Desolation

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FACE

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Face
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The Nature of Balance
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WRITTEN IN BLOOD

Cain had to leave. This attic had been a refuge, a sanctuary for the crippled old man, and the difficulty he must have faced getting in here made it feel even more special. By leaving the room as it was after his death, the landlord had revealed the true extent of the invasion into Vlad's life. And much as Cain suddenly felt empathy for that victimised man, he did not feel that he should be here. This was a private place, made more so by its user's death.

Scrawled in blood on the floor at Cain's feet, six words:
They know I'm going to tell
.

Those claw marks on the door?
Cain thought.
What put them here? And why?

His answer stared him in the face as he turned to leave. Above the door hung an old photograph of Vlad in all his glory, swinging from a trapeze with one hand and waving to the photographer with the other. He was young, fit, full of life, and his smile promised nothing of his grim, lonely demise.

Across the picture were the words:
They're going to kill me tonight
.

 

 

Other books by Tim Lebbon:

FEARS UNNAMED
FACE
THE NATURE OF BALANCE

 

 

TIM LEBBON

Contents

Chapter One: Nowhere

Chapter Two: Silence

Chapter Three: Circus

Chapter Four: Strangers

Chapter Five: Player

Chapter Six: Follower

Chapter Seven: History

Chapter Eight: Family

Chapter Nine: Meat

Chapter Ten: Music

Chapter Eleven: Shadow

For my childhood friend
.

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Copyright © 2005 by Tim Lebbon

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

Trade ISBN: 978-1-4285-1752-3
E-book ISBN: 978-1-4285-0207-9

First Dorchester Publishing, Co., Inc. edition: March 2006

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DESOLATION

 

 

 

Cain had few possessions, even fewer memories, and no family. Nowhere seemed a perfect place to begin his new life.

The taxi dropped him at the curbside and left him sitting on his suitcase, several plastic carrier bags scattered around his feet like bloated dead pigeons, real birds chattering from gutters and telephone lines, irate at his intrusion. He turned to the wooden chest beside him on the pavement and grabbed its handle, hardly surprised when he found he could lift one end from the ground with ease. Its weight seemed to vary with his own moods. Today, he was happy to be here.

The street sign announced itself as
Endless Crescent
, but some wit had daubed
Nowhere
across the name in bright blue paint, ironic vandalism that would likely confuse more than amuse. Such skewed intelligence was hardly in evidence in other graffiti that decorated walls along the
street, occasional proclamations such as “Darren woz yer,” and “Mandy has a wet pussy,” and “Follow me for the Way.” Some of the perpetrators had imagined themselves as artists, the vandalism taking on colors and shades and shapes that were meant to bestow individuality. Such ego was a nonsense, as the work was always done in secret. Cain stared at one of the names sprayed across the side of a garage in great green swaths, “Kelvin,” the tails of the
K
turned up into crude wings, the dot of the
i
a hooded eye, comical when it was intended to be threatening. He wondered where Kelvin was now, what he was doing, and whether he even knew himself.

Someone had once tried planting trees in an attempt to turn Endless Crescent into an avenue, but their efforts had led nowhere. Thin stumps protruded from squares of removed paving slabs, snapped off at waist height or lower, kicked and scarred, and blackened with dog piss and rot. The ground around them held more life, weeds sprouting as if in mockery of the trees' doomed attempts at existence.

The houses in the street were all large, an unusual mix of modern and Victorian, mostly three-storys, and over half of them had been converted into flats. The unmistakable signature of student accommodation marked some: open windows blaring a heady mixture of rock and dance music, bikes chained to garden fences like dangerous pets, uncurtained windows displaying half a dozen scenes of domesticity gone awry. Most of the houses were in a good state of repair, though one or two looked as if they should
have been condemned years before. Indeed, one house directly across the street from where Cain sat seemed to have been surrendered back to the wilds. Its render had blown and been shed right across the front facade, and its windows were smashed, boarded up from the inside. The front garden was a riot of weeds and unkempt rosebushes. Cain could see the house's nameplate bolted to the wall beside the corrugated iron front door: H
EAVEN.
A joke, surely. He closed his eyes and shook his head, and when he looked again the sign still read the same.

A shout sounded from somewhere out of sight, a woman's shrill voice calling some missing kid in for lunch. Perhaps it had been missing for months and the woman tried this every day, hoping that continued normality would bring her child scampering back to her from whatever unknown distance it had traveled.

Cain looked down at his feet. Narrowing his field of vision helped him to calm his nerves. He shifted slightly and the suitcase flexed beneath him, threatening to burst open and spill his clothes across the street like fabric guts. He should go. He should stand and drag his possessions along to Number 13, his new home, his new life, or so he had been told.
It's time to stand on your own two feet
, the Face had said, handing him another pill.

Two children ran along the street, laughing and swearing, and laughing again at their secret rebellion. To Cain they seemed easily old enough to be in school, and too young to be out on their own. They stopped a few feet from him and sized him up, their eyes far too mature for their age.

All Cain could remember of his own childhood were the dreams.

“Hey, mister!” the taller of the two kids said. “You wearing that coat for a bet?”

Cain glanced down at the duffel coat, up at the sky, the sun burning its way through a haze of clouds. “It was cold where I came from,” he said.

“Where's that, then, the fuckin' Arctic?” the short kid said, and they both laughed.

“No, not that far away,” Cain said, trying to remember the name of the home, but there were only feelings and sensations—rough sheets on his bed, sterile decor, dirty floors—and the Face and Voice giving him advice and pills, food and comfort.

“I like your new sitting room,” the tall kid said. “Where are we, then, in your kitchen? Where you going to sleep, in the box?”

Cain smiled. “It's a chest,” he said, “and I'm sure I'd never fit in there.”

“Bet I would,” the short kid said.

“I'm sure you would.”

The three fell silent for a few seconds, a silence loaded with something uncomfortable that Cain could not quite pin down. Had he issued a slight threat? Had the kids perceived it that way? Or were
they
threatening
him?

“I've just moved here,” he said, “from somewhere else.”

“The fuckin' Arctic!” the kids said in unison, giggling at their humor.

“Shouldn't you two be in school?”

They looked uncomfortable at that, avoiding his eyes, kicking at a crushed tin can, and giving the
street another note to its urban theme. Cain wondered if the sounds around him made up the whole, or whether the street would have been exactly the same without them. He doubted that. Tin can rattling, distant music blaring, mothers shouting, a dog barking, cars grumbling, kids screaming, pans crashing, doors slamming . . . He was somewhere unique, a place set apart from anywhere else by its own distinct sounds, sights, and smells. He tried not to sense too much.

“There,” Cain said. “That's my new place. At least, a part of it is.” He reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out the letter of introduction, already crinkled and grubby from many readings.
Afresh Respite Home, Tall Stennington
, the letterhead read, and he knew where he was from.

The kids looked to where he was pointing and laughed, punching and grappling each other as they turned and ran away from Cain. “So you're another fuckin' nutter, then!” the tall one shouted over his shoulder, running faster as if to escape the words.

“What?” Cain stood from his suitcase. But the kids slipped into a lane between two houses and were lost to him, leaving behind only an echo in his mind . . .
another fuckin' nutter
. . . “We'll see,” Cain said. He looped his finger through the carrier bag handles, lifted the suitcase, hefted the chest with his other hand—it still felt very light, almost empty, and he could move it by dragging one end along the ground—and approached Number 13 Endless Crescent. “We'll see.”

The front gate swung open when Cain nudged
it with his knee, and he was able to negotiate his way through and kick it shut behind him without having to put anything down. There was a path and a planting bed and that was it; no lawn, no graveled area. The plants were waist-high and lush, their leaves dark green, big, spiked, like something from a rain forest instead of a suburban front garden in South Wales. And although there was variety here, all the plants must have belonged to the same family. Some leaves were larger than others, a slightly different shape, an alternative shade of dark green, but they were all spiked, with bright orange flowers hidden down at the leaf stems as if hiding away from the sun instead of seeking it. The many bees harvesting their pollen were fat, heavy, and lazy, providing a low background drone. It was strange, but Cain did not know why. The only other garden he knew was at the Afresh Respite Home, and that had consisted of a huge, square lawn with a few random shrubs at its edges and a summer house in one corner. Functional and easily maintained, with nowhere for mad folk to hide.