Lost In Our Darkness (Demons Of Darkness Book 2) (21 page)

I looked over at Venom as he tried to track down Zoelle. What the fuck did she do. I knew she wanted Trix gone but this—she wouldn’t do this would she? I tried to wrap my head around it all when Trix burst through my office door.

“Find her yet?”

“No.”

She dropped down on the couch kicking off her boots while staring at me.

“Venom I need a minute with Trix.”

He didn’t say anything just got up and walked out with his laptop.

“That was awfully fast, Payne not give you what you need?”

“Not even close.” She stared at me with hooded eyes.

“You know he can’t give you what you need. He can try but you will never be satisfied with him.”

“And you can?”

“Yeah Trix I can.”

“You think you can but you can’t, not really Nix.” She stood up and walked over to me. Standing in front of me as I sat in my chair. “You can only give me part of what I want. Having a wife keeps you from giving me everything I need.”

“Maybe I can’t right now but I know what you need and that’s all I can do is give you exactly what you need right this minute. You need a release.” I pulled her on to me so that she was straddling me.

“Nix,” she whispered. “Stop teasing me and give me what I want. What I need.”

“It’s only me Trix, I need to hear you say the words, tell me it’s only me.”

“It’s always only been you Nix.”

That’s all I needed to hear. I grabbed ahold of her hips and pushed myself up from the chair walking her over to the couch laying her down on her back. I needed her just as much as she needed me and no matter how hard I tried to move past her it was always her. Mine. I unbuttoned her pants and yanked them down pulling them off of her and dropping them to the ground and quickly kicking off my boots as I pushed my jeans and boxers down and stepped out of them.  I  took my dick in my hand stroking it as I positioned myself on top of her. Her legs wrapped around my waist as I teased her pussy with my cock.

“Fuck me Nix. I need to feel you inside of me.”

“You’re mine Trix,” I growled as I slid into her wet pussy.

“I know Nix now fuck me.”

I bit into her shoulder as I fucked her. Shit her pussy felt so good around my cock as I tried to hold back from cumming before she did. I slowed my pace and slipped my hand between us pinching her clit between my fingers, as I started pumping into her she began to moan.

“Nix.” She screamed as her pussy pulsated around my cock. I picked up the pace as I fucked her, releasing myself into her. I dropped down on her as I regained composure.

“I can’t breathe,” she muttered from underneath me.

“Sorry.”  I pressed a kiss to her forehead as I pushed myself off of her.

“I’m going to take a shower then spend some time with our son.” She stood up and picked her pants up off the floor.

“I’ll come with.” I slid my pants back on, not bothering to button them and followed Trix out of my office and walked her to an empty room I used when I didn’t want to bother Zoe when she was here. Fuck for a second I had forgotten about her. I needed to find out if Venom had found her yet. But right this minute, Trix and Zaiden were my main concern.

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I followed Nix into the room. I didn’t know whose it was but I didn’t care, I just wanted to take a shower and hold my son. I walked straight into the bathroom and tore my clothes off and turned the shower on before stepping inside. The hot water cascaded down my back and I felt Nix’s hands on my waist as he stood behind me. I grabbed the bar of soap from the tray and scrubbed my body until my skin felt raw. I quickly washed my hair and rinsed off as Nix did the same behind me.

We didn’t talk, we didn’t need to. Just knowing he was with me was all I needed. I just hoped he would support me and my decision when they found Zoe and the truth was revealed. I didn’t know what that would mean for us or for Nix. Zoelle may be his wife but she was also the mother of his daughter. As much as I didn’t want to take the life of a mother I couldn’t let her live knowing she was a threat to my own child.

I stepped out of the shower and dried myself off as I looked around the room for something to wear. Nix came up behind me and opened a closet. He reached in and pulled out a flannel shirt and tossed it to me. I smiled as I slid it on and watched as he dressed in clean clothes.

“I know you don’t want to talk about this but Nix, I’m going to kill her.”

“I know Trix. I know.” With his head down he sighed.

“I can’t let her live, she’s a threat to my son’s safety and I cannot let that go. I don’t care what she says or what her reasons are. She shouldn’t have done this.”

“Trix. I need to hear her side before I can okay what you want to do. I can’t let you just go off and kill her without hearing from her and understanding why she did this.”

“No Nix, that’s not how this works. Her running is proving her guilt. She ran because someone gave her a heads up that we had Zaiden back. She is running because she knows what her fate is. She crossed the wrong bitch.”

“It’s not your decision Trix. It comes down to the club. We need to make the decision.”

“Are you fucking serious. You would let her walk out of here knowing she put our son’s life in danger. Knowing she had our son kidnapped and put Cheyenne in the hospital.”

“She’s my wife.”

“I don’t give a fuck if she is your wife or not. And if you cared so much about your fucking wife then why did you just fuck me. That’s the truth behind what she did isn’t it. You knew she didn’t want me around. She did this to get me to leave didn’t she? She wanted me to hate the club. She wanted to give me a reason to hate you. Just tell me you didn’t know Nix,” I screamed at him. “Tell me that she didn’t say anything to you about wanting me gone and making sure I stayed away.”

He just stood there looking down on the ground. Not saying a word.

“Wow, you knew didn’t you. You fucking knew she had something against me and would stop at nothing to get me to leave.”

He finally nodded. “I didn’t know she would go this far.”

“This far? What the fuck. She planned this out Nix. She had YOUR FUCKING SON kidnapped.”

“I can’t just let you kill her. I know that what she did to us was wrong but Trix what if you were in her position?”

“If I was in her fucking position Nix? I am in her fucking position. I was your old lady and I came back and here you are married to someone else. It didn’t matter what I felt. I lived with regret every day that I was gone and I knew I fucking lost you. You are not mine Nix, not anymore. I know that and I know that you are going to be you and if you weren’t fucking me you would be fucking someone else. The only difference is we have a son together. It’s part of the club life right. Other women, illegitimate children, it’s all part of the life.” I turned and walked away from him. I couldn’t sit here and listen to him defend her especially when I knew she had told him something that should have led him to look into her.

I was torn. My son was safe, yet I now had to make the decision on what to do to the mother of my child. If word got out and by now I’m sure it had, that my son was kidnapped and I let the person responsible live, shit would hit the fan. I needed to make a decision that was going to fucking kill me. I knew that if Zoe was anyone else I wouldn’t hesitate to kill her, but she wasn’t anyone else, she was my wife and the mother of my daughter. She was also someone I should be able to trust and she proved that she wasn’t. That she wasn’t to be trusted and that was her biggest mistake. She had been caught. I knew where Trix was coming from, she wanted blood and was going to take it no matter what the consequences were.

I pushed back off the wall. I needed to find Venom and check to see if they had found her yet. He was evidently coming to look for me because as I turned to walk down the hallway he was coming towards me.

“Find her?” I asked

“I think so.”

“Where is she?”

“From what I can tell she is at your house. That is where everything is pointing. The house phone has been in use all night.”

“Let’s roll.” I walked past him and through the club. I needed to get to her before Trix did. I hopped on my bike with Venom right behind me on his. We rode straight to my house where I could see from the street that that lights were on. I pulled into the driveway and put the kickstand down on my bike before swinging my leg over the bike and walking to the door.

“Want me to wait out here?”

“Yeah.” I nodded to Venom and I turned the doorknob and pushed the door open.

“Hey, what are you doing home?”  Zoe smiled at me from the couch where she sat holding our daughter as she slept in her arms.

I sat down next to her and pulled Calissta from her arms and into mine. “Why did you leave the clubhouse?”

“Sorry about that. I hate being stuck in that place. Plus I forgot Calissta’s ointment and figured I would just run home real quick. She fell asleep and Regan called and I got stuck talking to her and didn’t realize the time.”

I nodded. “We found Zaiden.”

“What? That’s great! Is he okay, was he hurt?”

“No he’s fine.” I watched her as her smile started to look forced.

“Where was he? Do you know who took him?”

“That’s the thing I need to talk to you about.”

“Okay but let me run to the bathroom real quick. My bladder just isn’t what it used to be.” She got up quickly and ran down the hall.

I set Calissta down in her baby swing and followed Zoe.

“Don’t try to run Zoe, you’re not going anywhere.”

“Run, why would I do that?” She laughed nervously as I pushed the bathroom door open.

“You know why.” I picked up my phone and called Red.

“Prez,” he answered

“Get the van and come to my house. Don’t bring anyone else.”

“Be there in ten.”

I hung up the phone as I heard banging around in the bathroom. I tried the doorknob first before I kicked it in. Zoe was struggling with the window trying to get it pushed open. “Not so fast Zoe.”

“Just let me go, please Nix I will leave and I won’t come back, I promise.”

“I think first you have some explaining to do.”

She nodded and let me lead her back to the living room. I  moved so that I was between her and Calissta.  When Calissta let out a cry I picked her back up. Zoe made a beeline for the door. She’d taken one step out when she was pushed back in from Venom.

“Not so fast Zoe.” Venom had her by the arm and pushed her back down on the couch.

“You should be happy it’s only us right now Zoe, things could be a lot worse for you.”

“Now what?” she asked.

“Now it’s time to face the music. Take responsibility for what you did. Then we vote. You know how it works.” I sat Calissta in her infant carrier and buckled her in. “Your ride’s here.” I smiled as the headlights of the van pulled into the driveway. “Now come on, time for you to see firsthand why they call Trix the black heart.” I pushed her out of the house and into the back of the van. I took a seat next to her and seat belted Calissta in behind us.

Chapter Thirty