I end up lying down on the bench seat with his body above mine, my hands anxiously gripping fistfuls of his collar.
His tongue sweeps and sweeps into my mouth and when he retreats to give me a smoldering look, I notice the way his green, green eyes have darkened like a night forest.
“I miss you,” he rasps, looking at me so fiercely it’s as though he’s commanding me to understand what this means.
“I miss you too,” I croak feelingly.
“I miss the taste of you, the feel of you, the sounds you make.” Clenching his jaw as if he’s remembering what it was like to miss me, he strokes his curled index finger down the line of my jaw, watching what he does. I watch the emotions play across his features as he opens his hand and caresses my face and neck. Determination. Hunger. Control.
I’m panting, aching, wanting,
waiting.
Holding me by the back of the neck, he pulls me up to a sitting position and in for another wet kiss. Leisurely, his mouth slants from one side to the other as he tastes me from all angles. I feel delicious, juicy, luscious. Wanting to taste him just as thoroughly too, I draw his tongue into my mouth and suck, surprised by how the sucking motion causes every centimeter of my body to squeeze and Saint to reflexively tighten his hold on me.
He groans and draws me onto his lap and shifts me so that I straddle him, then he lowers the top of my dress with a little tug at the elastic of my strapless.
“Malcolm, what are you doing?” I gasp, covering my chest with my arms as my breasts pop free.
“I’m looking at you.” Completely shameless and in control, he takes both my arms and lowers them to my sides.
I squeeze my eyes shut, then open them, embarrassed to realize he’s probably noticed I used nipple stickers to keep from having to use a bra tonight. I didn’t want my nipples to be poking out, and now my perky breasts are staring up at him with two small, round tan stickers on them.
He runs his thumbs over each. My sex squeezes when I notice his gaze is loving, appraising, possessive. And dark. So very, very dark.
“I meant to take them off before you saw,” I whisper.
He kisses the corner of my mouth. “I’ll do it.” Then he leans close and kisses one tip of my breast over the sticker. Then the other, his lips warm and gentle. He then raises his head as he seizes each sticker between his thumbs and fingers and looks into my eyes as he gently pulls off one, then the other.
A frisson of need runs through me.
The act is strangely intimate. Looking into each other’s eyes as he does this to me.
He lifts his thumb to his mouth and my sex tightens when he licks it. He does the same with his other thumb. Then he uses both to rub my nipples clean, and I almost moan out loud.
He speaks to me in a thick voice—my toes curling. I can feel how hard he is between my legs. “They’re all mine now,” he says.
He centers me on his lap again and drags the skirt of my dress up to my hips, and once it’s bunched up where he wants it, he ducks his head to take one nipple into his mouth, and when he covers the hardened little point with heat and wet, I rock my hips against his hardness. “Saint,” I beg.
He releases my breast and looks at me. He looks as if he wants to devour me whole as he leans in to continue kissing my lips.
He just won’t stop kissing me, his hands cupping my ass as he draws me up tighter against his erection.
I quiver in need. “Oh god.”
Gasping, I rake my nails against his scalp as I drag my mouth across any part of him that I can: the crown of his head that smells of shampoo, his shadowed, raspy jaw. Then I bite his earlobe. My body’s acting of its own will, pressing closer, a moan leaving me when he rubs my nipples with his thumbs in the most delicious, heart-stoppingly slow way.
I want to make out forever, and I want to let go when he can let go with me. But he’s hard between my legs, his mouth is killing me, and I feel the tension in my body tighten and tighten for orgasm.
“We need to stop,” I groan apologetically, fisting a handful of his hair. “I’m at the edge already, and I don’t want to be there alone.”
“I’ll be right there with you.”
He grabs the back of my neck and only kisses me the rest of the way to his place, and when the car turns into the building’s driveway, he stops with one last grazing kiss on the corner of my mouth as he tugs the skirt of my dress down and then pulls the rest of my strapless back up.
I try to pull myself together and fix my hair, a little mortified. “I can’t imagine how I look.”
He runs his eyes quickly over me. “You look ravishing.”
“Ravished by you,” I say, shoving his shoulder a little bit with a laugh.
He grins. “Yes.”
He smoothes a hand down my back as he leads me into the lobby of his apartment building.
“Mr. Saint,” he’s greeted by the staff.
He just lifts his hand in greeting.
Once in an elevator, I get a glimpse of us in the mirror and he looks divine, his lips a little pink, his hair a little messed up, and I look kind of sultry, my hair slightly mussed, eyes heavy. As we ride the elevator to the penthouse, a couple rides with us, and I try to behave and keep my hands at my sides. The couple is whispering and I realize they know who he is. And maybe they even know who I am.
“Good night!” they say effusively as they step out.
“Good night,” Saint murmurs as I smile and nod at them.
The elevator doors shut and he tugs me back to him, his head sweeping down. We kiss, softly, until the
ting
, and then he pulls away, his eyes as heavy as mine feel.
I’m shaking in anticipation when he takes my hand and draws me into his apartment.
He leaves me to press a wall switch to turn on a few dim lights, tosses his jacket aside, drops his cell phone, and kicks off his shoes.
The city blazes with night lights behind him as he comes back. And the sight of him in those slacks, white shirt, hair rumpled by my fingers, bulldozes through any fear I could have, any tentativeness about doing this. I don’t just want to do this. I never want to stop.
He walks toward me, eyes warm and liquid. He lifts his hand when he reaches me, his gorgeously strong and smooth hand, his fingers slowly caressing my neck.
Pheromones: the delicious scent of him. I swear water is the substance my thighs are made of now, and the rest of me is fire—and Malcolm Saint is the gasoline that’s lighting me up.
My world feels right again as his fingers drag down the front of my body, over my clothes, down my hips, then up my ass, the small of my back, until they come back up to curl around half of my face.
Green eyes capture mine, and I can see the silent question there. And then, I can hear him asking it, his voice pure dry bark. “Slow and deep? Or fast and hard?”
“Both,” I breathe.
He inhales sharply, his jaw clenching at my answer, then he coaxes me closer and, as an affirmative, sets a soft but firm kiss on my lips. “Yeah,” he says.
I hear him unzip my dress and a sigh of gratitude leaves me as he gently pulls it down my body.
“Take me,” I breathe.
“I’m taking you.”
“Use me. Do anything you want to me.”
“No,” he says chidingly. “You use something you discard. And I’ll never be done with you.”
My dress falls in a pool of blue at my feet. I stand motionless as a statue, trembling as the air surrounds me, wearing nothing but my panties and my strappy high-heeled sandals and my heart in my eyes.
Saint kisses my eyelids. As if he sees.
He
sees.
Then, he presses his lips to mine as he eases his fingers into my panties, finding my wet folds and playing gently with me. My knees buckle when he touches me; he catches me with one arm and then draws back to stare down at me—the breaths leaving my lips, my face dewy with lust.
His face is harsh with need as he moves his fingers into my wetness, his eyes the most beautiful shade of all, a kaleidoscope of green. When I gasp as he enters me with a finger, a flash of wild lust appears in his eyes. Then there’s the dark black of his pupils growing and growing. And the glimmer of greed—greed for
me.
No sooner does another gasp leave me than he kisses me harder, deeper, one instant apart, the next he’s the owner of my mouth, then he’s lifting me up and taking our wet kisses all the way to the bedroom.
“Here you are, Rachel,” he says as if he can’t believe it, and lowers me down on the bed.
“Don’t . . . leave me, just stay,” I curl my legs around his hips and my arms around his shoulders.
He reaches between my thighs and parts my legs a few inches, locates the wet little groove in my panties and rubs a little. His thumb slides, up and down, finds the swelling bud of my clit and rubs in a maddening circle.
“Does that feel good?” he asks, his voice raspy on his throat.
Rasping on my
skin.
My answer is one word, “perfect,” my own voice textured with my emotions.
He rubs a little harder.
He’s stroking me with his fingers over my panties as he leans over and nibbles on my lips—an innocent kiss on my lips, but I’m so raw with need, I’m slowly unraveling beneath him.
He reaches between us and tugs my panties down my legs. I’m still wearing my heels and I think they look sexy but Saint tugs one loose, then the other, dropping them to the floor.
“Saint . . .”
God, this man is going to kill me before he gets to actually
fuck
me.
He shifts above me, caresses one breast, bending to kiss it, wet and fast. His lips stay there, his hand curving around my hips to the curve of my ass, holding me as he sucks hard.
Pleasure slams me so hard I buck.
He murmurs tenderly, “Easy.” Then he sucks my other nipple gently into his mouth, rolls his tongue over it, then draws it into his mouth again.
I fist the sheets in my hands as the orgasm builds fast and hard, a tension knotting from the core of my body. “Saint, I can’t do foreplay right now.” I tremble beneath him.
“God, I missed you,” he rasps with a happy light in his eye, sliding his fingers up to cup my face, the look on his face so reverent I feel perfect. “You’re like a spark, Rachel, all I need is to breathe on you and you catch fire.”
I’m so undone, I’m a heartbeat away from coming. “Malcolm, please don’t let me do this alone.”
“You’re not going anywhere without me,” he says, not in the least bit worried as he pulls away to look at me with eyes that have never looked this heavy-lidded. I can’t breathe. I’m gasping, my hands trembling at my sides as he starts to undress.
He strips off his shirt and then his slacks, I feel like I’m dreaming. He’s shedding his clothes until it’s all bare, all for me.
Tan, cut muscles, over six feet of pure testosterone-primed man. His skin feels so smooth and hot and hard when he lowers himself over me.
“Say you want me . . .” he murmurs, and then he dives and sweeps my mouth with his tongue. He twirls and pushes my own tongue with his, showing it where to move, what to taste, where to go . . . with his.
“I want you,” I groan.
Reaching over his muscular shoulders as he settles between my thighs, I curl my legs around his hips and lock my ankles together. He takes my hands and draws them over my head, then he laces his fingers through mine, and drives inside.
Body-slammed. Perfection in every way. We groan once he’s inside, and our bodies stop moving and stay like this.
“Like that?” He cups my face and looks down at me.
We’re both motionless from the pleasure. We stare at each other. We’re each taking in the other’s face as if we can’t believe we’re here.
He pulses thickly inside me and it feels like every inch of my body is holding on to him. And I swear at this moment that I never ever want to let go of him, and as long as I can help it, I never will.
“Yes,” I finally breathe, squeezing his hands holding mine above my head.
His green eyes flare bright with an emotion so raw, all my muscles tighten with the urge to orgasm to that look alone.
I don’t think Saint has ever looked at me so possessively.
He moves out of me and then back in, and I moan as our flesh touches with his motions. Going up on his arms, he withdraws and pumps in again, establishing a rhythm that is deep and savoring and intense, almost as if he can’t control it anymore.
He surges inside me and starts kissing my neck, as if he needs to taste me. I’m holding tight to him, clutching his bigger body to mine with my arms and legs, my mouth latching to any hard part it can. The rightness of being consumed like this and taken like this by the only man who’s ever owned me is beyond believable. It’s Sin inside me, Saint inside me, Malcolm inside me. Tension builds in me fast. He’s in me; so in me, it’s like we were never apart. We’re moving as if we never stopped.
He takes my face in his hand, and his voice textures until it’s barely discernible as he deepens his tempo. “Look into my eyes. Don’t look away until you come apart for me.”
I do.
I bite his neck, and then I do as he says and look into his eyes.
Watching the way his face clenches every time he’s fully embedded inside me. With all that gentle strength of his perfectly under control, he pulls my arms up over my head, pins them beneath his as his body weight pins me down too, and feeling physically so helpless—as helpless as I’ve been, emotionally, all this time—I feel a ball of fire burst from inside me. I gasp and convulse beneath him, his name raw on my lips, his green eyes mercilessly watching me unravel. “Malcolm.”
He keeps me in place as I come, driving slower and more deliberately inside me to prolong my orgasm, watching me with burning green eyes and then kissing my mouth the rest of the way through as he pumps faster, deeper, as exquisitely as ever. And then, what most gets me is the way his powerful arms clench all around me and I know he’s letting go, coming with me.
We’re motionless for a long time after. Saint is breathing deeply, and I’m breathing fast.
I smile against his face, where he set it down against mine as we recover. He smiles too, and slides a hand down my side to squeeze my ass affectionately. He laughs softly. All hot and male against me. I swear I just want to lie here and be super fucked and be super happy.