Fives and Twenty-Fives (15 page)
Arriving at the bottom of our building’s front stairwell, I unlock the metal gate and find a place on the street where I can watch the angry faces pass. The crowd comes slowly around the corner with signs for President Ben Ali in Arabic, and, for the cameras, in English and French. Ben Ali must go, they say, though not always with such polite phrasing. I lean against the wall and search the crowd for my flatmates.
The crowd has begun to change, I see, growing to include more university students, fewer old people. These young men and women walk together, some even holding hands. No fear of the Islamists. Like Baghdad University just before the war. A hint of freedom. Do jihadis mix with this crowd? Rifles hidden under their clothes? Waiting for their time? When the police and the army start to kill these people, will it become like that day in Ramadi?
It is all I find when I search for the
mulasim
’s name, that day in Ramadi. An article from the American news that calls him a hero, and this is fine. Someone should be called a hero.
I think of Hani and can almost see his face in this crowd. Foolish, for two reasons: First, he is not here. Second, he would never protest, never march in the streets. There would be no profit in it, nor any sensible gain to be made. It was always Hani’s peculiar fault, his good sense.
It was February when the university canceled the spring semester and Hani convinced me to flee Baghdad. It had become so regular by then, his demands that we flee the death squads and the fighting, the gunfire and the hidden bombs, that when I heard him sprinting down the corridor after curfew, it hardly distracted me from my book. I turned the page to the next adventure just as a new thought occurred, and I reached for my pen to make note of it.
Hani bounded into Professor Al-Rawi’s office and collapsed at the foot of my cot, where I’d taken refuge since my father and brother left the city.
“They killed the tennis coach,” he wheezed.
I did not look up. “Who?”
“The tennis coach.”
“No, I mean who killed him?”
“Some guys in masks,” Hani scoffed. “What kind of question is that?” He waved his hand in the air. Sadrists. Al Qaeda. Washed-up Baathists. The masked fog. Men with guns. It made no difference.
Hani had been gathering stories like this for weeks, and with the stories came the grim, new facts of Baghdad life. Headless bodies in the street. Each week, victims more absurdly innocent than the week before. Ice vendors beheaded for selling during the hours of prayer. Barbers tortured to death with nail guns for shaving beards.
Hani asked after every new militia. He learned when new Shia mullahs tried to outdo their rivals. When one started using pliers, another would say, “Pliers? Fuck pliers. I have this welding torch.”
He learned when a former army officer created a volunteer brigade to protect our old neighborhood of Mansour, after concluding that the American soldiers using my father’s abandoned villa as a patrol base could not, or would not, protect the vulnerable Sunni elite from the Shia death squads wearing police uniforms. That was when Hani stopped going home and came to live at the university like me. If he had gone home, to the empty house left behind when his parents became trapped in Jordan, he would have been expected to fight. And Hani was too sincere for war.
“They pulled him from the car and shot him in the head,” he continued. “And they killed two players in the backseat, too.”
“So, those were the shots I heard earlier?” I put the book aside and sat up on my cot. “Were they collaborators or something?”
“It was the shorts. The shorts they wear at practice.”
“The fashion police!” I coughed, queasy at my own reflexive attempt at humor. “Did we know any of these guys?”
“I am not sure, Kateb. Have you been hanging around with the tennis team? Have you been harboring a secret ambition to play tennis professionally?”
“Fine. Be an asshole. I would simply like to know why you came running to tell me this. People get killed every day, Hani.” I gestured at Dr. Al-Rawi’s empty desk with the same flourish of theater that Hani seemed to enjoy, then lay back on my cot and opened my book.
“You want to know why I ran to tell you? Why I thought of you first?” Hani moved to my laundry pile in the corner. He dug around and came up with a T-shirt. “AC/DC.” He threw the shirt between me and my book. He bent down and came up with two more. “Gwar. Though Gwar might be just their style, this one. Bad Religion? This is a real problem. One of these guys is bound to read English well enough. A number of interpretations, my friend, none of them good.”
“You gave me that shirt for my birthday, for one thing. And for another, your English is shit.”
“Kateb, they killed three guys for wearing shorts at tennis practice. What do you think they will do to you? Or
me
, since I will probably be standing next to you. Or Mundhir? Think about Mundhir!”
I laughed. “Mundhir can bloody well take care of himself. But you? Yes, you are probably fucked.”
Just then, as if summoned, Mundhir poked his head around the door like a great hawk. Seventeen years old, with a size, a resting power, that entered the room even before his body. His face, sharp and still, more than hinted at the grown man’s beard that would emerge if he neglected the stubble even a single day. This gave him an advantage. Was he a lazy Sunni neglecting the razor? Or was he a burgeoning Shia militiaman, a boy growing his first beard? Who could say?
“Mundhir!” I threw the book across the room. “We were just talking about you!”
Mundhir moved into the doorframe, filling it. “I did not hear. What were you saying?”
“Hani thinks I will be killed by the Islamists this week. Him, too. Maybe you, as well. What do you think?”
Mundhir shrugged. “Is this about your T-shirts?”
“Hani! You went to Mundhir behind my back? Shameful.”
Hani stepped to Mundhir’s side. “We have to leave, Kateb.” Hani put his hand on Mundhir’s shoulder, acting as if he spoke for both of them. “People know your father.”
“Fuck my father.” I stood, walked across the room, and grabbed a Coca-Cola from the windowsill. I drank it hot. “He worked for the Ministry of Agriculture, okay? He is not on any list.”
“Have you heard from him? Or from your brother? Do they know the Americans are using your house?”
“What about
your
father, Hani? When was the last time you heard from him? Doing a lot of surgery in Amman, is he?”
“At least I know where he is. What kind of son are you?”
“I am the second son of an old man. And he is outside Fallujah, somewhere, as far as I know. Like everyone else.”
In truth, I knew much more than this. I knew with some detail how my father and brother were spending their days outside Fallujah. I knew because they had asked, if not demanded, that I participate. Why I did not simply admit this to Hani, I cannot say. What cause did I have to feel such shame?
Unwittingly, Mundhir helped me change the subject. He stepped all the way through the door and walked over to Dr. Al-Rawi’s desk. “My uncle says Ramadi is the next Fallujah, filling up with all the foreign jihadis who survived and escaped.” He sat on the desk, feet still touching the floor. “This time next year the Americans will burn Ramadi down, just like they did Fallujah.”
Hani furrowed his brow, as if searching Mundhir’s face for intent. Then, satisfied that his big friend was not just making an offhand comment, Hani brightened. “Yes. Thank you, Mundhir. You are right. And this is why we must leave
now
, before it is too late. We leave now, okay? Before we run out of money and are trapped in the city. Before the Americans launch another offensive in Anbar and cut us off from the Jordan highway. Before a death squad takes an interest in the university and finds us living here. We will not survive that, Kateb. And you know it. So we leave, find your father, and get enough cash from him to complete the journey.”
I rubbed my eyes. “Hani. Please tell me this is not your beach-resort plan again?”
“Yes. Yes, it
is
. Okay? This is phase one. Next, we go to Jordan, get more cash from
my
father, and then we go to Tunisia with it. And, yes, we open a bar on the beach.”
“Every time I hear this it sounds dumber.” I crumpled the can and tossed it on the pile in the corner. “Mundhir, you are the muscle in this arrangement. Your thoughts?”
Mundhir shrugged. “I go where you go.”
“Then
I
will
go
to
sleep
.” I fell onto my cot and pulled a pillow over my face.
Hani kicked the frame. “Kateb, this is over. Mundhir has his uncle’s taxi. Do you hear me? I am done arguing. Meet us downstairs at six tomorrow morning, if you like, or bloody well stay here.”
Hani kicked my cot again and waited for me to reply. I did not indulge him.
Finally, after a moment’s pause, Hani walked out. Mundhir followed him, leaving me the choice. I could remain in Professor Al-Rawi’s office, hoping Baghdad might improve, pretending that I could safely remain in this little room forever.
Or I could follow Hani and Mundhir into the western desert, feign an honest search for my father, and subtly herd them away from Habbaniyah, where, tucked neatly between the twin Sunni strongholds of Fallujah and Ramadi, it was rumored the old generals and ministers had gathered.
I waited until the footsteps faded away, pulled the pillow tighter around my face, and spat an English word into the feathers.
“Fuck
.
”
The next morning, we packed small gym bags, leaving plenty of room. Easier to keep hidden, that way. No bulges. No obvious weight. Nothing to suggest we were going any farther than across town.
We each carried two sets of identification. Our university cards, with our full, Sunni names, and then the taxi licenses Mundhir’s uncle made for us with Shia first names. We could expect checkpoints whichever route we took to leave the city, so it was important to have the right name.
Our old passports we kept hidden in the spare tire.
Meeting on the street before dawn, it was agreed that Mundhir, who could pass for a cabdriver, should drive. He looked older and had been raised by uncles who drove cabs. He knew their habits and could fake the right kind of disinterest. Just a cabdriver taking two rich kids on a long fare.
I took my spot in the front seat without putting the matter up for discussion. “We will try the Karada Road first,” I told Mundhir. “If we cannot get through that way, we will jump over to Abi Nawas and try to cross the river farther north.”
Hani took his place in the backseat. I looked at him in the rearview mirror. He was hurt. Typical. “Sound good to you, Hani?” I asked.
“Fine.”
“You have a better idea?”
“I was going to suggest we take the Abu Ghraib Expressway and sneak south of Fallujah.”
I laughed. “I veto the Abu Ghraib Express on principle.”
Mundhir looked at both of us in turn. “So . . . Karada, then?”
Hani waved his hand. “Fine. Karada.”
I slapped Mundhir’s big shoulder and smiled. “I feel better about this already.”
We passed under the university gate and turned onto Karada Street. The sun came up. Curfew ended. We passed through the first checkpoint, manned by Americans from the Green Zone concerned only with guarding the bridge over the Tigris and protecting their little American city. Our Sunni cards got us through with no problem.
We weaved in between the parked trucks and overturned donkey carts, stores, and cafés bombed out or boarded up. Even the shops not targeted by militias were wrecked by gunfire and abandoned. Our taxi was the only car on the road.
We reached the Iraqi Army checkpoint at Amar Square, and, as planned, shoved the Sunni identification into our underwear.
The soldier on watch accepted our story that we owned the cab in partnership and were taking it to Dora for repairs. Hani and I did not speak much, and the squealing timing belt supported Mundhir’s claim. But when the soldier asked to see the trunk, Hani shifted noticeably in his seat. The soldier, becoming suspicious now, told us to get out.
Off to the side, before we were separated, I bumped against Hani’s shoulder and whispered in his ear, “The beach, Hani. Think about the beach.”
The soldier poked around the trunk with the barrel of his rifle, slid underneath the car, tapped the gas tank, and kicked the tires. Another soldier kept his rifle aimed at Hani, Mundhir, and me as we stood with our hands interlocked behind our heads.
I sighed and tapped my foot, trying to look impatient. Not scared or nervous, just put out. Mundhir stood rock still, his face impassive as a sphinx’s. Hani stared at the pavement and smiled.
Finding nothing, and confident we were merely cowards, the soldiers finally let us leave.
“Well done, men,” I said. “Way to keep your heads.” Then I laughed, not having intended the double meaning.
Mundhir now turned north onto Abi Nawas. Before long traffic on the river road slowed to a crawl and then stopped completely. We could not reach a bridge to take us west. Fearing we might be caught on the road past nightfall, we turned onto a side street, ever mindful that the farther east we traveled, the closer we got to the Shiite militias of Sadr City and the more certainly our Sunni names would get us killed.