Merrily Watkins 11 - The Secrets of Pain (19 page)

Maybe the woman in green Gore-Tex had seen the annoyance on her face; she’d stopped a few paces away. Merrily stood up.

‘Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t hear you coming.’

Shoulder-length straight dark hair under a black woolly hat. Cursory make-up. She lowered a leather shoulder bag to the flags, turned candid brown eyes on Merrily.

‘You’re angry.’

‘Mmm.’

‘Yeah, well, me too,’ Fiona Spicer said.

It was about surviving marriage to a man who would vanish overnight, usually for weeks at a time, and sometimes she didn’t know where in the world he was, or why, or when she’d see him again, or if.

‘Exciting boyfriends, for a while.’ Fiona Spicer’s voice was thoughtful and seldom lifted. ‘But, as husbands… problematical.’

Most people, this might’ve been small talk, ice-breaking stuff: the partner’s little quirks, how Fiona had known Syd before he joined the army. How they’d met on holiday, a teenage seaside romance, exchanging letters for a couple of years before they even saw each other again. And it got no better.

‘For more than half my marriage, my husband’s keeping secrets from me – me and the rest of the country. Where he’s going, what he’s doing there.’ They’d moved to the corner near the votive stand where three candles were alight. ‘I thought all that was over, when he left the Army. But part of them doesn’t leave, ever. He’d keep going to the window, as if he was looking for a reason to walk out. Sometimes I’d wake up in the night, and he’d be at the window in the dark.’

‘They come out of the Regiment at forty, is that right?’

‘At Sam’s level. You get a hazy kind of honeymoon period before they start wondering what they’re for. If their life has meaning any more.’

Fiona took off her wool hat, laid it on her knees.

‘I suppose I was luckier than most. Just a few months of ag- onizing before he hit God like a ground-to-air missile.’

‘
Syd
?’

‘God’s warrior. All gunfire and smoke. As if saving a soul was the same as rescuing a civilian from terrorists. He did settle down, eventually. Probably as a result of Emily going off the rails.’

‘You must be relieved all that’s over.’

‘One problem ends, another opens up. Suddenly… it’s like the old days again: secrecy, lies, obfuscation.’

‘Because he’s back in Credenhill?’

‘He was never
at
Credenhill. But, yes. Back to the Regiment. Assuring me it was going to be entirely different this time. First and foremost, he’d be a priest. And that would be different. I almost believed the bastard. Then the curtain came down again. The vagueness, the false optimism. Everything’s
fine
. Everything’s going to be
all right
. And you know he means
afterwards
.’

‘After what?’

‘You tell me, Mrs Watkins. Sam kept your number in his car.’

‘
Sam?
Oh…’

Samuel Dennis Spicer. SD. Thus, Syd.

Fiona was gazing up at the sanctuary, the Virgin at home. Two elderly couples filed through an oak door in the richly panelled screen to the right. The Audley chantry – the Thomas Traherne chapel now, recreated to honour, in new stained glass, the seventeenth-century poet and celebrant of the mystical Welsh Border countryside. Who had also, as it happened, been vicar of Credenhill.

‘Did he know you were coming here?’ Merrily said. ‘To Credenhill?’

‘I rang last weekend, suggesting I might come over, get things organized… and there was immediate resistance. Oh, there were things he needed to do to it, it was still in a mess. Well, I
like
a mess, gives me a sense of purpose. Hell, I’m supposed to be living there in a few weeks. No… he didn’t know I was
coming. Compliance is an essential virtue for a Regiment wife, but I’m fifty-one, for Christ’s sake. I’ve been through that phase.’

‘So you went to see Syd, without giving any indication that you were coming.’

‘It was easier in the old days, when they were in Hereford. All that high fencing, like a prison, but it was still in the city. Credenhill, you feel more exposed. Still, I found the house easily enough, end of the row, near a little wood.’

Fiona had parked the car, gone up and knocked on the door. Ready for Syd saying this really wasn’t convenient and maybe she could come back in a couple of hours. But there was no answer.

Fiona had her hands in the pockets of her jacket. Like Sophie, she was overdressed for the weather – even a scarf, as if she’d learned from experience that you couldn’t trust signs of warmth.

‘So you let yourself in,’ Merrily said.

‘I know where he hides things like spare keys.
Not
under the step. And I didn’t do anything furtive, which always gets noticed.’

The two couples came out of the Audley chantry and Canon Jim Waite appeared, said ‘Hi, Merrily,’ and then guided the visitors into the Lady Chapel. Merrily nodded at the chantry door.

‘Why don’t we go in there? I’ll tell you what I know.’

She talked about Syd at the Brecon chapel, sitting in the shadows, asking no questions. And afterwards at Huw’s rectory, that unconvincing airy optimism.
It’s going to be all right. It’s working out
. How they’d decided, she and Huw, that there was probably a security aspect to whatever was troubling Syd.

‘Always a good get-out,’ Fiona said. ‘And that’s it, is it?’

‘There’s a bit more. He phoned Huw yesterday to inquire about certain deliverance procedures.’

They were on separate wooden benches, Merrily by the windows, Fiona by the door, staring bleakly into a stained-glass starburst Godface of blinding white.

‘Let me get this right. Deliverance is exorcism?’

‘Yes.’

‘To get rid of spiritual evil.’

‘Sometimes. Syd suggested to Huw that an old evil had come back to haunt him. Would you have any idea what that might be?’

‘There was a book dealing with it.
Deliverance
. It was with two other books on the back seat of his car, in the garage. The car wasn’t locked, which is how I got your number.’

Fiona hadn’t answered the question; Merrily didn’t push it. Fiona said Syd had told her the Credenhill house was a mess, but it had actually been very tidy. Everything in its place. Not the places Fiona would have put things, but all very neat.

He’d lied, to keep her away. Why?

‘Not another woman. He’d’ve told me.’

Her face was flushed, but only by the sun through the firework blaze of extreme stained glass. The new Thomas Traherne windows, four of them, were small and ferocious, with individual dominant colours: the almighty white, the crucifixion red, the pagan green.
You never enjoy the world aright
, Traherne had written
…till you are clothed in the heavens and crowned with the stars
.

You had the impression that it had been a long time since Fiona had found anything in the world to enjoy.

‘I made myself some tea,’ she said. ‘Sat down in the living room for a while, thinking he’d be back. When he didn’t come back, I started to look around. Some of it… You could come back to the house and take a look if you wanted to. If you have the time.’

‘If he’s back, he won’t be overjoyed to see me there.’

‘If he’s back, he can bloody well live with it.’

No raising of the voice, just a hoarse, fur-tongued undertow, thick with history. Fiona was looking into the second window, which had an ephemeral Christ figure in a shaft of light, arms wide, head bowed, crucified without a cross.

‘Do you know anything about the house?’ Merrily asked. ‘Who lived there before? I mean, they’re not old houses, are they?’

‘It’s army housing, end of a row, detached. You think there’s something wrong with the house?’

‘It might be one explanation. If it was a house where… perhaps people couldn’t settle, where successive occupants felt unhappy, had marital problems, sickness… then new people living there might well get a sense of that.’

‘You’re so matter-of-fact about all this, aren’t you?’

Fiona shook her head slowly, as if her senses were adjusting to the atmosphere of another planet.

‘I’m familiar with it, that’s all,’ Merrily said. ‘But Syd didn’t have much patience with any of it. Out of his comfort zone.’

‘They don’t do comfort,’ Fiona said. ‘Neither do I. But – I’m sorry – this is beyond reason. This is mad.’

‘What did you find?’

Fiona unwound her scarf as if it was choking her. The green glow of the end window lit the side of her face, making her look faintly sick.

‘I went upstairs. If it was going to be my home, I had every right. Have to work out where to put the furniture, much of which is still in store.’

‘Sure.’

‘The house has three bedrooms. Two were full of boxes of stuff, waiting to be unpacked. The master bedroom… well, it was empty. As if it had been burgled or something. No clothes in the wardrobe. And the dressing table… all the drawers had been pulled out, as far as they’d go. All empty.’

‘I see.’

In the green window, a figure – possibly the poet, Traherne himself – was running along a path towards a conical wooded hill. Fiona was slowly winding the ends of her scarf around her hands, pulling it tight.

‘That means something to you?’

‘It might. Go on.’

‘The mirror had a dust cloth draped over it, although there was no visible dust. The whole room was extremely clean and bare. The bed had been pulled away from the wall, almost into
the middle of the floor, the bedclothes pulled back but not removed. Oh—and there was no carpet. It had been rolled up and put into one of the other bedrooms. And… there was a trail of white, making a circle around the bed.’

‘Salt.’

‘A lot of salt. How did you know?’

‘Salt’s part of the mix for holy water, sprinkled during a clearance. An exorcism, if you like. But it can also be used on its own.’

‘Christ.’

‘Anything else?’

‘And on the wall, opposite the window, there was a large wooden cross I’d never seen before.’

Probably to catch the first rays of the morning sun.

‘Sam’s never done much of that – crosses and pictures. Nothing ostentatious. He says you should hold whatever you have in your… your heart. The only thing he used to keep in the bedroom was his Bible. Not a Gideon-type Bible in the bedside cabinet, this was a massive old family Bible, half the size of a paving slab.’

‘An heirloom?’

‘No. He bought it. Just before he was ordained. Symbolic, I suppose. Something big and heavy that you couldn’t just slip into your pocket. A necessary burden. I…’ Fiona spread her hands. ‘I don’t know. With Sam, there were always things you didn’t ask. It had brass bindings and a lock, and he used to keep it on top of the wardrobe and get it down to dust it every Sunday. The odd thing is that it wasn’t there. There was nothing on top of the wardrobe. Not even dust.’

‘What did you do?’

‘I got out of there. I felt… quite cold.’

Fiona took both her hands out of her scarf and laid them on top of it. Her wedding ring was iridescent in the blazing stained-glass light. Merrily stood up, turned to watch the figure that might be Thomas Traherne moving away along the path up the wooded hill which might be Credenhill. Traherne had been the
vicar at the church below the hill. She had a strong feeling there was history here that Fiona wasn’t yet prepared to disclose.

‘Those things you didn’t ask…’

‘I don’t have the knowledge. Do I?’

‘How about if I ask them?’

‘That might be helpful. If you don’t mind.’

‘OK.’ Merrily picked up her bag. ‘Your car or mine?’

B
ILLY
G
RACE HAD
found bruising around the pubic area in both cases but no traces of semen, and no internal damage. Neither Maria nor Ileana Marinescu had been raped. Or, it seemed, had recent sex of any kind.

‘So… was there an attack with
intent
to rape?’ Bliss said to the class. ‘Or was it something random? Group of lads coming back from the pub, spot these two on their own, maybe wander over, see what’s on offer.’

‘Maybe simply thinking they were prostitutes?’ Darth Vaynor said.

They had decent CCTV now, of the girls entering and leaving the Grapes in Church Street at 9.45 p.m. On their own, both times. Nobody following them.

‘Very drunk, presumably, the attackers,’ Rich Ford said, the veteran uniform inspector. ‘And then it gets progressively out of hand.’

About fifteen of them in the incident room, including seven uniforms and Slim Fiddler and Joanna Priddy from crime-scene.

Rich Ford, months off retirement, glanced over his shoulder, cleared his throat.

‘Perhaps I should mention that while the two Lithuanian gentlemen helped into the hospitality lounge in the early hours were completely pissed – one vomiting profusely all over the reception desk – neither had any blood on him. We did manage
to talk to them this morning before they were checked out, and it was fairly clear that neither of them had seen – or at least remembered seeing – anything untoward.’

Statistics showed overwhelmingly that most crimes against economic migrants in Hereford were committed by other migrants. Maybe retribution for non-payment of business protection or the required percentage for procurement of employment. Neither of which seemed to apply to the Marinescu sisters.

‘However, if this is to do with some existing conflict we know nothing about,’ Rich said, ‘there’s likely to be retaliation, isn’t there? Could be trouble on the streets tonight – and that could give us an in.’

‘If the girls
had
been on the game,’ Bliss said, ‘we’d have to consider the possibility that they’d intruded on someone else’s street corner or pub of choice… or failed to cough up the agreed percentage of their earnings to the pimp.’

‘Which in this case would be Goldie,’ Darth Vaynor said. ‘And we don’t have any reason to think Goldie’s lying about them not being involved in prostitution.’

Slim Fiddler grunted.

‘Less they was doing a foreigner?’

‘Can’t be ruled out,’ Bliss said. ‘Or, as Darth said, that somebody
thought
they were on the game. We’ll come back to that. Let’s just deal with the second possible motive – robbery.’