"I mean, Mary,I mean, that, when he comes back to Philadelphia, he thinks he shall find me there; he thought I should stay while my husband was gone; and when he finds I am gone, he may come to Newport; and I never want to see him again without you;you must let me stay with you."
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"Have you told him," said Mary, "what you think?"
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"I wrote to him, Mary,but, oh, I can't trust my heart! I want so much to believe him, it kills me so to think evil of him, that it will never do for me to see him. If he looks at me with those eyes of his, I am all gone; I shall believe anything he tells me; he will draw me to him as a great magnet draws a poor little grain of steel."
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"But now you know his unworthiness, his baseness," said Mary, "I should think it would break all his power."
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"Should you think so? Ah, Mary, we cannot unlove in a minute; love is a great while dying. I do not worship him now as I did. I know what he is. I know he is bad, and I am sorry for it. I should like to cover it from all the world,even from you, Mary, since I see it makes you dislike him; it hurts me to hear any one else blame him. But sometimes I do so long to think I am mistaken, that I know, if I should see him, I should catch at anything he might tell me, as a drowning man at straws; I should shut my eyes, and think, after all, that it was all my fault, and ask a thousand pardons for all the evil he has done. No,Mary, you must keep your blue eyes upon me, or I shall be gone."
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At this moment Mrs. Scudder's voice was heard, calling Mary below.
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"Go down now, darling, and tell mamma; make a good little talk to her, ma reine! Ah, you are queen here! all do as you say,even the good priest there; you have a little hand, but it leads all; so go, petite."
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Mrs. Scudder was somewhat flurried and discomposed at the proposition;there were the pros and the cons in her nature, such as we all have. In the first place, Madame de Frontignac belonged to high society,and that was pro; for Mrs. Scudder prayed daily against worldly vanities, because she felt a little traitor in her heart that was ready to open its door to them, if not constantly talked down. In the second place, Madame de Frontignac was French,there was a con; for
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