Old Lady (Iron Disciples Book 2) (24 page)

No matter what happens or what you do in life
you could never make me not love you. I only want you to be happy. Thank you
for everything my dearest daughter.

With much love and respect,

Mom

I burry my face in my pillow again and let the pain of my
loss overtake me. I let it chew me up and swallow me. I let it destroy my heart
and fill my soul with blackness…but only for a time.

When I look up again the sun has gone down and my room is
dark. I get up and turn on the light. Now that my head, heart, and soul, is
clear and grounded, I need to write a letter to Cade. It’s time he learned what
his brother did for me and it’s high time he spoke to his dad and made amends
for his part in everything that contributed to the brokenness of his family;
but it starts with me, and I too have a lot to apologize for.

I pick up my pen and a couple sheets of lined paper. I
have no idea how much space I’ll need or how long it’s going to take me to do
this so I get comfortable for the long haul.

Dear Cade,

It’s high time I unburdened my soul to you.
If we’re going to do this…set up house, raise a child together, then there can
be no secrets between us and no holding back. So tonight I bare my soul to you
and hope you don’t crush my fragile heart in response.

Let me first talk about your brother Eddie.
He has changed. He is not the same brother you grew up with. Right now all you
can see is the angry, vengeful, hurting, brother who betrayed you and took your
club from you.

When the cartel kidnapped me and your brother
their original plan was to kill me as a payback for some guy’s cousin that you
and your brother killed. They settled on me because they figured it wouldn’t
cause too much blowback. At least that sounded like what was going on.

Eddie saved my life Cade! They were hell bent
on giving someone a brutal death and Eddie made sure it was his life they took.
He didn’t have to do that but he did and he arrived at that decision with no
help on my part.

You need to set aside your feelings for your
brother and give him the honor and respect he deserves. I don’t know what the
club protocol is when a president dies, but you need to observe that. I don’t
want my daughter being brought up by a vengeful man who couldn’t even forgive
his own flesh and blood. I am changing my life and you need to examine yours
and do what is best for our daughter.

I assume by now you have taken control of the
club. You need to get us out of the war that’s brewing. I don’t want my
daughter to grow up without her father. I grew up without my father did I
wouldn’t wish that on anyone. Think of your daughter. Think of me and my aunt.
We are your family now. If you’re not ready for that responsibility let me know
so I can do what I need to do to raise my daughter in a safe environment.

You’re a good man Cade and I know you’ll make
the right decision. You will make a great father if you choose to wear that
hat.  I am doing my best become a better person and I want to be with a man who
supports my efforts and is willing to make changes for his family.

I love you Cade and I am proud to be your old
lady. Take care of business and when it’s safe you can come and get your new
family.

Love Morgan and Alexa

I stand up and stretch. I pace around the small guest
room for a minute before sitting back down at the desk. Writing letters seemed
to be cathartic for my mother so maybe it’s time to follow in her footsteps. I
don’t know if I will ever see Cade again but if I don’t I’m going to have to
make it okay for my daughter. I take a deep breath and let out again slowly.
Here it goes…

My dearest Alexa,

At the time of this writing you have yet to
be brought into this world. I am writing to you so that you will know your
family and learn from the painful things we have gone through.

I want to tell you about your father. I don’t
know if you will ever get to know him and if you don’t, please try not to hold
that against him. It’s not always easy being a good person and I think your
father is finding that out now. He’s a good man and no man will ever love you
like he does. One day you will learn that every human being on this earth has
the capacity to do good and to do evil. Most of us choose to do good and on
occasion a little less than good. I have spent much of my adulthood as a selfish
and self- centered person with little redeemable qualities and it has been hard
to get in touch with my other self.

You should know that money isn’t everything.
In fact, it usually is responsible for what is bad about the world we live in.
I should know. Money used to be my god and Capital America my church and I
spent my entire life going to services. Then at the top of my career I met your
father. I made all the wrong decisions and eventually lost everything including
myself. I understand this is a lot of vague information but as I write more
letters it will all start to make some sense.

I want you to know I am so proud to be your
mother and I already love you with all my heart. Never forget, everything comes
and goes but family is forever.

Love,

Mom

THE END