I don't Wear Sunscreen (13 page)

“
Just lost balance,” he told
and took me home. I entered, left my handbag, and went straight to
the kitchen. “
I fucked my
life
,” the same sentence that I repeat from
day one.

“
You need this, karma is a
bitch, get fucked you badass.” I heard my husband shouting from the
hall. I need not peep out, I know he was watching WWE, which I hate
it more than how much I hate him and the fucking life am leading
with him. That sentence he told, pricked me hard,
yeah karma is a bloody bitch
, I told myself.

“
Am hungryyyyyy,” shouted
the guy sitting in padmasana on the bed, whom I married, as Sai
said on my face that he will no marry me and doesn’t have any idea
of marrying anyone else in his life. “yeah, coming,” I shouted and
crossed the kitched with dosas lined up one after the other with
the leftover Sambar. “Thanks!” he yelled and said again, “Come on,
hit him hard, oh yeah, baby…,” that pissed me off instantly, and
walked to the kitchen.

“
Did I ever propose you? Or
ask Laksha did I ever propose her. No, I mean I am clear of what I
want, I hate marriage and had no idea about it,” that’s how Sai
spoke to me the last day when I asked him about our future plans.
The one incident that strikes me hard, whenever I pick any grocery
item from the slab which had the branded seal “
Sai
.”

“
Am clear, I am not looking
for any girl to get married and live my life with. All, I enjoy is
the company that you girls give, I am sweet and good to them, ain’t
it?” The most toughest pill I ever swallowed were these questions
he threw at me. “A heart of stone,” I thought when I poured enough
water to the kidney beans in the bowl.

“
I got you a good job, you
were actually behind me for that. You told me laksha isn’t good,
and I didn’t even question you on that. The moment you picked my
phone the other day, I felt a reviving spark. You told me, it's
meant to be and hence you picked the call instead? Am I right? Did
I ever try things out or walked an extra mile to attract you back
to me after the Goa trip?” He pressed the big red button to shutter
between us.

“
I didn’t even disturb
Laksha, it was Saurav’s call to terminate her, and I didn’t say a
word on that. I still like Laksha and the happiness we shared. All
I need is a relationship that is more than friendship and less than
the relationships that you guys think.” Said the rolling in dough,
kind of Sai.

“
All fucked,” I thought.
Just like the chicken or the egg choice, I went picking a job which
literally cost me my whole life.

I went to the bedroom, and set things
aside to pass a wave on the bedspread to make it look neat for one
to sleep. The most posh looking and cute bedroom, must be Laksha’s
student, I thought, and walked to the other corner and slipped
myself in.

“
I am sorry Laksha, hope one
day, you will get to know the bitter truth but please hate me less,
I can’ afford to stand right in front of you,” I said to the Laksha
residing in me.

“
What's that in the paper?
Why have you been holding it for hours together?” Vasant asked,
“
wow, 2 questions in a row, sure shot! Good
improvement
” I thought.

“
It carries an article about
the campaign run today, and it has a picture of the students and
teachers from various colleges. This girl here is Laksha, my very
close friend, I just got to know she works at this college and
collected details about her,” I answered him.

“
She was zero’d one day, now
she stands tall, all by herself. She revamped, redesigned, and
flying out in colors now. Her mom is in a great position, she was
working for a small play school and now she started one of her own.
I feel proud,” I told with enchantment.

“
So you mean our kid gets
admission without having to pay?” he grinned and switched off the
lights.

I had to roll over the faker lying next
to me, rest my head over his chest, and shut close my eyes, with
satisfaction, and enough pain that rips her every day.