Fighting to be Free by Kirsty Moseley (10 page)

“Right yeah, of course. I mean, you said earlier and that’s fine, it was just a thought,” I said, quickly backtracking. I stepped closer to her and her breath caught in her throat, her eyes sparking with excitement making my breath catch too.

“Jamie, I don’t want a relationship right now, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want you though,” she purred, her voice all sexy and husky making me hard in an instant.

Is she saying she wants to have sex with me again? “What does that mean?” I asked, needing her to spell it out, I wasn’t confident enough to make the first move.

She grinned and blushed slightly, “We could be friends, who have fun together occasionally, like friends with…….extras,” she suggested, raising an eyebrow at me. She looked so sexy that my dick was actually starting to hurt in my jeans where it was so hard.

“I like the sound of the extras,” I admitted. There was no way I was passing up this opportunity, this girl was too incredible to say no to, I’d definitely take what I could get.

“I bet you do, stud.” She looked me over hungrily, biting her lip. How the hell can she look at me like that, knowing what my body looks like? No time to question it now Jamie, jeez get a grip she‘s just offered you sex!

I grinned and kissed her, pushing her against the wall lightly, running my hands down her body until I got to her ass. God, she was so damn perfect. I kissed her deeply, wanting to explore every part of her mouth, moaning in the back of my throat as her taste exploded on my taste buds. I lifted her and she wrapped her legs around my waist, pressing herself to me tightly, grinding slightly against my erection, making her moan breathily into my mouth. I smiled against her lips and pressed her harder against the wall so I could free one of my hands to touch her. She pulled out of the kiss and started kissing my neck, she titled her head to the other side and banged it against the door frame.

“Ow,” she hissed, rubbing her head.

I pulled back slightly, “Shit, you ok?”

She nodded, giggling, and pulled my face back to hers. I kissed her hungrily as I gripped hold of her top and started to pull it off, banging my elbow on the condom machine on the other side. She burst out laughing and shook her head. “This really isn’t working,” she said giggling and blushing again, making me laugh too.

“No, it’s not,” I admitted, pushing her hair away from her face gently. “Want to stay at mine again tonight?” I asked hopefully. I would love to wake up with her again.

She looked a little torn, “I have school tomorrow.” I couldn’t help but feel excited because she looked disappointed when she spoke, like she really did want to but couldn’t.

“That wasn’t a no,” I teased, kissing her neck, making the decision harder for her. I slid my hand back down to her ass, moving her hips so she ground against me again, making her moan lightly.

“You don’t think I’m a slut though, do you? Jeez, I just made myself sound like a slut, didn’t I?” she asked breathlessly. I pulled back and smiled at her, she looked genuinely worried, her cheeks an adorable shade of pink.

“I don’t think you’re a slut, Ellie,” I promised.

She smiled at me gratefully, “Ok good, then I’ll follow you to yours,” she said breathlessly, as she ground herself against me again, making my body yearn for her so badly I thought it would kill me.

Wait, I can’t let her leave her car outside my place, it won’t be there in the morning when she goes out to it! “How about we leave your car here for the night and you come home with me, I’ll drive you to get your car in the morning,” I suggested. Yeah her car would be much safer where it was, than near my crappy little place.

She thought about it for a few seconds, her hands gripping my shoulders tightly as I sucked on the side of her neck giving her a hicky, wanting to mark her for some reason. Looking at my love bite on the side of her neck made me feel a little strange, I loved the sight of it there, it looked so good against her pale skin.

“Ok, but how about you drive me to school in the morning instead, and then I can get Stacey to drive me to my car at the end of the day. That way we won‘t have to rush around as much in the morning,” she suggested, her voice thick with lust.

“Sure, whatever you want,” I mumbled, sucking a little harder on the same love bite, making it darker.

“Come on then stud, before the anticipation kills me.” She unwrapped one of her legs from my waist. I didn’t want to let her go, but I guess it was only for a little while. I kissed her lightly, before quickly pumping the condom machine with all the change I had, making her giggle and press her face into my back, her hands gripping my hips, obviously embarrassed again.

I held her hand as we walked to my truck, it was pretty cold so I wrapped my jacket around her shoulders again. She smiled at me gratefully as she called her friend to ask her to take her school books and stuff to school for her in the morning.

When we pulled outside my building, I checked everywhere first before opening her door. There was no one around tonight, not even the usual prostitutes that hung around out front. I ushered her upstairs, my body bursting with excitement at the thought of being with her again.

We stopped outside my door and I fumbled with my keys as she grabbed around my waist pulling me closer to her, pressing her exquisite body against mine. Once I shoved the key in the lock I bent my head and kissed her, she tasted so amazing and I couldn’t help but moan in appreciation. She moved slightly and was in the way of the lock so I couldn’t open the door. I slipped my hands down to her ass and lifted her, pressing her against the door. She immediately wrapped her long legs around my waist, squeezing herself to me tighter.

I was very conscious that we were still standing in the crappy little hallway and it wasn’t really safe for her to be here. I knew I’d be able to protect her but I didn’t want her to have to see that, so I quickly got to work on the locks again and finally managed to pry the door open, while she kissed and nibbled at my jaw. I was so turned on already it was unreal.

Once we were in, I slammed the door behind me and flicked the lock. As I turned back into my room I stopped, my stuff was everywhere, my clothes all over the floor, all the furniture upturned.

Someone had broken into my room.

Ellie kissed back up to my mouth but I needed to make sure no one was still in here. “Get down now!” I ordered, supporting her weight with one arm while I unclamped her legs from my waist quickly with the other.

“Jamie, what?” she asked, looking at me like I’d gone crazy.

Shit, maybe I frightened her, oh well no time to explain now. I grabbed her hand and forced her behind me as I looked over my room, but there was no one here. I pushed her gently against the wall as I strode over to my little bathroom to make sure whoever had been in my room, had definitely left. Oh shit, please don’t have taken my money!

“Oh God, what happened? Have you been robbed?” Ellie asked breathlessly, obviously taking in the room for the first time. I didn’t answer I went straight to the toilet and lifted the lid of the cistern quickly, but there was nothing in there. The little plastic bag that I had put my money in was gone.

Fuck it, that was everything I had! “I’ll call the police,” Ellie said quickly.

What? Police, no way! I don’t want to call the police, I’ll get killed for being a freaking grass!

“No Ellie, it’s fine, nothings been taken, it’s just a mess that’s all. There’s no need for the police to come,” I said quickly. Great, what the hell am I going to do now? I had nothing. I had $25 and about forty cents in my pocket and I was due to pay the next weeks rent on Tuesday morning. Damn it!

“How do you know nothing’s been taken?” she asked. I walked back into the room, she was still pressed against the wall where I left her, looking terrified.

“I don’t have anything worth taking, all I have is clothes and those are all over the floor, I don’t have anything worth stealing.” I shrugged trying not to show her I was totally screwed. Wow, come Tuesday morning when I didn’t have the rent money I wouldn’t even have this crappy little roof over my head, now that‘s a depressing thought.

“Nothing’s gone?” she asked, looking around slowly as if she could see something missing.

I shook my head and took her hand, “Come on, I’ll drive you to get your car.” I gave her a little tug towards the door. I didn’t want her here, it obviously wasn’t safe and I didn’t want her anywhere near trouble.

She pulled her hand out of mine, frowning, “What? Don’t be stupid, Jamie.” She bent down, scooping up an armful of my clothes off of the floor, throwing them on the bed.

What on earth is she doing? “Ellie, come on, I’ll drive you to get your car and make sure you get to Stacey’s. I don’t want you here if it’s not safe,” I said honestly.

She just shook her head and carried on picking up my clothes, throwing them on the bed. When she had them all, she kicked off her shoes and sat on my bed cross-legged and started to fold up my clothes, putting them in a pile. Jeez, she really is incredible. I can’t believe she’s doing that, I’d honestly never met anyone like her in my life.

“Well don’t just stand there watching me! If you don’t need to call the police, then you need to sort out your room, Jamie,” she ordered, nodding at the furniture on the floor. I snapped back to reality and lifted the drawers and dresser back up putting them back in the right place. The crappy little stereo that came with the room was gone but that was ok. She’d finished folding my clothes and helped me put them in the drawers, smiling a sad smile at me.

“Oh no, your photo got ripped,” she said suddenly, bending to pick something up from the floor.

Photo? Oh God not the one of Sophie!

“What? No!” I cried angrily. She handed me two halves of a photo and I closed my eyes, I was so angry I don’t think I could speak. This was the only photo I had of her, it was the only thing that mattered to me. Why the hell would someone do that? Damn it, why didn’t I take it with me when I went out?

“Who is that little girl?” Ellie asked, putting her hand on my arm.

“That was my sister, Sophie. She died,” I said quietly, not really wanting to talk about her.

Ellie gasped, “Oh Jamie, I’m so sorry. How did she die?” she asked quietly, as she stepped closer to me. I took a deep breath and put the ruined photo down on the sideboard. There nothing I could do about it now, there was no point getting stressed and angry about it, there was no way I could find out who broke in so I couldn’t do a damn thing about it.

“She was murdered, four years ago,” I said, watching her face fall and her eyes open in shock.

She wrapped her arms around me tightly and hugged me, “I’m so sorry, that’s awful. What happened?”

I sighed, “I don’t want to talk about it, Ellie. Really, you should go, it’s not safe for you here.” I hugged her back, just enjoying being close to her. I wouldn’t ask her here again, this just proved that I wasn’t good enough for her. She’s too good to be in a place like this, with a guy like me.

“I don’t want to go, Jamie.” She pulled back to look at me, her face stern and confident. There was no indecision on her face, she really didn’t want to go.

“Ellie, really I think,” I started, but she put her hand over my mouth to stop me speaking.

“Do you want me to go and you’re just saying you’re worried as an excuse to make me leave?” she asked curiously. I laughed and pulled her hand off of my mouth. She really thought I just didn’t want her? Is she actually crazy?

“I don’t want you to leave, Ellie. I just don’t think a girl like you should be in a place like this, I shouldn’t have brought you here, I should have known better.” I was so angry at myself for putting her in danger like this for my own benefit, stupid selfish asshole.

She pressed her lips to mine, silencing me, and my whole body felt like it was on fire. I wanted her so much. “I’m here now, so lets just stop talking stud, huh?” she whispered, running her hands down my chest, hooking her fingers into my belt loops, making me shiver slightly. How the hell can she do this to me when I’d never even been interested in a girl before? It was just crazy how one girl could just blow apart everything I thought I knew in life.

She bit her lip looking at me lustfully sending shockwaves through my whole body. She started walking backwards, pulling me with her by my belt loops. She stopped as her legs touched the side of the bed, obviously leaving the final decision to me. I smiled and pushed her down onto the bed lightly. She grinned as I climbed on top of her. I needed her so much, this girl had me so whipped already that I don’t think I’d be able to stop even if I wanted to.

I woke up with Ellie’s beautiful face inches from mine, she was laying on my arm. I smiled and scooted closer to her perfect naked body, I grabbed my phone from the side to see it was only six thirty. She said she didn’t need to be at school until nine, so I had another couple of hours with her at least. Damn she was so incredible, she made me feel like I was the only man in the world. She made me forget all the things that happened to me, she made me want to be good enough for her.

She stirred and pressed her face into my chest, moaning lightly in her sleep. I tangled my fingers in her hair and kissed the top of her head. I couldn’t stop thinking about what a pile of shit my life was at the moment, I had no right to bring her into any of this.

Jeez, today was going to be hard, I needed to find another $25 from somewhere to pay my rent ready for tomorrow morning. I wonder if they still do that buying your blood thing, I could probably stand to lose a couple of pints of blood, right? The car I fixed wasn’t due to go into the auction until Wednesday, if that even made anything in the first place. Crap, I wasted all week on something that might not even work out, yeah great job Jamie. I should have been looking for a solid weekly income, not messing around with something that might not even work out.

I refused to go to Brett for the money, I refused to owe anyone anything. Who knows how soon I would be able to pay it back, if I learnt anything in my four years in juvie, it was the only one you could depend on, was yourself. I needed to get the money, get a job, get the hell out of this crappy place and be a better person. Then maybe I would deserve a shot at the beautiful thing laying in my arms, because I sure as hell didn‘t deserve her at the moment.