Land of the Silver Dragon (31 page)

I became aware that the pause between one sentence and the next had lengthened somewhat. Alarmed suddenly, although I did not know why, I brought my attention right back to Hrype.

Acknowledging the fact, he nodded. ‘And then,' he said, ‘Cordeilla discovered she was pregnant.'

I think I knew the truth, instantly, even while my mind was weaving about trying to evade it.

Fighting what I'm sure I had already accepted, I thought,
Cordeilla's husband changed his mind, and the result was this new conception
.

Next:
She knew the child wasn't her husband's, and she quietly aborted it
.

Then:
The child was born but did not survive
.

I forced myself to look at Hrype. ‘Did the child live to adulthood?'

‘He did.'

After that, there was nowhere else to go. No comforting explanation behind which to hide.

My grandmother's third-born child was my father.

‘Nobody knew,' Hrype said presently, as if that made a difference. ‘Cordeilla and Thorfinn had been very discreet. In addition, she had shared her husband's bed during the summer, so there was no reason for him to think the baby was not his. When the child was born, Cordeilla explained its dissimilarity to her husband by telling everyone it looked like her brothers. Which, indeed, it did.'

Slowly I nodded. I hope Hrype saw; I couldn't have spoken just then, but I didn't want him to think that shock had closed my ears and I was no longer listening.

‘The years rolled by,' he resumed, ‘and, a couple of years on, Cordeilla conceived again, giving birth to twin daughters. The elder, as you know, is a true child of her mother, with Cordeilla's quick intelligence, wits, magical ability and, of course, her healer's touch. Her appearance, fortuitously, supported Cordeilla's claim that her third son's colouring and large frame came from her side of the family, for, although she did not have the large stature, Edild did inherit reddish-fair hair and light green eyes, just like her uncles. The second twin, poor Alvela, was small and dark, like her father and the eldest pair of brothers.'

Hrype paused, looking at me closely as if to gauge my reaction to this astounding news. Deliberately I kept my expression neutral. If he suspected a fragment of what I was feeling, he would probably stop. I could barely endure to learn more, but it would be even worse if I didn't hear the end.

After some time, he said quietly, ‘Cordeilla loved all five of her children, but Edild and Wymond were the ones she kept closest to her heart. And it was Wymond, of course, with whom she chose to live when she could no longer manage alone.'

She clove to Edild because she was so like herself, I thought, both in character and abilities, and she had the healer's gift.

And to Wymond – my father – because he was Thorfinn's son.

If Thorfinn was his father, that made him my grandfather.

It was no wonder I'd grown so quickly to love him.

I was still clutching the shining stone. My grandfather's stone, left in the care of my grandmother to be passed on to someone who, in the fullness of time, would be the right recipient.

That someone was me, and the awareness of my responsibility was only just beginning to dawn on me. To say I was apprehensive nowhere near described the storm of emotions I was suffering, chief among which was terror.

I wanted to put the stone down.

I didn't think I could.

Do it
, a voice seemed to say.

I gathered all my courage, drew a deep breath and, slowly, carefully, reverently, laid the sacking-wrapped stone on the damp earth.

Instantly I felt so light-headed that I could have sworn my feet left the ground.

I was vaguely aware of Hrype, looking over his shoulder in the direction of the village.

He turned back to face me. ‘Are you all right?'

I nodded.

He reached out and briefly touched my arm, giving it a quick squeeze. His hand was warm, and very comforting. The he said, ‘I'm going to leave you here.'

I was too distraught to ask why. Perhaps he thought I needed some time alone to adjust to all that I had just learned. To adjust, too, to being the new keeper of my family's great treasure ...

He was walking away. Something occurred to me: something vital. ‘Hrype!' I called out.

He spun round. ‘Yes?'

‘Does my father know?'

Slowly he shook his head. ‘No, Lassair. The only person here to whom Cordeilla revealed her secret was me.'

I had not the least idea whether to be glad or sorry.

I stood there alone, and slowly time passed. I had the sense that I was waiting for something.

Some
one
.

A mist had fallen, obscuring the moonlight. Presently, a tall, broad figure loomed up out of the darkness.

Thorfinn said, ‘So now you know.'

I nodded. ‘Yes,' I whispered. Then, the tangle of my thoughts straightened itself out a little and I said, ‘
You
knew too?' He had to; why else had all this happened?

‘I did,' he admitted. ‘Not until many years after the child, your father, was born. She sent word, you see. Ships sailed by my kinsmen regularly visited the fens, as indeed they still do, and it was not hard for her to find someone kindly and discreet who knew where to find me and could take a message. Once she knew I would not come back to claim her and my son, she felt it was the right thing to do.'

‘Why would you not come back?' I was weeping again.

‘I was married, with a growing family of my own. She knew that – knew, too, that I could not abandon them.'

‘You could have just visited!' I cried. ‘Didn't you want to see your son? Couldn't you have spared just a few days – a few hours, even – to see what he was like?'

Thorfinn sighed. ‘It would have been too painful for both Cordeilla and for me,' he said heavily. ‘But, as to not wishing to see him, I have regretted every single day of my life that I was not able to.'

I knew he spoke the truth; the naked emotion in his voice came from his heart.

He could not see his son, my father, even now; the resemblance between them would be clear, for those with eyes to see it. In a flash I recalled those moments back in Iceland when I had experienced a sense of familiarity about Thorfinn. I understood now why they had happened: in some subtle way, in some deep place inside my head far from conscious thought, Thorfinn reminded me of my father.

He might not be able to see his son, but there was something I
could
offer. Looking at him with a smile, I said, ‘Do you mind getting a bit wet?'

I stood back and let him go on to her alone. It was a moment of intense privacy, and I didn't think he'd want anyone with him.

From a distance of a few paces, I watched as, at long last, my grandfather knelt on the ground and, head bowed, joined his spirit once again with that of the woman he had loved and lost.

Back on the mainland once more, I thought I should quickly get Thorfinn back to warmth and comfort. He was well wrapped, but he was wet to the thighs, and I didn't think it could be good for him. Somewhere, there must be a bed waiting for him; Einar and his crewmen could not be far away.

But my grandfather had other ideas.

Ignoring my protests, he took a firm hold of my arm and led me away from the village, down to a slight rise on the southern edge of the bulge that is Aelf Fen. We drew to a halt, and he pointed out over the restless water.

I followed the line of his outstretched arm. I saw a sleek longship: a dramatic, dark shape against the silvery, moonlit water. She was moving away, slowly and carefully, her swift power reined in, for her crew would be all too aware that they rowed in shallow, unknown and possibly treacherous marshland waters.

Even moving at walking pace, it was clear what she was. A true Norse longship, with shields along the gunwales and a fierce serpent figurehead, she was truly magnificent.

She was all but indistinguishable from the ship of my vision.

‘Malice-striker,' I whispered.

Thorfinn gave a grunt. There was pain in the sound. ‘No, but Skuli's ship is very like my own craft, as she was in her prime,' he said gruffly.

‘I've seen your ship,' I reminded him softly. I had seen both the living ship, with the inner sight of vision, and also what remained of Thorfinn's Malice-striker, on a faraway shore in Iceland.

It was here, though, in the fens – almost on this very spot – that I had seen the dream ship. There was magic about tonight, too, as there had been then, and such a thing seemed not only possible but entirely probable.

Thorfinn turned to me, about to speak, but I did not let him. ‘I don't mean the skeleton ship on the shore in your homeland,' I said softly. ‘I meant my dream vision.'

And, at last, I told him what I had seen.

He listened, accepting my quiet words, as I had known he would, with a nod. ‘I sailed here, long ago,' he murmured. ‘As you now know.' The shadow of a grin creased his face. ‘You probably caught a whisper of the shade of that earlier time, for, as with all things, it is still here to see for those who look with the right eyes.'

I looked out over the water again, aware that Thorfinn, beside me, was doing the same. Skuli's ship was gaining speed. He was going, away from me, out of my life. Without the stone for which he had risked so much and caused such a sum of trouble, grief and pain.

‘Where is he going?' I asked in a hushed voice. ‘Is he heading for those fearsome rapids, where his grandfather –' who must have been Thorfinn's uncle, I thought suddenly, my mind reeling; his mother's brother – ‘met his death?'

For some time, Thorfinn did not answer. After a while, and it sounded more as if he were intoning a chant than speaking, he said, ‘They will sail out into the North Sea, then into the great river network that forges its way through the vast continent over there to the south and the east; the route that leads from the Varyani to the Greeks.'

I did not know what he meant. ‘From the Gulf of Finland up the River Neva, through Lake Ladoga, the River Volkhov,' he sang, ‘on, on, passing out of the northern forests and emerging on to the steppes; by portage to the Dneiper, and on to the great power centre of Kiev, where men of all shapes and hues come to buy and sell. But that is not the end of the voyage, for it goes still on, on, across the Black Sea until at last, if the gods smile on them, they will reach their journey's end.'

I did not ask where that was. I did not want to break the spell, and, anyway, I believed I already knew.

But my grandfather told me anyway.

‘Skuli and his crew are going to Miklagard.'

I
t was wonderful to spend a couple of days in Aelf Fen with my family, just happy to be together, unharmed and safe, as we all put the drama of the past few days and weeks behind us. As people do when they have emerged on the sunny side of bad events, we kept repeating things that had happened, even though most of us knew every last detail by then. It is the way, I believe, that we assimilate traumatic happenings and put them firmly behind us.

My own favourite bit was the description of my mother and her pan. I just wish I'd been there to see it.

I tried, as much as I could, to remain in the shadows and just watch and listen to everyone else having fun. I just wasn't in the mood for merrymaking. For one thing, I was having to keep several things secret. My parents and my brothers didn't know about how I'd been abducted by Einar and spirited off to Iceland. Nobody had told them. They thought I'd been in Cambridge with Gurdyman the whole time, and I saw no reason to alter that. If I now revealed the truth, I'd have to explain, and I really didn't want to do that.

Besides, I was now occasionally experiencing the disturbing feeling that something else was going to happen.

No matter how hard I tried to tell myself it was nothing more than the after-effect of all the excitement, I could not quite make myself believe it.

In addition, I had to keep from my beloved father the fact that Thorfinn and his son were very closely related to him: about as close as you can be, in Thorfinn's case. If I told them about Iceland, I'd have to explain why Thorfinn had been so eager to meet me, and to have me mix with my kinsfolk and experience a small taste of what their life was like on that extraordinary island so far away to the north.

I did wonder if my father suspected the truth. The story I told was that the Norsemen knew the shining stone had been left in the keeping of a woman called Cordeilla who lived at Aelf Fen, and had sought me out to help them find it because they knew I was Cordeilla's granddaughter. The family appeared to believe it, but once or twice I looked up to find my father watching me with an expression on his face that suggested he knew I was holding something back, and that by doing so I had hurt him.

I found that all but unendurable.

The trouble was, it wasn't my secret to tell. His mother, whom he had both loved and respected, had slept with another man, and my father was the result. If Cordeilla had chosen not to tell him, I did not think it was up to me to reveal the truth.

The reasoning was sound. It didn't make it any easier.

The other factor in my not being terribly enthusiastic about the celebrations was that I was missing Thorfinn. I had watched Malice-striker sail away, and the big, broad-shouldered figure that I knew to be Thorfinn remained standing in the stern until, blinded by tears, I could no longer make him out.

The only person in the village who knew what Thorfinn and I really were to each other, and why it was so hard to see him go, was Hrype. For a variety of reasons, I didn't feel I could go and cry on his shoulder.

Therefore it was with considerable relief that, on the morning of the third day, I announced I was going back to Cambridge. It might have been my imagination, but I thought my father's farewell hug was tighter than usual. As I hugged him back, I whispered to him that I loved him.