p. 584.

The pleasant memories are
Journal, 19 January 1913.

The last year has
ibid.
, 18 January 1913.

I do not believe ibid., 22 January 1913.

I should like to . . . I wonder if all . . . It’s fairly sickening and
ibid.
, 26 January 1913.

One started with such
ibid.
, 3 February 1913.

It seems to me . . . Their
biggest
day’s march
E. R. G. R. Evans to Ralph, Silvia & Lal Gifford, 6 February 1913, private collection.

Why should I be
Reginald Pound,
Evans of the Broke
, 1963, p. 157.

I consider him to . . . I see he is
Journal, 25 January 1913.

With what mixed feelings
WJ
, p. 592.

Come down here a . . . It’s made a tremendous
WJ
, p. 593.

capable of maintaining the . . . moral and spiritual
The Times
, 12 February 1913.

She is as fine
Journal, 13 February 1913.

I believe I am
ibid.

the old, old story . . . quite hysterical . . . all that could be
ibid.
, 14 February 1913.

tapped
The Times
, 12 February 1913.

that relations between the
Sydney Morning Herald
, 14 February 1913.

All these questions and
Draft material,
WJ
.

Do not worry about
ACG to ECG, 15 February 1913.

congratulations . . . Longing to get you
ECG to ACG, 15 February 1913.

All kinds of wild . . . I don’t know that . . . Oh! She is
wonderful . . . Beautiful table, good dinner
Journal, 15 February 1913.

It seems to be
Journal, 20 February 1913.

a horrid day. Everybody
ibid.
, 21 February 1913.

He looks just a
Lilian Burton to ECG, 18 February 1913.

It is a horrid
Journal, 3 March 1913.

I know how splendidly
ibid.
, 9 March 1913.