Nix: The Rolling Thunder Motorcycle Club, Book 7.5 (7 page)

S
ix months
later

T
ippy

A
gainst all odds
, I was madly in love with a wolf.

Also against all odds, we’d found a way for a possessive wolf to consider a promiscuous, polyamorous deer to be his mate.

It’d taken me a while to feel comfortable agreeing to it, but a few days ago I finally told him I thought I could go the rest of his life with only his dick. Sure, I’ll be getting lots of pussy on the side, but he’ll be the only dick in my life.

Thankfully, he has a sense of humor.

Also, he loves me to extreme.

At first, I thought I loved him in spite of the fact he’s rough around the edges, he sometimes gets paid large sums of money to kill people from a mile away, he’s in a motorcycle club, and he’s a wolf. Eventually I figured out I love him
because
of those things. I was once married to one of the most charming species on the planet, and while Nix has certainly managed to charm me, he didn’t do it by being charming.

He did it by seducing me, caring for me, and loving me. He did it by compromising on the hard stuff, so we were
both
fighting to make the relationship work. He did it by never lying to me, even when it would’ve been so much easier to avoid the truth, or even tell half-truths. He gave me brutal honesty and said, “This is who I am. Take me or leave me, but I really hope you take me.”

And now, the ultimate test.

Last night was the full moon and he ran with his brothers, but tonight he wants to run with me.

My deer has been around his wolf enough we had reason to believe we could make it work, but there’s also a possibility my deer would freak once a wolf was running beside us. Deer run when we’re chased. It’s more than instinct — it’s who we are.

My deer sees Nix as protection and not a danger now, but I was so nervous about how this was going to work, my stomach hurt.

It was a warm summer night and we were in his backyard, just inside the forest area for cover. I couldn’t imagine there were satellites looking for supernaturals
changing
, but the Concilio said to only
change
where they couldn’t see, so we followed orders.

I wore a simple sundress and no shoes, and he hadn’t bothered with any clothes at all. I’m not sure why I did, but I hadn’t wanted to step outside naked, so I’d slipped this on.

I have as many clothes at his house as I do my own, now. When I have a big project or a deadline, we stay at my place so I’m closer to work. My house is closer to the gun shop, so we’re also more likely to be there if he has to teach an early class. Otherwise, we’re often at his house.

“It’ll be okay,” he told me now, his voice gentle. “And if it isn’t, I’ll drop to the ground and stop running, but we aren’t going to have problems. We’re going to run
together
, Tip.”

I nodded. “Will you
change
first so I can pet you before I
change
?”

“Of course. My wolf loves it when you pet him.”

Most shapeshifters go to all fours while human, before the
change
starts, but Nix is strong enough he transforms from human to wolf without having to bend over first. It’s fast, smooth, and flawless. It’s nothing short of magical, and I went to my knees as the wolf formed in front of me. He nuzzled my face and I ran my fingers through the fur on his head and down his neck to his shoulders.

After several long minutes of this, I pulled my sundress off, draped it over a nearby chair, and nuzzled him some more before I went to all fours and shifted with us touching.

The human brain is different than the deer brain. Yes, I know this goes without saying, but becoming the deer is more than a lack of thumbs and no verbal speech. The forest around you becomes more alive, the air more vibrant, and
everything
makes you want to run.

And yet, the deer nuzzled the wolf and knew she was safe.

I’d worried so much about the two of us running together and my deer going mental and crashing through the woods to escape the wolf at her heels.

And all of that worry wasn’t necessary, because Nix turned and took off through the woods, and I followed. I chased the wolf. No, I
played with
the wolf. Nix went up and down hills, over logs, through thickets, and I followed at high speed. We ran side-by-side through some clearings, and it was as if I could feel the pull of the moon on the wolf.

I’ve run in the woods during all phases of the moon, and I’d never felt it like I did this night. Somehow, I felt the change in gravity through Nix.

Nix has become my best friend. I have other friends, too. Being brought into the RTMC means you gain a whole family, and I’ve grown close to the other ol’ladies. Pixie and I are close, of course, and I’ve been with other women as well, but Nix is my shining star. We shoot together, we run together in human form, he helps me with martial arts. We cook together, we have the best sex
ever
, and now our animals were running together.

No matter what the future brought, I knew we’d be okay.

A deer and a wolf. If you’d told me this a year ago I’d have called you crazy. Now? It’s the story of my life, and I couldn’t be happier.

I
f you enjoyed Gonzo
, you may also like the other books set in the same universe, though in different series.

C
hattanooga Supernaturals
series
, paranormal romance:

• The Dragon King
  (
  Aaron Drake’s story, and the first time we meet Duke and Brain
  )
  
• Riding the Storm
  
• Acceptable Risk
  

O
nly Human series
, urban fantasy

• Only Human
  
• An Unhuman Journey
  
• Inhuman Acts (late 2016)
  

R
olling Thunder Motorcycle Series

• Duke
  
• Brain
  
• Bash Volume I
  
• Bash Volume II
  
• Bash Volume III
  
• Horse
  
• Gonzo
  
• Nix
  
• Ghost (2016)
  

D
ark Erotica Shorts
from the world of The Chattanooga Supernaturals

• Pride
  (
  A short story featuring The Lion King
  )
  
• Indentured Freedom: Owned by the Vampire
  

T
he Safeword series
, intense BDSM contemporary romance

• Safeword Rainbow
  
• Safeword: Davenport
  
• Safewords: Davenport and Chiffon
  
• Safeword: Quinacridone
  
• Safeword: Matte
  
• Safeword: Matte – In Training
  
• No Safeword: Matte – The Honeymoon
  
• No Safeword: Matte – Happily Ever After
  
• Safeword: Arabesque
  
• Safeword: Mayday (TBA)
  

C
heck
out other books by Candace Blevins at
candaceblevins.com
.

K
eep reading
for an excerpt from
The Dragon King
.

S
ophia is
the most adorable two year old I’ve ever seen. Fluffy blonde hair, rosy chubby cheeks, and a laugh that makes my heart sore.

I turned to her father, the Swan King, and chose my words carefully. “Raul, you’re sure this is the best course of action? I know you’re still grieving over Angelique’s death, but can you truly prepare Sophia for a life of leading your people if you keep her a prisoner in your home her entire life?”

I could only get away with asking this question because I’d helped raise and train Raul, helped prepare him to take the crown when he beat his brothers and won the throne.

“I did my best to protect my wife from supernaturals, and a damned
human
hunter took her out. Sophia won’t leave the walls of the castle until she marries, and hopefully whoever wins her will follow my lead and also keep her behind protective walls. She won’t see the same fate as Angelique.” His voice was firm, didn’t waver, and let me know further conversation on the matter would be met with hostility.

Sophia is the first Swan Princess without at least one brother since before I was born, and by my best guess I’m around nine thousand years old. Give or take a thousand.

Swan Princesses are usually given to other royalty as a way to unite families and sometimes species, but they never have a hope of the throne. Their brothers are required to fight each other for power, the strongest and most cunning winning the crown.

Instead of finding another wife to give him sons, Raul is arranging for a contest between the other Swan royalty, with the strongest being allowed to care for her until she turns twenty five, and then marry her and eventually take the crown. Personally, I think Raul wants to step down and find a way to join his dead wife. The grief of her death still holds him.

I’ve trained the past seven Swan Kings, including Sophia’s father, Raul. I know him well, and I know he loves his daughter. However, he’s still feels such pain over his wife’s slaughter, I worry about the decisions he’s making.

There is precedence amongst some other supernatural species for his keeping Sophia in seclusion, finding a suitable King, and not giving her a choice in who she’ll marry. However, watching the toddler play and laugh and flirt, my heart hurts with the knowledge she’ll grow up with no control of her major life choices. Or, likely the minor ones, either.

She’s such a happy baby, so full of life and adventure. I hope her life turns out better than most fairy tales.

T
en years later
, my heart aches as the court Herald announces me into the Swan King’s mansion for Sophia’s final unchaperoned lesson. I’ve been coming to the mansion once a week for a four hour session since she was six, but this must stop once she becomes a teenager, which in swan lore makes her a woman.

I’ll be allowed to come four times a year for an all-day review session, but will never again be alone with her. After today she’ll have a chaperone or minder with her anytime she’s with a man besides her father — or husband, once she’s married.

I’m going to miss my time with her. In my busy life, my half-days with the Swan Princess have been the sunshine of my week. Sophia is a special child, so smart, so willing to learn, and a joy to be around. My heart is happy when I’m with her, and we most often go to our spot near a manmade waterfall on their property so we can talk without worrying so much about being overheard. Someone from the house can see us, but our words are drowned out. Sometimes, though, my favorite part of the day is her smile when I arrive and she skips to me for a hug. Today will be the last time she’ll be allowed to hug me for no reason, just because she’s happy I’ve arrived. My heart hurts as I wrap my arms around her and tell her I’m happy to see her.

We walk to our spot, sit on our rock and I open a few books as I give her another to hold. The rushing waters may provide white noise to block our voices, but we still need to appear as if I’m teaching her.

“You know this is the last time we’ll be alone, right, Soph?”

Sophia looks down, takes a breath, and raises her gaze back to mine. “I know. I’ll miss my time with you.”

“And I’ll miss you, but you’re a Princess, and one day you’ll be Queen, and this is the way it has to be. I’ll be back to review the important stuff, but there are some things I’ve taught you that I won’t be able to review with you out loud. I’ll try to write it in a notebook and let you read it, so you’ll remember, but there is some danger in that, so I won’t do it every time.”

“Why take the risk? If I’ll never rule, never make a difference, why put yourself in danger?”

“Because I’m grooming you for power, Princess. No one knows for sure what the future holds, and to fully do my job I can’t just teach you the palatable parts of your history. I understand your family wishes to shield you and protect you, but I can see the strength in you.”

Sophia sighed. “I’ll still see you at social occasions? Not just the four times a year you’ll be allowed to come for review?”

“Yes, and I may or may not be allowed a dance with you. I will certainly not be able to take you outside for a conversation.”

She nodded, and I carefully said, “Sophia, if ever you find yourself in need of a protector, get a message to me. Your father and Cyrano will look after you, but if you find yourself without their protection I hope you’ll feel comfortable letting me keep you safe.”

Shaking her head, Sophia said, “Cyrano scares me. My latest Governess tells me when I’m a woman I’ll appreciate him for his strength and resolve, and I must remain meek and quiet around him while I’m a child.”

I wanted to wring Cyrano’s neck for frightening her, as well as the Governess’s for giving crap advice, but I had to walk a fine line. “I’m sorry he scares you, Princess. I would advise you to speak to your father about it, see if he can intercede on your behalf.”

“You always do that.”

I tilted my head and let my eyebrows raise, and Sophia explained. “When we’re just talking, I’m Soph or Sophia, but when you’re thinking politically, you call me Princess.”

“Yes, because this is the way an elder speaks to someone of royalty. I’m your teacher, I know more than you, but I must also show respect. It’s a balance, Sophia.”

She shook her head. “I don’t know what you are, and my father either doesn’t know or won’t tell me, but I’m positive you’re royalty, too. I’ve learned to tell the difference in someone with their own power who addresses me and my father as an equal while using all the right words, and someone with no power who addresses us with the same words but a completely different energy.”

I hoped my smile showed how pleased I was with her insight. “You make me proud, Sophia. I hope you’ll keep your suppositions to yourself, though.”

She nodded. “Of course, and I hope someday you’ll trust me enough to tell me what and who you really are.”

I needed to be sure she understood my offer, so I repeated it. “Do you understand what I’m saying, Soph? If you ever need help, a protector, a friend, an advisor…If you’re ever in trouble I hope you’ll find a way to get a message to me.”

I
’d been planning
my escape for eleven years, and tonight I’d either fly to my freedom or die trying.

I was to be married to Cyrano on my twenty-fifth birthday, in seventeen days. However, I was determined it was never going to happen.

Tomorrow, my governess was meeting with people in Charleston on my behalf to assure the wedding would go off without a hitch. Since I was never allowed off my father’s property, if someone couldn’t come to me then I had to send someone to them, and the caterers had decided they couldn’t make yet another trip to go over last minute details.

I knew they wouldn’t, it was part of my plan.

I’d sent my governess away earlier this evening so she could stay in a hotel and be present for the seven o’clock meeting tomorrow morning, and then make surprise visits to check in with the florist and a few other vendors.

I’d brought books up from the library to my bedroom, asked for my tea service a little early, and told everyone I wasn’t to be disturbed.

I’d been nervous and anxious for months, so no one paid any attention to my scent anymore. I was perpetually on edge.

It was eight fifteen, and I figured I’d have until the guard shift change at three in the morning before anyone realized I was gone. My current guard wasn’t likely to decide he needed to put eyeballs on me, but I knew they’d look in on me at shift change. They always did.

Swan shifters need to
change
a minimum of four times a year, at both equinoxes and both solstices. However, since my father didn’t want me leaving the property, when I
changed
they immediately turned me back human. I’d never been allowed to even
try
to fly. The rest of the time I wore an anklet my father had brought someone in to create especially for me. It kept me from turning into a swan any other time of year.

I’d spent years combing through the books in our extensive library, and was convinced I’d found a way to defeat the anklet. I’d also learned from one of our servants years ago that it was possible for a virgin to
change
without the normal flogging to rip enough skin away so we could shift into our swan form.

She said one could use a knife to cut a seam from one foot, up the outside of the body, from armpit to fingers on the bottom of the arm, and then fingers to shoulder on the top of the arm, over the head and scalp, skip the right arm and go down the body to the right foot, and then as the left foot comes out and forms, use the claws to rip a seam in the skin from the right arm so it can pull free.

I had a very sharp crafting knife and hoped it would do the job.

Meanwhile, I’d long ago figured out how to defeat the alarm system at my window so I could at least open it and get fresh air. I used a screwdriver to carefully removed the contact from the window’s hardware, taped it to the stationary contact on the window frame, and then slowly opened the window, making sure everything stayed put.

Taking a breath, I poured the hot water from my tea service into the plastic bin that normally held items in the storage area of my closet.

It’d taken me years to assemble all of the herbs and roots without arousing anyone’s curiosity, and I now dumped them into the bin and stepped into the scalding water. Trusting the concoction would do its job; I bent with the knife, stuck it into my foot just under my ankle bone, and began the excruciating task of literally skinning myself.

I’d known it would hurt, but this was worse than the traditional flogging a virgin must undergo in order to
change
. I was more than determined, though, so I did it fast and didn’t make a sound, even though I wanted to scream and cry.

Halfway through the process I knew I’d been wrong about having hours until my escape was discovered. They were used to smelling fear on me, but not pain, and certainly not blood. I was going to have to fly for my life and hope they couldn’t keep up. I cut faster, and my blood flowed into the hot water at my feet.

As the knife finally reached the outer edge of my right foot, I stood and imagined myself a swan, thought of how it felt to
change
after I was flogged, and breathed in relief as I felt the transformation happening. The herbal concoction worked, and the anklet would end up in the water once I turned into a swan and it could come off my foot. As I
changed
, it only took a few slices with my claw to rip the skin on top of my right arm enough for it to come free of the skin and turn into a wing, thank goodness.

I made it onto the window sill, looked out at the Waccamaw River, and knew if I couldn’t figure out how to fly within a few minutes, and the crash landing didn’t kill me, I needed to find an alligator and hope he was hungry. I was going to either escape or die — I couldn’t live the rest of my life trapped in this house, and being forced to marry Cyrano was the final straw. People might make fun of the Princess trapped in the mansion with anything her heart desired at her fingertips, but
this
Princess preferred freedom to riches.

I jumped from the ledge, stretched my wings, and breathed easy as the wind caught them and I soared up instead of plummeting. I beat them, pointed my head the direction I wanted to go, and it just somehow
worked
.

I’d spent years on borrowed tablets from various servants, looking through Google Earth so I could find my way to Chattanooga, Tennessee, and the offices of Drake Security. I had no idea where Aaron Drake lived, but figured I could find him at work.

I followed the coast to Savannah, Georgia, fighting the ocean breeze, and figuring out how this brain parceled the information I’d taken in with my other brain. I managed to access what I needed to make the journey, and I followed the coast as I learned to soar, turn, dive, and climb. The winds coming in off the ocean were brutal at times, fluffing my feathers the wrong way until I lost control and only regained it by luck. I soon discovered I needed to get higher to keep from being buffeted by the sea breeze, but going too high made it hard to see landforms well enough to navigate when there weren’t many lights.

I didn’t know how much of a head start I had, so I kept moving even as I experimented, terrified they’d find me and haul me back to my father’s house.

When I reached Savannah I found what I was sure was the interstate, and followed the line of lights north. I was exhausted when I reached what had to be Macon, and I continued north a little ways before making a right turn, hoping I could find the wildlife refuge and a relatively safe place to get some rest. I was so tired, and terribly uncomfortable in this body, but needed to stay a swan until I made it to Chattanooga. I wasn’t sure I could cut myself open again, and besides, I no longer had the knife.

I only rested a short time before I flew north, once again following the interstate. I was sure this wasn’t how swans normally navigated, but it was the best I could manage. I breathed a little easier as I went over Atlanta, knowing my journey was close to an end. I often swam miles a day, in either the lap pool or the endless pool, but I’d never been so tired in my life.