Five Quarters of the Orange
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Authors: Joanne Harris
Tags: #Widows, #Psychological Fiction, #World War; 1939-1945, #Cooking, #France, #World War; 1939-1945 - France, #Women cooks, #General, #Psychological, #Loire River Valley (France), #Restaurateurs, #Historical, #War & Military, #Mothers and daughters, #Fiction, #Domestic fiction, #Cookery, #Restaurants
Joanne Harris
When my mother died she left the farm to my…
My name is Framboise Dartigen. I was born right here,…
You have to understand that for us the Occupation was…
I had been back for almost six years when I…
Then came the business with the article. I didn’t read…
I took my time over Mother’s album. Part of it…
When my father died I felt little true grief. When…
With Father gone, we grew to know Mother’s bad spells…
It was already, in early June, promising to be a…
My mother smelt oranges all through that hot month. As…
The Lookout Post was a large elm on the near…
For a time that summer, however, my main interest was…
Soon after that, I found the lipstick under Reine-Claude’s mattress.
You see from what innocent beginnings it grew. We none…
Until then I had always been judged too young to…
I told no one about the orange but Paul—and that…
You’re crazy.” That was Reinette again, her usual helpless cry…
This was where the day’s chores began. Buckets of water…
Reine and Cassis were still asleep when I left, and…
There is always plenty to do on a farm. Water…
I don’t remember very much about the film. Circonstances Atténuantes…
So that was how I met Tomas Leibniz. For some…
There were no more trips to Angers that week, and…
I said nothing to Cassis or Reinette about what had…
We met him again, in the same place, a week…
It was maybe five months after Cassis died—four years after…
A few days after the business with Yannick and Laure,…
For the next few days the situation gradually worsened. There…
And so the weeks passed. I spoke to Luc again…
It didn’t take long for sleeplessness to take its toll…
Paul is a good listener. I told him things I…
I let him have the guest room now that Pistache…
They came calling a week later.
He’s right, of course. You can learn a lot about…
After that our enthusiasm for Tomas’s cause redoubled. Any piece…
It was early September now, and summer was drawing to…
I had seen little of Paul that summer; with Cassis…
She explained it to me later as she handed me…
That month our arbitrary, unpredictable mother was filled with a…
As I said, it was a perfect day. It’s difficult…
Another affectation. When you opened the barrel they would be…
Hey, Backfisch, almost forgot.” Turning, he threw it carelessly, like…
I’ve lost her. I’m losing them all.
Paul and I read through the album little by little…
When I came in the others were already at table.
The Café de la Mauvaise Réputation, “La Rép” to its…
We waited in what later became the parking garage. In…
As I said, it hasn’t changed much. A few lights,…
Cassis, Reinette and I been waiting for over an hour…
Out of pills. She must have been desperate. That terrible…
Paul came back half an hour later. He wore the…
I don’t know what they did after we ran away.
I told you much of what she wrote was lies.
We didn’t see Tomas until over a fortnight after the…
It was then that the letters began to arrive. Three…
Paul and I came back from La Mauvaise Réputation late…
Luc arrived at the Snack-Wagon the next day to find…
Louis left Dessanges in the root cellar as promised. He…
Paul and I pretended to work for the rest of…
It was almost sunset when he came to find me.
It had been a meager harvest. The drought, followed by…
Harvest festival morning was cold and bright, with the dying-ember…
Tomas might wait at the Lookout Post for an hour…
Five minutes. I knew what I had to do. It…
We were still only children. We didn’t know what to…
The well looks much as it did then, though someone…
It was easier than we expected. Mother was having another…
I almost missed the first call.
I had expected an article, a feature at most, maybe…
What happened next is common knowledge. They found Tomas early…
Next it was the water. The well water was always…
The writing is neat and close-written in the strange hieroglyphics…
We went to Tante Juliette’s. Mother stayed a week, then…
The coffee’s still boiling on the stove. Its smell is…
W
hen my mother died she left the farm to my brother, Cassis, the fortune in the wine cellar to my sister, Reine-Claude, and to me, the youngest, her album and a two-liter jar containing a single black Périgord truffle, large as a tennis ball, suspended in sunflower oil, that, when uncorked, still releases the rich dank perfume of the forest floor. A fairly unequal distribution of riches, but then Mother was a force of nature, bestowing her favors as she pleased, leaving no insight as to the workings of her peculiar logic.
And as Cassis always said, I was the favorite.
Not that she ever showed it when she was alive. For my mother there was never much time for indulgence, even if she’d been the type. Not with her husband killed in the war, and the farm to run alone. Far from being a comfort to her widowhood, we were a hindrance to her with our noisy games, our fights, our quarrels. If we fell ill she would care for us with reluctant tenderness, as if calculating the
cost of our survival, and what love she showed took the most elementary forms: cooking pots to lick, jam pans to scrape, a handful of wild strawberries collected from the straggling border behind the vegetable patch and delivered without a smile in a twist of handkerchief. Cassis would be the man of the family. She showed even less softness toward him than to the rest of us. Reinette was already turning heads before she reached her teens, and my mother was vain enough to feel pride at the attention she received. But I was the extra mouth, no second son to expand the farm, certainly no beauty.
I was always the troublesome one, the discordant one, and after my father died I became sullen and defiant. Skinny and dark like my mother, with her long graceless hands and flat feet, her wide mouth, I must have reminded her too much of herself, for there was often a tightness at her mouth when she looked at me, a kind of stoic appraisal, of fatalism. As if she foresaw that it was I, not Cassis or Reine-Claude, who would carry her memory forward. As if she would have preferred a more fitting vessel.
Perhaps that was why she gave me the album, valueless then except for the thoughts and insights jotted in the margins alongside recipes and newspaper cuttings and herbal cures. Not a diary, precisely. There are almost no dates in the album, no precise order. Pages were inserted into it at random, loose leaves later bound together with small, obsessive stitches, some pages thin as onionskin, others cut from pieces of card trimmed to fit inside the battered leather cover. My mother marked the events of her life with recipes, dishes of her own invention or interpretations of old favorites. Food was her nostalgia, her celebration, its nurture and preparation the sole outlet for her creativity. The first page is given to my father’s death—the ribbon of his Légion d’Honneur pasted thickly to the paper beneath a blurry photograph and a neat recipe for black buckwheat pancakes—and carries a kind of gruesome humor. Under the picture my mother has penciled
Remember—dig up Jerusalem artichokes. Ha! Ha! Ha!
in red.
In other places she is more garrulous, but with many abbreviations
and cryptic references. I recognize some of the incidents to which she refers. Others are twisted to suit the moment’s needs. Still others seem to be complete inventions, lies, impossibilities. In many places there are blocks of tiny script in a language I cannot understand.
Ini tnawini inoti plainexini. Ini nacini inton inraebi inti ynani eromni
. Sometimes a single word, scrawled across the top or side of the page seemingly at random. On one page,
seesaw
in blue ink, on another,
wintergreen, rapscallion, ornament
in orange crayon. On another, what might be a poem, though I never saw her open any book other than one of recipes. It reads:
This sweetness
scooped
like some bright fruit
plum peach apricot
watermelon perhaps
from myself
this sweetness
It is a whimsical touch, which surprises and troubles me. That this stony and prosaic woman should in her secret moments harbor such thoughts. For she was sealed off from us—from everyone—with such fierceness that I had thought her incapable of yielding.
I never saw her cry. She rarely smiled, and then only in the kitchen with her palette of flavors at her fingertips, talking to herself (so I thought) in the same toneless mutter, enunciating the names of herbs and spices—
cinnamon, thyme, peppermint, coriander, saffron, basil, lovage
—running a monotonous commentary.
See the tile. Has to be the right heat. Too low, the pancake is soggy. Too high, the butter fries black, smokes, the pancake crisps
. I understood later that she was trying to educate me. I listened because I saw in our kitchen seminars the one way in which I might win a little of her approval, and because every good war needs the occasional amnesty. Country recipes from her native
Brittany were her favorites; the buckwheat pancakes we ate with everything, the
far breton
and
kouign amann
and
galette bretonne
that we sold in downriver Angers with our goat’s cheeses and our sausage and fruit.
She always meant Cassis to have the farm. But Cassis was the first to leave, casually defiant, for Paris, breaking all contact except for his signature on a card every Christmas, and when she died, thirty years on, there was nothing to interest him in a half-derelict farmhouse on the Loire. I bought it from him with my own savings, my widow money, and at a good price too, but it was a fair deal, and he was happy enough to make it then. He understood the need to keep the place in the family.
Now, of course, all that’s changed. Cassis has a son of his own. The boy married Laure Dessanges, the food writer, and they own a restaurant in Angers. Aux Délices Dessanges. I met him a few times before Cassis died. I didn’t like him. Dark and flashy, already running to fat as his father did, though still handsome and knowing it, he seemed to be everywhere at once in his eagerness to please; called me
Mamie;
found a chair, insisted I take the most comfortable seat; made coffee, sugared, creamed, asked after my health, flattered me on this and that till I was almost dizzy with it. Cassis, sixty-odd then and swollen with the seeds of the coronary that would kill him, looked on with barely restrained pride.
My son. See what a fine man he is. What a fine, attentive nephew you have.
Cassis called him Yannick, after our father, but I liked my nephew no more for that. That’s my mother in me, the dislike of conventions, of false intimacies. I don’t like to be touched and simpered over. I don’t see why the blood we share should tie us in affection. Or the secret of spilled blood we hid for so long between us.
Oh, yes. Don’t think I forgot that business. Not for a minute I didn’t, though the others tried hard enough. Cassis scrubbing
pissoirs
outside his Paris bar. Reinette working as an usherette in a porno cinema in Pigalle and sniffing from man to man like a lost dog. So much
for her lipstick and silk stockings. At home she’d been the harvest queen, the darling, the undisputed village beauty. In Montmartre all women look the same. Poor Reinette.
I know what you’re thinking. You wish I’d get on with the story. It’s the only story about the old days that interests you now; the only thread in this tattered flag of mine that still catches the light. You want to hear about Tomas Leibniz. To have it clear, categorized, ended. Well, it isn’t as easy as that. Like my mother’s album, there are no page numbers. No beginning, and the end is raw as the seamless edge of an unhemmed skirt. But I’m an old woman—seems here just about
everything
gets old so quickly; must be the air—and I have my way of going about things. Besides, there are so many things for you to understand. Why my mother did what she did. Why we hid the truth for so long. And why I’m choosing to tell my story now, to strangers, to people who believe that a life can be condensed to a two-page spread in a Sunday supplement, a couple of photographs, a paragraph, a quote from Dostoevsky. Turn the page and it’s over.
No. Not this time. They’re going to take down every word. Can’t make them print it, of course, but by God, they’ll listen. I’ll
make
them do it.