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Authors: Ann Lauterbach

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to minor treason—

                    infatuated

                    tables slanted up, legs raised

                    a motion of tears

                    quotidian exhaled

                        a farewell of sorts

      under logic, under guess, where the bug

      without much left

                      its all

      too small

               diligent marker

shipwrecked encyclopedia

coyote racing across a graveyard toward a flock of wild turkeys.

2.

OK, so

here is rain’s

insistent oblique

elderly contest

she who would have seemed

before this task

had resembled, but now

abstract, global

an abbreviated cost

there will be no generals

in our army of thieves

and the big library

will discover little poems

there is always violence

and clean elaboration of such.

What? What?

You want to ask
what?

3.

Unjust equation     night
is
night

  closes on a simple thing

  recurrent in the kneeling air

  collapse of particulars  say leaf say drip

  what is required is attached at the outer rim

  we in our love

                         also indicted

  because the frame extends only so far

  then around a corner then descent

  gradual glide into viscous air.

                 Up again? Is this another never,

         another cell, another impossible procedure, another

              X, another unsayable,

  thread lifted from a wall

  steel arc leaning in the public arena

  surface wax

  doctrinal silence

         huge installation of the instant

         hardly any water

                                 eyes of the rat

                            where there was rain.

Unmanageable        clock    partition    murmur

sincere, sincere    what is it you want?

beyond delusion’s skin, the characteristic eye

staring out again

fractured road   glossy     ravenous with suction

images among graves

                         so

apart from what you were saying

the tie looms

contaminated by what is not

sullied by sport

slender hands of the brute

dusting his lapels

                         so

unmoved  enchantment  as myth

unpinned   fallen   as wound

sojourn of the various   ablaze a cloister exhumed

      a cradle dumped

     darkened then darkened  entrance glued to endurance

                             so

 you had to mention the will

                             so

 were led away

doorstep forbidden

disestablished strip of the radiant plenum

                         bare-shouldered, strapless, sky.

VICTORY

Reverence for that dust.

The scale is overwhelming. I

cannot envision this ever getting done.

They took a lot away from us.

World rattles its harness.

Among, within us, too many injuries

as if in caves in mountains in snow. The train

whistled, a thing of air,

and the chorale also ceased.

Night took over even as the moon

came up blushing and round to lead us on.

The philosopher with the poker was in a rage.

Sebald perished in a crash. I looked up

to find the stars rambling across the sky and

that morning the starlings,

the starlings, I have nothing to say about starlings.

The body does not appear; enthusiastically, the guitar strums.

Shoes wander; vertiginous ascent, pathology of disorder

in which nothing is under the overlay

of a high-velocity near. The kids are on their snowmobiles.

I could kill them. I could speak of killing the kids

and not mean it. I could kill the snowmobiles

and ask the kids to look at the copulating

dolls hung from threads

and then at solace.

            If form is recurrence, who sighs at the

spoken?
Ah ah ah,
the anecdotal takes

sunset and moonrise into a regime.

To speak outside the retro-fit of

a target’s eye, blinking, hands waving as the ship pulls out,

empathy like a shadow on an object’s pyre,

the object’s stench

as the crowd presses

to climb the platform, snap the shutter,

watch it burn.

        Duration slit open?

Whiplash speed rising over the skull

as an idea, any idea, say a mask,

and the shreds now

catapulting our pleasure

into this

fissure or slit through which the eye

perpetuates its claim

and all it sees is

limitless enunciation, limitless screen,

undone by the actual yet called up by

readiness: cloth, snow, page,

trees at dusk ready to disappear.

The monochrome tugs at its frame.

The news will not assuage, greets

the about-turn reckoned

as victory’s norm

or sample contingent: in wartime,

reporters eat in or at the house of the vanquished.

FIELD

And then the threshold’s disobedient ink

traces the surprise of reproduction

to an adamant closure:

a child hides in dust.

As appetite subsides

intention is obscure. The blinds buzz.

Bald branches twitch.

Nature casts doubt onto the thing,

its rueful target begets a toy.

Kill!
cries the child, practicing,

as the globe

spins into vagrant cosmology.

TWIG

Coming toward herself

mumbling
they would say

the occupied nude

and the wretched antecedent

hair on white linen

the calibrated source

waving as she had waved

a flag or a scarf

and had fainted into dew

the stains of dew.

Once water had carried

the photon crypt

its surplus song

a riot of figuration

stranded

because she had come to rest

or was blinded or woke up.

FRAGMENT (SEPTEMBER)

Filtered through the cast of
happiness
so that

evening has the weight of unconditional assent

beyond the debris

HUM

The days are beautiful.

The days are beautiful.

I know what days are.

The other is weather.

I know what weather is.

The days are beautiful.

Things are incidental.

Someone is weeping.

I weep for the incidental.

The days are beautiful.

Where is tomorrow?

Everyone will weep.

Tomorrow was yesterday.

The days are beautiful.

Tomorrow was yesterday.

Today is weather.

The sound of the weather

is everyone weeping.

Everyone is incidental.

Everyone weeps.

The tears of today

will put out tomorrow.

The rain is ashes.

The days are beautiful.

The rain falls down.

The sound is falling.

The sky is a cloud.

The days are beautiful.

The sky is dust.

The weather is yesterday.

The weather is yesterday.

The sound is weeping.

What is this dust?

The weather is nothing.

The days are beautiful.

The towers are yesterday.

The towers are incidental.

What are these ashes?

Here is the hat

that does not travel.

Here is the robe

that smells of the night.

Here are the words

retired to their books.

Here are the stones

loosed from their settings.

Here is the bridge

over the water.

Here is the place

where the sun came up.

Here is a season

dry in the fireplace.

Here are the ashes.

The days are beautiful.

ELEGY IN AUGUST

Guess again at the brown bird’s cue. It is dry.

It is dry again, and so also still dry. So dry

it could be a French repetition, not weather at all.

These filmic follies. These skirmishes/décor

of the flat-chested actress with thin lips.

Enhancement of the singular does not count

or else this is an event among thieves

and the women who belong to the thieves.

So dry, so many, so common. The twilight brown bird.

The accretion of musical numbers. Counting, so.

But garden! Only hymns and slight poems to praise you

to your grave? But garden! We were there, we listened.

Michael had been invited to a convocation. He is

adored in other countries.

Michael! Only hymns and slight poems.

Only counted stones.

But garden!

And yet, in the heady nomenclature of the newly dead

there are forgotten words.
Hollyhock, cornflower, foxglove.

I dare you. I dare you to unplant the daisies

under glass. Only white flowers grow. But Michael!

Mais jardin,
Angel. Is a season

coming next or easily stranded

with the worried bird?

The brown bird, twilight, the white flame.

Is reason coming? Is this your curtain?

To be so lovingly displayed as Michael’s worth

(lilies, Queen Anne’s lace)

with the night-eyed ghost.

Planted these. Is it your garden?

Stone arch, bed, broken root.

Is it your garden? Your twilight?

The roses were stolen from China, with tea.

in memory of Margaret Schaffer

TOPOS

The dream modifies     not you but your hand

across the anomaly

                                 between question and answer

neither to say nor to write     betrayals.

   But the end of day is

                                   also unsayable, and so

     I think

           this is not funny, or I do not find it funny, and

               you may wonder what
this
or
it
might be.

                       To come upon the bird at its bath.

     To say

                   I love you

                             to find or think
I love you

                    where you and I are not here

     in the way the bird is not here and cannot know this love.

               So we inscribe that which is

                                  she was weeping

                 at what made

                             father and mother? Those?

                             I said these words

                             but which body?

      The world’s voices?

Plural wandering    a thief has stolen files

                                 along with the headset

  another synecdoche   one thing stands for another or for all

the deer’s antlers

painted as branches   the black painting the violent colors   “sunset”

         mythic proportions so that we can say Icarus

   or tell of the lover   or tell of the tower or tell of the father

       fires sending smoke to our sun

                        plural wandering

         as if the stones might know

                how the brow of the hill

                        the bedrock

            cropping out from vintage grass like a head

               a fossil of

                   kind.

To be on the ship    to have been on the island

                           to encounter the island

              to suggest the island

a conceptual accident    a version    no more than a version

                               of sunset.

And so we come across the credentials of the moon.

An insubstantial but visible
more

its augmented sum

another guide or force

         the difference between a guide and a force might be

   between science and myth

   or a teacher and wind.

I am thinking this after Garrett came on his motorcycle

and headed back down to the city toward the end of day

I had said if we omit the subject

and speak only the language of form

if the girl painting knows paint

and the boy writing knows words

but she has nothing to paint and he has nothing to say

how can meaning be made?

Form is responsive to subject

or subject to form

when they merge, content is made, content

is the merger of subject with form.

If subject remains only subject

if form is only form

there is no content, and no meaning

can come to those who look

or those who listen or to those who read.

These are necessary attachments.

to Garrett Kalleberg

SELF-PORTRAIT AS I AM

Not the law

abiding here, embodied, decorative

end-papers resembling Jackson Pollock’s
Painting No. 2
but

unfinished, pausing on the trek up the mountain for honey

an error on the dial and so

the person who no longer kisses on the mouth

the reason for that

visitor, as we are, moving through

but not wind

astonished at

wild fire    this is an image of direction

    so the songs go and so

fires

      some ashes on paper, the sun

      yellowish on its way down   it has no sound   the heat

                              abating  is local

              without spectacle

                       but the roads

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