Christian (The Beck Brothers Series) (2 page)

Christian
grumbled something incoherent and pulled his head out from under the pillow.
His hair was a hot mess as he pushed up onto his elbows and rubbed his face. He
dragged his eyes open to catch Shea watching him. Christian sighed heavily and
hung his head.

“
You
’
ve
changed your mind, haven
’
t you?
”
he said dejectedly.

“
What?
 
No, definitely not,
”
Shea assured him.

“
Then
why do you look like you want to run screaming?
”

“
It
just kind of hit me, that
’
s all. I
’
m
not going to run.
”

Christian
nodded, but he didn
’
t look
convinced. Shea stood and headed toward the door.

“
Where
are you going?
”
Christian
asked, a hint of panic in his voice.

“
Relax
spaz, I gotta take a piss.
”
Shea chuckled.

“
Oh,
”
replied Christian, who was now blushing.

Shea
smiled and shook his head as he walked down the hall to the bathroom. Poor
Christian, the guy needed to be medicated, but Christian always refused, saying
he didn
’
t want to
be on medication every day. After going to the bathroom and brushing his
horrendous dragon breath with an extra toothbrush, Shea headed back to
Christian
’
s room,
where he was now sitting on the bed, head hanging, shoulders slumped. Shea
pounced on Christian, making them both fall back with Shea on top. He cupped
Christian
’
s face and
kissed him on the lips.

“
Oh
God, maybe I should have waited until you brushed your teeth.
”
Shea grimaced.

“
Nice,
”
Christian said dryly.

Shea
chuckled and gave Christian another small kiss on the mouth.
“
I
’
m
going to go get some aspirin and coffee.
”

Christian
nodded.
“
Alright.
”

One more kiss before Shea got up and headed downstairs. The
first thing he did was
take
some aspirin and then he
set up the coffee pot. He had just poured coffee into two mugs when Christian
walked into the kitchen. To Shea
’
s
surprise, Christian was actually in a pair of plaid pajama pants and no shirt.
That was definitely the most dressed down that Christian ever got, and damn he looked
fine without a shirt.

“
Listen,
Shea, if you want out just tell me now
…”
Christian started but Shea cut him off.

“
For
Christ
’
s sake,
Chris, I don
’
t want out.
Will you please stop second guessing me?
”
said Shea, letting out an irritated sigh as he fixed their coffees with cream
and sugar.

“
I
’
m
sorry, I
’
m just
finding this difficult to wrap my mind around,
”
Christian muttered and sank down into his normal chair at the head of the
table.

“
Stop
thinking so much about it. We
’
re pretty
much just adding more affection and sex to our friendship. You
’
re
making this a bigger deal than it is,
”
Shea said and set Christian
’
s coffee
down in front of him.

Christian
gave him an incredulous look.
“
This is a
big deal! You
’
re not gay!
”

“
What
the fuck did I tell you last night? I am now, so shut the hell up and just
accept it.
”

“
Jesus
Christ, Shea, you can
’
t just turn
gay overnight!
”
Christian
argued.
   

“
Watch
me!
”
Shea countered.

He
was serious about this. He was not going to lose his best friend and only
family he had because he wasn
’
t gay.
Christian was in love with him, and he would be damned if he were going to let
him walk away without at least trying to give Christian what he deserved.
Christian wanted to be with him, and he would do that for him and only for him.
If any other man came to Shea and told him that they were in love with him, he
probably
would
have run away
screaming, but this was Christian.

Shea
would be lying if there hadn
’
t been
moments in their friendship when he wondered what it would be like to be more than
friends with Christian, especially after Christian came out to him. So he
really wasn
’
t doing
something that he hadn
’
t already
thought about a time or two before.

“
Fine,
whatever,
”
Christian
scoffed before sipping his coffee.

Shea
walked over to the table and set his mug down before moving to stand behind
Christian. He placed his hands on Christian
’
s
shoulders and started to knead them. The tension in them was incredible. He had
no idea how Christian dealt with his shoulders being this tight all of the
time.

“
Dude,
you need to relax,
”
Shea
murmured.

“
You
don
’
t understand, Shea. You have
no idea how long I
’
ve wanted
this with you, and then out of nowhere, all of my dreams are coming true.
 
I
’
m
just having a hard time thinking this is real.
”

Shea yanked
Christian
’
s chair out
from the table to give himself room to straddle Christian
’
s
lap. Christian stared up at him with wide eyes as Shea threw his leg over and
sat down on his lap, facing him. Christian swallowed hard as Shea leaned in
close and whispered,
“
How
’
s
this for real?
”
before kissing
Christian passionately.

Christian
sucked in a sharp breath through his nose and clutched fistfuls of the front of
Shea
’
s shirt. Shea found that there
wasn
’
t much difference between
kissing a guy or a girl; a girl
’
s lips
might be a bit softer, and they usually weren
’
t
as aggressive or had stubble on their faces, but other than that, it was the
same.
 
However, Shea couldn
’
t
say that it was the same because of the feelings he was experiencing. When he
kissed Tara, the girl he had been seeing, he felt nothing compared kissing
Christian. It was crazy the way his mind fogged and his heart fluttered. No
woman has ever done that to him.

Shea shoved
his hands into Christian
’
s silky
hair and tilted his head so that he could kiss him deeper. Christian moaned, his
hands snaking around to Shea
’
s ass,
where he grabbed it and pulled Shea closer. Shea could feel Christian
’
s
erection against his own. Whoa! He hadn
’
t
even realized that he was hard! He was just so into the kiss, he hadn
’
t
noticed.
 
Shea tore his mouth away
from Christian
’
s. They sat
there panting, their eyes locked on each other.

“
Wow,
that was hot,
”
Shea
rasped.

“
I
’
d
have to agree.
”
Christian
breathed.

“
Was
that real enough for you?
”
asked
Shea, eyebrow cocked in question.

“
Yes.
”

“
Good,
I
’
m your boyfriend now, Chris,
don
’
t forget it,
”
said Shea, giving Christian a pointed look.

Christian
smiled softly.
“
Alright.
”

Christian
kept his eyes on Shea as he got up off his lap. He didn
’
t
want Shea to go, but he didn
’
t want to
scare him away either by trying to do more than kiss. Christian wasn
’
t
exactly convinced that Shea was going to be able to do more than that. He had
said last night that being with another guy kind
of
freaked him out, so Christian wasn
’
t
going to get his hopes up about this relationship. He had a feeling he was in
for a world of heartache.

Shea sat
down in the chair to Christian
’
s left and
took a sip of his coffee. He started talking, but Christian wasn
’
t
fully listening.
 
He was watching
Shea
’
s full lips and imagining them
wrapped around... Good Lord, it has been way too long since he
’
s
had sex.
 
He was dying to get Shea
in bed; he has been fantasizing about it for over two years now. The things he
wanted to do to this man... shit, sometimes Christian scared himself just
thinking about it.

Shea
snapped his fingers in front of Christian
’
s
face, making him start.
“
Chris, did
you even hear a word I said?
”
Shea
asked, his eyes dancing with amusement.

“
Huh?
Sorry, no, I wasn
’
t
listening,
”
Christian
muttered with a sheepish grin.

“
Yeah,
I know. You
’
ve been
staring hungrily at my mouth the entire time.
”
 
Shea chuckled.

Christian
blushed.
“
I was not,
”
he mumbled and sipped his coffee.

Shea
laughed.
“
Come on,
Chris, you can
’
t lie to
me. You looked like you were starving and you wanted to devour my lips.
”

Christian
closed his eyes and fought back the swirl of desire in his gut. He wanted to do
that and more, and if Shea didn
’
t shut the
hell up, he was going to attack him right here on the kitchen table.

“
When
’
s
the last time you had sex?
”
Shea asked
quietly.

Christian
’
s
eyes flew open and stared at Shea.
“
I
don
’
t know, why?
”
he said quickly.

“
I
think you
’
ve been
deprived.
”
Shea
smirked mischievously.

Christian
couldn
’
t deny it,
he was deprived, and it was his own fault. Ever since realizing that he was in
love with Shea, sex with anyone else just wasn
’
t
appealing. Now that Shea was his boyfriend, he didn
’
t
want to wait any longer - he wanted sex, and he wanted it right now. But he
would hold back because Shea needed to go slow.
 
He needed time to adjust, and there was
no guarantee that he would enjoy it.

Christian
had been with a couple of girls when he was younger, just to make sure he was
truly gay, which he was. He had been able to get off, but it was nowhere near
as satisfying as when he was with a guy. Not that women weren
’
t
beautiful or whatever, but he was attracted to men. That
’
s
who really turned him on, who really got his blood pumping. And Shea...well,
Shea set his blood on fire.