Nickel Mountain (21 page)

Simon blushed like a child and held out the piece of wood. The letters were cut deep, like the writing on a schoolroom desk:
GOD IS LOVE
. Around the writing there were curlicues.

Henry said nothing. They reached the back door of the diner and Henry reached ahead of Simon to push the door open. Simon hesitated a moment, looking up at him as if in fright, and the tic played on his face; then he went in. Callie's mother stood fussing with the mustard pots at the end of the counter.

The younger trooper had a clean-cut, Italian look. The other one was maybe fifty, a large belly but a small, lean face. They had their hats off. Simon went over to stand beside them, leaning on the counter, his suitcoat hanging down limp, the crotch of his baggy trousers low, and he waited. He looked very small, to Henry, and he stood like an old man, bent forward a little, his knees turned slightly inward. The trooper closest to him, the younger one, said, “Sit down, Simon.” Simon got up on the stool.

Henry went to the near end of the counter and stood with his arms folded, looking at the floor. His anger began to cool a little now. He'd been unfair, in a way; there was no doubt of it. It was ridiculous to fly into a rage at an old man's teaching a child that God was Love. It was the word “repent,” maybe, that had set him off. But if so, that was more ridiculous yet. What did “repent” mean to a boy two years old? Or maybe what had done it was his finding them out there behind the garage. But he couldn't blame Simon for that, after all. Jimmy followed him everywhere, and in fact they themselves, he and Callie, had encouraged it. Even now he felt angry, but he felt, at the same time, ashamed. Then what the trooper was saying caught his attention:

“What happened before you went to work the night of the fire?”

“Why?” Simon said. It was as if he wanted assurance that the question was important before he would trouble to remember.

“Just tell us what happened,” the other trooper said.

Simon touched his forehead with the back of his hand. “I had supper,” he said.

The younger trooper said impatiently, “We understand you had a disagreement with your wife.”

Simon looked at the man in surprise, then over at Henry. “Why, no,” he said, “no.” His smile came. Callie's mother was standing motionless, looking out the window, and Henry felt a clutch of fear.

“Did you ever have arguments with your wife?”

Simon seemed baffled, and the older trooper said, “How did you and your wife get along, Simon?”

Simon said, “We never had any trouble.”

“We've talked to your son Bradley,” the younger trooper said. Then, casually: “We understand you used to beat him some, with your fists.”

Simon flushed and said nothing. He leaned his elbows on the counter and began folding and unfolding his hands.

“Is it true?” the trooper asked.

Henry's hands were sweating. He began to doubt things he'd have sworn to five minutes before. Why were they questioning him here, in front of strangers?

“He'd sinned,” Simon said. It was almost too soft to hear, and he cleared his throat and said it louder.

“Sinned?” It was as if it were the first time the trooper had heard the expression.

Simon said nothing, and the trooper said with distaste, “Let's talk about your daughter, Simon. Your son tells us you used to lock her in the shed for days.” He waited. “Is
that
true?”

“Not days,” Simon said in a whisper. He went on folding and unfolding his hands.

“But you locked her in the shed.”

He said nothing.

“Did she cry, Simon?” It was faintly ironic. After a moment: “Did she scream sometimes—for hours?”

“God forgive—” he began vaguely. No one spoke for a minute.

The younger trooper sat watching Simon's hands. “What was the argument with your wife that night?”

He shook his head. “We didn't argue.”

“Your neighbors say—”

“False witnesses!” For an instant anger flared up in his look, but he stopped it.

The older one said, “What was her sin, Simon?”

Again he shook his head. He was pale, and he was wringing his hands as if in anguish, but his jaw was set.

“Why would they lie—your son, your neighbors?” the younger one said. “What difference would it make to them?”

Henry pulled at his lip. He kept from breaking in, but he knew he wouldn't keep still much longer. His anger was confused now, aimed at all of them. Strange to say, he was angriest of all at Callie's mother, who had nothing to do with it. Her face was turned away and he couldn't read her expression. But he could see the eavesdropping tilt of her head, the tense, righteous indignation in every muscle and bone.

“Mr. Bale,” the trooper said, “the fire at your house was arson, set with burlap and gas from your own shed. Who had any reason to set it? Who knew you had the makings right there?” And after a second: “Besides you.”

And at that Henry did break in, no more knowing now than he would know later why he did it. “That's not fair, officer.” He went over to stand bent toward them, in front of them, the blood stinging in his face, and Callie's mother, behind them, looked up at him, wide-eyed. “Any tramp could have come onto the gas and rags. And the neighbors—anybody in the county, for that matter—maybe they took it into their heads to hate him. It would be natural. No, let me finish. He does what he believes in, he even sneaks around trying to convert your children behind your back. It's natural it would make people mad—maybe so mad they tell lies about him, or imagine things. You can't take a man to jail because people don't like him.” In his excitement Henry didn't see George Loomis's pickup truck pull in in front of the diner, and, though he saw the door open, he paid no attention. “People don't believe in Simon's God, the end of the world anyday now, things like that. They think a man that believes such things has to be crazy, and crazy people burn houses, so Simon must have burned his own house down. Pretty soon they remember a fight they never heard, and it fits in with everything they know and pretty soon it's not even remembered any more, it's predestined fact. People think—”

“Simon,” the younger trooper said, getting the floor from Henry without ever raising his voice, “have you ever seen the devil?”

Henry waited, checked, not sure what the man was driving at but thrown off balance, frightened again.

Simon nodded.

“Many times?” the trooper said, as if innocently, as if strictly from curiosity.

Simon nodded again.

The trooper looked at Henry, and there was no triumph in the look; a kind of helplessness. “How can you know if he's sane, a man like that?”

George Loomis was leaning against the doorpost. He said heartily, “What the hell! Of course he's sane. Lots of people see the devil. Happens all the time. You ever see the Watkins Man? I do. I believe in him. The Watkins Man is good.”

“Don't clown, George,” Henry said.

George came over to the counter, the brace on his boot clumping on the linoleum, the empty sleeve dangling. To Simon Bale he might have been, even then, the devil himself: triangle-faced, maimed, a cynic, waspish in his irony; but Simon was grinning apologetically, his mouth trembling, ducking his head away from George Loomis as if afraid George might strike at him.

George said, “What's going on around here, Ellie?”

Ellie said, tight-lipped, “They think Simon—” All at once she was in tears, and George looked startled. Henry hurried around to her, furious, and furious at Simon Bale and himself as well. “It's all right,” he said. “Here now, after all—”

The two troopers sat relaxed and patient, watching, looking vaguely interfered-with but mainly just patient.

“Look, you guys leave Henry alone,” George said.

Henry said, “They're just doing their job.” He felt furious at the troopers now, too. “I'm sorry I lost my temper,” he said. He went on awkwardly patting Callie's mother's shoulder. She cried into her apron as well as she could; it was too short to get up to her eyes. A little peeping noise came out as she cried, and she said, “I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry.”

The troopers looked at each other, and at last the younger one shook his head. “Well, thanks for your time,” he said. He looked over at the older one again, and they both stood up. The older one put two dimes on the counter, and then they walked over to the door. The older one said, nodding toward Simon but looking at Henry, “He'll be here if we need him?”

After a second, Henry nodded.

Simon said all at once, earnestly, “I'm sorry.”

They looked at him as one might look at a sideshow freak—mildly curious, mildly embarrassed. The younger one smiled at Henry and shook his head; then they went out to their car. Henry and George watched them pull away. When they were out of sight, over the crest of the hill to the south, Henry wiped his forehead on his sleeve. Callie's mother blew her nose on a paper napkin and went over, sniffing, to refill the matchbook box by the cash register. “I don't know what came over me,” she said.

“Now, just don't you think about it,” Henry said.

George Loomis slid onto the stool beside Simon and bent down to look into his eyes. “What does the devil look like, exactly, Simon?” he asked.

“Now that's enough, George,” Henry said.

8

Henry had not defended Simon Bale in order to win his love or praise; nothing of the kind. But he was shocked to find how little it meant to Simon. When he said, as he was getting George Loomis his coffee, “Don't you worry, Simon, we won't let them go after you that way again,” Simon merely waved, his face falling into that idiot's smile, and said, “Oh, no importance.” His hands were folded and quiet now. Henry said, “No importance if they put you in jail?” “Ah, well,” Simon said. He looked up at the ceiling.

George Loomis said, “If you think it's God's will that you're sitting here, mister, you're mistaken. God and the devil are out watching the sparrow, and all you got to look to is that man right there.” He pointed at Henry.

Simon studied George exactly as the troopers had looked, a few minutes ago, at Simon.

George ignored him at first. He got out his cigarettes and shook one out on the counter, put the crumpled pack away in his jeans again, and got out his matches. When Simon continued to stare, George turned irritably and said, “Come on off it now, Simon. We're all friends here. No point you sitting there spreading the crap about God and all his legions.” He lit the cigarette.

“Now I mean it, leave him alone, George,” Henry said.

“Why? Does Simon Bale leave people alone? Simon Bale, I bring you Good News.” He drew on the cigarette and blew a huge cloud of smoke at the ceiling. Simon looked up at it. “Simon—” He leaned toward him. “There is no God. You got that? Absolute truth, and people that say there's a God only do it for one of two reasons—because they're fools or because they're vicious. Clap your hands twice if you understand.”

Callie's mother was looking outraged again: It was as if she'd explode any minute. It might have seemed funny to Henry another time, but right now he was sorry for her; she was in the right. He said, “George, shut up. Have a little consideration.”

“Why?” He looked up, and he saw Henry nod toward Callie's mother, and he looked down again in disgust and swung around toward the counter and scowled at his coffee. “Hell,” he said, “Ellie knows I'm kidding.”

“God forgive you for your blaspheming,” Simon said softly, as if absentmindedly, watching the smoke go up from George's cigarette.

Suddenly, after thinking about it first, George Loomis hit the counter with his fist and said, “Shit! If you don't have to listen to the truth from me, I don't have to listen to your crackpot drivel. Now shut your goddamn teeth.”

Henry caught his breath.

Callie's mother said, “He's
kidding,
he says. You're truly a card, George.”

Two men came in behind George and Simon. They were laughing as they came through the door, and they seemed not to notice that anything was wrong as they glanced at the four of them and walked past them to the booth at the end. Ellie went over to them, her lips drawn taut. “Just like summer out,” one of them said. She smiled grimly.

“What I want to know,” George said quietly, “is how come you put up with all this crap from him.” He looked up at Henry, then down again. “I'll tell you why you do. It's because you think he's a moron. If you thought he had the same brains as anybody else you'd try to talk sense into him, but you don't. Or her,” he said still more softly, jerking his thumb toward Ellie, over by the customers. He dropped almost to a whisper. “She's as cracked as Simon, and you know it damn well, with all her hymn singing an' carrying on. And if she's better than Simon it's only because she's worse. He goes around trying to save people in his crackpot way; she believes they're all damned, and she figures, ‘Ah, screw 'em.'” She came around to the grill and he shut up.

“What's the matter with you, George,” Henry said. “I never saw you like this. You must've been mad already before you got here. There's nothing here could get you as worked-up as that.”

“The hell,” he said. “Nobody ever says anything because he believes it, is that it? If I come out against burning Jews it's because I've got gallstones.”

“Simon's no Nazi,” Henry said.

George thought about it, his shoulders hunched, head slung forward. He said, not turning toward Simon, “You know what the Jews say about Jesus, Simon? They say he was a fraud. There's a word for him, they say. Megalomaniac. He may have said lots of good things, I don't know, but when a plain ordinary human being thinks he's God, the fact is he's a nut. That's what the Jews say. Or do you think maybe he was just pretending—for the good of mankind, because philosophy goes over better if you salt it with superstition?”