Lost In The Moment (Moment #1) (5 page)

As I was lost in my thoughts I realize I can't be afraid anymore, if I was going to know for sure if this was real, I had to take a leap of faith, and so I did. I reached my hand behind me and grab Jason's hand pulling his arm over me. This must've startled him slightly awake because I felt him pull himself closer to me holding me tightly and as a result of my emotions overwhelming me I turned my head back to see him looking me right in the eyes. It was then I knew what I had to do, I kissed him. We kissed and it felt so right, I felt like I was floating and I didn't want to stop, I couldn't stop. I gave in to my feelings and I was thinking clearly when I did. I turned my body, now facing him and still kissing, his hands all over me pulling me closer to him. This was it, my leap of faith, I just let go of all the fear and let him in. It was sweet and passionate at the same time. Without hesitation, I pulled myself up and top of him. I sat up from kissing him pulled off the t-shirt I was wearing and there I was shirtless without a bra, just me giving him all of me and I didn't care. He looked up at me breathing deeply then slowly ran his hands up and down my body admiring me, he slid his hands up to my face gripping the back of my neck and pulled me back in to kissing. He rolled me over so he was then on top of me, he pulled his shirt off and worked his way down to pull off the shorts I was wearing and since I had only wore a bikini here, there's was nothing underneath the shorts I changed into.

Looking at me again, now admiring every part of me, he gets up and pulls off his shorts, there we both were, completely naked ready to give ourselves to each other. He climbs back on top of me, sweetly kissing every inch of my body. My entire body tingled with excitement. He pulls himself back up to kiss my neck and then back to my lips and I decide it's my turn to take control, I push him off and take my turn at kissing and touching him everywhere, I wanted to admire him just as he had admired me. He grab me tightly and with another roll he was back on top of me and before I knew it we were making love and continued until the sun came up.
"Good morning beautiful." he says as I open my eyes to look up at him. There we were, still completely naked, intertwined holding each other not wanting to let go. "Good morning." Even though I could tell neither of us wanted to let go we pulled apart so Jason could get up and walk over to the bathroom. "Want to join me?" he nods towards the shower. With no regret of last night, I get up and follow him to the shower, I want anything to stay close to him right now.
Both of us holding each other tight in the shower from giggling at each other's playful acts and kissing passionately, I knew we both felt the connection. This was real and all of my doubts were suddenly gone.

Chapter Seven

It's been three days since my amazing night with Jason. Everything felt like it was falling into place, things were great and I was happy. He had to go out of town for a couple days for photo shoots and TV interviews, but we talked on the phone several times a day while he was gone, he'd fill me in on all of the crazed fans and constant chaos of the celeb life. Since neither of us were sure what this was, so we agreed to keep it quiet, even though a photo did get out of us exchanging goodbyes outside of his house just before he left, but since nothing in the photo seemed like we were anything more than just two people standing together, Jason just said I was a friend and I was ok with that. The last thing I wanted was to be all over the tabloids labeled Jason Thompson's new fling. I prefer to stay out of the spotlight and just enjoy us together without the cameras. Kayla and Cameron have spent nearly every waking minute together at my house, which was fine because if Jason were here, I'd probably want to do the same.

Kayla told Cameron that today she was going to just hang out with me here so we could have some girl time, which we both knew was much needed. We sat out by the pool soaking up the sun and enjoying our margaritas. "I have something to ask you." Kayla says with a serious expression. "Of course. Ask away." She knows she can ask or tell me anything. "I want to stay in LA." She wants to stay longer, she should know I would be more than happy if she stayed. "You know you’re welcome to vacation at my house for as long as you want. I love having you here." She takes a deep breath before responding "I'm not meaning an extended vacation, I want to stay for good. I was hoping I could stay with you until I found a place." This is the best news yet, having my best friend here all the time. "Of course! You can stay with me forever, you should know that. Don't bother with looking for a place, there's plenty of room here." She lights up in excitement and hugs me. "Thank you so much. I'm flying home tomorrow to get everything ready to move."

Tomorrow? That's fast, but the sooner she leaves to pack, the sooner she'll be back to stay. "Do you want me to go with you and help you pack up?" I know she won't be able to do it alone. "Cameron offered to go with me. Plus, Jason will be back tomorrow so you two can spend some time together until I get back."

Yes she knows everything and I'm glad because if I ever need honest advice, I know I can count on her to give it.
We spent most of the day laying out by the pool talking and sipping on margaritas, just enjoying some girl time. Crazy how fast a good day can turn into a bad day, because right about now, I plan to spend the rest of my night locked in my room hitting ignore every time Jason tries to call. When we came back inside earlier, Kayla turned on the TV to see the Hollywood news alert Jason Thompson and Victoria Johnson spotted hand in hand in New York City. The reporter went on to say "There you have it folks, Hollywood’s favorite celebrity couple reunited in the big city." Victoria Johnson, famous singer and actress, they've been together on and off, but had recently been on a long term break up that had everyone sure they were done for good, including me. Frozen in place, I felt like I couldn't breath. How could I be so stupid? Kayla looked at me with sadness in her eyes because she could tell that in an instant, I was broken. I didn't say a word, I just turned and went straight to my room. This is what I was afraid of, what I knew would happen, but I let my guard down only to feel regret. As much as I didn't want to, I listened to Jason's voicemail on my phone. "Katie, please ignore the news, it's not what you think, I swear. Please answer." How is him holding hands with his ex not what I think? How can he explain that? Between the anguish and heartache, I had hit my limit of what I could take. I stayed in my room and slept, the only way to ignore my thoughts.
After spending all night and most of the next day in my room not even coming out to eat since I had no appetite through the knots in my stomach, I managed to leave my room just long enough to say goodbye to Kayla and wish her a safe trip. She didn't even ask if I was ok, but I guess she knew she didn't have to. I helped her get her things and put them in the car and off she went. She was gone and there I was, alone.
For days I knew I couldn't let this bring me down so I did everything from cleaning and baking to completely redoing my landscaping around my house, all in my attempt to stay busy. I knew Jason had been home, but relieved he hadn't tried to come over and talk to me. He finally quit calling and I was glad, I didn't want to hear anything he had to say. Sitting on the couch finishing my fourth drink in hopes to numb the anguish I still felt, I decide to go for a swim now that I've ran out of things to do around the house. Just as I'm heading outside, my phone rings, it's Jason. That feeling of not being able to breath followed by a sense of anger hits me. He hasn't called for two days and even though I was relieved he hadn't, I was ready to answer and end this once and for all, so I took a deep breath and picked up the phone

"Katie? Are you there? Please don't hang up." I have to tell him how I feel and I can't hold back. "Yes, I'm here Jason. I need you to stop calling me. Look, I knew it wouldn't work out with us and that's why I tried so hard to ignore how I felt. I finally let myself go and gave in because I thought there was something real between us and just as I feared, it wasn't real at all, I was just another girl to you. I get that now and I've accepted it. So please Jason, just leave me alone. Let's just end this now and pretend we never met. I have to go. Good bye Jason." And I hung up. The thought of moving back home had crossed my mind, just to avoid seeing him again, but now that Kayla was moving here I knew I wasn't going to. I just have to accept that what we had was nice for the short time it lasted, but I can't let myself dwell on, after all I knew it would end up like this. I set my phone down on the table outside and jumped into the pool. I swam up and down the pool over and over again trying to rid myself of this stress. It was now getting dark out and the unwanted emotions were still there. I stop to catch my breath just in time to look up and see Jason standing there looking down at me. How did he get in? I must've left the door unlocked, but I can't believe he had the nerve to just walk in. Feeling angry that he just let himself in, I lift myself up out of the pool to confront him. "What are you doing here? You can't just walk into someone's house. I told you to leave me alone." I brush past him and grab a towel to wrap around myself.

I continue to head back into the house, knowing he will follow, so I can show him out the front door. Just as I came through the entryway at my front door he grabs me and pushes me against the wall. "You're not just another girl to me. You're more than that. You have to know you mean more to me." He leans forward in an attempt to kiss me, but I quickly turn my face away. I pull away from him and grab the door pulling it open. "Just leave Jason." I say calmly. It's hard to believe him even though a part of me wants to believe he means what he says. Without argument he gives me a devastated look and walks out. I shut the door behind him and lock it. I want nothing more to do with Jason Thompson.
I'm not sure what to make of my encounter with Jason, I'm not even sure how I feel about him anymore, I just know I need to do whatever it takes to keep my mind off of him. As I scroll through the news feed on my phone, I get a message. It's from Stacy Matthews, my best friend all the way through Junior High and High School up until she packed up and moved away the summer after graduation. We completely lost touch, but apparently she's been living right here in LA. She must have seen my recent posts about moving to LA because she had messaged me wanting to hang out. Of course I was going to take her up on her offer, anything to get out of this house, anything to be away from Jason. It will be nice to catch up, hard to believe it's been 5 years. We discussed plans and decided we were going to go out tonight, she said her and some friends would be by shortly to pick me up and she couldn't wait to see me. I hurried upstairs to get ready. I don't regret what happened with Jason, if anything it just taught me a lesson, don't let myself fall for someone so easily, especially not a hot celebrity like Jason. I'm young and single in LA, I figured it was about time to start acting like it, so I grabbed my favorite black crop top to show off a little skin and my tight fitting white high waist mini skirt, then to top it all off, I put on my black strappy heels. I let my hair down to show off my perfect wavy curls and gave myself a once over in the mirror, I looked hot and I was glad, I was ready to start living and tonight I was going to have some fun, no more regrets. I hear the car horn outside so I grab my clutch wallet and my phone and outside I went.

There was Stacy, as beautiful as ever, we used to get asked if we're sisters since we resembled each other so much with the same hair and skin tone as well as similar features. She was with another very pretty girl, tall and blonde, and three guys, all three looked like they could be male models, tall dark and handsome, and they were all standing outside the limo, yes a limo, which seems to be the popular means of transportation when going out in LA. You can feel the excitement from everyone yelling loudly all while introducing themselves to me. As we are starting to get into the car, Jason's car slowly drives by. Talk about timing. What better time than me standing there dressed up with three good looking guys standing with us? I know it was probably a slap in the face to him, but I didn't care, this could hardly compare to what he did besides, I don't know any of the guys here nor was I with them for anything more than just them showing up with Stacy. I glance at his car knowing that he's staring right back at me through the tinted glass, I look away and get into the limo. I'm not going to let him ruin my night, tonight is about me having fun without thinking about him.
The music is blaring and everyone is dancing. I'm on my fifth drink, I know I should slow down, but tonight I'm feeling careless. Stacy and I spent the entire limo ride talking about our lives and how much we wished we would've stayed in touch. I forgot how much fun we used to have together, we have danced non stop, Stacy’s friend Lisa, the very pretty blonde who is a pretty well known producer in LA, managed to sink her claws into one of the three tall dark and handsome guys who accompanied us here tonight, Chad, a big shot attorney, Stacy was dancing closely with Ben, an up and coming actor, and I had been dancing the night away with Adam, owner of one the best fitness gyms in LA, he's just my type, average guy who loves staying fit, nothing too complicated about that. We all stayed grouped together, but in pairs. Adam and I danced and drank, just enjoying ourselves, no strings. It was nice really, enjoying the attention from a guy without the emotion that usually comes with it.
The night went on going from one night club to the next and I was having the time of my life. We arrived at our third night club of the night, Stacy insisted I experienced it all, cameras are everywhere outside. "Someone important must be here." Stacy says. I pay no mind to what she says and follow everyone into the club with Adams arm around me. Drinks in hand we are back on the dance floor. I'm not sure why, just a feeling someone was watching me I guess, but I looked over to my right with Adam still dancing behind me and there's Jason. Is he following me? As the crowd separates around him just enough for me to see, I see him dancing with a girl I've never seen before, meaning she wasn't a well known celebrity, just a gorgeous girl who is probably a model, just Jason's type.