Lovers and Liars Trilogy (173 page)

Rowland found this statement, and the reasons for it, rather harder to unravel. After ten minutes of obfuscation, he had the gist. Some while after the good news from Court, which Colin had immediately begun celebrating, a woman had called, wishing to speak to Rowland. This woman, whose name was Lynne, or Linda, or possibly Lynette, had a voice and a manner Colin instantly liked. Or, another way of putting it, he and Lynne, or Lisa, had hit it off. They had, it seemed, chatted away as if they were old friends; they had chatted away for
hours
, about Yorkshire, and men who liked walking in the dark, and life, and this and that.

‘This and that?’ Rowland said, when this account rambled to a conclusion. ‘And her name’s Lindsay, by the way.’

‘Lindsay! The fair Lindsay! I salute her!’ Colin drank.

‘She’s dark, not fair,’ Rowland said, his manner slightly irritable.

‘Dark
and
fair. With a voice. With a
magical
voice. It has a catch in it.’ Colin seemed to be sobering up rapidly. ‘I could have listened to that voice all night. She liked my voice too; she said so. She said I sounded very
merry
. I cheered her up.’

‘I’m delighted to hear it.’ Rowland rose. ‘Did she leave a message for me or was she too busy complimenting you?’

‘Can’t remember.’

‘Try. She must have had a reason for calling.’

‘She sent her love.’

‘Not that. A proper reason. What did she want?’

Colin was relapsing again; the angelic smile had reappeared on his face. ‘We came to an understanding,’ he announced.

‘I doubt that.’

‘We did. We
communicated
. Arrangements were made! I remember! I remember!’ Colin flailed, then subsided. ‘It was a friendly call, she said. She wondered when you might be getting back. You’re
friends
. Friendly friends. That’s what she said. And after that…’

‘After that, what?’

‘I proposed. I proposed marriage.’

‘I see.’ Rowland gave Colin a long, cool, green-eyed look. ‘And did my friend accept?’

‘I think she did.’

‘Well, accept my congratulations,’ Rowland said evenly. ‘And now I’m going to bed.’

A
T TEN IN THE MORNING
, that same Saturday, Lindsay’s son Tom was calm. He was in the large bedsitting room of his lodgings in a tall, dilapidated but pleasant north Oxford house; from upstairs and from below, where other undergraduates had rooms, came the sounds of music: Mozart from the north side, Dire Straits from the south. He was stretched full-length on a sofa with an unfortunate cerise loose cover, a sofa that even his landlady, the
distrait
widow of a physics professor, admitted had seen better days. As much of the cerise as possible was disguised by an Indian cotton throw found by Tom’s girlfriend, Katya. Tom had managed to position himself so that he avoided the jab and prod of springs.

On his chest was balanced the third bowl of cornflakes he had eaten that morning, this one moistened with water, as he and Katya had forgotten to buy milk the previous day. He munched a spoonful experimentally; they tasted edible. He turned a page of the large book propped on his knees, which detailed the economic consequences upon Germany of the Treaty of Versailles.

Across the room from him, Katya, who ostensibly lived in her college, but spent little time there, was pecking away at the keys of her word processor with two fingers. She was wearing a white nightdress and woolly socks; her auburn hair was wound up in a bundle on top of her head, from which precarious knot tendrils escaped. Every so often, she would stop pecking at the keys, push these tendrils aside impatiently, lean forward, adjust her large working spectacles and glare at the screen. Her essay on George Eliot’s
Middlemarch
was due to be delivered to her tutor, the terrifying Dr Stark. It should have been completed the evening before, and would have been, had she and Tom not decided that a late-night six-hour Hallowe’en retrospective of classic vampire movies was rather more urgent than a nineteenth-century novel, or inexorable inflation in 1930s Germany. Then they had had to eat, then Cressida-from-upstairs had arrived with some red wine and Algerian grass; then they had had to sleep—well, go to bed anyway; then…Tom considered the subsequent events with pleasure. Two hours of actual sleep? One and a half? He abandoned the cornflakes and half-closed his eyes; the tome on his knees slid to the floor. Ten, ten, ten. Oxford had so many churches, and none of their clocks synchronized. The chiming of an hour could last five minutes or more, and Tom, loving the city, loved it especially for this stretching of time.

Peck, peck, peck went Katya’s fingers on the keys. Katya, expected to get a first, as was Tom, was fierce in her typing, fierce in her opinions, this being one of the reasons why Tom had now loved her for two years. No, more than two years, he thought, lazily, stretching out his legs and wriggling his toes. Two years, two months, a week and two days. The length of this period of fierce fidelity pleased Tom; it reassured him that he had not inherited his father’s genes; his father, whom he scarcely knew and now never saw, being, as Tom sometimes contemptuously said, a fickle weakling of a man. Two years, two months, a week, two days and—he paused to calculate—twelve and a half hours.

It was at this point, very suddenly, that Tom ceased to be calm. He leaped to his feet as if electrocuted, and stared wildly around the room. The room, he now saw, was a slum, a pigsty. How had this escaped his notice before? The bed in the alcove was unmade; there were T-shirts, socks and knickers strewn across the floor; on the table was a stack of last night’s dirty plates and unwashed wineglasses; there were Rizla papers and obvious roaches in the ashtray. He sniffed; did the room smell of grass? He thought it might smell of grass. He plunged across the room and opened the window wide.

‘Oh my God. Oh my God,’ he said. ‘It’s Saturday. It’s Saturday
now
.’

‘So?’ Katya did not look up; she pecked even faster at the keys.

‘Mum’s coming. She’ll be here any minute. She’ll be here in less than half an hour.’

Katya glanced at her watch. ‘She’ll be late; she’s always late. She’ll get lost in the one-way systems. You know how she drives…’

‘Shit, shit, double shit.’ Tom was leaping crazily about, stuffing socks and knickers under pillows. ‘What if she
isn’t
late? What if she’s on time?’

‘Stay calm. I need those knickers. What are you hopping around for?’

‘I just stubbed my toe. I stubbed it on that evil coffee table. I’m crippled, I may never walk again…’

‘Straighten the duvet. Pass me those knickers. Just give me two minutes, I’m almost finished. I just have to be really savage about Will Ladislaw…’

‘Who?’

‘He’s the love interest. In here.’ Katya indicated a fat paperback copy of
Middlemarch
from which protruded slips of white place marks, like a porcupine’s spines. ‘
Not
one of Eliot’s successes. An apology for a man.’

Tom moaned. He emptied the tell-tale ashtray, hid the Rizla papers, picked up the dirty plates and glasses and shoved them into a cupboard. He closed the door, handed Katya her knickers, straightened the duvet, punched the pillows, then stood on one leg like a crane, rubbing his injured foot and looking around him with an expression of wild surmise.

‘What else? What else? There’s bound to be something else. Mum has X-ray eyes; she doesn’t miss
anything
. What about the dust? There’s all this
dust
. Where does all this dust come from?’

‘Lindsay’s seen dust before. She won’t mind. I can’t think why you’re fussing. Lindsay’s cool.’

‘Cool? She’s my
mother
. She’ll go on about washing facilities. Cooking facilities.’

‘So? Show her the kitchen; it does exist.’

‘The kitchen? Are you mad? She’d
die
if she saw that kitchen. There’s a bowl of Cressida’s spaghetti on the window sill that’s three months old. It has
mould
. It practically has legs. It’s
breeding
out there…’

‘I expect she’ll understand. I wish you’d shut up. I just have to skewer this love scene. How can you be a genius and write a love scene like this one? It creaks. There’s a ridiculous storm. She can’t do storms. She’s pinched the storm from one of the Brontës. Charlotte, I think. Where’s my
Jane Eyre
?’

‘Under that coffee mug, next to the ashtray. Christ—quick, give me that ashtray…’ In the act of reaching for it, Tom paused. He could now read the words on Katya’s computer screen; they were not kind words—Katya was young, as well as fierce—and they caused Tom some alarm.

‘Shit, Katya—you’ve really…You don’t mince your words. Castrated? Epicene? Poor Will what’s-his-name…’ He bent more closely and read the next paragraph. Unconcerned, concentrated, Katya continued to peck away.

‘Bloody hell.’ Tom gave a sigh. ‘Is this guy Will supposed to be the hero?’

‘Sort of. Maybe. I can’t make up my mind. Neither could Eliot, unfortunately, and it shows.’

‘You say—this guy Will Whatsit isn’t erotic then?’

‘He’s handsome.’ Katya shrugged. ‘Passionate. He obeys some of the conventions. But not erotic—no.’

‘Do heroes have to be erotic?’

‘Sure, heroes ought to exude sex. They have to have sexual power.’

This statement alarmed Tom even more. He forgot about the disorder of the room and the pain of his stubbed toe.

‘Sexual power?’ he said. ‘Come on, Katya—that’s a nineteenth-century novel. Closed bedroom doors.’

‘No-one screws, you mean?’ Katya, still concentrated, typed a final blistering sentence. She leaned back in her chair, removed her spectacles and smiled. ‘
That
doesn’t matter. In fact, it helps. The reader’s vile imagination does all the work…You want to know what makes a man erotic in a novel?’

‘I already know: money and looks. I’ve read
Pride and Prejudice
. Hell.’

‘You’re wrong, it’s silence: a capacity for silence. Obviously, money helps—or did. Social status. Dark eyes and dark hair…’

‘Shit, shit, shit,’ said Tom, whose hair was fair.

‘But silence is vital. If a hero is a man of few words, he remains mysterious, and mystery in a man is
always
erotic…’

Tom looked at Katya doubtfully. He did not like this opinion or this conversation. He groaned. Beautiful, dedicated Katya seemed oblivious to his distress; she had picked up a notebook, and was scribbling a couple of
aides-mémoire
.

‘Interesting…’ She scribbled faster. ‘The links between eroticism and capitalism. Does the money enhance the virility, or is it the other way around? The silent man as the romantic hero…Fascinating. It allows the reader to write the hero’s script for him, of course. Maybe
that’s
why it works so well…’ She tossed down her pencil in sudden impatience and fixed Tom with her lovely, and very short-sighted, blue eyes.

‘Of course, all that stuff’s antediluvian. When I write a novel, it won’t have a hero
or
a heroine. I have no patience with that sort of thing.’

Tom felt humbled. He made a private vow to be as Trappist as possible from then on. Perhaps it had been a mistake to be so open with Katya? Perhaps, in revealing his heart to her, he had disarmed himself and unwisely divested himself of a vital weapon in the male armoury. Enigma. Mystery. Silence. Erotic power.

‘Shit,’ he said miserably. ‘I’m a failure as a man. I see it now. I’m like Will Whatsit. I’m a eunuch, a castrate. I’m epicene.’

That, at last, attracted Katya’s attention.

‘Are you?’ she asked, leaning forward and touching him in a way, and with an immediate result, that gave the lie to this statement. Tom forgot about novels and heroes, and also about the time. Ten pleasurable minutes later, he remembered clocks; he leaped out of bed with a panic-stricken howl.

‘Shit. Double shit. Where’s the duvet?’

‘On the floor. Pass me my jeans.’

‘This is terrible. This is appalling. I love you, Katya.’

‘I love you too. Comb your hair.’

Tom combed his hair, which was now rather longer than when his mother had last seen it. He felt his chin, decided to shave, decided not to shave; he found a clean shirt and rushed about the room. While he rushed, Katya put things in order. She achieved this, it seemed to Tom, in about fifteen seconds. The dust disappeared; the fluff on the carpet was sucked away; papers lay down in piles; books stacked themselves on shelves. A quick, fierce burst of female efficiency; suddenly chaos no longer threatened and the detritus was gone.

Fifteen seconds after that, Tom was posed on the sofa, surrounded by suitable evidence of undergraduate industry; Katya, also posed with book in hand, was seated opposite, smelling of rose-petal soap, demure in an armchair. For five minutes, all the church bells of Oxford chimed the half-hour. Both waited expectantly.

‘I
told
you she’d be late,’ Katya said a short while later. ‘I
told
you we had time. We could have…’

Tom, intent on an heroic, erotic silence, ignored this prompt. He gave Katya a volcanic look; Katya giggled; Tom persevered. Katya’s amusement died away; she shifted in her seat, lowered her eyes and, to Tom’s triumph, blushed rosily. Tom was just congratulating himself on the ease with which he had mastered this effective new technique—nothing to it, much easier than actually speaking, a cinch—when the telephone rang. Both Tom and Katya expected it to be Lindsay, calling with some excuse for her delay—she had backed into a bollard, imprisoned herself in a remote cul-de-sac, or something similar. It was not Lindsay, however, but her friend, and Tom’s friend, Rowland McGuire. Rowland, it emerged, was trying to track down Lindsay.

They spoke for some while, then Tom replaced the receiver.

‘Great,’ he said. ‘Rowland’s going to join us for lunch. He’s going to drop in on his way back to London. He’s got some friend with him…’

‘A woman friend?’

‘No. Some man who was up at Oxford with him. Works in films.’

‘Interesting.’ Katya gave Tom a sidelong glance. ‘Lindsay will be pleased. You don’t think…’