Jane Goes Batty (12 page)

He stopped at a page and ran his finger down it. “Here we are,” he said. “Listen to this.

Ben shut the book. “I love that idea of the soul being indestructible,” he said. “It endures despite everything.”

“But it also has that bit about an unclean soul wandering in wrath and anger,” Jane pointed out.

“Which brings us back to Lilith,” said Ben. “Some scholars would argue that her soul, being unclean, is what caused her to turn into a demon. A vampire, if you will. Her bloodsucking is simply her attempt to steal a clean soul from someone else. But that in itself makes her own soul even more unclean, and so she can only be purified by being destroyed and allowing her soul to come back in the body of another, to have another chance at redemption, if you will.

“That’s kind of a lot to put on a three-legged dog,” Ben said as he stood and returned the book to its shelf.

Jane suddenly felt very cold. She had long ago decided that she no longer had a soul, that whatever had existed in her had departed at the moment of her transformation. Now Ben Cohen was suggesting that perhaps she was wrong about that.
Not that anybody really knows
, she reminded herself.
It’s all a lot of guessing
.

Still, she was shaken.

“So now that we’ve determined that you’re facing Grendel’s mother and her vampire dog, what are you going to do about it?” Ben asked.

Jane shook her head. “I was hoping you would tell me,” she said.

“I think you need to figure out what exactly it is that upsets you about her,” Ben suggested. “I don’t think it’s just the fact that she’s Walter’s mother. There’s something else going on.”

“If there is, I don’t know what it is,” Jane told him.

“Keep looking,” said Ben. “You’ll figure it out.”

“I suppose so,” Jane said, standing up. “I should go speak to Walter first. He probably thinks I’ve gone mad.”

“We’re all mad here,” Ben said. When Jane looked at him he
added, “Sorry. It’s from
Alice in Wonderland
. Sarah’s favorite book. I’ve read it so many times I’ve memorized most of it.”

“She sounds like someone I should like to know,” Jane said. Then a thought came to her. “If you don’t think it’s inappropriate, would the two of you like to come to dinner at my house?” she asked. “You could meet Grendel’s mother for yourself.”

Ben hesitated.

“I know,” Jane said. “You don’t normally socialize with people you counsel. I think, however, that we’re becoming something of friends.”

The rabbi smiled. “I believe you’re right,” he said. “And in that case, I accept.”

“Excellent,” said Jane. “How about tomorrow night?”

“As it happens, we’re free,” Ben replied.

“Good,” Jane said. “I’ll expect you at six.”

She wrote down her address for Ben, inquired after Sarah’s likes (hamburgers) and dislikes (anything involving celery), and returned to the truck. She got in and sat there for some time thinking about things. The whole question of her soul and its status was upsetting her more than she cared to recognize. But her more immediate problem was Walter and, to an only slightly lesser degree, Miriam.

She took out her cellphone and dialed Walter’s number. Part of her hoped he wouldn’t answer, but he picked up after only one ring.

“Where are you?” he asked, sounding anxious. “I’ve been trying to call you for the last two hours.”

“I’m sorry,” said Jane. “I must have turned the ringer off.”

A silence stretched between them like a thin, tight wire. Jane knew that, having caused the problem, it was up to her to make the next move. “We should talk,” she said. “I don’t suppose you can get rid of your mother?”

“Not permanently,” said Walter.

Despite the tension, Jane found herself laughing. “How about long enough for lunch?” she said.

“I think I can manage that,” Walter said.

“Meet me at the bookstore in half an hour,” said Jane. “We can go from there.”

“All right,” Walter said. “I love you.”

Jane bit her lip as tears came to her eyes for the second time that day. “I love you too,” she said.

As she drove to the bookstore she fought back feelings of panic. So much was going on in her life—and going poorly. She felt out of control, and that in turn made her want to retreat. Part of her longed for the quiet, secure life she’d had before
Constance
had come out and turned everything upside down.

But it was too late. Now she had no choice but to face her new life and all of the challenges it was presenting.
Your characters manage to do it
, she reminded herself.
If they can, you can. After all, you’re the one who told them what to do
.

“J
ANE
!”

“Jane.”

“Jane?”

“Oh, Ja-aaane.”

The voices came from all around her. Jane turned, trying to locate the sources, and saw Ant Doolan coming at her with a video camera. Behind him was Byron, behind Byron was Walter, and behind Walter was Beverly Shrop. Seeing them all, Jane’s heart began to pound.

“Jane,” one of the twins called. “There’s a phone call for you. A Jessica Aber—”

“Tell her I’ll call her back,” Jane told him as she walked toward Ant and the others, holding up her hand.

“Stop,” she commanded.

Her four visitors formed a neat line in front of her, like soldiers falling in for inspection. Before any of them could speak, Jane did.

“I’m taking the day off,” she told Ant. “Go find something else to do.”

She next faced Byron, who looked at her with a puzzled yet amused expression. “Yes, of course we’d love to do a signing for your new novel,” she said.

“That’s not why I’m—” he began.

“Just speak to Lucy about it,” said Jane, moving on to Walter. “You wait out front,” she instructed her boyfriend. “I’ll be just a minute.”

Lastly she addressed Beverly. “And what do
you
want?” she asked.

Beverly beamed. “It’s about the festival. As you may know, there’s a rivalry between Janeites and Brontëites.”

“Is there?” said Jane dryly.

Beverly nodded. “There is. So we—and by that I mean
I
—thought it might be fun to arrange some kind of game with teams composed of each group.”

“What kind of game?” Jane asked.

“Softball,” Beverly answered. “It seems easiest to manage. Of course,
I
would prefer croquet, but what with so many people—”

Jane sighed. “What has this got to do with me?”

“Oh,” Beverly said. “Well, I was hoping you might captain one of the teams. Mr. Osborn has graciously agreed to captain the Brontëites, and—”

Jane once more interrupted Beverly. “Have you now?” she asked Byron, who was in the process of pretending to ignore the conversation.

“What? Oh. Yes, I believe I have. It should be great fun, don’t you think?”

“I had no idea you were so fond of the Brontës,” Jane remarked. “Or softball.”

Byron feigned surprise. “Who
isn’t
fond of them?” he said. He winked mischievously at Jane, who glowered back.

“Very well,” Jane told a waiting Beverly. “I’ll do it. We can talk about it later.”

She turned and walked toward the front door. Walter was waiting outside, and she could see him pacing. But to her annoyance, Byron was following her.

“I suppose you think this is amusing,” Jane said. “Honestly. Softball?”

“I knew you would be enthusiastic about it,” said Byron. “But that isn’t why I came.” He gently took Jane’s elbow, forcing her to stop.

“Unhand me,” Jane objected, pulling away. But Byron’s grip tightened.

“You’re in danger,” he said in a low voice. “We’re
all
in danger.”

“What are you talking about?” asked Jane. “All
who
?”

“All of
us,
” Byron said. He smiled, and for a moment Jane saw his fangs. Then he retracted them. “Someone is here who means us harm,” he said.

“And just who is it?” said Jane. “Don’t tell me Our Gloomy Friend is back.”

Byron shook his head. “I don’t think it’s she,” he said. “Although I suppose it could be. For the past day or two I’ve just felt something wasn’t right.”

“Oh, well then,” Jane said. “Now that’s much clearer.”

Byron leaned in even closer. “Listen to me. I don’t know who it is. But I sense something. Maybe if you’d developed your powers instead of running from them, you would sense it too.”

“I’ve
been
practicing,” Jane said.

“Just be careful,” said Byron. He stepped away. “We’ll just see about that,” he said loudly and cheerfully, confusing Jane. “I’ll have you know I pitched a mean softball game when I was younger.”

“Is that so?” Jane replied, playing along. “Well, we’ll just see how many touchdowns you get!”

Byron shook his head.

“How many goals you get!” Jane said as several customers began to laugh.

Byron grimaced.

“Baskets?” Jane asked.

“Just go,” said Byron, rolling his eyes. “Now.”

Jane walked quickly to the door and went out into the warm afternoon sun. Walter immediately descended upon her, taking her hand. “I’m so sorry about this morning,” he said. “I shouldn’t have sprung it on you like that. I don’t know what came over me. One minute we were talking about the house and then I was talking about getting married. And my
mother
, well—”

“It’s all right,” Jane said. “I’m the one who should be apologizing. The way I ran out of there, I can only imagine what your mother thinks.”

“She seems fine with it, actually,” Walter said.

“Well, that makes me feel better,” said Jane.

Walter indicated the store with a nod. “Shouldn’t you get back?” he asked. “It sounds as if everybody wants something from you.”

“No,” Jane said. “I asked you to lunch, and that’s where we’re going.”

“Okay,” Walter said. “What would you like?”

Jane thought for a moment. She didn’t want to go anywhere near the store, as it would be too easy for people to find her there. Then she had an idea.

“Come on,” she told Walter. “I know just the place. Oh, but you’ll have to drive. My car is … indisposed.”

With Jane directing him, Walter drove to the restaurant she’d chosen. When they pulled into the parking lot he looked at Jane quizzically. “Here?”

“Absolutely,” Jane said, opening the car door. “You’ll see why.”

The broad front doors of Tiki-Tiki featured the giant, grinning face of some unnamed god carved into the wood. Walter grabbed the handle somewhere in the vicinity of the tiki’s nose and pulled, the enormous face parting neatly down the center to allow him and Jane entry. Inside, the restaurant was a re-creation of someone’s idea of a Polynesian village, complete with burning torches,
booths seemingly made from bamboo lashed together with rope, and a smiling hostess wearing a grass skirt and a bikini top printed with garish pink hibiscus.

“Aloha,” the girl said. “Welcome to Tiki-Tiki.” She stepped forward and placed around each of their necks a garish lei made of gathered plastic strips intended to look like flowers.

“More like Tacky-Tacky,” Walter whispered to Jane as the hostess led them to a booth.

“Which is exactly why no one will think to find us here,” Jane said. She removed her lei and dropped it on the table. Walter left his on as he picked up the laminated menu and perused it.

“Aloha,” said a cheerful voice. “Can I start you off with a drink?”

Jane regarded the young man standing next to the booth. He wore a shirt made of the same hideous print out of which the hostess’s top was made, but instead of a grass skirt he wore surfer shorts and flip-flops. The effect was a grotesque parody of Polynesian culture as filtered through the mind of someone who had clearly never experienced the real thing. Jane found it fascinating.

“Something with rum,” she told the waiter. “And an umbrella.”

“I’ll have the same,” said Walter. He looked across the table at Jane. “I have a feeling I’m going to need it.”

The waiter withdrew to get their drinks, and Jane leaned back against the cool vinyl of the booth’s bench. “It’s all too much,” she said. “The movie. The DVD nonsense. The new book I can’t seem to write. Beverly Shrop.”

“My mother,” Walter added. “Me.”

Jane shook her head. “You’re the one thing that isn’t too much,” she said.