Needle in a Haystack (19 page)

 

As this is happening, not so very far away, Marcelo, the court office boy, has shut himself away in his room at his parents’ house. The shelves on the bookcase warp under the weight of all the books he has to digest to become a lawyer. On his lap he has an envelope full of photocopies that he’s paid for out of his own pocket. He pulls one out and starts reading:
From: Superintendent Venancio Ismael Lascano. To: Doctor Humberto Marraco, Judge. Elías Biterman, murder
…

 

The pilot announces he’s received clearance for take-off. Eva’s too relaxed in her seat, like a condemned prisoner who is resigned to her execution, just wanting everything to be over with. Nothing matters to her and she doesn’t really understand why she’s even on the plane, given
that she couldn’t care less about anything. And then it happens. Just as the aircraft comes to the top of the runway, she feels it. Like a little bird fluttering its wings, like a bubble floating around in her belly. It’s her child, here to remind her with this, its first perceptible movement, of the reason why she’s fleeing the horror. She puts her hands on her tummy, where nervousness nestles when the plane picks up speed, where the seed grows and where she finally starts to feel that marvellous sense of fear that tells her she’s alive and that she has the very best of reasons to carry on in this world. Two rows back, Doctor Fuseli, disguised as a North-American tourist, adjusts his seatbelt for take-off.

Marcelo finishes reading Lascano’s report. He has analysed the evidence, the documents and the expert opinions, all with the meticulousness of a diligent student. Then, thinking that some day these documents could prove useful, he places them on a shelf in his library between two books: one,
What is Justice?
by someone called Kelsen, a gift from his father when he passed his entrance exams; the other,
A Universal History of Infamy
, a collection of short stories by Borges.

When the plane breaks through the cloud layer, which shadows the earth, and the starry sky appears, everything that’s happened starts to become part of the past. The present is this kick, this child growing in her belly. This leaving behind at a thousand miles per hour the horror and the cruelty of men. She thinks, she feels, that she’s inhabiting the future and that for her child’s sake she’ll have to heal herself, recover and rehabilitate, go back to believing that a better world is possible.

For the moment, she’d rather not know that the future is a place that only exists in the imagination.

BITTER LEMON PRESS

 

First published in the United Kingdom in 2010 by
Bitter Lemon Press, 37 Arundel Gardens, London W11 2LW

 

 

First published in Spanish as
La aguja en el pajar
by Grupo Editorial Planeta, Buenos Aires, 2006

 

Bitter Lemon Press gratefully acknowledges the financial
assistance of the Arts Council of England

 

Work published within the framework of “Sur” Translation Support Program of the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, International Trade and Worship of the Argentine Republic

© Ernesto Mallo, 2005

© Grupo Editorial Planeta, Buenos Aires, 2006
English translation © Jethro Soutar, 2010

 

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eISBN : 978-1-904-73862-6

 

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