Edge of Love (30 page)

“
Thank you. That took a
lot of convincing.”

He laughed. “Well, it’s a shitty
job.”

“
Don’t be an
ass.”

“
Scar, I’m totally
kidding. I’m honored that you asked me.”

I smiled. “I know.”

“
I love you.”

“
I love you
too.”

“
I’ll talk to you
later.”

“
Okay.”

“
Bye, Scar.”

“
Bye.”

Sean came back into the room wearing
his gym shorts and a shirt. “Talking to Ryan?”

“
Yes.”

“
What did he
say?”

“
He agreed to be my maid
of honor.”

Sean laughed. “Poor guy.”

I pinched his side.

“
So, what do you want to
do today?”

“
I just want to lie on the
couch and cuddle while we watch television.”

“
That sounds perfect to
me,” he said. “I got a stack of take-out menus on the
counter.”

“
I’ll still cook
dinner.”

“
Oh thank god,” he said.
“I don’t think I can eat out anymore.”

I laughed. “What would you do without
me?”

His eyes became serious. “I don’t
know.”

I turned away and grabbed the remote.
We spent the afternoon curled up on the couch. I fell asleep a few
times and so did Sean. After the rocky last two weeks we had, we
just needed to be together. Just lying next to him was enough to
dull the ache in my heart. We were back to normal and I was happy
again. It made me realize that running away wasn’t an option. I
couldn’t live without Sean. I would do whatever I could to make
this relationship work. I was thankful he was willing to put up
with my bullshit.

Sometime after five, there was a knock
on the door. I flinched at the unexpected sound. Sean yawned then
got to his feet. He always answered the door when we were home. He
never let me do it. And if I was home alone, I wasn’t allowed to
answer it either.

When he opened the door, his body
stiffened.

Maria was on the doorstep and she
looked upset. I stood from the couch and I was about to walk over
to her so I could punch her in the face, but Sean held up his hand
without looking at me. He knew exactly how I would
react.

“
Why are you here?” he
asked.

“
Can I talk to you for a
moment?”

“
Okay.”

She looked awkward. “In
private.”

“
No,” I said.

Sean didn’t look at me. “I have
nothing to say to you, Maria. Please leave and don’t come
back.”

“
I just want to
talk.”
I stood next to Sean and wrapped my arm around his waist. “About
what exactly?”

Sean wrapped his arm around me then
kissed my forehead. “She knows I’m yours, Scar. She gets
it.”

I continued to glare at
her.

Maria ignored me. “It will only take a
minute.”

Sean shook his head. “The last time
you came over here, it made it look like I was having an affair
with you. I won’t do that to my fiancé again. You can either talk
to me while she’s here, or don’t talk to me at all.”

Maria glanced at my face then looked
back at Sean. “Why did you quit?”

“
I don’t want to work
there anymore,” he said.

“
But why?”

He stared at her. “It wasn’t a
comfortable environment.”

She glanced at me then back at him. “I
hope it wasn’t because of me.”

“
Well, it was,” Sean said.
“Are we done now?”

“
I’m sorry about
everything. I don’t want you to lose your job over it.”

I glared at her. “He doesn’t need a
job. We’re fine without it.”

Sean nodded. “We don’t need the
income.”

Maria continued to stare at him.
“Well, if you ever want to talk or grab a cup of coffee, let me
know.”

I felt my anger shoot out of my eyes.
“Are you fucking kidding me right now?”

Sean tightened his arm around my
waist. “Goodbye, Maria.”

She stared at Sean. “And let me know
when this doesn’t work out.”

I tried to run for her but Sean pulled
me back. He slammed the door before I could reach her. He
barricaded it with his body, inhibiting my route.

“
I can’t believe that
bitch,” I said. Steam was blowing out of my ears.

“
Let it go.”

“
Are you fucking kidding
me? If some guy said the same thing to me, you would be livid. You
would give him a worse beating than you did Carl.”

“
Well, you’re a better
person, babe.”

“
Not right
now.”

He grabbed my face and kissed me.
“What are we going to do when we go to bed tonight?”

I was quiet for a moment, unsure what
he was asking. “Make love.”

He nodded. “And what about tomorrow
night?”

I raised an eyebrow. “Make
love.”

“
Do you see where I’m
going with this?”

I nodded.

“
It’s you and me forever,
babe. There’s no one else.”

“
You’re right.”

He smiled. “I’m always
right.”

29

Sean

“
Did you masturbate when I
was gone?”

I dropped my fork. “What?”

“
We were apart for a
while. I was just curious.”

I suddenly felt uncomfortable. Scarlet
had never asked me a question like that before. She knew I jerked
off but we never talked about it before. I decided not to answer
her. I finished my spaghetti while I averted my gaze.

She took a sip of her wine. “I don’t
care. I’m just wondering.”

I finally looked at her. “Did you
finger yourself?”

“
No.” She took another
drink of her wine.

I wiped my face with a napkin then
pushed my empty plate away. It was nice to have a home cooked meal.
If I ate another pizza I would hurl.

“
Are you going to answer
me or not?”

I looked away. I don’t know why I was
so uncomfortable with this question. She said she didn’t care, but
I felt ashamed for doing it. Now that we’re engaged, I felt bad for
pleasuring myself on my own. I didn’t need to. I mean, I only did
it because she was gone, but I still felt guilty. I knew chicks
didn’t like it. “Yes.” I looked away.

She smiled. “That’s hot.”

I turned my head quickly and looked at
her. I was shocked. “What?”

She finished her wine then returned
the glass to the table. She rose from the chair then grabbed the
dirty plates and dropped them into the sink. When she came back to
the table, she sat in my lap. Now that her face was next to mine, I
couldn’t look away. “Did you think about me?” she ran her finger
through my hair then kissed my neck.

I swallowed the lump in my throat.
“Yes.”

She kissed my ear. “Good.”

I moaned. “You aren’t mad?”

She kissed the corner of my mouth then
trailed her kisses to my chin. “No,” she whispered. “I think that’s
really sexy.”

I smiled. “You think me jerking off is
sexy?”

She nodded. “I want to watch
you.”

I felt my spine shiver.
“What?”

“
I want to watch you
please yourself.” She ran her hands up my shirt and felt my chest.
She scratched me lightly with her nails.

“
Are you being
serious?”

She licked my lips. “Yeah. Do it for
me, Sean.”

I swallowed the lump in my throat.
“You really want me to?”

“
Yes, please.”

“
You’re so
nasty.”

“
I know,” she whispered.
She grabbed the rim of my pants and pulled them down. My cock was
hard and it sprung out of its restraint immediately. I had never
let someone watch me jerk off before. I was immensely turned on
that Scarlet was so sexually open-minded. I knew she had never been
like this in her past. She was only like this with me. I felt
slightly embarrassed by the idea. “Come on.”

I moaned at her words.

She grabbed my hand and placed the
fingers around my shaft. Then she started to help me caress the tip
and the base. I started to breathe heavily as she and I stroked my
cock together. Scarlet removed her hand and pulled off her shirt
then unclasped her bra, leaving her tits bare to me. She knew I
loved her tits. They were big and beautiful. Fluid started to leak
from the tip of my dick. It formed a bubble then dropped down the
side.

Scarlet stared at it. “Yum,”
whispered.

I shivered again.

She scooted back then bent her head
down. She licked away the juice then shoved my entire cock into the
back of her throat. I moaned so loudly that it was almost a scream.
When my dick was wet enough, she came back up. She scooted closer
to me then placed my hand back on my wet cock. I was so horny I
thought I would explode.

She licked her lips as she stared at
my dick. “Come on.”

I started to stroke myself. I was
ashamed, but so turned on I couldn’t stop. I moaned. “Scar.” Her
saliva on my dick provided just enough friction. She grabbed my
other hand and placed it on her breasts. I squeezed it gently as I
stroked myself. “Scar.” My breaths came out raspy.

“
Come on, Sean.
Faster.”

I increased my pace and moaned. I was
breathing heavily. I clenched my hand as I rubbed myself, making me
shake with pleasure. It was a tight fit. It felt exactly like
Scarlet’s pussy. I loved her pussy. Even though I was big, she had
remained small for me. I hoped it would stay that way after we had
kids. It felt so good that I felt embarrassed. I closed my
eyes.

“
Babe, look at
me.”

I opened my eyes.

“
I know you like my tits.
Look at them.”

I continued to beat myself hard. Then
I glanced down to her swollen breasts. Her nipples were hard.
“Scarlet. Fuck.”

She leaned toward my ear. “What are
you thinking about?”

“
Fucking you.” I
breathed.

She pressed her breasts against my
chest then leaned back. “Come for me, Sean. I want you to come on
my breasts.”

“
Scar.” My hand moved
faster. I felt the orgasm build in my balls then run up my shaft.
My body started to shake.

“
Come on, babe. Come on.
Come on me.”

“
Scar,” I cried as I felt
the orgasm shoot out of me. She leaned over and let me cum on her
breasts. Watching myself gizz on her was enough to make me cum
again. When I was done, I leaned my head back and closed my eyes.
That was the dirtiest sexual experience I ever had. It was
immensely satisfying, but I was also ashamed of my nastiness. When
I opened my eyes, she was wiping the fluid with her fingers. She
stared at me while she licked her fingertips.

I moaned as I watched her.
“Scar.”

She licked the rest of it
away.

“
Fuck, Scar.”

She leaned into me and rested her
forehead against mine. “I loved watching that.”

I closed my eyes. “You don’t judge
me?”

“
That was so
hot.”

I smiled. “Really?”

“
Yeah.” She ran her
fingers through my hair. “I love watching you get off.”

“
You don’t care if I
masturbate?”

She shook her head. “Not as long as I
get to watch.”

“
You are such a whore,
Scar.”

“
You like me that
way.”

“
Fuck yeah I
do.”

She kissed my head then pressed her
lips against mine. “Do you masturbate often?”

“
No,” I said. “I did it
when we were apart because I was horny as hell.”

“
But about when we were
together?”

I shook my head. “I’ve never
masturbated while I’ve been committed to you. I can barely please
you as it is. You think I have enough mojo to jack off in the
shower too?” I laughed.

“
But what about when you
were with Penelope?”

I didn’t like talking about her. I
answered her anyway. “I did a few times.”

“
Why?”

“
I wasn’t
satisfied.”

“
Do I satisfy
you?”

I stared at her. “You’re sexiest
person I’ve ever been with. I’ve never been with a girl that was so
kinky that she wanted to watch me jerk off. That’s hot,
Scarlet.”

“
Did you masturbate when I
left for Seattle?”

“
Yes. A lot,
actually.”

“
And what did you think
about?”

I sighed. “Both of you.” I looked into
her face, expecting to see pain but I only saw love.