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“
Holly?” Collin’s voice made me wince.

I snapped my head around to look at him. He was flanked by each of our fathers.
Mine gave me a weak smile. Thomas had his hand on his son’s shoulder and he escorted him into the room. Collin’s eyes were red-rimmed. His usually perfect hair was abnormally messy. Overall, he looked oddly disheveled. I didn’t find it the least bit endearing. I thought it served him right. In fact, I thought he should look a whole lot worse.

“Sweetheart,” my
mother said calmly, “please sit back down. I think we all need to have a little talk.”

I glanced around the room at my mother,
Gwen, my father, Thomas…and Collin. All of them were watching me, waiting expectantly. I felt my knees give way beneath me. I slid, collapsed really, back onto the sofa.

I suddenly felt as though an intervention was about to take place. And somehow, I was the one at the center of it.

***

“Your mother said
what
?” Lanna demanded.

“That he was probably just sowing his wild oats.”

“Do people still even use that expression?! Never mind. Apparently your mother does. Go on.” She twirled her hand in the air. It was her usual cue for me to proceed.

“They’re all convinced going through with the wedding is the right choice.”

“Is this…is this because they’re
so old
?” Lanna demanded.

I had shown up on her doorstep. She’
d grabbed me by the elbow, towed me inside, straight up the steps to her room. Now I was sitting on her bed. I had yet another box of tissues in my lap. Lanna was standing in front of me. Her body twitched every now and then. I could tell she was angrier than she wanted to let on. She was trying to keep her emotions, her opinions, in check for my benefit.

I was grateful because I knew that wasn’t an easy task for my friend.

“You’re dying to say something,” I pointed out. “What is it?”

“Do they think they
need to marry you off, in case something happens to them? So you’ll be provided for? Is that what the big push is?”

“
Lanna
!” That particular thought had never actually crossed my mind. Yet now that it was out there, I couldn’t exactly refute it, either. My parents weren’t like my friends’ parents. It was hard to wrap my head around their reasoning a lot of the time.

“What?” she asked with an
unapologetic shrug. “They do have a tendency toward all things old-fashioned. I could see them wanting to marry you off.”

I stared at her a moment.
Were my parents anxiously waiting to push me out of the nest, so to speak? They
were
anxious to join their friends, head south and become snowbirds. So maybe it
wasn’t
an entirely crazy thought. I shook my head, needing to deal with one thing at a time. Right now the reason wasn’t
why
my parents wanted me to get married. The pressing fact was that
I had agreed
. After listening to the four of them, five if you counted the handful of utterances from Collin, it had all made sense. Everything they said sounded so logical. They were all so reassuring. The familiarity of all of them surrounding me had calmed me. But now, now that I was with Lanna—

“You need to get a grip on this situation!” she proclaimed.

“My mom thinks this probably scared him into learning his lesson. His mom—”

She cut me off with a scoff that sounded more like a snort. “Your families are
waayyyy
too close, Holly. That’s a huge part of the problem right there.”

She was right. Despite the age gap between them, our mothers had been frien
ds since we were children. They had met at a water aerobics class. Since both of them were housewives, with housekeepers—they’d had a fair amount of free time on their hands. Collin and I had our first play date before I had turned two.

Our mother
s’ friendship had blossomed. Play dates led to dinners that included their husbands. Dinners led to family vacations that took up a good chunk of the summer. Summer vacations, apparently, led to marrying their children off to each other. Until last night, this had always been fine with me. It was what I had thought I always wanted. I’d known Collin almost my entire life. His family already felt like my own family.

My father owned the largest architectur
al firm in the area. Our mothers claimed that it wasn’t coincidence, rather providence that they’d met. Collin’s father owned a construction company. One that had started off small but had grown immensely over the years. This was in large part thanks to my own father who referred him as a top choice to all of his clients. The duo of Hannigan and Reynolds now had quite the reputation for amazing buildings. Not just locally, but all over the state.

I ignored
Lanna’s comment because I didn’t want to give her the satisfaction of agreeing. And I’d be lying if I tried to disagree.

“His mom said he was really torn up.
When he showed up, he looked awful. I could tell he’d been crying.” Never mind that he’d barely spoken to me. Our parents did most of the talking. Collin stared at the floor between his feet.

We both listened while I was told over and over again that things would be okay. I just had to get through the next few days and we’d deal with the rest later. Collin had nodded his agreement
when he’d been prompted for an answer. He hadn’t bothered to look at me. My mother said it was likely because he was so ashamed of himself. His mother assured me that she was right.

“Torn up about being caught? Or torn up about possibly losing his internship with your dad?
”

My gaze flicked to her and then back to my lap. It was no secret that my dad would be retiring soon. Collin was much more interested in the architectural aspect of building than the constructing. If all went as planned, he would take over my father’s business after he earned his degree.

“He doesn’t have to marry me to take over for my dad someday!”

“No,” she said softly, “possibly not. But it sure does help solidify his future. Don’t you think?”

I lifted my head to look at her, my mouth was gaping open. I snapped it shut for just a second. Then I managed to find my voice again. “That’s a horrible thing to say!”

I moved
, preparing to jump off the bed but she tossed herself down beside me. She put an arm around my shoulders to anchor me in place.

“I’m sorry. I know that sounds harsh but someone needs to point out these cold hard facts. Sweetie, I
am
sorry. But it looks like it’s going to have to be me. Just try not to hate me for it. Okay?”

I nodded because it’s what she expected.

She narrowed her eyes at me. “Are you sure you don’t know who he was with? You didn’t even catch a glimpse of her face?”

I shook my head. “I think I panicked
. I ran because I couldn’t get out of there fast enough. That’s all I could think about. Getting out of there. I don’t know what I would’ve done if Max had left.”

“Why
did
he stay?” she wondered.

“He
said he had a bad feeling.” I’d already told her about the car in the driveway. “He was just coming up to the door to check on me. I came running out and slammed into him. I’m so glad he was there to drive me home. I don’t know where I would’ve gone, otherwise.”

“So all you saw were the boots,” she muttered. “Who even wears cowboy boots anyway? This is Minnesota, not Montana. And not just cowboy boots but white ones?”

“With gemstones,” I glumly added.

She wrinkled her nose at me.

I shrugged. From the start she’d seemed obsessed about finding out who it had been. Me? I wasn’t sure why, but I didn’t want to know. Just knowing there had been someone was bad enough. She’d accused me of being in denial. As if knowing who it was could possibly make it more real, therefore harder to move on from.

I didn’t think that was true. I assured her it was plenty real enough.

I needed a break from talking about myself. “I’m so glad you’re back,” I told her.

She’d
only been back for a few weeks, having studied abroad for a year, in Australia.

“I missed you, too. But I had so much fun. I’m kind of pissed I had to come back.”

“You should be,” I said.

Her mom was on husband number four. He’d convinced Lanna’s mom that studying abroad was not worth the expense. The only way she’d be allowed to continue her education in Australia, they decided, was if she’d like to delve into the inheritance her dad had left her. She’d debated but decided against it. It wasn’t that her mom didn’t have the money. It was simply that she’d have to go outside of Lanna’s college fund to cover the extra expenses. While that hadn’t been a problem last year at this time, now that her mom had remarried, it had very much become one.

“I don’t know why she has to be attracted to such losers. Or why she doesn’t ever realize it until it’s too late. In a year or two, Gerald will probably be kicked out on his ass. Then she’ll change her mind and tell me Australia was a
fantastic
idea. And then it’ll be too late,” she pouted. “But,” she said, pointing her finger at me, “we’re not talking about me. We’re talking about you.”

I k
new the reprieve was too good to last.

I realized she was watching me carefully.
“Do you want to hear what I think?”

“Probably not,” I mumbled.

She threw her hands up in the air. “Of course you don’t. Because I might actually have a logical thought. One that might interfere with all of this craziness you agreed to.” She stopped to take a few deep breaths to calm herself. “Postpone it. Just postpone it! You can’t be expected to make this kind of decision under such duress!”

Duress? She must be upset.
That was a pretty fancy word for Lanna.

Lanna had never been very good at sitting still. She hopped to her feet again. She
towered over me, tugging at her long, blond hair.

I didn’t say anything as I let that thought take hold. Earlier in the day, all I had been able to think about was canceling the wedding. After meeting with Collin and our parents, all I’d been able to think about was trying to make it through the wedding.

“Do you really think he’s going to be trustworthy after this?” she demanded.

“Maybe. Maybe they’
re right. Maybe he was just sowing some oats.” I grabbed for another tissue.

“That’s a lot of maybes so let me throw one more at you.
Maybe
he’ll think since he got away with it once, he’ll get away with it always!”

“Maybe he won’t!” I cried.

“Do you really believe that? With both sets of parents standing behind
him
? And you,” she said sadly, “you being the one to get bullied into compliance? Why? Why would you think that this will never happen again?”

I didn’t, deep, deep down. I didn’t believe it. But I was too dishonest to admit it.

“Just think about why you’re doing this. Are you trying to keep your parents happy? His parents? Are you trying to make sure he has first dibs, or whatever, on your dad’s firm?” She stopped and looked at me, waiting to see if her words were sinking in. They were. But it didn’t really change things. She shook her head. “I get that people pleasing—or parent pleasing—is kind of your default setting. But you really need to take control of the situation.
For once
do what’s right for you.”

“I know,” I said. I couldn’t look at her. I was fidgeting with the ruffle on one of her throw pillows.
I was using it as an excuse to keep my eyes averted.

“Please tell me you’re not going through with this because you’re worried about inconveniencing all of the guests.”

I shook my head. “No. It’s none of the reasons you mentioned.”

She threw her hands up in the air. “Then
why
?”

I gave a small shrug and told her the truth. “I love him.”

She let out a sigh of defeat. “Oh. I hadn’t thought of that.”

Chapter 3