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“That’s what I said!” she screams. “I said that someone was in the apartment, but you didn’t believe me, you never do! If only you had believed me then—”

Erik cuts her off. “Listen to me,” he says. “The front door may have been open two nights in a row, but Josef Ek was in his hospital bed the first night, so he can’t have been in our apartment then.”

Simone is not listening; she is still trying to get up. Groaning angrily, she manages to make it as far as the narrow closet containing her clothes. Erik stands there without helping her, watches her tremble as she gets dressed, hears her swear quietly to herself.

It is evening by the time Erik finally manages to get Simone discharged from the hospital. When they return home, the apartment is a complete mess. Bedclothes lie in the hallway, the lights are on, the bathroom tap is running, shoes are heaped on the hall rug, and the telephone has been thrown on the parquet floor, its batteries beside it.

Erik and Simone look around with the horrible feeling that something in their home is lost to them forever. These objects have become alien, meaningless.

Simone picks up an overturned chair, sits down, and begins to pull off her boots. Erik turns off the bathroom tap, goes into Benjamin’s room, and looks at the red-painted surface of the desk. Textbooks lie next to the computer, covered in grey paper to protect them. On the bulletin board is a photograph of Erik from his time in Uganda, smiling and sunburned, his hands in the pockets of his lab coat. Erik brushes his hand over Benjamin’s jeans, hanging on the back of a chair with his black sweater.

In the living room he finds Simone standing with the telephone in her hand. She pushes the batteries back in and begins to dial a number.

“Who are you calling?”

“Dad,” she replies.

“Can you please leave it for now?”

She allows him to take the telephone from her. “What is it you want to say?” she asks wearily.

“I can’t cope with seeing Kennet, not now.” He places the telephone on the table, and runs his hands over his face before he begins again. “Can’t you respect the fact that I don’t want to leave everything I have in your father’s hands?”

“Can’t you respect the fact that—”

“Stop it.”

She glares angrily at him.

“Sixan, I’m finding it difficult to think clearly right now. Please let’s not play the game where we match each other, grievance for grievance. I don’t have the energy. I only want to say that I can’t cope with having your father around.”

“Are you finished?” she says, holding out her hand for the phone.

“This is about our child,” he says.

She nods.

“Can’t it be that way? Can’t it be about him?” he goes on. “I want you and me to look for Benjamin—along with the police—the way it should be.”

“I need my father,” she says.

“I need you.”

“I don’t really believe that,” she replies.

“Why not?”

“Because you just want to tell me what to do,” she says.

Erik stops pacing the room and carefully composes his features into a reasonable expression. “Sixan, your father’s retired. There’s nothing he can do.”

“He has contacts,” she says.

“He thinks he has contacts, he thinks he’s still a detective, but he’s only an ordinary pensioner.”

“You don’t know anything about it.”

“Benjamin isn’t some kind of hobby for old men with too much time on their hands.”

“That’s it. I’m not interested in what you have to say.” She looks at the phone.

“I can’t stay here if he’s coming. You just want him to tell you I’ve done the wrong thing again, like he did when we found out about Benjamin’s illness; it’s all Erik’s fault, always Erik. I know that lets you off the hook—it’s always been very comfortable whenever you’ve needed someone to blame in a crisis—but for me it’s—”

“Bullshit.”

“If he comes here, I’m leaving.”

“That’s your choice,” she says quietly.

His shoulders droop. She is half turned away from him as she punches in the number.

“Don’t do this,” Erik begs. It’s impossible for him to be here when Kennet arrives. He looks around. There’s nothing he wants to take with him. He hears the phone ringing at the other end of the line and sees the shadow of Simone’s eyelashes trembling on her cheeks.

“Fuck you,” he says, and goes out into the hallway.

He hears Simone talking to her father. With her voice full of tears she begs him to come as quickly as he can. Erik takes his jacket from the hanger, leaves the apartment, closes the door, and locks it behind him. Halfway down the stairs, he stops. Maybe he ought to go back and say something. It isn’t fair. This is his home, his son, his life.

“Fuck it,” he says quietly, and continues down to the door and out into the dark street.

Simone stands at the window, perceiving her face as a transparent shadow in the evening darkness. When she sees her father’s old Nissan Primera double-parked outside the door, she has to force back the tears. She is already standing in the hallway when he knocks on the door; she opens it with the security chain on, closes it again, unhooks the chain, and tries to smile.

“Dad,” she says, as the tears begin to flow.

Kennet puts his arms around her, and when she smells the familiar aroma of leather and tobacco from his jacket she is transported back to her childhood for a few seconds.

“I’m here now, darling,” says Kennet. He sits down on the chair in the hallway and perches Simone on his knee. “Isn’t Erik home?”

“We’ve separated.”

“Oh, my,” says Kennet.

He fishes out a handkerchief, and she slides off his knee and blows her nose several times. Then he hangs up his jacket, noticing that Benjamin’s outdoor clothes are untouched, his shoes are in the shoe rack, and his backpack is leaning against the wall by the front door.

He puts his arm around his daughter’s shoulders, wipes the tears from beneath her eyes with his thumb, and leads her into the kitchen. He sits her down on a chair, gets out a filter and the tin of coffee, and switches on the machine.

“Tell me everything,” he says calmly, as he gets out the mugs. “Start from the beginning.”

So Simone tells him in detail about the first night when she woke up and was convinced there was someone in the apartment. She tells him about the smell of cigarette smoke in the kitchen, about the open front door, about the misty light flooding out of the fridge and freezer.

“And Erik?” asks Kennet, his tone challenging. “What did Erik do?”

She hesitates before she looks her father in the eye. “He didn’t believe me. He said one of us must have been sleepwalking.”

“For God’s sake,” says Kennet.

Simone feels her face beginning to crumple again. Kennet pours them both a cup of coffee, makes a note of something on a piece of paper, and asks her to continue.

She tells him about the jab in her arm that woke her up the following night, how she got up and heard strange noises coming from Benjamin’s room.

“What kind of noises?” asks Kennet.

“Cooing,” she says hesitantly. “Whispering. I don’t know.”

“And then?”

“I asked what was happening, and that’s when I saw someone was there, someone leaning over Benjamin and—”

“Yes?”

“Then my legs gave way, I couldn’t move; I just fell over. All I could do was lie there on the floor. I watched Benjamin being dragged out … Oh God, his face; he was so scared! He called out to me and tried to reach me with his hand, but I was completely incapable of moving by then.” She sits in silence, staring straight ahead.

“Do you remember anything else?”

“What?”

“What did he look like? The man who got in?”

“I don’t know.”

“Did you notice anything distinguishing about him?”

“He moved in a peculiar way, kind of stooping, as if he were in pain.”

Kennet makes a note. “Think,” he encourages her.

“It was dark, Dad.”

“And Erik?” Kennet asks. “What was he doing?”

“He was asleep.”

“Asleep?”

She nods. “He’s been taking a lot of pills over the past few years,” she says. “He was in the spare room, and he didn’t hear a thing.”

Kennet’s expression is full of contempt, and Simone suddenly understands, at least in part, why Erik has left.

“Pills?” says Kennet thoughtfully. “What kind? Do you know the name? Or names?”

She takes her father’s hands. “Dad, it’s not Erik who’s the suspect here.”

He pulls his hands away. “Violence against children is almost exclusively perpetrated by someone within the family.”

“I know that, but—”

Kennet calmly interrupts her. “Let’s look at the facts. The perpetrator clearly has medical knowledge and access to drugs.”

She nods.

“You didn’t see Erik asleep in the spare room?”

“The door was closed.”

“But you didn’t see him, did you? And you aren’t certain that he took sleeping pills that night, are you?”

“No,” she has to admit.

“All we can do is look at the facts and try to ascertain a kind of truth from them. I’m just looking at what we know, Sixan,” he says. “We know that you didn’t see him asleep. He might have been, but we don’t know that.”

Kennet gets up, pulls out a loaf of bread, and takes butter and cheese from the fridge. He makes a sandwich and hands it to Simone. After a while he clears his throat. “Why would Erik open the door for Josef Ek?”

She stares at him. “What do you mean?”

“If he did it, what would his reasons be?”

“I think this is a stupid conversation.”

“Why?”

“Erik loves Benjamin.”

“Yes, but maybe something went wrong. Perhaps Erik just wanted to talk to Josef, get him to call the police or—”

“Stop it, Dad.”

“We have to ask these questions if we’re going to find Benjamin.”

She nods, feeling that her face is torn to shreds; then she says, almost inaudibly, “Perhaps Erik thought it was someone else at the door.”

“Who?”

“I think he’s seeing a woman called Daniella,” she says, without meeting her father’s gaze.

Simone wakes at five o’clock. Kennet must have carried her to bed and tucked her in. She goes straight to Benjamin’s room with a flicker of hope in her chest, but the feeling is swept away as she stands in the doorway, gazing at the empty bed.

She doesn’t cry, but she thinks that the taste of tears and fear has permeated everything, as a single drop of milk turns clear water cloudy. She tries to take control of her thoughts, to not think about Benjamin, not properly, to not let the fear in.

The light is on in the kitchen. Kennet has covered the table with bits of paper. On the counter, the police radio is making a murmuring, buzzing noise. Kennet stands completely still, staring into thin air; then he runs his hand over his chin a couple of times.

“I’m glad you managed to get some sleep,” he says.

She shakes her head.

“Sixan?”

“Yes,” she mumbles; she goes over to the sink and splashes her face with cold water. As she dries herself with the kitchen towel she sees her reflection in the window. It is still dark outside, but soon the dawn will come with its net of winter cold and December darkness.

Kennet scribbles on a scrap of paper, moves another sheet, and makes a note of something on a pad. She sits down opposite her father and tries to analyse how Josef Ek got into their apartment and where he might have taken Benjamin.

“Son of the Right Hand,” she whispers.

“What, dear?” asks Kennet, still writing.

“Nothing.”

She was thinking that Son of the Right Hand is the Hebrew meaning of Benjamin. In the Old Testament, Rachel was the wife of Jacob. He worked for fourteen years so he could marry her. She bore him two sons: Joseph, who interpreted the dreams of the pharaoh, and Benjamin, the Son of the Right Hand.

Simone’s face contracts with suppressed tears. Without a word, Kennet leans over and squeezes her shoulder. “We’ll find him,” he says.

She nods.

“I got this just before you woke up,” he says, tapping a folder that is lying on the table.

“What is it?”

“You know, the house in Tumba where Josef Ek … This is the crime-scene investigator’s report.”

“I thought you’d retired?”

“I have my ways.” He smiles and pushes the folder over to her; she opens it and reads the systematic analysis of fingerprints, handprints, marks showing where bodies have been dragged, strands of hair, traces of skin under fingernails, damage to the blade of a knife, marrow from a spinal cord on a pair of slippers, blood on the television, blood on the lamp, on the rag rug, on the curtains.

Photographs fall out of a plastic pocket. Simone tries not to look, but her brain still manages to capture the image of a horrific room: everyday objects, bookshelves, a music system, all black with blood.

On the floor there are mutilated bodies and body parts.

She stands up abruptly and leans over the sink, retching.

“Sorry,” says Kennet. “I wasn’t thinking … Sometimes I forget that not everyone is a policeman.”

She closes her eyes and thinks of Benjamin’s terrified face and a dark room with cold, cold blood on the floor. She leans forward and throws up. Slimy strings of mucus and bile land among the coffee cups and spoons. She clings to the counter and breathes steadily, calming herself. Above all, she fears losing control of her emotions, lapsing into a state of helpless hysteria. She rinses her mouth, her pulse beating loudly in her ears, and turns to look at Kennet.

“I’m fine,” she says faintly. “I just can’t connect all this with Benjamin.”

Kennet gets a blanket and wraps it around her, gently guiding her back to her chair.

“I’m not sure if I can do this,” she says.

“You’re doing fine. Now, I need you to listen to me. If Josef Ek has taken Benjamin, he must want something. He hasn’t done anything like this before. It’s not an escalation, which is what we might typically expect from a serial killer when he changes his MO. No, I think Josef Ek was looking for Erik, but when he didn’t find him, he took Benjamin instead. Perhaps to do an exchange.”