Let Me Love You (15 page)

We strip
each other of our clothes. He runs his hand slowly down my body and parts my legs. I’m breathing faster now. I just need to feel James inside of me, to feel him make my world explode. He slips a finger into me and I moan; I need more. He knows me because he slips in another and then another, while still sucking hard on my nipple. I feel that familiar feeling again and I know my orgasm is close.

“Faster James, please. I missed you. I need to come, James
.”

James’s fingers pick up speed and I explode around him, trying to catch my breath
. I feel James placing himself between my legs and he freezes.

“What’s wrong babe?”
I ask.

“Fuck, I don’t have any condoms
, baby. Shit. I’m gonna have to stop.” He goes to pull away, but I place my hands on his firm ass and stop him.

“James I’m on the pill and you know I haven’t been with anyone since Dean and I was tested after him. If you say you’re clean
, then I trust you.” He leans back down to kiss me, sucking on my bottom lip.

”I’m clean baby, always use a condom. Never in all my life have I had sex without one
.” He kisses me. “Don’t need Little Wilde’s running around….yet.” He smirks. I can feel him place himself at my opening, all slicked and wet from my orgasm. “Fuck Tally, you’re so wet.” 

My body is aching more for him
. “Please James, I need you inside me … now.” With that James eases into me, slowly, inch by inch. I grab onto his ass and force him in deeper, but James holds his ground.

“You’re killing me Tally, l
et’s just take this slow. I haven’t had you for what seems like years. I’m going to come so damn quick if we go fast.”

I look into James’s ocean blue eyes an
d cup his face with my hand, running my thumb over his bottom lip. “James, make love to me.” He starts to move. I run my hands down his back, dragging my nails up and down his hard muscular back. James moans and picks up the pace.

“God,
you feel so good baby. Fuck. You close baby? I’m going come.” Our breathing is fast and heavy. James brings his hand between us and starts rubbing my clit with his thumb. That was all it took. My body stars to tighten and pure bliss runs through my limbs as I cry out James’s name.

“Harder
, James…Harder.” James pounds into me a few more times and he stills while his orgasm rips through his body. James lowers his lips to mine and kisses me tenderly. He pulls back from me and I instantly miss his touch. James helps me off the bed and hands me my clothes. We get dressed in silence, but I can feel him staring at me.

Out of nowhere there is a loud bang on the door
. “James, you finished yet dude? Carmen isn’t impressed by you taking off with Tally. She is pissed man. You two need to get back to work and get this shoot finished, you have a meeting after this.” Marcus shouts through the door. Fuck. I had forgotten about the photo shoot. Damn James and his mind blowing sex.

We finish getting dressed and exit the guest house to find Marcus leaning against a tree. I smile at him and he just shakes his head and laughs to himself. “You need to be prepared for Carmen man, she is on a rampage that you left her there
.” James laughs.

“Fuck her man, I needed time alone with my girl and did you see the faces she was giving. Fuck me
faces, is that right baby?” He says as he pulls me tight to his side and kisses my hair.

I put my hands over my face and let out a little laugh. “No
t fuck me faces Wilde, they were me remembering what you feel like inside me, and your mouth on me.” I smirk and wink at Marcus who is looking at me with wide shocked eyes. I turn to James and he pretty much has the same expression on his face. “What? You didn’t think that I could say things like that in front of Marcus, that I would just blush and shy away. Oh baby, I can handle myself around guys like you two. I know how you work. You haven’t met my brother Jake yet or any of his team. I grew up with horny ass teenage soccer players.” I shrug and walk away, leaving the two speechless hotties behind me.

I get back to my table where my laptop is set up and star
t flicking through the photos. The staff are mulling around drinking coffee and eating from the buffet. This is how I like to work, cool, calm and collected. There is no need for drama. Speaking of drama, Carmen comes storming towards me with a not so happy look on her face. “Where the fuck did you vanish to? I have a very, very important meeting to get to and I don’t appreciate you running off to fuck my co-star. That is very unprofessional of you. I will be having a word with Erica about this.” She has gone all red in the face and me, well I have lost all color.

“He isn’t just some co-star Carmen, he is your friend
, and by the way, my boyfriend. Yes we shouldn’t have left the shoot, but honestly, did it look like I could stop him? Would you have stopped him?” Everyone is standing around watching us argue, well Carmen arguing and me making a point. When she doesn’t say anything I keep going. “Yeah. That’s what I thought Carmen. You don’t say no to James Wilde and believe me doll, I don’t ever intend to.”  She scowls at me and storms right back the way she came.

I turn to see James and Marcus clapping their hands in sync.
”Well said sweetness, it’s about time someone set her straight and told her to shut the fuck up,” said Marcus with a huge grin on his beautiful face. Oh yes, Scarlett is going to love him.

We wrap up the shoot.
Cleo and I are packing the equipment away in the two trucks they arrived in. Carmen is long gone, which pleases me in a big way. I watch James and Marcus walk towards my car as I make my way over. “So, will I see you tonight, or will your meeting be a long one?”  He places his hand on my hips and kisses me.

“I will pop by after the meeting, it won’t take long. It’s just a chat about the wrap party and the publicity that we have to do for the show
.” I nod my head.

“Ok
ay babe, I will see you later then. I need to get this back to Exposure and I will start going over the photos from today. Scarlett is working and I don’t fancy sitting by myself at home.” James kisses me again and pulls away.

“Well
, text me when you’re leaving Exposure and I will let you know where I am, okay? Perhaps you can pick me up on your way home.”

I nod
. “Okay, sounds like a plan.” He opens my car door for me and I climb in and smile at him.

“Baby
, I’m taking you shopping for a new car some time soon. I hate you driving around in this contraption.” I feel my eyebrows hit my hairline.

“Excuse me? You’re what?” He just shrugs
.

“You need a new car babe. This thing isn’t safe
.” I laugh, closing the door and starting my jeep.

“My car is perfect, James.
I don’t need you to buy me a new car. If I want a new car, I will buy one myself. Also, for your information James Wilde,” I lower my voice and crook my finger at him to come closer. “I’m worth more than you, Mr. Wilde. My bank balance has way more than you. So you see, I don’t need you to buy me a car. I can do that perfectly on my own. You get me?”

James is gobsmacked once again. Yay me. That’s twice in one day I have rendered James silent and it feels go
od. Not so smooth now is he? I didn’t lie to James, as everything I just told him is true. Scarlett, Jake and my-self are trust fun babies, but we all used our money differently when we had our instalments. I drive back to Exposure and help unload all the equipment with Cleo and the guys. Once that’s done, I head back to my studio and upload the photos from today’s shoot to the company server so that Erica can take a peek when she is ready. I sort through all the photos and send my choice over to Erica and Mr. Williams; it doesn’t take up too much of my afternoon. I glance at my phone and it’s been two hours since I left the shoot. I haven’t heard anything from James, his meeting must be important. I decide to take a sneak peek into the Google life of James Wilde. I search his name and click on the images that they have of him.

My sto
mach sinks like a lead balloon. There are photos of James with different women; they are all drop dead gorgeous. Why does he like me when he can have all these women? I don’t understand it. I feel sick. Oh God, what if I’m just filling in until he finds someone he really wants? I know he told me he loves me, but how many women has he told he loves them? I decide to get off the images and click on news feeds of James. There are dated events that he has appeared at, red carpet type events, also charity galas. Nate comes to mind and a small smile creeps on my face. I see that a link has been posted with today’s date and I wonder if that has something to do with the photo shoot. That would be good for the company of the name is mentioned. The website loads up and there is a headline that reads. “James Wilde back with ex-girlfriend, movie star, Sasha Davenport? Both seen leaving restaurant down town earlier this afternoon.” There is a stream of photos of James a very beautiful woman leaving the restaurant and hugging at the side walk. In the next photo, they are kissing full on mouth and then they are both sitting in the back of the car really close. I feel tears spring to my eyes and I can’t breathe. It was all a lie.

       
I don’t remember leaving the studio or driving to Cassidy’s apartment. Everything is just one teary blur. Why did he do this to me? I walk into Cass and Josh’s apartment and find Cassidy sitting on the couch and Josh on his laptop. They both look up at me as I drop my bag on the floor. I feel strong arms around and pick me up. From the smell, I know its Josh that has caught me from falling to the floor. “Oh my God Tally, what the hell has happened?” says Cassidy. I shake my head, unable to speak. I have to show them. I can’t talk right now. I point to the laptop and I see Josh frowning but he hands it to me. I type in the website and show them. I hear Cassidy gasp and Josh swear under his breath.

“I’ll fucking kill him. What the fuck is he playing at?” I swallow the huge lump in my throat
.

“We made up this
morning, we talked at the photo shoot and we made love.” I stop myself “No he fucked me. He told me he had a meeting about the wrap party and he wouldn’t be long. I know it’s only been two, well nearly three hours now, but I haven’t heard from him, and that’s why.” I say pointing towards the laptop, anger bursting out of me. “Cassidy I love him. I don’t know if I can survive this.” She hugs me closer and rocks back and forth, as she knows that’s what sooths me. I hear my phone ring and I feel sick all over again. Josh brings me my bag and I dig out my phone.

“You
don’t have to talk to him Tal.” I look over at Josh.

“I do Josh. I need to tell him it’s over. We are done
.”

I get up and walk towards their guest room
, which sometimes morphs into my room. I take a deep breath and answer my phone. “Hello?” I say weakly. 

“Baby I’m just finishing up and th
en I can meet you at your place. That sound good for you?” Tears start to flow again.

“James
, I don’t think it’s a good idea anymore.” I wipe the tears away, but more keep falling.

“What’s not
a good idea? Baby, you’re scaring me. What’s happened? Has Carmen done something after what happened at the shoot today?”

“No
. Carmen hasn’t hurt me James, you have. Listen it’s...” I don’t finish what I’m going to say as James cuts me off.

“What the
fuck? How have I hurt you Tally? I haven’t done anything. When I left you at the shoot, we were happy. I came to the restaurant had my meeting. We ate, and now I’m on the phone with my girlfriend, who is breaking up with me for fuck knows what reason. Tell me what I have supposedly done, Natalia.” Fuck, he used my full name, just like Scarlett. He sounds pissed, not that he has any right to be. I’m fighting the sobs that are threatening to break through.

“Sasha
.” That’s all I say. I hear James take in a quick breath and mutter ‘Fuck’, but he doesn’t say anything else.

God, I was so damn stupid.
I knew it was too good to be true. Guys like James Wilde don’t fall for plain Jane’s like me. “That’s what I thought. Good bye, James. Please don’t contact me again.” Before he can say anything, I hang up. I drop my phone on the floor and curl up in a protective ball on the bed. I hear the door open and Cassidy climbs into the bed with me. She is spooning me from behind. She is my absolute rock, always has been. I feel the bed dip again and I open my eyes to see Josh climbing into the bed in front of me. He wraps his arms over the both of us and we just lay there in complete silence. My phone rings and rings and then the texts start. I can’t even think about him right now. I hear Cassidy’s gentle snores and I let a smile slip across my face. I look at my best friend’s boyfriend, who is watching me. “Hi.” He gives me my Joshy smile.

“Hi Pup, y
ou okay?” Josh started calling me Pup after he got introduced to Scarlett and Jake; it stuck with him after that day.

“I will be Josh, I promise. I just thought that after everything with Dean, I
thought I would never find someone, you know.” He nods, he gets me. “I let him in, Josh. I never thought I would be able to do that again, and then he does this. Fuck, I hate men.” He pulls his head back and cocks his eyebrow; I giggle. “Present Company excluded. You’re a star, Josh, and I love you for that. The way you take care of Cassidy and me when needed. You’re the other big brother I always wanted.” I hug him tighter. My phone rings again and Josh leans over the bed to pick it up. He glances at the screen.