Authors: Nancy Thayer
Annabel’s mouth quirked. “Yeah, I was.”
Neither of them had had a sip of tea yet. Carley poured both cups full, added milk and sugar, stirred, and sipped.
Annabel said, “Oh, I needed this. Thank you.”
“I needed this, too,” Carley replied.
Carley woke to see a flock of the most amazing scarlet and orange birds fly across the sky past her window. She thought:
I wish the birders were still here. They would flip out!
More birds streaked past, and Carley blinked. They weren’t birds. They were leaves. She could hear the muted roar of the November wind stirring the leaves, sending them spinning. She burrowed deeper into her pillows. It was Saturday. She was manning the baked goods table at the church fair and later she was taking Margaret and Molly on a hayride.
Cisco would spend the day at Lauren’s, riding and helping with—
A strange and terrible thought struck Carley.
She no longer woke remembering exactly how many days it had been since Gus died. This was good, she supposed. A sign of healing. Still, it made her feel obscurely guilty.
Thanksgiving was held at Carley’s house that year. Annabel and Russell had to concentrate on packing for Guatemala. Carley invited Vanessa, too, since she was alone. Vanessa had decided to tell everyone she’d gotten pregnant using a sperm bank, and after everyone got over their shock that sexy, gorgeous Vanessa would need to resort to something so impersonal, they accepted it.
Everyone
meant Vanessa’s neighbors, the members of all the charitable organizations she was on, the minister, the mailman, and Annabel, Russell, Cisco, and Margaret, although when Carley told Margaret, she used creative metaphors.
Vanessa offered to help, but Carley ordered her to sit and put her feet up since she was in the seventh month. Annabel and Russell came late, preoccupied with their approaching adventure. As Carley listened to them talk, she secretly thought: only a few more days until they leave. Only three more days until Wyatt is back on the island.
• • • • •
L
auren and Frame always held a holiday party after Thanksgiving. Their basement rec room was set up for kids of all ages, with plenty of chips and eggnog and Christmas cookies, while the upstairs dining room table was laden with Lauren’s family’s special rum-plus eggnog, champagne punch, shrimp, spicy meatballs, and scallops in bacon. One of the kitchen sinks was stocked with ice and beer.
Wyatt was due back two days after the party. Carley was sorry he wasn’t going to be there. She’d bought a dress on sale at Moon Shell Beach that made her look pretty great, even if she admitted it herself. It plunged a little in the front and a lot in the back. It clung to her when she walked, and it was scarlet. It was more than she’d ever paid for a dress, but she gave it to herself for her birthday. She’d made a resolution that she would do this every year. After all,
someone
had to spoil her.
She bought her daughters new outfits, too, to wear to the party. Margaret’s was all pink, with beads and sequins. Cisco’s was white with a little white crocheted sweater. Her figure was blossoming, Carley noticed with a plunge of sadness. Her little girl was turning into a teenager. Jewel arrived, went straight to Cisco’s side, and started whispering and giggling with her.
The party was a crush. Food and drinks were set out in the living room and kitchen and even out on the porch, where some of the die-hard smokers sneaked out and stayed out in the cold to talk.
Carley leaned against the dining room buffet, chatting with anyone who squeezed through the crowd to get to the eggnog.
“Delicious, isn’t it?” Beth Boxer asked. Beth was part of their general mommy group, a humorless woman, but a careful, loving mother. Beth wore a green silk dress completely unsuited for her olive skin, Carley noticed. Beth needed a fashion makeover. Actually, a personality makeover would help, too.
Carley licked her lips. “Yum. I always drink way too much of it, but it’s the only time of year Lauren makes it.”
“Don’t drink too much,” Beth cautioned. “If you gain a pound, you won’t be able to fit in that dress anymore.”
From anyone else, this would be funny, but Carley caught the undertone of bitchiness. Before she could reply, Beth lobster-pinched Carley’s arm.
“Look! Maud and Toby!” She was squinty-eyed with malicious glee.
“I think Lauren invited Vanessa, too,” Carley told her.
“What fun!” Beth snickered. “Maybe we’ll get to watch some fireworks.”
Carley couldn’t help it. “Beth, if you want a catfight I think you’re going to be disappointed. Maud and Toby are happy, and Vanessa’s happy, too.”
“Oh?” Beth’s voice was suddenly sweet as sugar. “I’m so glad. So you’ve talked with Vanessa. Tell me, who’s the father of Vanessa’s baby?”
Carley dropped her head back and laughed. “Truthfully? I have no idea.” She left the eggnog table to greet Maud and Toby.
“Happy holidays,” she told Maud, kissing her cheek.
“Carley, what a dress! You look fabulous.”
“So do you. Come get some eggnog.”
Maud linked arms with Carley as they headed back to the dining room. Toby joined some men near the bar for a proper drink. More and more people were crowding into the room, so Carley had to shout to be heard and strain to hear what anyone else said. Dreadful Beth had gone into another room. Carley swooped down on a
platter of smoked salmon and fixed herself a small plate. She navigated to a corner with a group of feisty older women who’d gone as a group to Europe and regaled her with hysterical anecdotes.
She felt a touch on her shoulder.
“Hey.” Vanessa was there in a white dress that spread over her pregnancy, making her look like a sail in a full wind. “You missed our anticlimactic scene.” She wore her grandmother’s pearls. Her dark hair swooped up, showing off heavy pearl earrings and a swan’s neck. As ever, she looked amazing, even at seven months’ pregnant.
“Tell me.” Carley took Vanessa’s hand and led her to some chairs in the corner.
“Actually, I phoned Toby and Maud last night,” Vanessa confided. “They each were on a phone, so I told them I wanted to go to this party, and I didn’t want to create a scene or cause Lauren any discomfort, and besides, we all live on the island, so I wanted to be civilized.”
“Good for you, Vanessa!”
“Well, not so very good.” Vanessa chuckled. “Toby said fine, he would like to be civilized. Maud went all gooey. ‘Oh, Vanny, I want to be more than civilized, I want to be friends again, blah blah blah.’ I said, ‘Up your ass.’ ”
Shocked, Carley said, “You didn’t.”
“I did. It felt
so
good. Maud went completely silent. Then I said, ‘Anyway, now that I’m pregnant by a man with a penis long enough to get some sperm up inside me’—Toby’s penis was perfectly fine, I just needed to get a dig in—I’m happy and willing to live in peace. So when I see you two at the party, I’m going to be pleasant, okay?” She looked back through the hall to the living room. “I just got here. I stopped and said hello to Toby, who went red when he said hello. I nodded to Maud, who crinkled her eyes up the way she does and kissed my cheek.”
“Beth Boxer must be so depressed. She was hoping for a catfight.”
“I’m sure she wasn’t the only one.” Vanessa readjusted her bulk on the chair. “I never can get comfortable these days.”
“I remember how that was. You’ve always got a little foot sticking up into your rib cage.”
“More like a big head pressing on my bladder.” Vanessa chuckled, then held up her hand. “Don’t make me laugh.”
“What are you doing for Christmas?”
“Diane’s coming down from Boston. She’s never been on the island at Christmas, and she’s alone, too, so we’ll keep each other company and roast a turkey—and hit the sales after the twenty-fifth! Are you going down to your parents’?”
“Yes. The girls can’t wait.”
“What about your B&B?”
“It will close for a few days, then I’ve got it booked for New Year’s Eve.”
“New Year’s Eve.” Vanessa looked pensive. “Carley, do you ever think about other men?”
Carley smoothed her dress over her thighs, hiding her face from Vanessa. “Oh, I guess, if I’m truthful—”
“I need to sit down!” Rosy-cheeked and out of breath, Lauren threw herself into a chair next to Vanessa. “That’s it. No more high heels for me.” She kicked them off and rubbed her foot. “Women are so insane.”
“This is a fabulous party, Lauren,” Carley told her friend.
“Thanks. Secretly, I wish some people would leave. It’s too crowded, and it’s almost midnight.”
Carley looked at her watch. “I had no idea it was so late.” She stood up.
Lauren clutched her wrist. “Carley, don’t go! I didn’t mean
you.
”
“I’ve got to get the girls home. Cisco has riding lessons tomorrow. She’ll be a bear if she doesn’t get eight hours of sleep.” Bending down, she kissed Vanessa and Lauren on the cheek. “Thanks, Lauren. See you.” She waggled her fingers at both her friends before slipping through the crowd toward the basement stairs.
Cisco was playing Ping-Pong with Delphine. Margaret was on the sofa, watching a video with the other little kids, her eyes drooping.
“Come on, love bug,” Carley said. “Time to go home.”
Margaret was drowsy, almost limp. Carley called Cisco, hefted her little girl in her arms, and they went up the stairs and out to the mudroom where Cisco dug through coats and helped Carley get Margaret into her fluffy white fleece jacket and hat.
At the house, she got Margaret mostly undressed before tucking her into bed. Cisco had climbed into bed with her clothes on and was snoring. Carley went into her own bedroom and stood for a moment looking at herself in the mirror. She really did look great in the dress. She hung it carefully on a padded hanger. She pulled on her comforting flannel pajamas. She brushed her hair and smoothed some moisturizer on her face. She was so tired, she almost didn’t hear the knock on the front door.
Her heart thudded with alarm. She wiped her face, pulled her robe on over her pajamas, went down the stairs, and opened the door.
Wyatt
. Wearing khakis, a blue button-down shirt, and an old leather bomber jacket with fleece cuffs that made him look so sexy she almost keeled over. His brown hair obviously hadn’t been cut for weeks and curled over his ears and shirt collar. His skin was flushed with a healthy tan from a month outdoors, and his smile blazed.
“Wyatt! You’re not due back for two days.”
“I couldn’t wait. I flew back early. I’ve called you four or five times. You never answered your cell.”
She stared at him, stunned. She couldn’t think. Her
cell
? She’d turned it off sometime in the afternoon and left it on her desk in her office when she went into party mode with her daughters.
“Look. Can I come in? It’s cold out here. And I want to kiss you.”
“Me, too.” Smiling, she held the door open.
Wyatt stepped inside, shut the door, reached out, and drew Carley against him. He held her tight with both arms, stroking her hair, cupping her hip with one hand and her head with the other. She felt
the rise and fall of his strong chest against her cheek, the warm stir of his breath against the top of her head, the firm muscles of his back beneath her hands. They fit together perfectly.
He took her face in both hands, tilted her head back, and kissed her for a long time.
He pulled back, looked at her, and said, “Carley. God, I missed you.”
She put her hands on his chest to steady herself. “I missed you, too.”
He said, “Could we go upstairs?”
She said, “Yes, please.”
She cried when they made love.
Wyatt raised himself up on his elbows. “Am I hurting you?”
“No,” she assured him. “I’m just so happy. This is so … rich.”
Afterward, she lay on her side, Wyatt against her, his arm curled around her waist, his hand resting on her abdomen.
“That was nice,” he said.
She laughed deep in her throat. “Nice.”
“But that’s not all between us.” He tugged the down comforter up over her shoulder.
“Yes, I know that.”
“We have fun together doing other things. Things not in bed.” She pressed her back against his chest, loving the warmth. “That’s true.”
“And I like your daughters.”
Her heart stopped beating. Here it was, time for a decision. She wasn’t sure she was ready to make it.
“I did a lot of thinking while I was hiking, Carley. I don’t want to move too fast for you. I don’t want to upset or confuse your daughters, but what would you think if you and I started openly dating?”
Dating
. The word lowered the volume on her anxiety. This would help the girls get used to Wyatt’s presence in their lives gradually.
“I think it’s a good idea.” Thinking it through aloud, she said, “People in town will gossip. What about Annabel and Russell?”
“They leave in three days for Guatemala,” Wyatt reminded her. “What do you think?”
“They’re pretty overwhelmed with getting ready. I think it would kind of pressure them or even panic them to make them deal with this so close to their departure. Let’s wait until they’ve had some time in Guatemala. We can email them.” She cocked her head. “Or does that seem cowardly?”
“No, it’s good.” Wyatt shifted, turning on his side, pressing against her. “What about Christmas?”
“Christmas?”
“I’d like to spend Christmas with you and your girls. I’d like to get your girls really nice presents.”
“We always go to my parents’ for Christmas, Wyatt. It’s a family thing. We’ve made plans to go this year.”
He was silent for a long while. He cleared this throat. He shifted on his back. “Okay. Well, a friend has invited me out to Hawaii for Christmas. I wasn’t planning to go. I was hoping to be with you.”
“We’ll be home before New Year’s Eve,” Carley told him. She swiveled around, so that her head was on his arm, her hand on his chest. It was too soon to invite him to her parents’. Surely he must understand that. “Let’s have a little Christmas for the four of us before we go to my parents and you to Hawaii, okay?” She felt his chest rise and fall as he sighed deeply.