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Authors: Emily Schultz

Tags: #Literary, #Fiction

Joyland

ALSO BY EMILY SCHULTZ

FICTION

The Blondes
(2012)

Heaven Is Small
(2009)

Black Coffee Night
(2002)

POETRY

Songs for the Dancing Chicken
(2007)

“The house we hope to build is not for my generation but for yours. It is your future that matters. And I hope that when you are my age, you will be able to say as I have been able to say: We lived in freedom. We lived lives that were a statement, not an apology.”

— Ronald Reagan

JOYLAND GAMEBOOK

The things no one knows. Not even the best players.

Chris Lane stockpiles facts to use, like weapons, against his father, in a showdown that will never occur. He cruises through like a digitized arrow, meant, somehow, to represent a human. (50 points)

Tammy Lane is eleven and a half and she has already fallen in love many times. She does not yet know what love is, but the blue estuaries in her heart are large enough to have carried half a dozen devotions already. (75 points)

In 1984, Joyland video arcade closes its doors. At one time, Space Invaders was its most popular game — in spite of a dank row of boogers left anonymously along the machine’s back edge. (100 points)

Unrequited love will almost always lead to violence. Some may know this, but in the heat of the moment, this information will be misplaced. (500 points)

Somewhere in the rustbelt of Ontario, there is a girl named Genevieve Cartier. You will never meet her. She is the key to everything. (1000 points)

In a few years, North America will undergo an economic shift. The factories will lock their doors. Only a faucet forging shop and a few dirt roads will remain. Every time Chris Lane washes his hands, he will feel his own imminent death, a closing down. (Lost player)

LEVEL 1:
GALAGA

PLAYER 2

The girl who was flopped on the carpet knew cities of jacks, terrains of kitchen crumbs, the dumb wooden legs of furniture, and all that lay between them. The worn spot beside the right pedal her father’s piano foot had stamped and thumped, and vigorously rubbed off. The catalogues and as-yet-paperless presents beneath her mother’s side of the bed. The jagged letters of her brother Chris’s name gouged white into an underlying beam of the playroom table (which had since become a study table), though he would not now admit that the letters had any association with him. The difference in vibration of footfalls — the hesitancy of her mother’s, the severity of her father’s, the singular triumphant stomps issued by Chris. The place to look for a lost Lite-Brite peg, a kicked Tinker Toy, a clumsy fallen Battleship, an elastic-shot chunk of Lego. The stretch of linoleum where a marble or HotWheels would stall. Whether or not a doll’s shoe would fit beneath the door. First, second, third, and fourth grade accumulated between individual grains of shag. When Tammy rose up, she was halfway through Grade Five, she would soon start Six. She had witnessed the beginning of her life from this fixed, ground level. She teetered through the house off balance, unaccustomed to being vertical. By her eleventh birthday, she had found her footing. Eventually, she became addicted to height, learned to climb.

That summer, Tammy Lane was brave enough and strong enough to reach the very top of the maple tree in her backyard. From there, she could see the cars on St. Lawrence Street shooting past. She could see her brother flying away down the sidewalk on his bmx. She could see him flying away from her, away from everything she had ever known. Tammy watched afternoon lapse into evening and waited for him to come home.

Chris zigzagged through the grocery store parking lot, his butt in the air as the front tire cleared the curb and dropped him into the street. He disappeared through the branches. According to Tammy’s
Big Book of Spy Terms
, he was “in the gap.” When he reappeared, he was at the corner near the donut shop. Tammy lost him then — longer, “in the black” — and when she spotted him once more, he had doubled back through the grocery lot, riding hard and quick with his head down. Tammy pulled herself up by a branch she didn’t trust, crooked her body onto a side bough that bent away from the trunk — at an alarming angle. The branch had been cut off and had veered, growing at a ninety degree angle from its sacrifice point, though not during Tammy’s lifetime. She held tight, looking down, a thirty yard drop. She glanced back up just in time to catch Chris dodge into the string of back lots of the businesses on St. Lawrence.

Parallel, she located them: three shapes moving in the stretch in front of the donut shop. Bright blue track jackets and yellow hair bands. Girls.

To Tammy’s knowledge her brother had only six fears. One, their father (though Tammy couldn’t begin to fathom why). Two, J.P.’s older brother, who terrorized them on occasion (the same way J.P. and Chris liked to terrorize Tammy). Three, classical music (or anything other than hard rock and metal). Four, visiting their grandfather, but only because it meant being away from Joyland for days at a time (days, Chris said, that would make him “a total amateur again”). Five, ostriches (because he was once bitten while visiting an animal safari during family vacation). Six, clowns (due to too many viewings of the movie
Poltergeist
).

To this list, Tammy added number seven. Girls (an un-discriminating category including nearly all, except her).

Fears numbers three and four probably didn’t count. Still, Tammy left them in. Chris’s seven fears were a thumb-sized wedge in the pie graph compared to all of hers. The Seven Fears. Like the seven dwarves, fears were real and respiring, each with its own distinct personality.

She pressed chin against branch and let her lips trail over the grey, leaving a wide wet mark, the kiss of the bark on her lips like a hard, scarred thing. She dropped her forehead to the branch and closed her eyes. When she opened them again, Chris and the girls were both long gone. Tammy swung from one limb to another, carefully, letting her body hover in the space between just a fraction of a second longer than needed to obtain the exhilaration of floating.

On the outskirts of South Wakefield, on the other side of St. Lawrence Street, the building slouched like an extra baseball player on the bench: the disappointed V of eave, hands between the knees. Its back was covered in an emblematic tongue, the Rolling Stones’ logo stitched to the concrete by an ecstatic spray nozzle held in a talented anonymous hand. Chris’s paradise, Joyland, was scabbed with black paint, outside and in. He would come over as soon as Tammy jerked open the door of the establishment. He’d turn from the machine, as if he had caught a whiff of “sister” through the smoke; as if there were evils waiting to pounce, and then he would usher her out, all authority. This was their ritual. When the arcade had opened back in 1980, Tammy was seven-and-a-half and really didn’t have any business being there. Alone, too short to see what was on the screens, she had looked for her brother between legs of worn blue jeans — cigarette packs bulging in back pockets, and obscenities falling off guys’ mouths like ash off their cigarettes. And first, she had to cross the street. Cars gunned by at seventy, though the sign said fifty.

Today, Tammy had gone halfway and was waiting for the last two lanes to clear when J.P. Breton emerged from the arcade.

“Someone tell Chris Lane his sister’s stuck in the middle of the road,” he yelled back through the door.

“Hey, just callin’ it like I see it,” J.P. laughed, not even flinching when Tammy slugged his skinny arm. He reached up and adjusted the strap of his ball cap, letting his corkscrew hair half-free before he matted it back under. He was one part Scottish and three parts French, with an Afro that rivalled Michael Jackson’s and eyes as blue as Michael J. Fox’s.

“Y’ain’t never gonna get him to go home. Pffft — not today.”

“Why not?”

“It’s the last day.” He snorted when he said it, as if surprised by the statement’s hilarity. Then, scowling, he wound up for a kick, powerhoused a pop can across the parking lot. It hit the curb and fell. He squinted into the distance as if there was something there that was monumentally fascinating. “We’re not supposed to know, but there’s a rumour.”

They stood there under the arcade’s hand-painted sign. Edged red, gold jagged letters veered into one another like spaceships crashing. Above the black background floated a single floodlight that turned on at night. Now, five o’clock and June-bright, blue sky yawned behind the dark sign.

“Got any quarters?” J.P. asked. Tammy bit her lip for a second, reached into her pocket to fork them over. “You should play. While you still can.” His hand fell on Tammy’s shoulder as he ushered her inside.

As Tammy entered Joyland the smell of microwaved meat welcomed her along with a breathful of smoke. Below the pinging and powing of games came the low hum of hot dogs wrapped in paper towel, basking like babies in receiving blankets behind the pinhole plastic of the TV-sized oven. A dampness weighed the room down. The afternoon sun settled on the blond forearms of boys, in motion at the wrists and elbows, their ball caps pushed back from glistening foreheads; the girls, just dark curving shapes streaming from the yellow jukebox. The microwave door snapped open and shut, plastic on plastic. Coins rang through slots. The bells on the front door rattled as it fell shut behind Tammy and J.P. He looped her shoulders protectively, salt and vinegar released from the skin beneath his mesh sleeves. Tammy was here for the first time to play. She’d just been born.

“Come on.” J.P. gave her shoulder a squeeze before his arm fell away.

She followed him through the maze of games as if treading carefully through the secret garden that had grown at last, flower heads heavy with neon rain. Boys were bowed over the screens and other boys clustered around them. Their bodies branched away from one another even as their faces leaned close in concentration, cheeks illuminated.

At the end of the row stood her brother.

In the long line of boys in cut-offs and muscle shirts, a couple of them shirtless, Chris stood in a pair of full length brown cords, chalk-blue T-shirt tucked in at the waist.

Chris always stood with his weight more to one side, giving him an air of impatience. Today was no exception. He leaned to the left, palming the Fire button with what seemed like growing exasperation. Bottom lip curled under canine — Tammy watched the small stitch of white concentration she knew so well. He didn’t notice them as J.P. loped up and stood beside him. J.P. said nothing. Tammy followed his example.

Her brother pumped the red Fire button. Green and yellow space moths spun, a pinwheel on the left side of the screen, before forming a jet upward, the sorry remnants of their fleet lining the top of the disco-lit sky. Chris let his bottom lip loose of clenched teeth and his face settled into a placid dark cloud. One might expect his eyes to move back and forth, but he was almost meditative. Cool. Guiding his gunship with eyes that took in everything at once, rather than singular objects. Muscles coiled tight; the rest of him calm. Tammy observed the slight twitches at the corners of his lips, the orange explosions that were the result of his tapping fingers. Alien insects evaporated in puffs of pollen.

Her brother’s face was smug, almost sullen, even in victory. His thick lips flattened in a tight sideways smile that held its true happiness back. There were always two of Chris — the one who protected her and ushered her out of Joyland, and the one who let his friends noogie the back of her head or drag her across the grass by her feet.

This was the latter Chris. Chris the champion.

His gunship glided across the bottom of the screen, dodging dive-bombing red butterfly ships. A train of tiny scorpions emerged, their curling tails trailing down the sky. Chris killed them with three successive shots. One of the gigantic moths swooped down. Hovering, it shot out blue cyclone-shaped rays, sucked Chris’s gunship up in the beam, spinning end over end. Ominous music. FIGHTER CAPTURED. The enemy dragged Chris upward, tucked him behind its back when it reached the top. A new fighter was given and, biting his lip again, Chris avoided bullets, taking careful aim. The insect exploded. The captive ship fell to the ground slowly, joining with its saviour. A strong double force.

With the two ships steering as one and twice the firing power, Chris cleared the board quickly and advanced to the challenging stage. He nodded. “Ready to take over?” Glancing at Tammy for just a second, he made a move as if to step back from the machine. The first insects began to pour down the screen in a perfect line.

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