My Oedipus Complex (28 page)

‘I said ye'd be late,' their father proclaimed triumphantly, twisting his moustache. ‘Didn't I, woman? Didn't I say they'd be late?'

‘He did, he did,' their mother assured them. ‘ 'Tis true for him.'

‘Ah, I knew ye'd be making halts. But damn it, if I wasn't put astray by Thade Lahy's car going east!'

‘And was that Thade Lahy's car?' their mother asked in a shocked tone.

‘I told ye 'twas Thade Lahy's,' piped Brigid, plopping about in her long frieze gown and bare feet.

‘Sure I should know it, woman,' old Tomas said with chagrin. ‘He must have gone into town without us noticing him.'

‘Oye, and how did he do that?' asked their mother.

‘Leave me alone now,' Tomas said despairingly. ‘I couldn't tell you, I could not tell you.'

‘My goodness, I was sure that was the Master's car,' their mother said wonderingly, pulling distractedly at the tassels of her shawl.

‘I'd know the rattle of Thade Lahy's car anywhere,' little Brigid said very proudly and quite unregarded.

It seemed to Ned that he was interrupting a conversation that had been going on since his last visit, and that the road outside and the sea beyond it, and every living thing that passed before them, formed a pantomime that was watched endlessly and passionately from the darkness of the little cottage.

‘Wisha, I never asked if ye'd like a drop of something,' their father said with sudden vexation.

‘Is it whiskey?' boomed Tom.

‘Why? Would you sooner whiskey?'

‘Can't you pour it out first and ask us after?' growled Tom.

‘The whiskey, is it?'

‘ 'Tis not. I didn't come all the ways to this place for what I can get better at home. You'd better have a bottle ready for me to take back.'

‘Coleen will have it. Damn it, wasn't it only last night I said to Coleen that you'd likely want a bottle? Some way it struck me you would. Oh, he'll have it, he'll have it.'

‘Didn't they catch that string of misery yet?' asked Tom with the cup to his lips.

‘Ah, man alive, you'd want to be a greyhound to catch him. God Almighty, hadn't they fifty police after him last November, scouring the mountains from one end to the other and all they caught was a glimpse of the white of his ass. Ah, but the priest preached a terrible sermon against him – by name, Tom, by name!'

‘Is old Murphy blowing about it still?' growled Tom.

‘Oh, let me alone now!' Tomas threw his hands to heaven and strode to and fro in his excitement, his bucket-bottom wagging. Ned knew to his sorrow that his father could be prudent, silent, and calculating; he knew only too well the cock of the head, the narrowing of the eyes, but, like a child, the old man loved innocent excitement and revelled in scenes of the wildest passion, all about nothing. Like an old actor he turned everything to drama. ‘The like of it for abuse was never heard, never heard, never heard! How Coleen could ever raise his head again after it! And where the man got the words from! Tom, my treasure, my son, you'll never have the like.'

‘I'd spare my breath to cool my porridge,' Tom replied scornfully. ‘I dare say you gave up your own still so?'

‘I didn't, Tom, I didn't. The drop I make, 'twould harm no one. Only a drop for Christmas and Easter.'

The lamp was in its own place on the rear wall, and made a circle of brightness on the fresh lime-wash. Their mother was leaning over the fire with joined hands, lost in thought. The front door was open and night thickening outside, the coloured night of the west; and as they ate their father walked to and fro in long ungainly strides, pausing each time at the door to give a glance up and down the road and at the fire to hoist his broken bottom to warm. Ned heard steps come up the road from the west. His father heard them too. He returned to the door and glued his hand to the jamb. Ned covered his eyes with his hands and felt that everything was as it had always been. He could hear the noise of the strand as a background to the voices.

‘God be with you, Tomas,' the voice said.

‘God and Mary be with you, Teig.' (In Irish they were speaking.) ‘What way are you?'

‘Well, honour and praise be to God. 'Tis a fine night.'

‘ 'Tis, 'tis, 'tis so indeed. A grand night, praise be to God.'

‘Musha, who is it?' their mother asked, looking round.

‘ 'Tis young Teig,' their father replied, looking after him.

‘Shemus's young Teig?'

‘ 'Tis, 'tis, 'tis.'

‘But where would Shemus's young Teig be going at this hour of night? 'Tisn't to the shop?'

‘No, woman, no, no, no. Up to the uncle's I suppose.'

‘Is it Ned Willie's?'

‘He's sleeping at Ned Willie's,' Brigid chimed in in her high-pitched voice, timid but triumphant. ‘ 'Tis since the young teacher came to them.'

There was no more to be said. Everything was explained and Ned smiled. The only unfamiliar voice, little Brigid's, seemed the most familiar of all.

Tom said first Mass next morning and the household, all but Brigid, went. They drove, and Tomas in high glee sat in front with Tom, waving his hand and shouting greetings at all they met. He was like a boy, so intense was his pleasure. The chapel was perched high above the road. Outside the morning was grey and beyond the windy edge of the cliff was the sea. The wind blew straight in, setting cloaks and petticoats flying.

After dinner as the two boys were returning from a series of visits to the neighbours' houses their father rushed down the road to meet them, shaking them passionately by the hand and asking were they well. When they were seated in the kitchen he opened up the subject of his excitement.

‘Well,' he said, ‘I arranged a grand little outing for ye tomorrow, thanks be to God,' and to identify further the source of his inspiration he searched at the back of his neck for the peak of his cap and raised it solemnly.

‘Musha, what outing are you talking about?' their mother asked angrily.

‘I arranged for us to go over the bay to your brother's.'

‘And can't you leave the poor boys alone?' she bawled.

‘Haven't they only the one day? Isn't it for the rest they came?'

‘Even so, even so, even so,' Tomas said with mounting passion. ‘Aren't their own cousins to lay eyes on them?'

‘I was in Carriganassa for a week last summer,' said Tom.

‘Yes, but I wasn't, and Ned wasn't. 'Tis only decent.'

‘ 'Tisn't decency is worrying you at all but drink,' growled Tom.

‘Oh!' gasped his father, fishing for the peak of his cap to swear with, ‘that I might be struck dead!'

‘Be quiet, you old heathen!' crowed his wife. ‘That's the truth, Tom my pulse. Plenty of drink is what he wants where he won't be under my eye. Leave ye stop at home.'

‘I can't stop at home, woman,' shouted Tomas. ‘Why do you be always picking at me? I must go whether they come or not. I must go, I must go, and that's all there is about it.'

‘Why must you?' asked his wife.

‘Because I warned Red Pat and Dempsey,' he stormed. ‘And the woman from the island is coming as well to see a daughter of hers that's married there. And what's more, I borrowed Cassidy's boat and he lent it at great inconvenience, and 'twould be very bad manners for me to throw his kindness back in his face. I must go.'

‘Oh, we may as well all go,' said Tom.

It blew hard all night and Tomas, all anxiety, was out at break of day to watch the whitecaps on the water. While the boys were at breakfast he came in and, leaning his arms on the table with hands joined as though in prayer, he announced in a caressing voice that it was a beautiful day, thank God, a pet day with a moist gentle little bit of a breezheen that would only blow them over. His voice would have put a child to sleep, but his wife continued to nag and scold, and he stumped out again in a fury and sat on the wall with his back to the house and his legs crossed, chewing his pipe. He was dressed in his best clothes, a respectable blue tailcoat and pale frieze trousers with only one patch on the seat. He had turned his cap almost right way round so that the peak covered his right ear.

He was all over the boat like a boy. Dempsey, a haggard, pock-marked, melancholy man with a soprano voice of astounding penetration, took the tiller and Red Patrick the sail. Tomas clambered into the bows and stood there with one knee up, leaning forward like a figurehead. He knew the bay like a book. The island woman was perched on the ballast with her rosary in her hands and her shawl over her eyes to shut out the sight of the waves. The cumbrous old boat took the sail lightly enough and Ned leaned back on his elbows against the side, rejoicing in it all.

‘She's laughing,' his father said delightedly when her bows ran white.

‘Whose boat is that, Dempsey?' he asked, screwing up his eyes as another brown sail tilted ahead of them.

‘ 'Tis the island boat,' shrieked Dempsey.

‘ 'Tis not, Dempsey. 'Tis not indeed, my love. That's not the island boat.'

‘Whose boat is it then?'

‘It must be some boat from Carriganassa, Dempsey.'

‘ 'Tis the island boat I tell you.'

‘Ah, why will you be contradicting me, Dempsey, my treasure? 'Tis not the island boat. The island boat has a dark-brown sail; 'tis only a month since 'twas tarred, and that's an old tarred sail, and what proves it out and out, Dempsey, the island boat has a patch in the corner.'

He was leaning well over the bows, watching the rocks that fled beneath them, a dark purple. He rested his elbow on his raised knee and looked back at them, his brown face sprinkled with spray and lit from below by the accumulated flickerings of the water. His flesh seemed to dissolve, to become transparent, while his blue eyes shone with extraordinary brilliance. Ned half-closed his eyes and watched sea and sky slowly mount and sink behind the red-brown, sun-filled sail and the poised and eager figure.

‘Tom!' shouted his father, and the battered old face peered at them from under the arch of the sail, with which it was almost one in tone, the silvery light filling it with warmth.

‘Well?' Tom's voice was an inexpressive boom.

‘You were right last night, Tom, my boy. My treasure, my son, you were right. 'Twas for the drink I came.'

‘Ah, do you tell me so?' Tom asked ironically.

‘ 'Twas, 'twas, 'twas,' the old man said regretfully. ‘ 'Twas for the drink. 'Twas so, my darling. They were always decent people, your mother's people, and 'tis her knowing how decent they are makes her so suspicious. She's a good woman, a fine woman, your poor mother, may the Almighty God bless her and keep her and watch over her.'

‘Aaaa-men,' Tom chanted irreverently as his father shook his old cap piously towards the sky.

‘But Tom! Are you listening, Tom?'

‘Well, what is it now?'

‘I had another reason.'

‘Had you indeed?' Tom's tone was not encouraging.

‘I had, I had, God's truth, I had. God blast the lie I'm telling you, Tom, I had.'

‘ 'Twas boasting out of the pair of ye,' shrieked Dempsey from the stern, the wind whipping the shrill notes from his lips and scattering them wildly like scraps of paper.

‘ 'Twas so, Dempsey, 'twas so. You're right, Dempsey. You're always right. The blessing of God on you, Dempsey, for you always had the true word.' Tomas's laughing leprechaun countenance gleamed under the bellying, tilting, chocolate-coloured sail and his powerful voice beat Dempsey's down. ‘And would you blame me?'

‘The O'Donnells hadn't the beating of them in their own hand,' screamed Dempsey.

‘Thanks be to God for all His goodness and mercy,' shouted Tomas, again waving his cap in a gesture of recognition towards the spot where he felt the Almighty might be listening, ‘they have not. They have not so, Dempsey. And they have a good hand. The O'Donnells are a good family and an old family and a kind family, but they never had the like of my two sons.'

‘And they were stiff enough with you when you came for the daughter,' shrieked Dempsey.

‘They were, Dempsey, they were. They were stiff. They were so. You wouldn't blame them, Dempsey. They were an old family and I was nothing only a landless man.' With a fierce gesture the old man pulled his cap still farther over his ear, spat, gave his moustache a tug, and leaned at a still more precarious angle over the bow, his blue eyes dancing with triumph. ‘But I had the gumption, Dempsey. I had the gumption, my love.'

The islands slipped past; the gulf of water narrowed and grew calmer, and white cottages could be seen scattered under the tall ungainly church. It was a wild and rugged coast, the tide was full, and they had to pull in as best they could among the rocks. Red Patrick leaped lightly ashore to draw in the boat. The others stepped after him into several inches of water and Red Patrick, himself precariously poised, held them from slipping. Rather shamefastly, Ned and Tom took off their shoes.

‘Don't do that!' shrieked their father. ‘We'll carry ye up. Mother of God, yeer poor feet!'

‘Will you shut your old gob?' Tom said angrily.

They halted for a moment at the stile outside Caheragh's. Old Caheragh had a red beard and a broad, smiling face. Then they went on to O'Donnell's who had two houses, modern and old, separated by a yard. In one lived Uncle Maurice and his family and in the other Maurice's married son, Sean. Ned and Tom remained with Sean and his wife. Tom and he were old friends. When he spoke he rarely looked at Tom, merely giving him a sidelong glance that just reached to his chin and then dropped his eyes with a peculiar timid smile. ‘ 'Twas,' Ned heard him say, and then: ‘He did,' and after that: ‘Hardly.' Shuvaun was tall, nervous and matronly. She clung to their hands with an excess of eagerness as though she couldn't bear to let them go, uttering ejaculations of tenderness, delight, astonishment, pity, and admiration. Her speech was full of diminutives: ‘childeen', ‘handeen', ‘boateen'. Three young children scrambled about the floor with a preoccupation scarcely broken by the strangers. Shuvaun picked her way through them, filling the kettle and cutting the bread, and then, as though afraid of neglecting Tom, she clutched his hand again. Her feverish concentration gave an impression that its very intensity bewildered her and made it impossible for her to understand one word they said. In three days' time it would all begin to drop into place in her mind and then she would begin quoting them.