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“play” with myself. When she has tired of this, she produces a large dildo, which I am forced to suck so that the other women can see what a good cocksucker I am. Then she makes me bend over while she pushes the dildo roughly up my ass. When I protest, she says that I will have to have my mouth washed out with “something bad.” While I watch her, Nancy Friday

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she pisses into a glass and makes me drink it. She then removes her clothes, bends over in front of me, and makes me stick my tongue in and out of her ass. Finally, I am made to eat all of their cunts. Before letting me go, they make me masturbate to orgasm while they watch and then swallow my own cum.

Another group of fantasies involves my wife having sex with other men and women. In one of these, I bring a good-looking black man home for dinner. Somehow, I have convinced her beforehand to have sex with him, and after dinner we go into the living room where she sits next to him on the couch. They kiss passionately, and her hand goes to his crotch. She fumbles with his pants, finally getting them unfastened and unzipped. They continue to kiss while she feels his cock beneath his underpants. Then she kneels in front of him and pulls his pants off, freeing his large black prick for the first time. When she sees it she moans passionately and buries her face in his crotch, kissing and licking his cock and balls. She becomes terrifically excited now and starts to suck on it greedily, forcing it deep into her mouth. He stops her before he comes and has her take off her clothes. When she is naked, he feels her breasts and cunt. She becomes wildly excited and begs him to fuck her. He has her kneel on all fours while he enters her cunt from the rear, fucking her dog style until she climaxes. Then he stands in front of her while she finishes him with her mouth. When he shoots his sperm into her mouth she swallows it hungrily, but the deluge of cum is so great that much of it escapes and streams down her face. She rubs this into her skin, licking her fingers clean.

In another group of fantasies, I am dominant. In one of my favorites, I take a woman (submissive) to the movies. Before we go I supervise her dressing. Her wardrobe for the evening is simple, consisting of garter belt, stockings and a silky dress which buttons down the front and clings to the contours of her body. I do not allow her to fasten the top button and several of the bottom buttons, so that fleeting glimpses of her nudity are possible. She wears a choker around her neck as a Men In Love

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symbol of submission. At the theater, we sit in an uncrowded section. After the show is in progress, I have her unbutton the dress and open her legs. The dress falls open exposing her nudity. She is ordered to caress herself, which she does. At length, I produce a large dildo and tell her to stick it up her cunt. Just before the show is over I make her lick the dildo clean. She is permitted to fasten her dress before we leave.

When we get to my place, I tell her to remove her dress while I take off my clothes. After she has removed the dress, I make her lie across my lap while I spank her until she cries and begs me to stop. I go and get my dog then, a large German shepherd (I don’t actually own a dog) and tell her to play with its cock. Reluctantly, she goes over to it and begins to fondle its penis, which becomes hugely erect. Then she is forced to her knees on all fours while the dog mounts and fucks her, bringing her to several orgasms. When the dog comes, I make her clean its cock with her mouth.

Next I tie her spread-eagled to the bed and use a vibrator on her, bringing her to the brink of climax repeatedly. When I sense that she has had enough, I untie her and push her roughly onto her stomach. At the same time I pull her hands behind her back and pin them there painfully. Then I force my cock into her ass and fuck her. When I am about to come, I pull out and shoot my sperm onto her face and into her open mouth.

I have never experienced any of my fantasies, but I would like to one of these days. In my opinion fantasies play an important role in sex, and sex games are healthy when engaged in by consenting partners. Unfortunately, though, for most of us our fantasies must remain locked away in “our secret gardens.”

John’s fantasies (above) are filled with ideas of domination and humiliation. If I have put them here rather than in the chapter on S&M, it is because they so clearly explore certain ultimate ambivalences about semen.

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In John’s one adult homosexual experience, he had no feeling of repugnance about semen, he didn’t “think twice” about swallowing it. But his fantasies show his unconscious still holds notions that semen is disgusting and degrading. No woman could ever accept it. And if women won’t, how can he? He is in a fury because he must see part of himself as vile.

This anger seeks an outlet. The symbol of shame – semen

– becomes an expression of rage. Many men who carry enormous infantile angers into their grown-up relationships to women, have a hard time expressing aggression outward.

Any such confrontation might cause the final break in love.

Hostility gets turned around, against the self. Painful, but safer.

The black man’s semen may be “hungrily” swallowed by John’s wife. This is the traditional view of the power position between men and women, and as such, appropriate for a woman to do. When cruel females force John to swallow his own, it is an expression of his loss of power and masculinity.

BRUCE

I am in my mid-twenties, college educated, and enjoy sex a lot.

I have sex regularly with my girl friend. Usually, I don’t fantasize when we fuck, it’s mostly when I masturbate (which is quite frequently, sometimes twice a day).

I love to get sucked off, and many times will envision some lips sliding gently up and down my throbbing dick taking it all in, over and over, until I’m unable to withstand any more of this extreme pleasure and come into this hot, wonderful mouth.

Eventually this evolved to the point where I imagined it was my mouth. I can lay down with my cock limp and dream of curling my lips around it and sucking it all into my mouth and feeling it grow and as I think this, it will (in reality) grow Men In Love

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very hard At this time, I begin to masturbate (as I am compelled to do as I write this) and lick the first drops of cum from a fingertip, while in fantasy, my tongue is gently licking the tip of my hard hot cock. As my hand strokes my dick faster and faster, I feel as though I am sucking myself off passionately. I engulf my slippery erect prick in my mouth and pump and suck it until the precise moment when I shoot my hot cum into my mouth. At this time in reality, I come.

HERB

I’m forty-eight years old, married, the father of two boys still at home. My wife works, and I’m a composer and teacher of music theory. Our home life is good with probably no more problems than anyone raising children. Our sex life is great, but by that I mean that sex is the one thing in our lives where there has never been a problem, the one big thing we have in common. Our sex together began over thirty years ago, before we married, and it just goes on and gets better.

In my line of work, I’ve spent a lot of my life living in hotels and motels, and it is sometimes a really lonesome life.

Far from a lot of wives’ fears, it is not a life of sexual joy with new women all the time. In the first place, in the hours when most people are socializing, as an entertainer I’m working, and as a serious musician this requires all my concentration. In the second place, I’ve seldom found the results worth all the effort involved in picking up a stranger. I’ve never even understood the existence of prostitution. If I had to pay a woman for sex, she couldn’t possibly give me what I was paying her for. To me, one of the most important aspects of sex is the knowledge that you are giving the other person as much pleasure as they are giving you, and a lot of this is knowing that they desire sex, not just as sex, per se, but sex with Me because they like Me as a person enough to want to be that intimate, and share this wonderful feeling with me. I don’t mean to imply that my life on the road has been monas-Nancy Friday

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tic, but the sexual experiences I have had were in the above category, and simply don’t happen very often. Consequently, the natural result is frequent and skillful masturbation, and the development of a never-ending supply of wonderful fantasies.

For several years I’ve been staying close to home, but my work is naturally mostly at night, and as my wife works days, I find myself in the role of “househusband.” Weekdays I must get up and get our little boy off to school, much of the time after having had only three to five hours sleep. I found that I had a hell of a time getting back to sleep until it dawned on me what a wonderful sedative a good climax is. Now, after everyone is gone for the day, I get out some pornography and go back to bed. Anything sexy to get quickly into the mood is useful before getting into a good sexual fantasy.

My fantasies fall into two categories, those based on reality, things that have actually happened or could conceivably happen, and those that I wouldn’t want to really happen, but are at times exciting as fantasy. (Sound familiar?) When I was five, the little girl next door, also five, and I played together, and when alone, played sexually a lot. Her big thing, aside from looking at and touching each other, was watching each other pee. From that, at her suggestion, we progressed to peeing on each other. We had several good private places where we could take off our clothes and play without ever being caught at it. We would sit naked with her legs up over mine and our crotches up against each other, and watch and feel the piss come out of her little pee hole and my little peter all over both of us. She would then rub my hard little cock against her pussy, many times long enough that all the piss would be evaporated before we got dressed. At five years old, I knew nothing about a climax, but I have a sneak-ing hunch she did, and you can bet your boots that in my present fantasies, I did too. As I get into this fantasy, we progress to her standing up and peeing all over me, then squatting down over my mouth and me swallowing her pee as it comes out. Then she moves down and takes my hard little Men In Love

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prick in her mouth and eagerly swallows my pee as I force myself to pee with a hard-on. Then she turns around and puts her pussy over my mouth and continues to suck my prick until we both come and she swallows my juice. Actually, her little cunt produced a lot of juice when excited, and I can still remember the smell and taste of it (much different from a female after puberty).

In the first grade I met a kid who introduced me to the old

“Let’s Play Doctor” game. I was all for it, and we spent many a happy hour examining ourselves and “curing” our “sore” little peters with hot saliva. As a matter of fact, we stayed close friends right on through school, and were frequent overnight visitors at each other’s homes. As we grew older, the addition of a climax and ejaculation only added to the fun.

But, of my fantasies about him, the most exciting are based on the first time, when we were six years old. Again, smell and taste play an important part in this. Neither of us are circumcised, and the excitement I remember as I played the doctor and skinned back his foreskin to examine him the first time is fantastic. The smell of his smegma (he called it cheese) was so sexy to me, I could hardly wait to get to the part where I “cured” him by sucking on his peter. Although we are both very clean people, in my fantasies now I ask him to go several days without skinning back his foreskin and washing his prick, so I can recapture the thrill of the smell and taste of it that first time. Ah, I have a lovely hard-on and can feel my lubricating juice coming out of my prick just from writing about this. I may have to (have to, hell, want to) stop and take advantage of this feeling for a good jackoff.

(Incidentally, to me, the smegma under the foreskin of the clitoris has the same smell and taste as male smegma.) In our teens, I couldn’t bring myself to swallow his come, but now in my fantasy (and probably in reality too, if given the chance) I swallow gallons of it as it squirts into my mouth.

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WALTER

I am twenty-one, white, single and reasonably sexually liberated. I will be a senior at Syracuse University in the fall, and my major is pre-law. I have been dating the same woman for two years, and recently we moved in together. June is twenty-five, and is a social worker. She is sexually okay, but not passionate. We realize that our relationship won’t last forever, because we both want different things in life.

I have not been able to share my sexual fantasies with anybody, because I don’t think they would understand, because I don’t understand all of them myself. I am glad that I have the chance to share one with somebody, even if it is indirectly.

Fantasy:
There is this beautiful sexy girl sitting next to me in my family room, the lights are low, music playing. We are sitting on the couch, just got back from the theatre and we have a drink in our hands. She sets her drink down and becomes the aggressive one. She slowly unbuttons my shirt and runs her fingers through my hair on my chest, and slowly goes down further and unzips my pants, and sucks my cock.

Pulling my pants down further, she then inserts two fingers up my ass, and is moving them like she is fucking me there.

By this time I’ve got my fingers up her. She then moves in front of me and takes my pants off completely and stands in front of me nude. She then starts kissing and licking me all over, starting with my feet, going up, avoiding my cock. She sucks my nipples, and licks my armpit; by this time, I am shoving her head down to my cock. She sucks my cock and balls till I come. She takes my cum in her mouth, and then we are kissing and I am tasting my own cum. Then we just lay there together holding each other.

SETH

I imagine a fat girl going down on me. She loves to suck cock and swallow my sperm, especially because of her vora-Men In Love

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cious appetite. She sucks all of me at once; simultaneously devouring both dick and balls. (This would be feasible in reality since I’m merely six inches with an erection.) I imagine that she loves the taste and feel of my come in her throat and stomach I imagine having sperm all over her. She can’t seem to get enough semen. After ejaculation, she tenderly sucks until my penis is drained and limp. Then my slippery dick recedes from her soft, saliva-soaked mouth. We embrace and kiss. It is a long, drawn-out kiss and we are satisfied.