No More Running (10 page)

“I tried to speak to you earlier, but it seems we kept getting interrupted.”  I told him with a little smile.  “I just didn’t want you to get the wrong idea about Doc and me from this morning.”

“And what am I supposed to think?”

“I was just reassuring Doc that we’d always be friends, which we will be.  I love him,” He flinched a little when I said that, but I continued.  “But only as a friend.  He is my best friend and has been there for me through a lot of things that have happened.  I won’t ever abandon him.”

“Alright.  I can accept that, but I need to know how you feel about me.”  He said looking in my eyes.

I just looked back at him for a minute before looking down.  I knew I had to just risk it and lay it bare for him.  I looked back up at him. “I’m falling for you, Garret,” I said slowly.

“I can hear a ‘but’ coming.”

“But, I’m scared of a lot of things.”  I whispered.

“Like what?”  He asked sitting up straighter next to me, and grabbed my hand.  “I’ll be with you, Dina, and I’ll help you anyway I can.”

“Look what’s happened to everyone I ever have anything to do with.  Chuck has already come after you and Claire.  Who’s next?”  I asked, desperation seeping from my voice.  “The last time I dated someone, Chuck tried to kill him in a fire.  I can’t handle anything else happening to people I care about.”

Garret lifted his hand and placed it on my cheek, using his thumb to wipe a tear away that I didn’t even realize was there.  We just looked in each other’s eyes, and I was losing myself in his.

He got up; pulling me with him by the hand he was still holding.  He pulled me to an open area of the sitting room, turned around, his body facing mine, and put his hands around my waist; his eyes never leaving mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck, and we started dancing to the low music.  No words were spoken, but none were needed.  I had told him how I felt, and he showed me how he felt in every little thing he did, so as I said, words were not necessary. 

My body was flush against his as we swayed back and forth.  In every motion of our bodies, he was making it clear that he thought it was alright to be scared.  I realized that I couldn’t let that fear stop me from living as I had been doing.  I would miss out on things like this.  This wonderfully romantic, intimate moment with such an honorable man.  I loved him, and I didn’t want to miss out on any minute I could spend in his arms.

After a moment of that sweet intimacy, he lifted his hands up to frame my face.  Slowly, as to give me time to back away or stop him, he lowered his lips to mine; his eyes never leaving mine.  The touch of his lips was so soft, a mere whisper of feeling, but it left a fire in its wake.  He pulled back to gage my reaction, and I guess he saw what he wanted because he smiled before bringing my head to his chest, wrapping his arm around my waist snugly, and continuing to dance with me.

I thought over all of the time I had spent with Garret.  When I first met him, he was very reserved, which I now understood why, but he was always pleasant and never rude.  Then when he hired me on and I saw him every day, I watched him, even though I stayed as distant as possible.  He was one of the good men that seemed to care for everyone.  He never showed his anger.  I’m not saying he didn’t get angry, he did, but he would talk through the problem with the person calmly and quietly to work it out, and they were usually laughing by the end.  He was such a good person to work for and just to be around. 

Could I actually be blessed enough to have him love me?  Though past experiences warned against it, I really did want to take the risk with him.  What I needed to decide was if I wanted to risk his life, which right now I knew I was.  I didn’t want anything to happen to Garret, but if anyone could take care of himself and me, it would be him.

I pulled back to look back in his beautiful sky blue eyes, and decided that yes, I would take that risk.  I pulled him down to me for another kiss.  He sipped at my lips for a moment before nipping my bottom lip.  I opened up and his tongue entered my mouth. I sucked on it, pulling it in further.  I could tell it surprised him, but in a good way.

For hours or moments, I couldn’t tell, we danced and kissed.  We were in our own magical world, where nothing could touch us.  He released my mouth to travel down the side of my face to suck on my earlobe, picking me up in his arms in the process.  I felt us moving, but I could care less about where he was taking me, as long as he didn’t stop kissing me.  I brought his mouth back up to mine, and the kiss that until now had been tender and sweet, heated sending a fire sizzling down my body.  I don’t think I had ever felt that way before.

He gently lowered me to the bed in his room, and using the arm around my waist, scooted us onto the pillows.  His hands started exploring my body as mine explored his.  He wasn’t an over built man, but man did he have a body.  I could feel the tight muscles in his chest and abdomen as my hands slid their way south.  When I came to the hem of his t-shirt, I ran my hands underneath, slipping it up.  He took the hint and sat up long enough to remove it, and came back down to my mouth.  His finger worked the buttons of my blouse and the next thing I knew I was down to my bra which he then happily disposed of.  He nipped at my nipple with his teeth as his fingers squeezed and twisted my other one, sending electric jolts straight down to my mound.

Lifting himself up, he ran his hands down to the button of my slacks to see if I was really alright with everything.  I smiled and ran my hands down his back and into his pants, sliding them down his butt, telling him I wanted it as much as he did.

We disposed of the rest of each other’s clothes and I pushed him down so he was on his back.  The love I saw in his eyes set my heart at ease and relieved me of any lingering doubts about what I was doing with him.  I wasn’t falling for Garret.  I had already fallen, crashed, and was burning.  Believe it or not I was lucky enough for him to love me back.

I slid down his body, my tongue tracing his treasure trail until I reached his hard length.  The mushroom tip was weeping with pre-cum.  I ran my tongue across, letting the taste explode in my mouth.  I knew with that one taste that I would never get enough of this man.  I ran my tongue down and then back up his rod, tracing the thick vein running along the bottom.  His breathing became heavier and more erratic.

“Please.”  He said in a husky, barely there voice; raising his hips up.  “Take me in your mouth.  Suck me all the way down, Di.  I want to feel the back of your throat.”

I did as he asked, swallowing when my gag reflex tried to kick in.  I didn’t have any real experience in sucking cock.  Chuck was scared that I would use that as a way to get back at him; biting him instead of giving head. 

I could tell by the tightening of Garret’s sac that he was getting close.  Holding his penis in one hand, still stroking, as I sucked on his testicles and ran my fore finger along the ridge on the back, then licked back up his length. 

I was so wet just from what I was doing to him, all it would take was one touch and I would explode. 

I think Garret realized that, because he growled, grabbed me by the hips and turned my body so I was straddling his face.  I felt his stiffened tongue enter my seeping channel, lapping up all the juices that had been flowing, and I had to pause in my sucking of him as I groaned at the pleasure he ignited in me.  His hands pulled my mound closer to his face and imitated the act he was about to do with me.  In and out, he fucked me with his tongue; driving me higher and higher. 

Garret flipped us over and took my candy away from me, but I couldn’t complain as he then flicked his tongue over my clit and I shot into orbit, making my whole body spasm from the climax I had reached.

As my body calmed, and my breathing regulated, he was on top of me, kissing me tenderly, looking in my eyes. 

“Are you sure about this, baby?”  He said as he brushed the hair out of my eyes.  “We don’t have to go any further.”

I lifted up to kiss him.  “I want this.  I want you.”  I said in a breathless whisper.

He started kissing me slowly and as I wrapped my legs around his waist to bring him closer, I felt him at my entrance.  He watched the pleasure bloom on my face as he entered me slowly; letting me feel the slide of every inch.

“You are so beautiful, Dina; such a precious creature.  How did I ever get deemed worthy enough to be with you?”  He kissed me as he started his slow thrust in and out, just taking his time to love me the right way.  “I love you.”  He said.

I kissed him back, my hands roaming his muculature, hugging him to me.  “You are my blessing, Garret.  I love you so much, I am so lucky to have found you.”

We kissed again to seal the declaration we’d made.  It heated as each of us reached closer to the orgasm building within us.  His movements sped up and started losing rhythm letting me know he was so close.  When he hit that certain spot inside, I felt the earth move.  My orgasm hit me so hard, and my walls were pulsing around his cock, squeezing it, and the feeling brought him over with me.

We laid there kissing as we caught our breath, him still inside me.  And a thought hit me.  We hadn’t used protection. 

Garret noticed me tense up, and lifted up so he could see me clearly.  “What’s wrong?  Are you okay?”

“Garret, I’m so sorry!  I didn’t think!”  Tears were welling in my eyes.  He probably would think I was trying to trap him.

“What are you talking…?”  And it hit him too.  He looked panicked for a minute before he looked back to me.  “You’re not on the pill?”

“I haven’t had need of it for so long I went off of it a couple of years ago.  I’m so sorry!!”  I was sobbing now.

“Shh!  Calm down, baby.  It’s my fault too.”  He said softly, wiping the tears from my face as they fell.  “We’ll just have to see what happens.  If you get pregnant, I’ll help you raise the baby.”  He smiled a little, though it didn’t reach his eyes.  They still held worry, but he was trying to make me feel better.  “You just told me you love me.  You’re not already planning on leaving are you?”

“Of course not!!  I would never…”

“Calm down, baby, I was teasing you.”  He got up with me in his arms and took us to the bathroom.  “Why don’t we try out this huge Jacuzzi in here and just relax for a bit?”  He asked.

But right as we had the Jacuzzi half full, there was a banging on the door.

“Stay here, I’ll be right back.”  Garret kissed me as he left the bathroom, closing the door behind him.

I had gotten in the tub and was enjoying the jets when Garret came back.  He looked a little upset.

“Is everything alright?”  I asked.  I was a little worried that maybe something had happened.

He took the lounge pants back off that he must have donned to answer the door.  After he slid in behind me, he spoke up.

“Dina…does Doc know that you two are only friends?”

“Of course.  Well at least he should.  I reiterated that this morning in the discussion we had.”  I thought about it for a minute.  “I’ve never led him to believe otherwise, and he has never asked to be more than friends.”  I looked back at him.  “Why?”

“He was panicking because you weren’t in you room.  Then when he found out you were in here and couldn’t come out at the moment, he wasn’t too happy.”

“I wonder what he needed.”  I said as I picked up a sponge and soaped it up, turning aroung to start washing Garret.  “Why was he at my room?”

“I don’t know, he didn’t say.  I would wait until tomorrow to ask though.  Let him calm down a bit.”  He soaped another sponge so he could return the favor.  “Will you spend the night in here with me?”

“I would love to.”

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I wasn’t able to talk to Doc.  For the rest of the weekend he seemed to avoid all of us.  We knew he was in the house, but he stayed in his room except for mealtimes.  I didn’t think it was appropriate for me to go to his room, so I just left him to brood.  I knew he would talk to me when he was ready, but I was still sad that my best friend was angry with me.

Monday morning all but Doc headed back to work.  Garret and Stefan felt like no one would make a move in a building full of people, especially at a security firm.

I was checking with the message service, checking e-mails and regular mail to determine priority, when I came across a letter delivered by a messenger service the prior Friday.  It had no return address on it, so I opened it.

After reading it, I shot out of my chair sending it rolling across the cubicles.  Black spots clouded my vision and I blacked out.

Chapter 12

I came to lying down on the couch in Garrets office.  He was holding a wet washcloth to my forehead, and running his hand over my hair.  He looked upset, and I realized he’d seen the picture. 

Someone had been following and watching us.  The picture was of us at the grocery store when Garret was returning the items to the shelf, and I was talking with him.  What made it worse was that the person drew a hole in Garret’s head with blood coming out, and had written that he would not miss next time.  Of course I knew who it had to be, and my first thought was to pack up and run, but laying there just looking into Garret’s eyes, I knew that was no longer an option.  I loved him too much to leave him with the mess that followed me around.  Selfish as it was too, I didn’t want to live without him.  I would do all in my power to keep him safe.

“I know what you’re thinking, and I won’t let you do it.”  He said quietly.

I looked at him, confused about what he was talking about until I realized that he thought I would run.  I shook my head.  “I’m not going to run anymore.”  I gave him a weak smile and took his hand in mine.  “I have too much to lose, now.”

He smirked at that.  “Really?  And just what do you have to lose now?”

Figuring I would play with him a little, I said, “Well, I have this awesome job and a cool best friend that I just couldn’t live without.”

He ran his hand up my thigh. “Oh, is that all?”  He looked so cute when he playfully pouted as his hand had made its way up to my breasts.  “Are you sure there are no other reasons?”