Love's Long Journey (Love Comes Softly Series #3) (24 page)

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most? A church. I jest ache sometimes to gather with a group of believers and sing an' pray an' read the Word. It seems like so long--what I wouldn't give fer jest one Sunday back home."

Missie's eyes became misty. A Sunday back home meant Pa with his baritone voice expressing his praise, Ma in her quiet, confident manner joining in. It meant Clare and Arnie, Ellie and little Luke gathered 'round. It meant Nandry and Clae and their families. Missie wondered if there were more members to the families now, how tall Clare was, if Arnie still teased Ellie, and if everyone still spoiled little Luke. She wondered if Marty still looked west each night and breathed a prayer for her faraway little girl, and if Pa still lifted down the family Bible and read with a steady, assured voice the promises of God. Were they all well-- her family? If only there was some way to span the miles, as Willie had put it, to spend a Sunday at home.

Missie blinked away her tears, and came back to the reality of her small home.

"It would be so good to hear the Word with others," Willie was saying. "I'll be so glad when we have enough neighbors to have our own little church and a preacher."

Then Willie was looking around the room, seeming to size it up.

"Remember how we all managed to crowd in here fer Christmas?"

"Yeah, we were toe to toe--but we fit," Missie laughed. "Well, we can fit again," Willie said. "Boy, have I been dumb!"

He reached for his hat. "Put on the coffeepot, Missie," he said. "I'm gonna go fer the
congregation,
and he ducked quickly through the door.

And so it was that all the hands that worked on the Hanging W Ranch were invited to share in Sunday services in the little sod house.

That first Sunday only Rusty came with Henry, but what a time they had singing the old hymns accompanied by Henry's guitar, and reading the Scriptures together. The next Sunday, it was Henry and Rusty again.

A couple of Sundays later, Cookie hobbled in, clearing his

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throat and looking embarrassed at his weakness in getting so near to "religion."

In spite of the ridicule that came from the hardened Smith (who, whenever he was asked his full name snapped, "It's Smith--jest Smith," making Missie wonder if he really had a claim to even that), the weeks passed with the little meeting growing. On Christmas Sunday, Smith was the only holdout. He saddled his horse and rode away into the quietness of the snow- covered hills. Missie prayed that God might somehow reach his cold, unhappy heart.

After their service together, Missie managed to serve them a special Christmas dinner. She had even been tempted to sacrifice two of her chickens for the occasion, but could not bring herself to do so. She was getting four or five eggs a day, and as she still hadn't determined who were the producers and who were the sluggards, she granted them all extended life, lest she take the wrong ones.

With her milk, eggs and some hoarded raisins, she made some bread pudding. Even those who did not care for the chickens themselves did not scorn what the hens were able to produce. And they smacked their lips as they went back for seconds.

Nathan, having passed the milestone of his first birthday, thoroughly enjoyed the whole crowded celebration. He shook his head sadly when the last figure left the small shack. "A' gone," he sighed, "A' gone."

After having made the plunge for Christmas Sunday, the last loners seemed reluctant to avoid the regular Sunday services. Unless duty called them away, at the appointed time of two o'clock they all, but Smith, entered the house, dusting the snow from their coats with their hats as they walked in stamping their boots. Then they filed quietly to their places for the short time of singing, Bible reading and prayer.

Missie prayed that Rusty, the easy-going, open-hearted young boy of the group, would desire more than just a Sunday gathering. He eagerly sang the old hymns and listened attentively as the Scripture was read.

To Missie's surprise, it was the shy, backward Lane who knocked on their door one evening and asked in an embarrassed

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and stumbling voice, "Is the boss in?"

Missie ushered him in and he stood facing Willie, nervously twisting his hat in his hand.

"I wondered, Boss, iffen y'all would mind--iffen you'd--" he cleared his throat. "I don't have much understandin"bout the things of the Bible. Could ya--would ya sorta go over it againslow-like, iffen ya don't mind?"

So Lane was invited to sit down at the table, and by the dim light of the flickering lamp, with fresh cups of coffee before them, he and Willie again went over the words of the Book.

"If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved."*

Missie sat off to the side, her hands finding jobs to do for which she needed little light. She prayed that God would bless His Word, and open the understanding of the young man.

Her heart was full. God had been good to Willie and her. And He had given them their own unique, yet special,
congregation.

*Romans 10:9, KJV.

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Chapter 36

Dreams

Missie's second winter in the soddy was nearing its end.

The winter winds seemed to be abating, and she even dared to hope for an early thaw. Already she was mentally planning her garden, though she knew full well that it would be weeks before she could actually do the planting. This year, she promised herself, she would listen to Willie and not rush it so. But secretly, she wondered if her wisdom could hold her eagerness in check.

This spring she hoped to have some setting hens as well; and though she had still made use of her daily egg supply, she had been holding some back each day for the settings. A spring calf was due to Ginger, their milk cow; in no way could the dozens of range calves expected compare to the anticipation of that one calf that would be born to the cow in the barn. Pansy still was milked daily, although her supply was running low. It would soon be her turn to take a rest from the daily production and wait for her calf which was still some months away.

And then there was the promised house to look forward to! Missie had fretted about it so, fearing that the money shouldn't

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be spent on one for another year--but Willie was determined that the start be made on the stone home as soon as possible. A good share of the outer material was almost free, he assured her, and the labor would be cheap.

With Scottie to oversee the activities of the ranch, Willie would be free to get on with the building. Juan also had promised him two helpers who had a great deal of experience with stone buildings. Willie sat at night at the small table and drew up plans for the house. The low, rambling stone building would be built with the main living area in the middle, the kitchen and dining area located in the left wing and the bedrooms in the right. A shaded porch and small courtyard would provide a good spot for Missie to sit and do handwork while young Nathan enjoyed the out-of-doors. Willie discussed the plans with Missie and then redrew them, over and over. Missie tried to restrain herself, not daring to let it become too real, lest something happen that would prevent the carrying out of their plans.

But she did her share of dreaming.

Oh, the fun she would have unpacking all their stored things--the proper-sized stove, the sewing machine, the rugs, the curtains, the fancy dishes. At times she thought that she would burst in her eagerness.

Henry had decided that with the spring, he also would do some building. He had obtained the land bordering Willie's and had plans to put his house just as close to the LaHayes' home as he could, so that it would be convenient for the women to visit and do things together. Missie could scarcely wait for Melinda to arrive.

Willie agreed to sell Henry fifty head of cattle, with whatever calves were at heel, so that Henry could get a start on his spread.

This would also give Willie some cash for the new house. If Scottie disapproved of a cattleman making sales in the spring, he did not say so. He knew that the sale would assist both men in realizing their dreams.

Rusty decided to go to work on Henry's spread, so Scottie needed to find two more hands for the Hanging W. He assured Willie that he would take his time and choose carefully.

Scottie reported that the outlying ranches were already planning

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a fall trail drive to move their cattle to the market. If Willie wanted to, he could send as many head of cattle as he wished, along with a designated number of riders. Willie decided that he'd hold his herd that year unless unexpected expenses demanded more cash. Everyone was hopeful that before another fall rolled around, the railroad would have made its promised appearance. This would eliminate the costly, time-consuming, wearying trail drive.

The winter losses seemed to be low and the calf crop looked good. As each count came in, Missie's hopes for the new home mounted.

Missie anticipated the summer before her, with even the thought of the approaching heat not able to wither her spirits.

She gazed across the endless hills. She and Willie had lived in the area such a short time and already they were seeing changes--and the future promised many more. Would they all come true--the dreams, the plans? Whatever the outcome, things were going well now. She was sure, for the first time, that if they really needed to, they could carry on indefinitely just as they had been living.

She decided that as soon as Nathan woke from his nap she'd ride up for a look at the mountains. She was wondering what color they would appear on this bright, spring-like morning.

Cookie appeared at the cookshack door carrying a dishpan. He tossed the water carelessly to the side of the path and stopped to look at the sky. Missie wondered if he also was coaxing spring to come.

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Chapter 37

Nathan

Willie went to check the horses before retiring, while Missie finished the dishes and prepared Nathan for bed.

"You are gettin' so big," she said. "Soon you aren't gonna fit in that wee bed anymore. Your pa is gonna have to make you a bigger one."

Nathan smiled, "Big boy."

Missie kissed his chubby cheeks.

"Big boy, all right. Mama's big boy."

Nathan returned her kiss in his wet, yet affectionate fashion. "Now," Missie said, "let's say our prayers."

Missie prayed, stopping often to let Nathan try to repeat her words. He finished with a hearty "Amen." As Missie bundled him into bed, she noticed that his breathing sounded heavier than usual.

"I do hope that you're not comin' down with a cold," she told him. "Won't be long now until the days will be nice an' sunny an' warm, and you can go outside to play as much as you like."

"Doggie?"

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"Sure, you can play with your doggie. You always think of 'doggie' when I talk about outside, don't you? Well, soon now you can be out with Max as much as you want to."

Nathan seemed to like the idea.

Missie tucked him in and kissed him again, then began to refill the lamp with oil. Willie might wish to work on his house plans again.

Willie returned and, as Missie expected, pulled his stool up to the table. He still wasn't sure that the entrance to the house was in the most convenient place. He tried various drawings, first shifting it one way and then the other. Missie watched and made suggestions while she darned a sock. Willie finally decided that his first choice had been the right one.

They went to bed early. The next day's branding was bound to be long and tiring.

Missie lay for a few moments listening to Nathan's breathing, then Willie's snoring drowned out the sound. She felt a tightening in her stomach as she turned over to try to go to sleep, but couldn't decide just why.

Missie wasn't sure who awakened first--she or Willie; but she suddenly realized that she was sitting upright in bed, a feeling of horror making her blood pound in her ears. Already Willie was springing from the bed.

"What is it?" Missie called in the dark.

"It's Nathan! He's chokin' somethin' awful."

Missie heard it then--the rattling gasp for breath.

"Oh, God, no!" she cried, and tumbled out of bed after Willie. "Light the lamp," Willie ordered, already reaching for the small boy.

Missie hurried to fetch it, her bare feet feeling the coolness of the dirt floor.

"What is it? What's the matter with him, Willie?" "Was he okay when ya put him to bed?"

"He was a little heavy-soundin', but nothin' like--Oh, dear God, what can we do? What is it, Willie?" Missie cried, her heart tearing at each ragged breath of her small baby.

No doctor! her heart screamed with each wild beat. No doctor! Not for miles and miles! No help anywhere near here!

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"Have you ever seen this before in any of yer family?" Willie asked frantically.

"Never!" replied Missie, the tears running down her cheeks. "Never! I've no idea what it be. Unless--could it be pneumonia? He can't breathe."
Oh, dear God, we need You now,
her heart cried.
Little Nathan Isaiah needs
You
now. Please, dear God, show us what to do, or send us some help--someone who knows. Please, God.

"Have ya some medicine?" implored Willie. "Some things from yer ma? Where do ya keep it, Missie?"

"All I ever brought in were the first-aid supplies. There's more still stored in the barn, though. I've never unpacked it-- never needed it--'till now."

"I'll git it--ya stay and keep 'im warm, Missie."

"No, Willie, you wouldn't know the box--it'll take you too long to find it. I'll go, I know just where it is."

Missie pulled on her boots and shoved her arms into the sleeves of Willie's coat, then quickly lit another lantern. She ran from the house, the mud and slush from the spring puddles splashing on her bare legs.

"Oh, dear God," her prayer continued, "please help us. We don't have a doctor. We don't even have a neighbor near. We don't know what to do. Please help us, God. I couldn't bear to lose him. I just couldn't, God." The tears poured down her cheeks.

She found the box of medicines quickly enough and ran with it back to the house, still pleading, "Oh, please, God, please save my baby."

As she neared the shanty she could see inside through the tiny window. Willie stood with the baby in his arms. He was praying. Missie saw his tears and the anguish on his face.

"Oh, dear God," she prayed, coming to a sudden stop. "It's Willie's
son,
his pride and joy, God. If You must take our baby-- be with my Willie. Give 'im the strength to bear it, God. He loves his boy so much. Oh, dear God, please help us, please, please help us--if only someone knew--" and she hurried into the house.

She placed the box on the table. Without removing her heavy