Deciding Skies (Fate's Intent Book 2) (9 page)

“It’s probably hard for you to understand but I don’t get that a lot. My real hair with the unique color of my eyes tends to freak people out as it is.”

“Not me. I think it’s beautiful.”

I smiled and touched the hideous light brown locks of my hair hanging down over my shoulders. “Well, sorry you can’t see it right now. I know Adele wouldn’t allow it to be exposed here.”

“I understand that but I will eventually.”

It just sunk in a little deeper that he truly was serious about coming. The only place I could have my red hair again would have been home and he seemed ready to see it. It made me smile and I had to lean into him for another kiss. “So, would you like to be the gentleman and walk this lady in disguise to her room so she can get out of this dress that’s too good for her?”

Muscles smiled as he put his napkin up on his plate and got up. “It’s not too good for you but I’ll do you one better. How about I walk you passed your room and bring you to mine to get you out of it myself?”

My legs shook under me as my smile grew, thankfully he couldn’t see them do it in this dress but that wasn’t stopping me from getting excited about what was to come. “Ooh! You’re so forward and right to the point. I love that. Is this how you get every woman to go up to your room?”

Something changed. Something I said. His eyes got wide and he shook his head while moving ever so carefully a step away from me. “Oh, no. No. No. I never brought any of those women to my room, ever.”

That wasn’t what I was thinking he would say but I’ll take it and regained the space between us while taking his strong, monstrous and completely perfect in every way muscular arm with both my hands. “Really? Well, lucky me to be the first.”

He smiled. Maximum excitement reached. I was ready for our night to finally begin.

Chapter 12

Adele

I headed to the stairs swiftly with my mind on one thing; getting away. I couldn’t take being there anymore and seeing Zayden only seemed to make things worse. I was ready to go up to my room when he caught up to me out of nowhere and took my arm. “Hey, Love! Wait! What’s wrong?”

I didn’t say anything. I turned and looked into his eyes, seeing the wonder but it was only making mine water. I couldn’t speak. My breaths stopped for a moment and I fell back on the stairs and started breathing again but heavily like I was new at it.

Zayden got down next to me and started to pick me up. “It’s all right. Come on. I’ve got you.” He had me in his arms and started carrying me all the way upstairs to his room. He didn’t seem to ask anything else the whole way until he closed us inside and set me down on his bed; a place I didn’t want to be. “What happened?”

I rolled away and was almost in tears. I couldn’t look at him. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

Zayden walked around the bed just to get around my avoidance of him and kneeled down. “I don’t understand.”

“Reality hit me and I can’t handle it.” I went to hide my face but he wouldn’t allow that either.

“No.” He always seemed to be one for face-to-face interaction but I was regretting it at this point. “I want you to talk to me. What do you mean by reality hit you?”

“It’s you.” I tried to but I couldn’t hold it in; tears escaped my eyes. “It’s here. It’s this place. It’s this thing at my hip telling me I can’t stay no matter how much I want to. I knew this would happen but I let myself proceed anyway. How could I have been so stupid?”

Zayden pulled me into his arms, rubbing my head to comfort me but it wasn’t working. “Shh. It will be all right. You’ll see.”

I pulled away and got up anxiously. “No it won’t! Things like this always happen to me. I’ve waited so long for this and I know that I’m just going to have to let it go again but I don’t know if I can. Not this time. Not you. I can’t.”

“Don’t worry about that now, Love. This isn’t the time for it.”

“But it’s going to happen. We don’t have a choice. We’ll always be separated by war.”

“Why don’t you let me worry about that? Right now, you have to pull yourself together. You can’t let anyone see you like this. I don’t even want to see you like this.”

I started to calm down by taking slow deep breaths. I knew he was at least right about that. “I’m sorry.”

I started walking towards the door and Zayden was suddenly there again, taking my hand so I couldn’t leave. “Wait. Where are you going? I never said I didn’t want you here.”

I turned my head and looked up. His eyes were beautiful when he was caring and I had to hold back from crying again when I spoke. “I’m sorry, Zayden. I can’t stay.”

I started to turn back to the door but Zayden held me with him. He wasn’t going to let me leave. “Why not? We’re together aren’t we?”

“But we can’t be. Things are complicated and I—”

“I told you not to worry about it.” He turned me completely around so I would have to look at him again. “Things will be fine. Please, I want you to stay. Say you’ll stay.”

“Zayden, I can’t. Your father—”

“What about my father?” He straightened up with the word and was suddenly looking for answers rather than making me feel better. “He told you to stay away from me? Is that what he said to you?” I didn’t reply. I didn’t know how to but it seemed Zayden didn’t need me to. He must have known already and stepped passed me towards the door.

“Zayden, wait!” I grabbed his hand before he went any farther and was the one now trying to stop him. “Please, you have to understand he just wants what’s best for you.”

“No, he wants what’s best for him! He always has!”

“But this is for your future, Zayden and I’m not in it! You deserve a lot better than me!”

He stepped closer to me, touching the side of my face with his hand while his voice lowered to that caring tone. “Nothing is better than you, Love. Don’t let him or anyone else make you think otherwise. I want you to stay.”

“Zayden—I—”

“Please. You belong with me. I’ll take care of you.”

I could only stare and we started to lean into each other. Was this right of me? Probably not but I couldn’t stop myself. Our lips barely met before I caved to him and my desire increased when his tongue grazed mine. I couldn’t refuse again. It would have been too hard on me and his touch seemed to simply wash away all worry. It was something I needed.

Zayden put his arms around me and I brought my hands up behind my back, starting to undo the laces on the dress. He soon noticed and started to help until enough was undone that the dress fell to the floor. He put his hands on my body as we slowly stepped back to the bed. He sat on it and I climbed on him, pushing him back and began to undo the front of his shirt while he laid there and watched me. “Does this mean you’re staying because I really hope so?”

I smiled and ripped open his shirt. I was so impelled by his body as I ran my hand down his chest to his stomach, keeping my eyes on every ripple of muscle. “I’ve been thinking about it.”

Zayden smiled and he quickly reached for my hips. I was completely unprepared and he flipped me over to my back. “Then let me.” He stood up and quickly took his shirt off over his shoulders.

“I’ve waited all day.” I sat up and moved back onto the bed more, laying my head on the pillows.

Zayden smiled to mine and followed with me, bringing his lips into mine again. I pulled him close to me and held my hands firm around his back, feeling the defined muscles move under my fingers. My breaths were almost panting and my want for him was intensified the longer and harder our tongues danced.

I was getting anxious with every second it lasted and had to let him know it. I couldn’t wait any longer. “Don’t tease me. I’ve waited too long for this.”

“Are you sure that’s what you really want?”

“If you want me to say it then say so. I want you, Zayden. Now. No more interruptions.”

He rushed his lips back into mine and positioned himself so one arm was supporting his weight and he removed the lower half of his clothes with the other. I did the same.

We dropped them both off the side of the bed at the same time in a hurry and Zayden turned back, rubbing his hand down my body while his eyes moved with it. I knew he liked it but when he looked back to me, I saw his worry. I didn’t want him to be worried and I put one hand on the back of his head. “It’s okay. This time I want you to.”

“But I don’t—”

“Shh!” I moved my hand to his mouth. “You won’t. I think we can both agree that we need this.”

Zayden smiled and kissed me softly. “You quote me too much.”

“Then shut me up.”

He brought his lips into mine again and didn’t make me wait any longer. I was finally at peace.

Chapter 13

Zayden

All of my prior thoughts of anger had left my mind completely and I really did feel this was something I needed too. The touch of her skin on mine made me weak and the motion of our bodies caused her to pant excessively for more of me with every passing second.

The air around us was getting hotter, our bodies glistening with sweat. I closed my eyes to the sounds of Adele’s pleasure and it made my experience more gratifying and confidence soar. I’ve waited for this. The chance to be with her was finally happening. I didn’t want it to end but even great things had to. I tried extending the feeling of the pleasure as long as I could, holding Adele tight under me, feeling her breaths heat the skin of my neck. I knew she was enjoying it too and I wanted to make sure she got what she wanted.

She was starting to breathe more heavily as she got a tighter grip around my body and I knew this was it. She was coming near her final moments. Her noise level started to rise and my movements sped up. She let out one last sign of pleasure before loosening her hold around me and I gradually slowed down and put my forehead on hers.

Adele was faint. She took really slow and deep breaths while looking back up at me with a soft smile. I was glad I was able to make her happy and I moved my body away from her, rolling to her left.

My head was thankful to hit the pillow and I was ready for a long peaceful sleep but it would seem I wouldn’t get it just yet. Adele started to get up and wrapped the sheet around her.

“What are you doing?”

She hesitated from answering. She didn’t exactly leave but went back towards my private bathhouse instead. “I’ll—ah—just be right back.”

“Okay.”

She disappeared and I waited. My eyes started to close and I let them just to rest but they opened when I heard a soft sound. It sounded like crying almost. Was she in there crying? I was worried about why and had to know. I slipped my pants on and went into the bathhouse.

“Love?” I stepped in slowly and saw her sitting against the wall under the open window with her knees brought in close to her and her face hidden down on them.

“Please go away.”

I walked over and closed the window before I kneeled down next to her. “Are you okay? I didn’t hurt you, did I?” I never would have forgiven myself if I had.

“No. It’s just—”

She couldn’t even get it out without crying and I sat down all the way next to her and put my arm around her. “It’s all right, Love. You think it was a mistake, being with me?”

“No, Zayden. Of course not. You were—I couldn’t have asked for a better night. I needed it but I just keep thinking what it could have done. I wasn’t thinking straight.”

“I’m sure the future is safe.”

Adele huffed and set her chin back on her knees. “But that’s the worse part about it.”

“What?”

“I know what I keep saying. We have to be careful because it would be wrong but I’ve seen him and I still sense a small part of me somewhere that wants him.”

“You do?” I was a bit surprised after all the bad talk she already made of it and I already knew where I stood. “Well, if that’s how you really feel then we could always give you that.”

“No. I wouldn’t let you do that just for me.”

“How do you know it’ll only be for you?”

“You have to understand. If that did happen, I wouldn’t find out until I was long away from here and for the protection of him as well as me, he could never know who you are.”

“Why not?”

“You have to ask that? Remember I never saw you at any point.”

“Doesn’t mean that I’m not involved somewhere. He’d be of my royal blood. Vendel blood is pretty recognizable. Someone on the other side would notice.”

“Zayden—”

“Don’t worry about that now. Why don’t you tell me about the dream instead?”

“You really want to hear it?”

“Yeah. You know him already. Now I want to.” I mostly wanted to get her talking about something else but hearing about it could have been good for me.