Into His Keeping (19 page)

Jill half sat up on her hip, one hand supporting her and reached for him. She grasped him and his hand covered hers from the other side, she couldn’t close her fist around him.

“What do you think that would feel like in your little pussy? You can’t even close your fist around it,” he demanded harshly. “I can prepare your ass, make sure you feel nothing but pleasure there. I can’t do that with your cunt.” Holdin sucked in a ripping gasp as her hand on him and the subject he was arguing almost became too much. “Your body was made to take a man there, but the first time will not be easy, baby.”

His hand tightened on hers, stroking up and down lightly. It wasn’t the first time she’d seen him or even touched him.

“That’s what I want to know,” Jill responded softly as she watched both of them caress him. “I want to feel you in me, Holdin.” Before he could answer, she leaned down and took him in her mouth. He stretched her jaw and she couldn’t even fit half his length in her before he hit the back of her throat.

Holdin barked out a startled groan as her head sank down over him. “Damn!”

Jill closed her lips and began sucking, letting her head bob on him as she pumped the base. He was so hot. The velvet flesh was pulled tight over pulsing steel as his hips jerked for her. Oh yes, he felt her. He couldn’t quite control his reactions.

“Jill!” Both his hands fisted in her hair to pull her off him and turn her face up to his. Her lips were swollen and her nose was a little red. She looked as if she’d just been sucking on a cock and he had to pause. She was so damn sexy. “Jill. I will be your first lover and I will be your last lover. I just don’t want to hurt you. Don’t you get it? Guys sometimes lose control. It feels so good they just… I might lose control. I might hurt you real bad. What if I can’t stop and you want me to? Damn it, Jill. I want you too much to risk it. I’m twice as big as you and I could hold you down with one hand and take what you’re not willing to give.”

“But you wouldn’t.” Her eyes were steady as she stared into his.

“You’re so sure?” he questioned softly.

“Yes.”

Holdin groaned and pulled her into his chest, wrapping his arms around her in a fierce hug. “Don’t ask this of me. Not now.”

“If you plan to be my lover at some point, how were you thinking to get there?” Jill wanted to know as he held her.

“I thought I’d wait ‘til you were a little drunk some time. Alcohol deadens nerves,” he confessed in a low, fierce tone. “I couldn’t think of another way without hurting you the first time.”

Jill lifted her head off his chest to look into his beautiful, stressed-out face. “I don’t want to be drunk and I don’t want to wait. Make love to me, Holdin. Make love to me now.”

Holdin framed her face with his hands. “I did, I have and I do, damn it. Don’t, Jill. Please.”

She looked at him a long moment. “Love me enough to let me feel the pain of loving you.”

“Baby, have mercy,” he breathed softly.

“Mercy refused,” she whispered back.

Holdin’s eyes closed as he sucked in a deep breath. She was demanding the one thing he wanted. He wanted her spread under him so badly it scared him. There was nothing but ferocious need when he indulged in that fantasy.

With other girls, the desire had been strong but nothing like he experienced over Jill. His needs with Jill were animalistic and base. He knew it. Entering her body in that most intimate way would be releasing an unknown element within himself. Taking her virginity might be more than either of them was ready for. How could he protect her from himself when he didn’t know what the threat would be? If there even was one?

His hands tightened around her face for an instant. When he opened his eyes, his face was set in a fierce mask. “You will do exactly what I tell you too. If we’re going to do this, I will be in control. Do you understand? You can’t fight me, baby. I don’t know if I could stop.”

Chapter Eight

Jill nodded in agreement.

“No. Say it, Jill. I want you to say the words so I know you get it. This isn’t something we can undo. You will give yourself to me in every way if we do this, baby.” He lay there waiting for her response as her big eyes blinked a moment.

Jill’s already tingling body heated at his demand. The firm, decisive tone he took was such a turn-on. “I’m yours, Holdin. I’ll do exactly what you tell me too,” she stated as firmly as she could manage.

Holdin suddenly rolled them over and loomed above her. Jill gasped as he roughly shoved her knees apart with powerful legs. His huge body covered her as his hands jerked her arms over her head and grasped her wrists in one of his. He was big and heavy. He smothered her with no effort and she couldn’t move. Jill’s eyes were huge as she looked up at his face above her. She was breathing roughly in reaction to the sudden shift. His cock felt as if it burned as is now rubbed up her mound and belly.

Holdin was breathing hard through flared nostrils, a tight grimace almost clenched his teeth together as he asked her, “How does that feel, Jill? You’re completely helpless beneath a guy who can take what he wants. Is it too scary? Tell me now, because I’m not going to hear you later.”

Jill’s eyes softened as her lids lowered. Her lips parted in short pants as she gazed up at him. “Don’t you feel how you turn me on when you do this?”

Holdin’s forehead dropped to hers and his eyes closed for a long moment as he sucked in a several deep breaths. Then his hand released her wrists and he peeled himself off her. Briefly sitting beside her, he pulled his boots and socks off then stood looking down at her steadily as he shoved his jeans down and off. Straightening, his fisted hands rested on his hips while jutting between his legs his cock appeared huge.

“On your knees, Jill. Give me your mouth and we’ll see if you can take it.” His command was hard, as were the male eyes that stared down at her.

Jill came to her knees. Her eyes were on his cock as her hands rested on his thighs and she leaned into him, opening her mouth.

“Hands behind your back. Spread your knees and get your eyes up here. I’ll tell you when you’re allowed to suck that,” Holdin snapped harshly.

A powerful shudder of excitement rushed through Jill as she looked up into his intense face. He’d never been so demanding and she’d never wanted to taste him so badly. She quickly placed her hands behind her and shifted her knees apart as he looked down at her.

His foot tapped a knee. “More, woman. I said spread. Rest ass on heels and straighten your back.”

Jill swallowed as saliva flooded her mouth and creamy excitement gushed in her contracting pussy. She spread her knees as far apart as possible, straightening her back so her breasts thrust forward as her shoulders were pulled back. Her hands clasped behind her in clammy anticipation. With her face turned up, she was shockingly exposed to him. The feelings rushing through her were almost too many to distinguish but what burned brightest was a dark pleasure as his eyes moved over her.

She’d had a taste of this kind of domination several times before, but never like this. Kneeling before him as he examined her exposed body was something new. Embarrassment that was not shame shot through her and heated her breasts. The tips actually ached as they swelled under his gaze. Deep in her belly it felt as if her soul trembled as she waited for him to speak, and she realized the thing she wanted more than anything was permission to put her lips to his cock.

Her reaction to his orders had been to make her hungrier for him. Did he know he did that to her? He must, she concluded as she felt her womb contract in empty protest as he looked down at her and didn’t give her permission to take his taste into her mouth.

“Do not move unless you’re told to, Jill,” Holdin growled as he watched her closely. At his words, she trembled again and he saw her body flush in a rush of excitement. Her reaction was further confirmed as he stepped back to get a better look. Her belly shook in uncontrollable shudders and as he inspected her, the folds of her pussy flowered in excitement. Swelling lips were pulled apart by her stretched stance. As he watched, fluid dripped to the blanket below her.

Holdin gritted his teeth. He’d meant to scare her. Give her another chance to change her mind. The flushed, trembling Jill kneeling before him was so excited she was making a puddle. He’d never seen anything as sexy as the vision she made right then.

His eyes shot up to her face again and he watched her swallow. Amazement washed through him. He grabbed her chin. “Open. Do not swallow without permission.”

Her breathing increased as she opened her mouth for him. He was watching her with a very stern look on his face as he held her jaw open. Suddenly Jill realized she couldn’t control the flow of saliva. He would see how badly she wanted his taste. The command not to swallow meant she couldn’t hide it. Saliva quickly pooled in her mouth and spilled down her chin. Holdin’s thumb moved slowly back and forth through it as it dripped onto her shuddering breasts.

“Look at you,” he breathed. “My girl is dripping for it. All over. Do you see how that needy pussy is wetting the blanket, baby? And look at your mouth. You can’t help it, can you?”

Jill moaned in a strangled admission. Embarrassment swamped her. He gazed down at her drooling face and saw her needs. It was almost too much as he smiled tightly and released her chin.

“Swallow,” he commanded softly. “So perfect, my sweet baby. Do you know how beautiful you are to me?” Even though he’d meant to be harsh, encouraging her with his approval was an imperative. She’d shocked him again. Teaching him with her response in ways words could not.

His damp fingers went to his cock and he stroked it slowly in front of her face, coating it with her saliva. “Is this what you want, Jilly-girl?” he asked.

“Yes,” Jill admitted softly.

“Yes, what?” Holdin pressed her just as quietly but there was steel in the low tones. “Ask for what you want, baby. Say the words. This is not wrong or dirty. This is what we both need from each other. Now be who you are, Jill. Be needy. Don’t try to hide it from me.”

“Yes, please, Holdin. May I…ah…” Her face was already flushed. She couldn’t blush any more but she had to swallow again to continue. The electric current of sexual excitement snapped around them as he required she ask for him in her mouth. She didn’t have time to marvel at the way he turned the level of her need up with each demanding, unbelievably embarrassing and at the same time almost painfully exciting command. He had barely touched her and she could feel herself almost dizzy with want.

Jill glanced down to give herself a little emotional space as she begged him for what she needed. She had no idea how she’d gotten here but was pretty sure he’d brought her to this place where feeling his cock in her mouth was something she was willing to beg for. “Please let me suck you.”

“Can’t say the words, Jilly-girl? Look up at me and say it again. Show me you’re mine. That mouth is mine and so is every other needy opening in your body.” His chuckle was low, almost a snarl. “I’m going to fuck your face, little one, and you’re so wet you drip. What a beautiful little bitch my girl has become.”

It was the first time he’d used such a word with her. Jill heard it, but it didn’t mean the same thing she’d always thought it did. He’d called her his, called her beautiful bitch and she loved it. She was one. He was right about the level of her excitement. For him, that was exactly what she was.

Both his hands cupped her head and his fingers curled into her hair, holding her face up to his. “Look at me,” Holdin paused as her eyes rose to his, “and ask.”

Jill couldn’t breathe through the excitement for a second as he looked down into her soul and dragged up her needs for his examination. Yes, she needed to feel him in her mouth. “Please, fuck your girl,” she whispered, and immediately he firmly pulled her to his cock.

“Remember, hands behind back, baby. This is how you get it this time.” The fat head teased her lips, Jill opened but he didn’t enter her. He followed her lips with the damp tip, painting them with his pre-cum. Her tongue flicked out to lick at the taste and he smiled.

“Hold that tongue out for me, Jilly-girl. Open wide and put it out there,” he commanded.

Jill did as told, her eyes on his face as he watched her. Holdin placed the tip of his cock on her little pink tongue and watched as a drop of pre-cum pearled for her. Jill’s body shook in reaction. “Swallow,” he commanded again, and withdrew his cock.

His fingers caressed her scalp as she gulped his taste into her body. “Good girl,” Holdin approved and her hips jerked in response. Looking down and making sure she saw him do it, he smiled at the dark, damp mark on the blanket below her. It was spreading.

“Eyes on me. Now open.” His thick member rested on her lips again. Staring fiercely down at her, he was pressing into her, holding her head and controlling its movements. He’d never done that.

His complete control of her had an amazing effect on Jill. Instead of feeling constrained, she felt relieved. He wouldn’t let her disappoint him. All she had to do was exactly what he directed and he’d even taken over her need to think about body movement. He’d left her one job, enjoy being what she was. She was free to sink into this amazing pleasure and let it consume her.

His fingers firmly cupped her head as he nudged to the back of her throat. Jill closed over him, taking all she could and sucking. One of his hands went to the base of his cock to stroke himself as his hips began to move.

His strokes into her were short jabs as his fist worked the thick base. Jill tried to lick him but she had no control and soon realized her job was to suck what he gave her as he gave it. He was truly fucking her face and it was driving her nuts.

His fist in her hair holding her for each thrust into her mouth, his intent gaze as he looked down at his cock sliding in and out of her. All of it was so amazingly new and yet completely as it should be. He made her feel hungry for him this way, and now it was a new pleasure to feel him move in and out of her.

Soon he grimaced and she felt him swell even larger, and then he pressed to the back of her mouth and held himself there as his fist worked his shaft.

“Swallow,” he commanded harshly, and jets of semen flooded her mouth. Jill swallowed as fast as she could, blinking back tears as the sensations overwhelmed her. He held her to him as he shuddered and jerked. It was difficult to breathe and yet amazingly erotic. She shook in reaction as her eyes turned up to his face, she watched her astonishing Holdin lose control to her. That was a new thought. One that sent little flicks of heat down her body. She was the one who’d given him this orgasm.

He stilled and then slowly withdrew from her. “Relax, baby,” he breathed. Holdin backed up to lean against the support post as Jill slumped down off her heels.

Jill couldn’t look up at the magnificent male panting as he leaned against the post. She felt like a mess. Shy glances told her that the way he was looking at her should have