Hurt Me (7 page)

I came back inside and didn’t see Evangeline anywhere. I could hear her in the master bedroom and couldn’t help but smile to myself. I walked into the bedroom and saw her staring out the window. The closet and the bathroom doors were open.

“Your home is really beautiful” she said. She turned and smiled at me.

“Is this the room you want to sleep in?” She nodded walked up to me and grabbed the blanket. .”

She took her bag into the bathroom and I took my shirt off and put on some jersey shorts. She came out in some shorts and a t-shirt. I have never seen a woman look so sexy and it was hard to hold myself back. I spread the blanket down on the floor and laid on it.

“You’re sleeping in here
, with me?” she asked sounding a little nervous.

“Well yeah. I only have one blanket.” I patted the floor beside me telling her to come over and lay down. And she did. I let her rest on my arm and she curled into my body. I wrapped the blanket around us and put my other arm around her. She was tracing the trail of tattoos I had on my chest when she started to yawn. She smelt so amazing, like the beach mixed with coconut and mango. I could get lost in her sent. “I like these
.” she said still tracing my tattoos.

“Do you now?” I asked her feeling myself smil
ing with pride. My chest had two swallows on top of each peck facing each other. And the other was a tribal that went from the top of my shoulder, on to my back, then to my side, and on my stomach. Feeling her run her hands across my back and shoulders made me shiver.

“Did it hurt?” she asked as she traced the
scar from where I got shot.

“Honestly I don’t remember. I was passed out before I could feel anything.”  She looked at me with sad eyes. The way she curled into my body made my heart melt. It made me want to do nothing but protect her. I started to feel myself getting angry thinking about her home life; I had to remind myself that she was here now and I wasn’t ever going to let her go back. I kissed the top of her head and watched her fall asleep in my arms. It was the greatest feeling I’ve ever had.

   I could hear my alarm going off on my phone, with my free hand I checked the time. It was 7:45 in the morning. I was already running fifteen minutes late but I didn’t want to move. I could lay like this for the rest of my life if I had to. Evangeline was stunning. Her pony tail must have fallen out in the middle of the night because her hair was draped across my chest enticing me with its wonderful scent. Her t-shirt rode up on her side where I could see her stomach. I felt my morning hardness twitch with excitement. I really need to gain some control of myself I thought.

   I kissed the top of her head and rand my hand through her long hair. “Evangeline we
gotta get up” I whispered in her ear. She jumped and sat up real quick. “Calm down Eve.” I told her. She ran her hands over her face.

“I’m sorry you scared me” She said looking at me with a little grin on her face.

“I like waking up with you” I grabbed her and pulled her back towards me. “Are you ready to get going? We got some driving to do.”

“
Mmmhhhmmmm” she moaned out before her eyes fluttered shut and she was out. I pulled my arm out from under her and packed my stuff and changed. I pulled out some jeans and shirt for Eve and put everything else in the truck. I left to go get some coffee and donuts down the road. I was praying she wouldn’t wake up while I was gone. There was a small store not too far I could be back in 20 minutes.

Walking through the front door I listened to see is she was awake. I didn’t hear anything. I walked in the room and she wasn’t there. I walked back through the house and saw her pajamas folded on the kitchen counter. I walked through the back door and there she was sitting on the porch looking like a goddess.

“I got breakfast.” I said lifting the donuts and coffee towards her. She grabbed them and set them beside her and patted the porch next to her.

“Sit down with me.” She said.

I did what she told me to and we ate in silence. I finished my last donut and asked “do you like it here?”

She smiled at me “Very much. It’s just so beautiful. I hate to leave.”

“Well, we’ll be back by tomorrow if we can ever get going.” I teased her. I stood up and then helped her up. We picked up our trash, she grabbed her pajamas, and we were off to my parents.

“How long is the drive?” she asked after we already had been driving for an hour.

“Not too long, just a few more hours.”

She rolled her eyes at me and tucked her feet
underneath her, Indian style and looked out the window. She eventually fell asleep. I still needed to tell her to pretend we were together just so my parents would leave me alone about Emma but I was scared of how she was going to react. Part of her acted like she wanted nothing but to be with me and another acted like she wanted none of me.

Chapter Twelve

I woke up to my head banging hard into the window. I looked up with my hand on my head. “Ouch” I said towards Allen. “Where are we?”

“Almost there, just another minute or two.” He looked at me excitedly. We were on a dirt road covered with ruts in it. I was starting to get super nervous; the killer scenario ran through my mind again. And then I remembered I would be meeting his parents and I wanted to throw up. Oh no I didn’t just want to I was going to. “Allen you need to pull over!” I said I was already grabbing for the door handle and as soon as he stopped the truck I was out and throwing up everything I ate for breakfast. Allen got out and held my hair for me.

“Are you alright?” he asked me with concern written all over his face.

“Yeah I’m fine, just nerves.” I felt like I was lying but it was part of the truth. He went to the backseat of the truck and pulled out a shirt from his bag and a bottle of water from the cup holder.

“Thanks.” I said as he handed it to me.

“He Eve can I ask a favor?” he asked.

“Yeah, what do you need?” I asked him starting to feel nauseated again. What did he need from me?

“I need you to pretend that we’re together, like a couple.” He wouldn’t look me in the eye instead he was playing with a flower he found on the side of the dirt road.

“What? Why?” I tried to act upset but part of me was excited and ready to play the part.

“I kind of told my dad we’re together to get him off my back.”

I started heaving again and thought my eyes were going to pop out of my head. When it stopped I looked up at Allen and he seemed nervous. I rinsed my mouth out and used his shirt to wipe my face before speaking again.

“Yeah it’s fine.” I said walking up to him. “Thanks for letting me use your shirt.” I threw it in the back of the truck since there was puke on it. He grabbed me and pulled me into a hug.

“Thank you
, Eve.” He then kissed the top of my head. My stomach was swarming again with butterflies. I couldn’t help but melt into him. He made me feel so different than I’ve ever felt. I was falling for him and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I knew nothing could ever happen between us, I am married and now I’m going to have to live with these feelings for the rest of my life. Part of me hated myself for going on this trip with Allen. I mean I was happy but I was giving in to temptation and letting myself feel pure bliss knowing that I’m going to have to go back to my old life tomorrow.

I pulled away “Well I guess we better get goin
g, boyfriend!” I joked with him. He smiled at me and walked around to his side. I would be lying if I said I didn’t like calling him my boyfriend. He was perfect in every way. I know these memories will be forever imbedded into my mind forever.

We went down the dirt road for another
five minutes or so and it opened up to a beautiful two story rock home. It had a huge front porch that wrapped around like Allen’s new home. There were shrubs that lined the porch and a nice flower garden lined with the walkway. There was a huge weeping willow in the front yard that looked amazing, the long vine like branches hung down all the way to the ground. The trunk stretched sideways taking up a huge part of the yard. Their home was absolutely gorgeous and I couldn’t help but picture what it must have been like growing up here.

Allen pulled up on the side of the house in front of a closed garage. He grabbed our bags and walked me inside. “Mom, Dad?” he yelled for his parents. No one answered back, “They must be at the stables.” He said. “Let’s go put our stuff up.” I followed him up the stairs and into a bedroom that had a connect
ing bathroom.

“Are we sharing a room?” I asked not sure what to expect.

“Well I thought since we’re supposed to be a couple and we slept together last night.” He gave me a pleading look.

I laughed at him. “I would love to sleep with you.” He looked at me and wiggled his eyebrows.
“Oh God, not like that.” My face was on fire “Not that I wouldn’t want too, I mean you’re hot.” I felt my palms sweating. “I’m just gonna shut up now.” I grabbed my bag and went into the bathroom trying to busy myself.

“So you think I’m hot?” he said coming in behind me and wrapping his arms around my stomach.

I was sure he could feel the butterflies under his hands. His fingertips played on the edges of my jeans teasingly. I was feeling hot, really hot. I had never felt this way before. I could feel my nipples start to harden just from his touch. I looked in the mirror and studied us for a minute. Allen was so much bigger than I but he was so gentle. We looked good together I thought. I looked at his face in the mirror and he stared back at me. His grey eyes taking in every inch of me, it made me feel like I was naked.  Watching me he kissed the top of my head, then my cheek, my ear, and finally my neck. He watched my reaction to his kisses and I felt his bulge respond to my light moans from his lips on my neck.

“Would you like to sleep with me?” He asked referring to my earlier statement. I wiped my brow with my hand while watching a playful little smile forming across his lips. He turned me to face him and stared into my eyes. I put my hands on his shoulders and moved them lightly down his arms and put them back at my sides. I wanted to
be with this man but I knew better. He was so appealing and felt so amazing under my hands I was having a hard time recognizing right and wrong at this moment. Something about this man made my mind go into a fog. He put his big hands on my waist and started to kiss my neck again. His mouth felt so good. He worked his way up to my ear, nibbling on it for a second. He kissed my jaw then moved to my mouth. I opened mine up to him without question and came into perfect sync with his. He picked me up and sat me down on the counter top. My stomach tightened with anticipation. I tried to find my voice of reason but I was melting into his hands.

   He whispered into my ear again. “Well are you
gonna give me an answer?” His deep gravelly voice gave my whole body chills. He pulled back and looked at me, in my heart and my soul. “Do you want me?” he asked. I silently shook my head yes not taking my eyes off him. My head was screaming at me to stop but my heart had taken over every part of me. He moved to kiss me again this time lifting me and taking me to the bed. He laid me down on the edge with my legs hanging off; he leaned over me and gave me the most passionate kiss I had ever felt. His hands were on my thighs, gripping them. He slowly moved them up to my breast focusing on my hard nipples. I was drowning in his kisses and I had no way out. I didn’t want a way out.

His hands went down to un-button my jeans and I shot up pushing his hand away. He pulled his hands b
ack and gave me a sad look. “Um,” I was trying to gather my wits. “I can’t do that Allen.” I looked down at my hands. “I’m married and I just can’t.” I felt defeated. Lee wasn’t even here, yet somehow he still controlled me.

“Then just leave him
, Evangeline.” Allen looked like he was getting angry.

“You know I can’t.” I was pleading at him, begging him to understand.

“Then why are you here? Why are you with me?” He started to pace the room. “I don’t understand. You want me, and then you don’t. I want no one but you Evangeline, ever since the first day I met you when you spilled hot coffee on me. I can’t think about anything else. You are always on my mind.” He looked at me, pleading me with his eyes to understand him. “All I want is you.”

“Allen please, you have to understand
my situation.” I felt the tears filling up my eyes. What was I doing here anyway? I was really fucking up everything and I hated myself for it. I felt the tears start to spill down my cheeks. I hated that I was crying and I hated that I was married. I hated what Lee did to me and now my future would never change. “I want to be here with you, Allen.” I managed to get out through the tears. I felt his arms wrapping around me. He sat on the bed and pulled me into him. He ran his fingers through my hair and told me everything would be okay. I just shook my head no over and over. “It won’t be ok Allen.”