Nothing's Sweeter than Candy (20 page)

David choked on his beer. “Whoa, whoa, whoa.
What?
I'll get to the ‘I told you so' in a minute. Right now I need more information. I know I've been living in my own world over the past few months, but I couldn't have missed this much. What have you been keeping from me?”

Brice concentrated on the bottle in his hand, watching the drops of condensation run slowly down the side. He reflected on the first time he'd seen her and recalled exactly how he'd felt in that moment—defiant, defensive, doomed. In a matter of months, everything had changed. He was no longer fighting the feeling or trying to get away from her; he was fighting to hold onto her.

“Her name is Candace, and she's one of a kind. She's beautiful, sexy, funny, smart, and a computer geek, like me. When she speaks, her voice is pure magic. Just the sound of it makes the hair on my body stand up, and it grabs me by the balls and turns me into one big walking hard-on.”

“Are we talking about Sarona's friend Candace? She told me you were dating her friend, but I had no idea it was this serious.”

“Yeah. It's beyond serious. It's pathetic.” Brice downed the last of his beer, and then got up to get another. “I saw it coming, you know. I saw it from a mile away, and there wasn't a damn thing I could do about it. Now, here I am caught in a fucked-up triangle between her, me, and her past. I'm competing against a memory, and I'm losing. Badly.”

“What are you saying? She's still in love with someone else?”

“No. It's worse than that. The bastard before me did a number on her. I don't know details because she won't share them with me. What I do know is that he used up the best of her and now there's nothing left. She's broken ... damaged. I want to fix her. I want to pick up the pieces of her heart, put it back together again, and have it beat only for me.”

Brice rejoined David and they sat together on the sofa side by side, their feet perched upon the coffee table, staring at the blackened screen of the TV.

“I don't know what to tell you, man. This relationship stuff is all new to me. I'm still feeling my way along. Any advice from me would be like the blind leading the blind.”

“Yeah, I know. It was a shot in the dark.”

“I think you should get a woman's perspective.”

“I thought of that. My only options are her friend Joyce and my mom.”

“It probably wouldn't hurt to reach out to both of them. But Joyce knows Candace. She'd have the inside scoop on what makes her tick. According to Sarona, it was Joyce who changed her mind about me. She tipped the scales in my favor, and I will be forever indebted to that woman.” David raised his bottle in the air. “I'm in love, and I've never felt so wonderful.”

Brice followed suit. “I'm in love, and I've never felt so miserable.”

They crossed their bottles at the neck in a toast, and drained them dry.

• • •

She wasn't taking his calls. He'd been trying for a couple of days, but all he was getting was her voice mail and silence. The angry self-righteous bastard in him wanted to show up on her doorstep and bang on the door, to make such a scene that she'd have to open it to save herself from embarrassment. The intellectual in him knew better. He would have to take a more civilized approach.

He'd called Joyce and pleaded with her to intercede. Joyce agreed she would talk to Candace, but told him he needed to give Candace time. He was fast running out of options, but he had one more card in the deck. He needed a more experienced head in the game. It was time to call in the big guns.
Misery is a bitch called love
, he sullenly thought to himself as he punched the familiar numbers into the phone.

“Hi, Mom, how's the trip coming along?”

“Hi, Brice! What a sweet surprise. The trip has been wonderful so far. Traveling the world is so much more fun than being stuck in one place entertaining stuffy, boring old men. I can't believe how much we missed all those years during our official tours.”

“Where are you and Dad now?”

“Your father and I are in Uganda making our way south toward South Africa. From there, we're on to New Guinea and Australia.”

“I suppose I shouldn't expect the two of you back anytime soon, huh?”

“No dear, we're extending our trip by two months. There's still too much to see and do. Looking in on the old homestead while we're away isn't cramping your style, is it?” She laughed softly.

“No, it's nothing like that. I was only wondering if you two were close to winding down, that's all.” There was a short silence on the other end of the line.

“Okay, what's wrong?”

“What do you mean?”

“Brice, I've known you all your life, and a mother knows when there is something wrong with her child. I can hear it in your voice. You didn't call to talk about our trip. So tell me.”

He always squirmed under his mother's all-knowing and all-seeing eye. She still had that effect on him, even thousands of miles away. It was almost funny the way she could still make him feel like he was ten years old.

“I met a woman.”

“You met a woman?!” She squealed with delight. Brice knew that those four little words conveyed a mountain of meaning to his mother. This was the first time he'd ever spoken about someone he was dating, and it could only mean one thing. He'd finally found “the one.” “Oh Brice, you don't know how long I've waited to hear you say those words!”

He laughed at the sound of her enthusiasm.

“Of course I do. As often as you've badgered me with open threats to force me to make you a grandmother before you were too old to enjoy it, believe me mother, I know.”

“Well, you can't blame me; you're thirty-five, for God's sake. My grandmother's biological clock is ticking. I want babies, lots of babies to love and spoil and turn into little holy terrors, and then send them home to their parents when I'm done.”

“Yes, Mom, I know, but don't start counting babies just yet. The situation is—complicated.”

“Sweetheart, it wouldn't be love if it wasn't complicated. What's the problem?”

Brice told his mother everything: the good, the bad, and the troublesome. For the first time in his life, he shared with her his most intimate emotions—and his deepest fear. “She loves me, Mom, I know she does, but she's too afraid to let go of the past. I've tried everything I can think of to get her to change her mind, but so far nothing's worked. I can't get through to her. I was hoping you could tell me what to do.”

“Oh, son, it sounds like she's had a bad experience with love. I understand how she must feel. You don't know this, but I was in love with someone else before I met your father. It ended badly for me. I shut down and locked all my feelings away, and vowed I'd never fall in love again. And then your father came along. Believe me, it wasn't easy for him either. It took a lot of time, patience, and perseverance, but I finally came around. These things take time. Unfortunately there's no cure for stubbornness, no pill for instant clarity and understanding. It's something she has to work her way through over time. Don't push too hard, son. You have to be patient.”

“I was afraid you'd say that. Her friend told me the same thing. You and I both know patience isn't my strong suit. I would give her anything in the world, Mom. Anything in my power—except time. It's a luxury I can't afford. The longer she has to think about it, the more strikes I'll have stacked against me. Besides, if I know Candace, she's made up her mind and is already making plans to dump me.”

“Brice, now that your heart's involved, I have every faith in you that you'll find a way to get through to her. If she's too blind to see what a wonderful, sweet, and caring man you are, then she doesn't deserve you.”

“Well, that's that, another week over and done,” Joyce said after seeing off her last clients of the day. “Now all we have to do is log it in the books and sit back and wait to get paid. What do you say to starting the weekend early, kicking off our shoes, and putting our feet up?”

Candace didn't look up from her desk. “I've still got filing to do. I don't want to fall behind.”

“Oh come on, Candace. I'm the boss. And the boss says that stuff can wait until next week. We haven't had any time to ourselves for girl talk. I want to catch up and hear all about you and Brice.”

Candace reluctantly put aside the piles of paperwork and followed Joyce into her office, where they made themselves comfortable on the sofa. Joyce kicked off her shoes and tucked her feet under her body, offering a cheery smile, while Candace presented a stiff and unresponsive front.

“So, how are things going? I'm curious to know how your ‘friends with benefits' arrangement is working out for the two of you.”

“You can cut the crap, Joyce. I know Brice called you. If you brought me in here to lecture me, you may as well save your breath. I don't want to hear it. I love you like a sister, but this is none of your business.”

“Wow. Am I that transparent? Don't answer that. Okay, so I'm busted. Just hear me out, and then I promise I won't say another word on the subject.” She was treading on super-thin ice, but Candace let her continue. “You're right. Brice did call, out of frustration and desperation. You can't blame the poor man. He's never been in love before, so he doesn't have a clue on how to handle the situation. He's trying to figure out what to do with his heart and your pain. He asked me for advice.”

“What did you tell him?”

“Nothing he didn't already know. He's not searching for secrets, Candace; he's seeking solutions. I told him that it's been four years since you got out of a bad relationship, and it was high time you got over it. You can be angry all you want, but it's the truth. You've spent the last four years allowing your life to be ruled by your past—by things you had no control over then, and have no control over now. You've cut yourself off from the prospect of having a normal relationship with a good and caring man. Instead of moving forward, you've stood still and endowed that worthless, lying SOB with too much power. It's time for you to get over him and get on with your life.”

Candace bowed her head and twisted her hands together in agitation. “I got over the man a long time ago. It's the pain I can't seem to get over.”

Joyce reached out and stroked Candace's hands to calm her nerves.

“Honey, I understand your reluctance to trust someone new, but painful experiences are a part of life. Living through them is what makes us stronger and helps us to appreciate the happiness that comes after. You
have
to let go of your past, Candace, because you can't keep letting it rob you of your future. It's served its purpose. It made you step back and hold out for something better, and that's what you've found in Brice—a better man.”

“How do I know that, Joyce? How do I know he's a better man? Men tell you what they think you want to hear until they get what they want, and then they move on.” She pulled her hands free and wrapped her arms around her middle. Joyce leaned back and gave her a thoughtful look.

“What is it you think Brice wants from you, Candace? It can't be sex. You've already been there and done that. If he's a typical man only after one thing, then why is he still here?”

“I don't know. Maybe he's into collecting trophies. Maybe he gets his kicks from messing with my head. Maybe that good-guy façade is nothing more than an act, and I'm too blind to see through it. It wouldn't be the first time.”

“You're being ridiculous, and we both know it. You're determined to turn Brice into a villain so you'll have an excuse to avoid reality.”

“What reality is that, Joyce?”

“The one with the man who loves you.”

Candace rose from her seat and crossed the room to stare out of the window. “You know what, Joyce? You're absolutely right. There's not a day that goes by that I don't tell myself the same thing. But none of it really matters. My mind is made up; I'm going to end it with Brice. I won't see him anymore.”

“That's it? Just like that. You're going to walk away and give up the best thing that's ever happened to you.”

“Yes. Just like that.”

“Why?”

“Because I'm a coward, and I'm too damned scared to do otherwise.”

“What about Nash? Are you going to just ignore him, too? What will you do if he turns up again?”

“I think Brice is overreacting. Nash can't possibly be that stupid. I'm sure he's just trying to scare me with a lot of melodramatic pranks. He's probably sitting at home laughing about how clever he is in making the ‘freak' squirm. But whatever happens, I'll deal with him when the time comes. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to take your advice and leave that pile of files for later. I'm taking the rest of the day off.”

• • •

Candace walked across the parking lot toward her car, frustrated that Joyce was clearly taking Brice's side in all this. Wasn't she supposed to be
her
friend first? Why did Joyce refuse to listen to her side of things?

“What's up, Freak?” a menacing voice whispered into her ear. “Long time no see.” She froze, goose flesh rising on her arms. He stood close, crowding her against the car. “Where's your fucking shadow?”

“What are you doing here?”

“Aww, aren't you happy to see me? I've come all this way to give you another chance to kiss and make up, with no hard feelings. You should be grateful I'm such a good sport. Hell, I'm feeling so generous, I'll even overlook your slutty fling with the poor little rich boy.”

Candace turned and stared at Nash, speechless. His handsome face was harsh and twisted, and his eyes glittered with maniacal glee. She didn't even recognize the man in front of her. Suddenly, she was afraid. She slowly backed away to put distance between them, but he grabbed her by the arm and cut off her retreat.