Authors: Larissa Ione
inside her the moment they got their clothes off.
Suddenly, he gripped her wrist. “No… Harvester. We can’t.”
“We can,” she whispered against his throat. “I’m healed.” Except for her wings, but the bones were
knitting together swiftly now, the pain dulled from the feeding.
“It’s not that.” He lifted her as if she weighed nothing at all and set her aside. Sharp, lashing pain
scored her heart as he sat up and buttoned his jeans. “I’m not doing this with you.”
What the hell was going on? Harvester struggled to jump-start her lust-addled brain and make sense
of what he was saying. Her body was juiced, her feminine parts were aching, and her heart was
pounding.
Swallowing dryly, she sat up and braced herself against the wall. “What’s the problem?”
Shoving to his feet, he swore, long and loud. “What’s the problem? It’s you, Harvester.” He
gestured between them. “It’s us. This can’t work.”
Very slowly, as if she were bleeding to death, something drained out of her, leaving her colder and
more hollow than ever before. She’d trusted him to not reject her, and didn’t it figure that he’d waited
until she’d truly let down her guard to do it.
“Of course we can’t work,” she said, welcoming the bitterness that seeped into her voice. Her old
friend was back. “You’re a pure, holy angel of goodness, and I’m Satan’s evil whore of a daughter. So
yeah,
we
can’t work. Thanks for pointing that out, Captain Obvious. But we can fuck.”
Reaver’s eyes were like jeweled drill bits, boring so deep inside her she was afraid he’d seen her
darkest secrets.
“Tell me,” he said softly. “If Yenrieth were to return, what would you do?”
Yenrieth? How dare he conjure that name right now? What did Yenrieth have to do with anything?
“Who cares?” She stood, suddenly feeling the need to be on even footing with him. “Yenrieth hasn’t
been seen in thousands of years. He’s dead.”
“And if he wasn’t?”
“Why? Are you afraid I’m falling in love with you or some shit? And then Yenrieth will magically
return to sweep me off my feet and leave you in the dust?” She poked him in the chest. “Because I
have news for you. I’m not falling in love with you, Yenrieth isn’t coming back, and, if he did, I’d be
more likely to kill him than let him sweep me to anywhere.” She fisted the hem of her tank top and
peeled it off over her head. “So get over yourself and fuck me, dammit.”
Reaver’s expression was a mix of anguish and disgust and, as far as she could tell, aimed at her.
Was she that repulsive to him?
Her eyes stung, and she hated herself for it. Feeling suddenly, stupidly exposed, she covered her
breasts with her arms.
“I can’t.” Reaver’s voice was guttural as he wheeled around and stared at the wall. “I remember. I
loved you.”
She blinked, her bafflement taking the edge off her anger. “What are you talking about? Did you hit
your head?” She eyed his throat. “Did I drink too much blood? Are you okay?”
“I loved you,” he repeated, because it hadn’t sounded crazy enough the first time. “But I remember
the hate too.”
“Yes,” she said carefully, because she didn’t want to set off the madman. “You hate me.”
“And now I know why.” He clenched his jaw so tight she heard a crack. “You told me what you did
to me, and I understood. As Reaver, I got it.”
As Reaver? She was beyond baffled now, was starting to get scared. Something was very wrong
with him.
“But as Yenrieth I hated you. I can feel that now. Like it was yesterday.”
Oh, God. She breathed a huge sigh of relief. “I think somehow our memories are getting jumbled up
together. Weird stuff happens in this region, and with the
lasher
implants and your
sheoulghuls
—”
“Dammit, Harvester, listen to me.” Pivoting, he dragged both hands through his hair over and over,
almost obsessively, as if whatever was scrambling his brain could be calmed by a scalp massage. “I
came to rescue you to find Lucifer, but I’d been planning to do it all along anyway. Because of the
Horsemen. What you did for them. They’re my children,” he said, and it was as if all her bodily
functions seized up under an adrenaline overload. He was freaking high. He couldn’t be their father
because their father was—“I’m Yenrieth.”
Reaver couldn’t believe he’d just admitted the truth to Harvester. At the worst possible time. But
dammit, images had slammed into him while she was feeding, knocking him so off balance that it felt
as if he was in two places at once—the present and the past—and only Harvester could shed light on
the dark holes in his memory.
He’d remembered moments with Verrine, more flashes of their exploits together, but this time they
were a little longer, and this time, they came with the raw emotions he’d felt when the memories had
been made.
He’d loved her. He didn’t remember why he hadn’t acted on how he’d felt, but he was certain he’d
loved her. So when Harvester had kissed him, he’d felt like everything was right. It had been like
coming home.
But then she’d touched him, stroked him, and even as his lust built, searing hatred had scorched his
heart. The memory of why he’d bedded Verrine had slammed into him, along with the rage he’d felt
when he, as Yenrieth, had learned that Verrine had kept the existence of his children away from him
for almost thirty years.
Now all of those emotions were swirling around in his head the way they had five thousand years
ago, fresh and poisonous, and mixed with everything Reaver knew and felt, as well.
He didn’t know what he was supposed to be feeling right now, and he was pretty sure Harvester was
in the same leaking boat.
She stared at him, and her eyes glazed over with disbelief and confusion. Her mouth opened.
Closed. And then he saw it. The moment it all sank in.
Her face went ashen with devastation. “Oh no,” she whispered. Her entire body began to shake. He
could smell her fury, her sense of betrayal, and it sliced him wide open. “No. You… oh, gods,
no
.”
“Harvester—”
“Shut up!” she rasped. “Don’t you speak to me,
Yenrieth
. Don’t you ever speak to me again.”
Closing his eyes, he waited for it. When it came, he was ready, but it was still the most painful slap
he’d ever gotten, not because of the force but because behind it was a female whose agony transferred
straight to him.
“How long have you known?” She was screaming now, her anger so great that her powers were
seeping into her tirade and blistering waves of heat seared his skin. She snatched up her tank top, her
eyes blazing with raw hatred. “Where have you been for the last five thousand years, you bastard?”
He didn’t reply, but it wasn’t because she’d told him to never speak to her again—he was pretty
sure that would be impossible given that she was asking questions she demanded answers to. No, he
didn’t reply because he couldn’t. He didn’t know where he’d been prior to the last thirty years or so.
And he was pretty sure she wasn’t ready to hear anything he had to say.
“Answer me!” Tears streaming down her face, Harvester lunged at him.
He caught her by the shoulders and wrenched her to the mattress. She might be more powerful than
him right now, but he was physically stronger, and once he had her on her back, he used both his
strength and his weight to keep her from hurting herself or him.
He just had to hope she was too angry to think about blasting him with her powers. He’d also like it
if his cock wasn’t still in
let’s play with the hot female
mode.
“Harvester.” He jerked his head back to avoid getting whacked in the face by her flailing arm. “I
don’t know where I was. You know I can’t remember anything but the last thirty years.”
“
Liar!
You’ve lied about everything else, you fucking asshole.”
She rocked her head up to bite his shoulder, and
shit
, that hurt. He shifted to gain leverage and
muscled her into the mattress with his forearm over her throat. He kept the pressure light, not wanting
to hurt her, but he also didn’t need to have any bites taken out of him.
“Listen to me,” he said roughly, because it wasn’t easy to talk when you were fighting off a snarling
hellcat. “I’m not lying. I didn’t even know the truth about myself until a few months ago, after you
were taken to Sheoul.”
Eyes shimmering like wet emeralds, she glared up at him, practically frothing with rabid fury.
“What,” she ground out, “do you remember?”
“Not much. I can get brief glimpses of my past with you, but most of it is jumbled together. There’s
no context.” He paused as a strange vibration began to buzz the air outside. The sharp, shrill sensation
of terror skated over his skin.
“It’s night.” Harvester’s gaze tracked around the room as if seeking the source of the vibration.
“Nothing can move now. We’re safe for a couple of hours.”
Safe. He was stuck inside a twelve-by-twelve shack with a fallen angel who hated him. There was
nothing safe about any of this. Not for him.
“Now get off me,” she snapped.
“Do you promise you won’t try to kill me?”
“No.” If glares were daggers, he’d be bleeding out from massive trauma right now. “But if I wanted
to kill you, I’d have given you the Calder treatment already.”
She had a point. He eased off her, but he braced himself for a possible surprise attack. Harvester had
always fought dirty. Instead, she sat up calmly and tugged on her tank top.
Now what? He’d rather have her upset and yelling than eerily silent, like a dormant volcano on the
verge of a catastrophic eruption.
“Damn you, Reaver.” Harvester scooted to the far side of the mattress and sat there, staring at him
with glassy, bloodshot eyes. “What do you want from me?”
“I don’t want anything from you.” Well, that wasn’t entirely true. He wanted more answers about
his past.
And he wanted her forgiveness for what he’d done to her as Yenrieth. The anger over the secret
she’d kept from him still lingered, but it was nothing compared to what she must be feeling. He’d had
five months to come to grips with who he was. She’d had five minutes.
“You don’t want anything from me.” Acid dripped from her voice. “Just like old times.”
“Don’t,” he said as he reached for her. “Don’t do this.”
She jerked away from him. “Don’t touch me. Don’t talk to me.” She flopped down on the mattress,
putting her back to him and shutting him out as effectively as a brick wall. “Leave me alone.”
“Harvester—”
“I said, leave me the fuck alone!” She didn’t turn over, just kept up the impenetrable wall routine.
“Just give me some fucking space. Can you do that? Can you follow a command for once in your
life?”
The pain in her voice flayed him to the bone. He might be feeling residual hate, but the love he’d
had for her was there, too, and while both were tempered by his experiences with her as Reaver, that
only seemed to make it worse.
Because as far as he could tell, he’d been a major dick as Yenrieth, and Reaver had no idea how to
reconcile who he’d been with who he was now. All he knew was that he was the source of Harvester’s
pain. Every single stitch of pain she’d endured for the last five thousand years could be laid on his
shoulders.
Bracing his back against the wall, he searched his brain for more memories as he waited for
Harvester to process everything. He figured he had about five minutes before she ripped into him
again, and sure enough, she sat up with a snarl, her eyes flecked with black.
“How did you learn the truth?”
“Reseph told me.” Man, he couldn’t have been more shocked. “He found out from Lilith.”
“Lilith,” she spat out, and beneath her skin, her veins began to blacken and rise to the surface. “I
want her dead. I want her to suffer—”
“She’s dead,” he said before she got more worked up. “Reseph destroyed her.”
A low, menacing growl came from deep in her chest, and the tips of her horns erupted through her
hair. “I hope he tortured her. I hope he did to her what he did to me.” A shudder shook her, and he