Lorraine Heath (5 page)

And a killer should not possess deep blue eyes that filled with tears.

After repeatedly applying the hot wet cloth to the wound, she brought the lamp nearer and scrutinized the gash. It still looked red and tender, but it was clean. “I think that’s all I need to do tonight.”

He released a shuddering breath and his hands relaxed their hold on the pillow. Turning his head slightly, he looked at her. “Sorry for the trouble.”

She didn’t know if she’d ever heard anyone sound so tired. She combed her fingers through his black hair. “Try and sleep. We want your fever to break.”

She draped additional blankets over his arms and a portion of his back, leaving the wound exposed to the air. Slowly, gently she trailed her hand back and forth over his broad shoulders, above the wound. She began to sing the ballad that had caused her father to desert and brought him home from the war, while so many others had perished. He had named her in honor of the song, and she often wondered if she owed her existence to someone’s gift with lyrics.

She sang until she felt the tenseness leave Austin’s body, until she heard his quiet even breathing. She moved to a rocking chair and watched him through the night, wiping the beading sweat from his brow, keeping the blankets tucked around him, wondering what sort of man would go to prison for murder … then weep because a woman hadn’t waited for his return.

L
oree hadn’t meant to pry. She’d retrieved Austin Leigh’s saddlebags with the intent of discovering if he had other clothes to wear. Her search stopped the moment she found his treasured keepsake. Sitting cross-legged on the floor beside the tub of steaming water, she stroked the locks of auburn hair he had bound together with a white velveteen ribbon. She had little doubt the silken strands had once belonged to his beloved Becky. When she held them up to the early morning sunlight filtering through the window, they turned a warm shade of red, unlike her own hair, which held no color at all.

She reasoned that he had possessed the precious memento before he went to prison. She could not envision him requesting the hair of a woman who had married another. When she brought the hair beneath her nose, she smelled the fading fragrance of vanilla mingling with a scent that she recognized as belonging to the man lying in her bed. After tending him through the night, she had become familiar with many aspects of his person.

She wondered how long he had possessed the token of his heart’s desire and marveled at so great a love that even now he would not part with a portion of the woman who had betrayed him.

“What are you doing?”

Loree released a tiny screech at the rumble of the angry voice and shoved the lock of hair back into the saddlebag before glancing over her shoulder. Austin Leigh had risen up on an elbow, his blue penetrating gaze pinning her to the spot.

“Nothing. I … I washed your clothes this morning and then it occurred to me that you wouldn’t have anything to wear. Since your fever broke near dawn, I thought you might want a bath.” She slapped her trembling hand against the wooden tub to emphasize her good intentions. She held up his saddlebag. “I was looking to see if you had some clean clothes.”

His eyes narrowed with suspicion. “I do.”

“Oh, good.” She shoved herself to her feet and set the saddlebag on the foot of the bed, certain he wouldn’t appreciate knowing what she’d found. “Do you feel strong enough to manage on your own?”

“I’m willing to give it a try.”

“I’ll start cooking breakfast.”

Austin watched the woman scurry from the room like a frightened rabbit. He didn’t have anything in his possession worth stealing, and even if he did, he didn’t think Loree Grant was one to steal. In spite of her wariness, she had been generous toward him—offering him food, shelter, and aid when she could just as easily have left him to suffer alone. Still, he’d had little privacy in the past few years and he coveted it now.

He felt like a man who had downed three bottles of cheap whiskey without taking a breath in between. He rolled to a sitting position, every muscle and bone he possessed protesting the movement. He swung his legs over the side of the bed and took a moment to catch his breath. His gaze fell on his boots—polished to a shine—standing at attention beside the rocking chair. Good Lord, how was he going to pay the woman back for all she’d done since his arrival?

He shoved himself to his feet. A wave of weakness assailed him and he closed his eyes, willing himself to stand.

With the movements of an old man who had been thrown off a horse one too many times, he padded to the bathtub. The woman thought of everything. He sank into the heavenly warmth, letting it soak days of dirt and grime from his body. Leaning back, he closed his eyes. Moments woven through the night filled his mind like an elaborate tapestry. Soft touches over his fevered brow. Cool water gliding down his scorched throat. A gentle voice offering reassurance.

And tears. His tears. He groaned. Whatever had possessed him to ask the woman about Becky? Bowing his head, he dug his fingers into the sides of the tub. Thoughts of Becky had filled his mind, his heart from the first moment his gaze had fallen upon her seven years before. She was as much a part of him as his name.

A name that might have cost him her love.

Using the hard lye soap, he scrubbed unmercifully at his face and body and washed his hair. The pain still throbbed through his back, but not nearly as much as it had the day before. He’d been a fool to leave home without seeing that it was properly tended by a physician, but then he seemed to have gained a knack for being a fool.

He brought himself to his feet and dried off. Wrapping the towel around his waist, he walked to the bed and removed his shaving equipment from his saddlebag. He ambled to the woman’s dresser and studied his reflection in the mirror. He hadn’t really taken the time to look at himself since he’d left prison. He was suddenly hit with the hard realization that he had aged more than either of his brothers. Deep crevices fanned out from the corners of his eyes. The wind, rain, and sun had worked together to wear away, shape, and mold the face of a boy into the hardened visage of a man. He hardly recognized himself and he missed the laughing blue eyes that had always looked back at him.

He dropped his chin to his chest and released a heavy sigh. Of all the things that had changed, he hated most of all that he had changed—inside and out. He was as much a stranger to himself as he was to the woman preparing him breakfast.

Moving her hairbrush, comb, and hand mirror aside, he set his shaving box on the dresser. Using the warm water she’d left in the bowl, he stirred up some lather for his face, his gaze lighting upon all the little gewgaws scattered over her dresser. He stopped stirring and trailed his fingers over a smooth wooden box. Embedded in the wood was a silhouette of a violin. He shifted his gaze to the door. She’d pried into his belongings …

Gingerly he touched the lid of the box and slowly lifted it. Music tinkled out. He slammed the lid closed. A music box.

Shaking his head, Austin set about shaving several days growth of beard from his face. Then he pulled fresh clothes from his saddlebags, stepped into his trousers, and pulled on his boots. Grabbing his shirt and a towel, he walked to the door and quietly opened it.

The aromas of freshly baked biscuits and brewed coffee wafted toward him. He leaned against the doorjamb and watched Loree stir something in a pot on the cast iron stove. She wore a dress the shade of daisies and the same white apron she’d worn the day before cinched at her waist. Her narrow hips swayed in a circular motion as though following the path of the spoon. The lilt of her soft voice filled the room with a song.

“What are you singing?”

She spun around, her eyes wide, her hand pressed just below her throat. “Oh, you startled me.”

“I’m sorry.”

She shook her head. “That’s all right. I’m just not used to having company. I was singing
Lorena.
My pa told me that they sang it around the campfires during the war. It made him so homesick that one night he just got up and started walking home.” She turned back to the stove. “I didn’t mean to disturb you with my caterwauling.”

“I’d hardly call it caterwauling.”

She glanced over her shoulder. “Did you find everything you needed?”

“Yes, ma’am.” He held up the towel. “I was wondering if you’d make sure my back was dry.”

“Oh, yes.” She wiped her hands on her apron before pulling a chair out from the table and turning it. “Why don’t you sit down?”

Austin crossed the short distance separating them, handed her the towel, straddled the chair, and folded his arms over its straight back. She pressed the towel against his wound. He closed his eyes, relishing her touch, as gentle as the first breath of spring. He’d been too long without a woman, without the peacefulness a woman’s presence offered a man. It was more than the actual touch. It was the lilt of her voice, her flowery fragrance. The smile she was hesitant to give. The gold of her eyes.

Lightly, she pressed her fingers around the wound. “I don’t see any signs of infection brewing, but it’s still red and angry-looking. I wonder if I should sew it.”

“Is it bleeding?”

“No.”

“Then just leave it. I’ve been enough trouble.”

“It’s going to leave an ugly scar.”

“Won’t be the first.”

Reaching around him, she picked up a brown bottle that had been set near some cloths. He suspected that she’d anticipated he would need further care this morning. It galled him to need her help. Why couldn’t Duncan have cut him someplace that he could have reached and treated himself? He supposed he should just be grateful that he’d moved soon enough to avoid giving Duncan the opportunity to slice any deeper.

“I thought I’d put some tincture of iodine on it this morning,” she offered.

“Fine.”

She pulled the stopper and the acrid odor assailed his nostrils. She drenched the cloth with the reddish-brown liquid. Dallas had always had a fondness for the medication, pouring it on every cut and scrape Austin had ever had. He supposed it was because his brother had seen too many men die from infection during the war. He probably wouldn’t be sitting here now if he’d told Dallas about the cut.

“This is going to sting,” she said quietly.

Austin gritted his teeth and dug his fingers into the back of the chair. When she touched the saturated cloth to his back, he sucked in air with a harsh hiss.

“I’m sorry, so sorry,” she whispered, and he thought he heard tears in her voice.

He focused his attention on the man he hoped to find in Austin. Each day, the man owed him more. He wouldn’t be sitting here fighting back the pain if the man hadn’t run off after killing Boyd.

She removed the cloth, and Austin released a long slow breath. He eased away from the chair as she wrapped a bandage around his chest and across his back.

“You’ll want to keep it clean and have a doctor look at it when you get to Austin.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Her fingers strayed to an old wound on his shoulder.

“Someone shot you,” she said quietly.

“Yes, ma’am. A little over six years ago.”

She jerked her hand back as though he’d bitten her. She placed the bottle of iodine on a shelf, scrubbed her hands at the sink, and wiped them on her apron, over and over, until he thought she might remove her skin.

“Is something wrong?” he asked as he stood and shrugged into his shirt.

“I just didn’t expect you to clean up so nice.”

Her blush pleased him more than her words. “I … I’ve got some porridge going here if you’d like some.”

He swung the chair around and dropped onto the seat. “Just some coffee.”

She slapped the porridge into a bowl and set it in front of her place at the table before pouring the coffee into a cup and handing it to him. “I’ve got milk and—”

“Just black.”

He wrapped his hands around the cup, absorbing its warmth, waiting as she poured herself some coffee and took her seat. While she dumped six heaping spoons of sugar into her coffee, he watched with amusement. He hadn’t been amused in a long time. She was incredibly innocent. Living out here alone, away from town, away from the influence of people, how could she be otherwise?

Maybe not completely innocent. Even as she offered him food and shelter, a wariness remained in her eyes, a caution as though at any moment she feared he might turn on her like a rabid dog.

She glanced up and blushed again. “I like a little coffee with my sugar.”

“Is what why you’re so sweet?”

Her blush deepened as she lowered her gaze. Austin cursed himself and wondered what the hell he thought he was doing. He had no business flirting with a woman, especially one as innocent as she was. “I appreciate all that you did for me last night.”

“You should never let a wound go unattended so long.”

“I had other things on my mind.” He brought the cup to his lips and peered over the rim at the woman sitting across from him. She was sprinkling sugar over her porridge. A corner of his mouth curved up. He thought she might save time if she simply poured the porridge into the sugar bowl.

Having known so few women in his life, he’d developed an appreciation for them, an appreciation that even Becky’s betrayal couldn’t diminish. He had no memory of his mother. Houston’s wife—Amelia—was the first woman to whom he’d ever really spoken. He’d always liked the way she listened, as though she truly thought he had something of importance to share. He’d even played his violin for her when he’d never dared to play it for anyone else. Then Becky Oliver had moved to town, and Austin had thought she was an angel—his angel. As much as he wanted to hate her, he only seemed capable of missing her.

“Other than building you a new barn, what can I do to repay your kindness?” he asked abruptly, more harshly than he’d intended, memories of Becky tainting his mood.

Her head shot up, her delicate brows drawn together over eyes mired with confusion. “I think you ought to spend the day resting and gathering your strength.”

“I need to see to my horse.”

“I fed and brushed him this morning.”

“And washed my clothes and polished my boots. Good Lord, don’t you ever stop doing?”

She dropped her gaze to the remaining porridge. “I like to keep busy.” She rose to her feet, picked up the bowl and cup, and carried them to the sink.

“My apologies, Miss Grant. I had no cause to take out my frustration on you.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

But it did matter, more so because she thought it didn’t. Austin scraped his chair back and stood. She spun around, the wariness back in her eyes.

“I don’t doubt you took good care of my horse, but I want to check on him anyway.” He walked out of the house. The dog bounded across the yard and leapt up on Austin’s chest, his huge paws wet and muddy. Austin scratched him behind the ears. “If you’re her protector, you need to do a better job of protecting her from me.”

The dog fell to all fours and gazed up at him as though measuring his worth. Then he barked and scampered away to chase a butterfly.

Austin strode into the barn. Sunlight streamed through the holes. Black Thunder knickered. He rubbed the stallion’s nose. “So she’s taking good care of you, too, is she?”

He glanced around the run-down structure. Severed and ragged at the end, a rope hung from a beam. He wondered what kept a lone woman living here. Why didn’t she pack up and move into town? He had been teasing her when he’d mentioned repairing the barn, but he wasn’t certain he could chop enough wood to repay his debt.