Cry of the Children (2 page)

Everyone told Lucy she was becoming a big girl. She'd liked it at first, but she was bored with it now. People seemed to say it when they couldn't think of anything else to say. Or when they didn't want to talk about what you wanted to talk about. She said stubbornly, ‘I really want to go to the fair. All the others in my class will be going.' She'd no idea whether that was true, but it was usually a good argument, one that the grown-ups found hard to reject.

Her mum kissed her forehead. ‘I expect you'll be able to go. Perhaps Matt will take you.'

Lucy wanted to say that she didn't want to go with Matt, that she wanted her dad back, that she wanted her dad to take her to the fair. But that would only upset her mum, and she didn't want to do that now, when she was lying flat in her bed in her clean jim-jams and could still feel the cool touch of her mother's lips upon her forehead.

She still felt vaguely unhappy when her mother had shut the door and gone downstairs. It was going dark early now that October was here. She'd liked it better in the summer when the sun was still an orange glow behind the curtains. Her dad had been here then, coming up to tuck her in on some nights. Now it was Matt who was the man in the house and he wasn't here all the time. Matt was all right, she supposed. He was kind to her, in a curious, careful sort of way. But he wasn't her dad. Mum said she'd soon get used to Matt, and perhaps she would. But she wasn't sure she wanted to get used to him.

Lucy Gibson stared up at the ceiling for a while, then fell fast asleep.

The men were erecting the fairground rides when Daisy took Lucy home from school on Friday. They were powerful men, who wore only dirty white vests and torn jeans above their trainers. Most of them had lots of tattoos. Some of these had words that Lucy couldn't read; some had snakes and lions and tigers; all of the designs rippled and flowed with the movements of the men's bodies. There was just one woman working with them; she was young, but she had tattoos as well.

The two girls stood well back from the wooden structures which were growing before their eyes. All this movement and effort had to be accorded a certain caution. Everything was urgent, as if these people were working frantically towards a deadline. If you got too near to the action, things might fall on you or hit you as the builders turned quickly, and it would be your own fault if that happened.

Lucy held the hand she clutched a little more tightly as she watched the sea of dark-blue limbs moving above her. ‘I don't like tattoos,' she announced to Daisy. She'd only just decided that, after watching the men and the woman whirling their limbs in swift activity for several minutes.

‘My sister's got one,' said Daisy. She paused for a moment, waiting for a reaction from her young charge. They watched a brawny man whirl a strut of wood which seemed impossibly long. ‘My mum doesn't like it, but Pat says it's better than the ring in her belly-button that she might have had.'

‘Belly-button,' said Lucy appreciatively. She liked that word – it had a good sound and it was just rude enough for her to enjoy repeating it. She could see the man's belly-button when he lifted the wood above his head and his shirt shot up and showed his stomach. She wondered if he had tattoos lower down on his belly, on the bits you were never allowed to see. Perhaps he even had them on his bum – he seemed to have them everywhere else. She giggled a little to herself at that daring thought, but didn't say anything. She wasn't allowed to say bum. She wondered if Daisy, who was two years older than her, was allowed to say bum.

There were dragons and unicorns on one of the roundabouts. That was the one that looked almost complete now. The dragons looked very battered, with shiny noses where people had clung on to them and paint missing at the sides where thousands of legs had clambered across them. They were the least frightening dragons that Lucy had ever seen, nothing like the ones in books which had fierce red faces and belched out fire from their nostrils. These dragons looked as though they might make quite good pets, like Mr Chadwick's old Labrador which lived at the end of her road. Did dragons have warm pink tongues, like old Barney? She rather thought the dragons on the roundabout would have warm pink tongues.

She told her mother about the dragons and the unicorns when they got home. Her mum didn't listen to her properly; she was busy giving Daisy a bar of chocolate for bringing her daughter safely home all week. Lucy thought she'd like to ride on the unicorn and clasp her hands around its horn, where so many thousands of hands had been before hers. She knew all about unicorns from a story they'd had when she was still in the infant school. She hadn't actually seen one. She checked the forehead of every horse she met, but she hadn't yet found one with a horn or even a bump that might grow into a horn. Unicorns must be quite rare.

She chattered on about the fair, but she didn't mention the men and their tattoos. Her mum didn't like tattoos and she might stop her going to the fair if she thought it was run by people with blue pictures and blue writing all over them. Lucy decided she didn't like tattoos much herself. They were frightening things, especially when you didn't understand what they were about and they bulged and rippled as people's bodies moved beneath their skins.

Her mum let her set the table, because Matt was coming tonight. Lucy laid out the cutlery with great care, remembering the order her mum had taught her and placing each knife and fork and spoon precisely as her tongue flicked each side of her mouth in turn. Mum was very pleased that Matt was coming. ‘You'll have to be a good girl and keep quiet. Matt's been at work all week and he'll be tired.'

Lucy wished she could be as excited as Mum about Matt. But all it meant to her was that tea was going to be late, when she was hungry. Mum said she could watch television whilst she waited, and she put CBeebies on and sat in the big armchair with her legs stretched out as far as they would go in front of her. After a little while, she wandered into the kitchen and stood on one leg with both hands on the back of a chair, watching her mum at the stove. ‘Will it be long?' she asked plaintively.

‘Not long now, love. Matt will be here soon. He rang to tell me that five minutes ago. He's very thoughtful about these things, isn't he?' Lucy's mother seemed to be reassuring herself, but Lucy wasn't interested in that. Instead, she looked at the table and thought of when her dad had sat beside her and helped her with her food. She must have been very small then. She was a big girl now, as everyone kept telling her, and she must get used to a new situation. That was what her mum said. Mum seemed to say it almost every day now. Lucy wasn't quite sure about Matt. She thought she liked him, as people said she should. But he wasn't her dad, was he? Everyone said she must move on when she pointed that out. She wasn't quite sure what ‘move on' meant. She wasn't going to forget her dad, whatever they said. But already she was finding it difficult to get a proper picture of him and how it had been between them. She wished she could see her dad more often.

And then Matt was in the house, ruffling her hair and smiling at her and calling her ‘young 'un'. He went into the kitchen with Mum and shut the door firmly behind him, and they were quiet for what seemed to Lucy a long time. She heard her mum giggling a couple of times and whispering, so it must be all right.

Then the door burst open and there was food and noise, and both Mum and Matt were fussing over her. ‘And what have you been up to this week, young lady?' said Matt when they were all sitting at the table with Mum's cottage pie and fresh green beans in front of them.

Lucy wished they'd just let her eat. She was hungry and she hadn't mastered this thing grown-ups seemed to do without any effort: talking whilst they were eating. When she tried to do it, she was told not to talk with her mouth full. The world seemed to get more confusing as you got bigger. It didn't seem any easier when her mum said brightly, ‘Tell Matt about the fair,' and then turned to him herself and said, ‘She's been getting more and more excited about it. She hasn't been old enough to appreciate a fair before.'

Adults were like that. They suddenly spoke as if you weren't there. They asked you to talk and then made some remark that somehow left you very little to say. Lucy said, ‘I can't talk about the fair now. I mustn't talk with my mouth full.' Then she smiled down into the last of her cottage pie, feeling that she'd really said something quite clever.

They had strawberries and ice cream for afters, because Matt liked that. ‘Make the most of this,' her mum told them, ‘because these are probably the last British strawberries you'll have this year.'

‘We'll do that, won't we, Lucy?' said Matt. Then he smacked his lips extravagantly over his first mouthful, like some of the boys did over their puddings at school. Lucy thought he looked a little ridiculous, but she realized that he was trying to please her, so she gave him a weak smile as she conveyed her own strawberries carefully towards her mouth. They didn't taste as good as the strawberries she remembered from the summer. But the ice cream was nice, so she ate it slowly, making her enjoyment last as long as possible.

Matt insisted that she sat on his knee after they'd left the table. He hugged her tight and then ran his hand softly down her shin. Lucy supposed he meant well, but she couldn't help thinking of her dad holding her like this and making her laugh whilst he bounced her up and down. Mum made her recite for Matt the four times table she'd learned this week. She managed to do all of it, with only one prompt from Matt, which she wouldn't have needed if he'd given her just a second more time to think.

He applauded very loudly, clapping his hands together very near her ears. He said he'd always known she was going to be clever and what a big girl she was becoming now. Then he bounced her very high on his knee, so that her bottom banged against him and her skirt climbed up above her pants, even though she tried to hold it down and almost lost her balance. ‘Too much!' she shouted, and she dropped between his knees to the floor as soon as she could.

‘You mustn't make her sick,' warned Lucy's mum. But she was laughing at how happy they seemed together.

Matt offered to read her a story, but Lucy was relieved when her mum said she'd do it. It didn't last long, and Lucy sensed that her mum was anxious to be away and back with the man downstairs. ‘He's good fun, isn't he, Matt?' she asked her daughter, and Lucy, anxious to please, nodded vigorously. She didn't trust herself to speak, because she might have mentioned her dad, and she knew her mum wouldn't like that.

Her mum went out, then came back only a moment later, whilst Lucy was still staring at the ceiling. ‘Matt says he'll take you to the fair tomorrow if you're good in the morning. Aren't you my lucky little girl?'

It was the first time Lucy had been allowed to be little for ages.

D
etective Chief Superintendent Lambert was deeply depressed. He found any sort of police corruption disturbing, and to him this was one of the worst instances. The fact that it was petty compared with the major crimes of violence that made the headlines excused nothing. It was the stupid crimes that were somehow the most depressing.

John Lambert didn't think he was much good at bollockings, though there were some junior members of Oldford CID who would have disagreed with that view. But on this occasion he would have no difficulty. These men were not only fools but fools who should have known better. He'd arranged to see them on Saturday morning because the station was quiet then, which meant that their humiliation would be less public. Now he wasn't sure whether he should have afforded them even that consideration.

They were sitting outside his office when he got there. They sprang to attention as he approached, as though they were army infantrymen or trainee policemen. But their trainee days were long behind them. Lambert left them standing stiffly upright for a moment, whilst he looked them up and down without disguising his distaste.

‘At least you're here on time!' he said sourly. Then he was annoyed with himself for lapsing into something so banal and for suggesting that he might be lenient.

There was a little pause whilst the men wondered how to respond. Then the taller of the two said, ‘Do you want to see us separately or together, sir?'

‘You might as well come in together. You've been equally stupid, as far as I can make out. I don't want the same feeble excuses trotted out twice over.'

Lambert took his time over moving the papers to one side of his desk and sitting himself down in the swivel chair behind it, letting them stand awkwardly and feel too tall in the low-ceilinged room whilst he scanned the three envelopes that were his morning post. It was a good thirty seconds before he looked at the men again and snapped, ‘You'd better sit yourselves down, I suppose. I can't speak to you whilst you're standing there like prisoners.'

They hurriedly pulled out steel and canvas chairs from the corner of the room, sensing that the two small armchairs were not the right seats for them. Neither of them had been in this room before, though they both knew all about John Lambert, who was the sort of policeman around whom legends were created. He was such a successful taker of villains that the Home Office had accorded him an exceptional three-year extension to his service, at the chief constable's request. To them he looked very severe, very old and very unyielding.

And now they were here as villains themselves, sitting still and awaiting his wrath. They sat as upright as guilty schoolboys before the headmaster, not daring to look at each other, not daring to look anywhere save at the long, lined face on the other side of the big desk. The head of Oldford CID looked at them without speaking for a moment, allowing his distaste to manifest itself in a tightening of the lips beneath the long nose and the merciless grey eyes. It seemed a long time before he spoke. ‘You've been stupid buggers. But you know that. Every stupid bugger realizes he's been stupid, when it's too late.'