Confessions of a Call Center Gal: a novel (34 page)

Heck. I’m not going to tell her the
real
reason. You see, I have a hard time going ‘number two’ on the floor I work on (the third floor). I’m a very private person and try as I may, I just cannot go poo when my co-workers are whooshing in and out of the toilet.

And so I use the restroom located on the thirteenth floor. It’s always vacant, allowing me to do my business in absolute peace, privacy and tranquility.

Perversely, Truong had once admitted that he never goes ‘number two’ at work. He said, “I just hold it in until I get home.”

I’d stared at him as if he was bonkers. Then I’d asked, “What if you have an EXPLOSION in your chair?”

Truong had just stared at me as if I was the one who was bonkers.

I’m sorry, but I can’t hold it in. I think I’d DIE if I did. When you gotta go,
you gotta go
.

The only problem is, a fifteen minute break does not afford me ample time to use the restroom located on the thirteenth floor. Mind you, I sprint up and down the stairs at the speed of a gazelle. And sometimes I make it back on time, sometimes I don’t. Trust me; I even tried taking the lift once, but it ended up taking much longer.

Hillary’s eyes burn with rage. “SO?”
The
Führer demands an answer, “WHY WERE YOU LATE?”

I twist my fingers, trying to come up with something that will placate her. After a tentative pause, I manage, “I was going over the sales integrity CBT (Computer Based Training) to, um, make sure I’m in compliance with all the rules and regulations we have to abide by, you know, when selling over the phones, and um, I just somehow lost track of time...” I trail off unsteadily. “But I
had
to do it! It was my fiduciary obligation,” I expostulate.

The fire in her eyes is extinguished—at least for now.

Phew! That always seems to do the trick.

Mention words like Regulation, Compliance, Sales, Obligation and it immediately quells her anger somewhat.

Hillary harrumphs and steers the topic back to my poor sales performance. “Just look at these atrocious sales numbers! They are completely unacceptable!”

I gulp and wheel my chair back several inches.

Her capacious nostrils flare with annoyance. “So, what do you have to say for yourself?”

I sit numbly in my chair. “Um…I…err, tried?”

“WELL YOU ARE NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH! I have listened to your monitors and YOU HAVE NOT BEEN SELLING ON EVERY SINGLE CALL!”

“But, sometimes I can’t,” I say timidly.

“Excuses, excuses!” she spits. “This week, I’ll be doing side-by-sides with you, starting right now.”

She marches me to my cubicle, pulls up a chair next to mine, throws on her headset and Y-jacks onto my headset.

I feel trapped.

Beep!

“Thanks for calling Lightning Speed Communications, this is Maddy. How can I help?”

“I need to pay my cell phone bill,” says the caller.

“I’m sorry, sir, but you’ve got the wrong department.”

“My fault.” He chortles briefly. “I’m on chemo right now and my mind is just not in the right place.”

“Don’t worry about it, sir,” I say amiably. “People get lost in the tree of numbers all the time. Let me just get you over to a billing sp—” I pause mid-sentence as Hilary is shooting me a scathing look.

I push MUTE and turn to her. “What?”

“Pitch a sales offer!” she orders so severely that the veins on her forehead are pulsating and popping.

“Hillary, he has cancer,” I beseech, my eyes begging her. “He’s sick and he may have months, maybe only days to live.”

“I—do—not—care!” Her tone is cold and remorseless.

Resigning myself, I release the MUTE key.

“Sir, before I transfer you to a billing specialist, is it okay if I mention a product or a service that may be beneficial to you?” I cringe at my very own words.

“Darlin’, I am a dying man. There is nothing else I need but God’s love.” He chuckles heartily.

Instantly, I am filled with remorse. And I berate myself for allowing
Hillary
to bully me into pitching a sale to a man who is terminally ill and about to meet his Maker.

There really are no ‘right words’ to say to him. His situation is horrible and death is final. I used to take offense when people would say that my dad was going off to a better place, or that his pain would soon be over with. I know they were well-meaning, but I would rather they had said nothing at all.

The Führer is still on my case.

“Say something!” she hisses. “
Empathize
with the caller.”

This caller seems so positive and the last thing I want to say to him is something pitiful like, “I’m sorry,” so I try to match his upbeat mood. “Sir, will you please put a good word up there for me when you see God and Saint Pete?”

“I sure will,” he says with a smile in his voice. “What is your name again?”

“Madison Lee,” I say and he’s the very first caller to whom I have disclosed my full name.

“Will do,” he says kindly.

After transferring him over to the payment center, I turn to Hillary. “See!” I say steadfastly. “It’s
not
possible to sell on every call. Sometimes, it’s just not right. He’s a dying man Hillary.”

The
Führer is without a soul.
“If you did not make the offer, then how would you have known if he would have said ‘Yes’ or ‘No’?” She raises her unibrow, making her meaning quite clear.

I drop it. It’s pointless…just like talking to a brick wall.

She’s clearly brainwashed like the rest of them.

Anxiously, I sit and wait for another call to come through.

It’s summer time and the call volume tends to drop during the warmer months, and spike during the colder ones. And right now, it’s super slow.

Hilary seems annoyed that it has slowed down. She glares at me belligerently, as if it is
my
fault that there aren’t any calls in queue. Gosh. Her eyes are ablaze like red hot coals.

Squirming in my seat, I mutter, “Um, Hillary...will you please stop yelling at me?”

“I’m not yelling at you,” she snaps.

“Yes you are. You-you’re yelling at me with your
eyes
.”

Beep!

I sag with relief. “Thanks for calling…”
  

By the end of my shift, I am having serious thoughts of suicide, and for some odd reason, my left eye hurts like crazy. I briefly close my eyes, hoping that the mere act of shielding it from the bright lights will offer some sort of relief from the acute burning sensation. It feels like someone is stabbing my eye with a blunt screwdriver.

I’m stumbling down the stairs with my vision impaired, when Mika is suddenly beside me.

“Hey,” he says, slowing down to match my pace.

I squint. “Hey.”

He immediately notices something amiss. “Are you okay? You look a little tired.”

I sigh. “I’m all right. Hillary’s been doing side-by-sides with me all day.”

He makes an apologetic grimace.

“Mika, is it okay with you if we skip your tutoring session this weekend? I don’t know why, but my left eye is bugging the hell outta me.”

“Sure. Of course we can skip it.” He stops and gently tilts up my chin. Bending his face to my upturned face, he studies my left eye. “Hmm. It looks pretty red.”

Instinctively, I touch it and wince. “It does?” I ask, squinching my mangled eye. I probably look like a mad Mongoloid.

A look of concern clouds his face. “Yeah, you better go home and get plenty of rest, okay?”

“Okay,” I mutter, bumbling my way down the stairs. “What about you? What are you doing tonight?”

He props the door open. “Nothing exciting. I have a hundred page thesis to write.”

We stroll out side by side into the sweet, balmy summer night and a welcoming breeze kisses my cheeks.

Mika escorts me to my car. “I’ll call you tonight?”

“Sure.” I stall for time, swinging my bag from side to side. “Are you heading home right now?”

Another breeze sweeps in and tiny wisps of hair tickle his forehead. “Yeah.” He smiles. “Why?”

I clear my throat. “Um, don’t you have to wait for Tatiana?”

He rakes a hand through his wind-rumpled hair. “As a matter of fact, I don’t. Tatiana’s hooked up with Adnan, so
he
gives her a ride now,” he says with a hint of relief in his voice.

“Adnan? The security guy?” I ask, surprised yet undeniably pleased. “Are you for real?”

Mika confirms this with a nod, and waits for me to slide into my car before firmly shutting the door after me.

I roll down my window. “Do you want to go hiking up in Cherry Creek tomorrow?” I ask on a whim.

“Sure.” He leans forward and lightly brushes my hair from my eyes. “We’ll figure out the details when I call you tonight, ‘k?”

“Okay.” I find myself grinning stupidly.
 

For a brief moment, our eyes lock and he gives me a strange, serious look. The moonlight flicks on his face, and after several beats he steps back and says, “Take care of that eye of yours.”

“I’ll try.” I switch on the ignition.
  

Although there is an acute burning sensation in my left eye, and the earlier part of my day was total crap (thanks to Hillary), I feel my spirits soar. “Ta-Ta, Tatiana,” I think out loud.

As I’m driving away in a haze of delight, I glance at my rear view mirror and see Mika standing in the middle of the parking lot, watching me.

Unblinking, I watch him watching me until all I can make of him is a tiny speck of dust.

It’s a scorcher! It seriously feels like someone is holding a Conair hair dryer up to my face. We are marinating in this heat, and I’m pretty sure I can make beef jerky on the grill without even turning it on.

In spite of the insufferable heat, Mika and I are enjoying our hike through Cherry Creek. The trail follows the creek upstream, taking us through a tapestry of trees and wildlife.

After hiking for almost an hour, we stop under a shady Aspen tree to replenish our fluids. Standing there side by side, we find ourselves gazing out at the golden sky, robed by the mid-afternoon rays.

Mika turns to me, sun glinting in his hair. “I’ve got a little surprise for you.”

My face lights up. “You do?”

“Close your eyes,” he instructs. “And open your hands.”

Placing my faith in him, I squeeze my eyes shut and keep my hands wide open. Seconds later, I feel something small and scaly wiggling about in the palms of my hands.

I smile. It brings back fond and happy memories. I don’t even need to open my eyes and I know exactly what it is.

It’s a sagebrush lizard.

“Okay, you can open your eyes now.”

Upon doing so, I dissolve into a gooey mush.

It’s a
baby
sagebrush lizard. The tiny reptile pulls on all of my heart strings. “
Aww
you’re so cute.” My palms curl up and I coddle it close to my heart. “Thank you,” I gush, choking with emotion. Right this second, I want to fling my arms around him and never let go.

He kneels down beside me, and for a little while, we gaze adoringly at the lizard like it’s our firstborn child.

“Hi buddy, you’re still a little skittish aren’tcha?” I lightly tap the lizard’s head and grandiloquently anoint him, “I shall hereby name you Ewan McGregor.”

Mika chuckles. “Ewan McGregor?”

“Yeah, I always name my lizards after famous celebs.”

A faint look of amusement lights his face. “So what will you do with Sir Ewan McGregor?”

“Just hold him for a few minutes and then I’ll set him free,” I say, feeling radiantly happy.

Meanwhile, Ewan still seems skittish. Making cooing sounds, I stroke him lightly on the underside, and Ewan begins to relax under my hands.

I’ll have to give myself credit when credit is due. I am a Lizard Whisperer.

Mika stares at me unblinking. “How did you do that?”

I show him. And pretty soon, he’s gotten the hang of it.

Gently, he rubs Ewan’s belly, much to the reptile’s enjoyment. “This fellow here is pretty tame,” he says, carefully handing the lizard back to me.

I coddle little Ewan for several more minutes and breathe out a sated sigh. Reluctantly, I kneel on the ground and set him free.