Man Seeks Woman 2, Man Seeks Wife (10 page)

Sebastian
leaned into my space, pressing his hands to my hips where he subtly
moved me away from the door. He then removed one of his hands and
closed the door, locking the catch into place then sliding the
chain across afterwards. He then turned to me and leaned into me so
our faces were inches apart.

I could see
that his normally smooth as butter face was now coated with a
slight stubble, very unlike Sebastian. His eyes that were normally
the colour of the ocean were deep and inviting, wanting even and
his whole demeanour screamed something but I don’t know what.

Swallowing
loudly, I raised my hands and placed them on his chest feeling the
thickness and quality of the leather under my fingers. “What are
you doing here?”

“That’s a good
question.” He answered slowly, making me frown. “I’m here for a
multitude of reasons but one more important than the rest.”

“Oh?”

He nodded and
raised his hand. His index finger came out and traced a line down
my face, across my brows and down my nose until he hit my mouth
where he traced the outline of my lips before pressing down on my
bottom lip, making my mouth open. He pushed his finger gently
inside until my tongue came into contact with his digit.

I licked and
sucked at his finger watching his eyes flare and his teeth suck in
his own bottom lip, a bottom lip that I wanted to nibble and suck
myself. Right about now.

“I’ve come to
apologise.”

His finger in
my mouth dropped out with a pop as my brows drew together. I licked
my lips and blinked slowly. “Apologise?”

Was this
really the same Sebastian Blackwell that I knew or rather didn’t
know?

“Yes.” He
nodded and took a deep breath, his eyes becoming warier by the
minute. “I’ve come to talk and apologise for everything that I’ve
done to you and hope that we can get back on the path to becoming
something good.” He said. Now that he’d finished that little bit of
explaining, he looked utterly relieved to have gotten it out.

That was good
and all but, “Why now?”

Sebastian
reached up to his chest where my hands were resting and took them
both in his and led me through to my living room then through to my
bedroom and sat down on my bed, pulling me down with him. Because I
was unsteady on my feet, I kind of toppled over him, pushing him
back with me landing on him.

Oh shit.

“Whoa.” He
chuckled and wrapped his arms around me as we landed. I moved to
get up but he held still, his arms like a vice around me. “No,
stay, please.”

I sighed
heavily and leaned into his chest, letting my weight settle against
him. I closed my eyes at the sickness rolling through me at the
sudden body tilt. Damn, I really shouldn’t have drunk that alcohol
or maybe not so much of it.

Sebastian was
so quiet for so long that I thought I’d actually fallen asleep
until his voice broke into the stillness. It was quiet and heavy,
sounding like he hadn’t used it in forever. “I know I hurt you and
I hate myself for it, Victoria. So many days have gone by where
I’ve cursed myself and my actions because I was intensely stupid. I
was not only intensely stupid to have done that callous thing in
the first place but to place you in harms way and act the way I
did. It was utterly unforgiveable. I now understand why you stayed
away all this time.” He sighed and rubbed his hands up and down my
back, soothingly.

“I also know
that if I hadn’t of had that meeting with Benjamin and Conrad, we
would still be apart and I would still be in limbo. I never knew
until you went away that I needed light to see in the darkness,
that I missed the sun when it rained or snowed and finally how low
I actually was because being with you was a high point, the highest
point of my life, Victoria. Just being with you enables me to
breathe, to let that breath that has been trapped in my chest to be
released.” He stopped to take a shuddering breath. His hands
stopped moving and clung to me as if I were a life saver in the
middle of the dark blue sea.

“Every time I
closed my eyes, I saw you. I dreamed of you and what little we had
together but it was enough to keep me hanging on well until a rerun
of my Mother’s house came into view then you would suddenly
disappear from my sight in a flash. I would wake up sweating and
patting the bed bedside me, looking for you. Only then would I
realise that you were never there because I kept you at arms length
thinking I was doing something good for not only me but you.” His
chest moved up and down heavily. “It was only when you were gone
that I realised I loved you.”

By the time
he’d finished, lonely little teardrops were leaking from my eyes. I
took a breath, it coming out like a sob as my heart stuttered in my
chest.

Sebastian sat
up, shrugged his jacket off and re-wrapped his arms around me as my
shoulders shook. My whole body leaned into him, soaking up his
warmth and the feeling that I’d been without for the past six
months.

He wasn’t the
only one that had been in the darkness that had felt the stillness
around them that had felt the emptiness penetrating through their
body.

I had felt it
too. I just had refused to accept what the true meaning of it
was.

“I love you,
Victoria.” Sebastian whispered in my hair, his voice grave. His
hands rubbed up and down my back, as he pressed tiny kisses to the
top of my head. “And I am truly sorry, oh so sorry.”

My mouth
opened but nothing came out. I knew I felt more for him that I had
ever felt for anyone else before and I knew that if I hadn’t of
felt something for him at his families home, the recording wouldn’t
have hurt me as much as it had. Still did.

I moved out of
his arms and settled myself on my bed next to him. I wiped at my
now soaking wet face with shaky hands and looked up at him through
my blurry vision whilst biting my bottom lip. “You love me?”

No-one other
than Jenna and Rick had told me that they loved me, ever. This was
foreign oh so foreign and so fucking scary.

He nodded as
he reached out to wipe my tears for me. He sucked his thumb into
his mouth, taking my tears. “I didn’t realise it until afterwards,
until after all the hurt and shit filled my system did I know but I
know and know this,” he moved closer to me again and placed his
hand on my cheek, his palm holding my face, his blue eyes staring,
imploring into my hazel ones. “That I’ll never let you go again.
Ever,”

As I took a
breath, a burp came up and surprised the both of us. I giggled and
slapped my hand over my mouth. “Excuse me.”

Sebastian
blinked and his lips twitched. He shook his head and pulled me into
his lap, holding me like I was the most precious thing on earth.
Even through my drink induced fog of a brain, I could feel the heat
and warmth of not only his body but his heart too.

“I want us to
make a go of it, Victoria. I want something with you and I don’t
mean friendship or contracts or agreements, I want the real deal
with you. I want what every man and every woman desires deep down.
I want to go to bed with you and wake up with you in my arms, I
want someone to come home to when I’ve had the shittiest day at the
office and finally, I want someone that makes me feel whole and
warm and fills that void within me. Right now,” He pulled back and
tilted my chin up to look into my wet eyes. “That’s you,
Victoria.”

I bought a
variety of flavours, which one?

“Kiss me,
Sebastian.” I whispered, leaning in towards him.

Sebastian’s
eyes darted to my lips before leaning in himself, meeting me
halfway. His lips were soft and sweet against mine. I opened my
mouth and waited for his tongue to come and seek out mine but it
didn’t. Instead, I went forward and licked at his mouth, feeling
every bump and ripple of his lips as I grazed it. He opened on a
gasp and allowed my tongue to invade. I met with his, swipe for
swipe. His mouth was wet and warm and tasted of mint and a slight
kick of whiskey was detected.

Sebastian
pulled back first, separating us by placing his fingers on my lips.
“I want so badly to carry on, to take you right here right now but
I know I won’t last, I’ve gone too long to make it count.”

My head was
already shaking back and fourth. “I don’t care; just give me what
you’ve got. I’ve got this ache.” I took his hand and pressed it to
my stomach then further down where I parted my legs and pressed his
fingers further into my pussy. I closed my eyes at the heat coming
from his palm. My clit came back to life, throbbing like a good’en
knowing Sebastian was close by. “I have this ache that has your
name on it, Sebastian. Please take it away.”

Sebastian
licked his lips and pressed his fingers into my cotton covered
centre. Underneath my old jogging bottoms, I was bare. The more I
opened my legs, the more he pressed against me, his fingers
working, rippling.

Then he stood
up suddenly, making me suck in a breath. He was utterly gorgeous. I
mean, I loved him in his suits with that powerful aura that waved
and glistened around and from him but seeing him in jeans and
especially those jeans did something to me, something deep
inside.

I bit my lip
as he walked over to the door and toed his boots off, letting them
drop to my floor with a thud. His hands went to the bottom of his
jumper where he pulled it over his head, revealing an even more
toned and muscled body than before.

I think I may
have drooled.

Actually, I
did. I felt my saliva drip down my chin and off the bottom of it. I
wiped at the dribble with the back of my hand as Sebastian threw
his top at me, it landing over my head. I closed my eyes and moaned
at the smell that invaded my nose and head, it was too much.

Pulling the
cashmere from my head, I dropped the jumper into my lap and sucked
in a breath because Sebastian had turned around. One of his hands
was pressed against the wall, whilst his bare, extremely worked out
back was to me. My eyes took in every extra lump and bump and the
golden colour of his skin before drifting down to his jeans that
hugged his arse oh so nicely. His bum was plump and needed little
bite marks to be taken out of it, especially in those fuckable
jeans.

I watched with
baited breath as one of his hands flicked his button at the front
of his jeans and pushed the flaps aside, releasing the tightness
around his buttocks.

“Turn around.”
I croaked, not sure whether my heart could take it. Damn it, forget
about my heart, and think about my womb and my pussy. Both of them
were burning like they were on fire.

The moment he
turned around, I wanted to dive and suck that huge cock of his down
my throat until I gagged. I wanted to gag around it, have all of
his sap dribbling down my throat like-forever. I wanted to suck him
dry and have his liquid pooling in my stomach, swimming around
inside me.

Sebastian’s
hand went to his extremely red and bruised looking cock, holding it
in place at the base as he walked over to me. He stopped in between
my parted legs and leaned his hips forward then pulled his foreskin
back a little with two fingers. Ever so slowly, the tip of his
erection grazed over my pouting lips, back and fourth, painting
them with his sweet yet savoury stickiness. I quickly opened my
mouth and licked at his lipstick fluid before sucking his cock into
my mouth. I groaned loudly and felt my eyes drift closed as I
sucked and sucked hard. My mouth gobbled him up. Soon enough he hit
the back of my throat, nudging my tonsils out of the way. Relaxing
my throat muscles as quickly as I could, I swallowed a couple of
times and moaned out loud when I felt and tasted even more of his
salty yet sweet cum leaking down into my body.

“Oh fuck.”
Sebastian shouted and made an anguished sound. He pressed his hands
into my hair, holding me in place whilst his hips flicked backwards
and forwards, sliding his cock in and out of my mouth, in effect
fucking himself into it. I held my throat muscles in place when he
pushed to the back of my throat and gagged around him, loving his
hiss of pleasure at that.

When he pulled
that dangerous yet oh so tempting cock back out of my mouth, I ran
my tongue over the tip, hovering up his tantalising fluid. When I’d
sucked it all up from the slit, I invaded inside, pushing past his
hood and rimmed my tongue underneath the tightness. The plum shaped
head was pulsing in time with his heart beat and super soft.
Copious amounts of his juice pooled at the slit again, dripping
down onto my ready tongue. I eagerly lapped him up and removed
everything until he was soft and pulsing once more. Taking him to
the back of my throat again, I swallowed three times before letting
him slide back out, taking a string of my saliva with him. I
quickly edged forward and licked at the head of his cock where it
had pushed out of the end of his foreskin and flicked my tongue
against the slit, taking in another load of his juice.

It was
official. Sebastian tasted like the best aged whiskey and the most
intense savoury but sweetest pleasure you could ever have.

“No, no, no.”
Sebastian pulled out of my mouth and shook his head at me. His
whole body seemed to be on edge, his legs were shaking and his
hands were trembling. “Lay down.” He said as he turned around again
and ran his fingers through his hair, pulling it loose at the same
time. He blew out deep breaths as he moved around my room, doing
whatever the hell he was doing.

I moved
quickly, too quickly for my objecting head that was currently
pulsing with every beat of my heart. I pulled down my trousers and
whipped off my top so I lay naked in the middle of my bed. I was
too far gone to worry about what I may have looked like naked and
to be honest; did I really give a fuck? No. I wanted this. I closed
my eyes and blew out little breaths to ease the sickness welling up
in my chest.