Redeeming Kyle: 69 Bottles #3 (33 page)

“For what?”
 

“Not being awake enough.”
 

“Oh baby girl, don’t be.”
 

“I told Talon to go out with the guys. Go join them.”
 

“No, I want to hold you tonight. I need to be near you.”
 

He sets out to untie my boots. Once they’re gone, I lay down and he unzips my pants. “Panties?”
 

“Off.” I lift my hips and he pulls down both my pants and panties. My stomach rolls. “Oh god.” I shift my legs off of the bed, nearly kicking Kyle and take off for the toilet.
 

“Oh no, baby girl…” Kyle comes in right behind me.

He stays with me the whole time. “I’m sorry. I was shaking you too much.”
 

“Cowboy…” I say between heaves, “not your fault.”
 

I know it takes a lot for him to say what he says next. “Okay, baby girl.”
 

I smile, flush and sit down on the lid waiting for the nausea to pass. He kneels in front of me. “Better?”
 

“Yeah, I think so.” He stands up and readies my toothbrush for me. I smile when he hands it to me and I promptly brush my teeth and he helps me stand up to spit out the paste.
 

“Back to bed?”
 

“Yes, please.” He helps me back to bed and I lay down toward his side. He strips down, but hesitates to pull off his boxers. He always sleeps naked. “I know you’re hard and I wish I had the energy to fix it.”
 

“No, it’s alright, I just, you’re naked and it’s hard…” he snorts a laugh, “okay, I didn’t mean it that way. But to lay, naked in bed with you isn’t easy.”
 

“I have an idea.” I roll over, facing Talon’s side of the bed. “Take them off.”
 

“Addie, I?”
 

“Please, let me do this.” He climbs into bed behind me. “Spoon with me.” He rolls toward me and I lift up my leg, reaching behind me, I grip his erection firmly in my hand and stroke it a couple of times.
 

“God Addie, that feels so good.”
 

I shift to better line up with him. “Take me, cowboy. I’m wet and ready for you.”

“Baby girl, I’m not going to use you to get off.”
 

“You’re not using me. I want this too. I just don’t have the energy.” He doesn’t do anything. “Please,” I beg.
 

“I can’t say no to you,” he growls, taking his erection from me. I lift up my leg. He stops, unable to get the angle right. “Put your leg down.”
 

“No…”
 

“No, I have an idea.” I put down my leg and he bends my knee, pushing it forward so that I roll a little onto my stomach. “Are you okay like this?”
 

“Yes.”
 

Then he straddles my other leg and I feel him pressing into my sex. He slides in and out slowly. Then when he’s all the way inside, he freezes, allowing me to adjust. He puts a hand on my leg, pushing it up just a little more before he leans down. “I’m not hurting you, am I?”
 

“No, it feels good.”
 

He pulls out and my nipples harden into painful peaks. He’s leaning over me as he slides in again. I twist, exposing my breast to him. He hisses through his teeth as his pace increases. He leans down and sucks my nipple into his mouth. “Argh!” I groan. “Faster,” I urge.
 

His strokes are long and I can feel as he uses his hips to push deeper into me. “Oh god, Kyle,” I moan. He releases my nipple as he starts to pant above me.
 

“You feel so good,” he says as he continues his long steady pace.
 

An orgasm is building deep in my core. “Ahh! Fuck! Faster Kyle, please, I’m gonna…ah!”
 

“Let it go, baby, I’m ready. I need to feel you.” My pussy clenches around his cock and he pushes into me harder and faster. “Give it to me, baby girl, let me feel you.”
 

My body locks down and my orgasm races outward. I cry out as my orgasm shatters me. I feel Kyle twitch and then he’s exploding inside of me. “Addison,” he cries out as his orgasm takes him completely.

He slows his strokes in and out of me and I look at him. There is a look that I’ve never seen before. It’s sad and desperate almost. His eyes are full of unshed tears. “Whoa, what’s wrong?” I ask him.
 

“I just love you so damn much and I can’t believe I wasted three days when I could have been with you, been inside you, been loving you. I don’t think you understand how awful I feel about what happened.”
 

I reach up and he brings his cheek to my hand, leaning into it. “Don’t, please. It was awful, and I never want to feel like that again, but we learned a lot about ourselves in those three days. We’ve grown stronger because of it. I don’t take it back, I won’t, and I will not let you beat yourself up over it. We’re better because of it.”
 

He kisses my palm. “I love you so much it hurts.”
 

“I know, because it hurts how much I love you.”
 

He pulls himself out and the sensation sends a thrill through me. I don’t want to lose the connection. He leans down and kisses me. “Let me clean you up.”
 

I nod and he gets off the bed.
 

I’m fighting my eyelids when he returns with a warm washcloth and towel. “Open for me, baby girl.” I roll onto my back and he cleans me up then dries me. He tosses the towels on the floor then adjusts so that he is sitting on his feet and he leans forward over me. Gently placing his hands on my tummy. “Good night, little ones. Sweet dreams,” he says softly against my stomach, then he kisses one side, then the other. “Love you,” he whispers. Then he crawls up my body and kisses me softly. I take his head into my hands and kiss him back. He pulls back. “Good night, baby girl.” He gives me a kiss, “sweet dreams.” He kisses me again.
 

“I love you. Good night, cowboy.”
 

He lies down next to me, putting his arm out for me to lie against him. I roll over, snuggling into the crook of his shoulder; I slide my hand across his stomach. The arm I’m lying on bends and he is touching the small of my back. I’m holding him to me and he’s holding me to him.
 

Before long, I’m sound asleep.

“Hey T.”
 

“Oh hey, I didn’t wake you, did I?”
 

“Nah,” I say quietly. Talon comes over to my side of the bed; he leans over and kisses me. He rubs the scruff on my cheek.
 

“How is she?”
 

“Good. She was asleep before we even got out of the lot.”
 

“I’m so proud of her.”
 

I smile. “Me too, she stayed up all day even after the hospital this morning.”
 

“I was expecting her to leave during the show.”
 

“I asked her after you guys were done if she wanted to go, she said no and that she was okay. I carried her up here. Then woke up after I got her undressed, she threw up.”
 

Talon sits down gently on the bed next to me. “Oh man.”
 

“It didn’t last anywhere near as long as it usually does and it was mostly liquid, but she had soup for dinner.” He gives me a half smile. “After she brushed her teeth and came back to bed, she refused to let me crawl into bed in my boxers. I was trying to be chivalrous because I was hard.” He snorts a laugh. “I felt so bad, then she begged me. I told her I felt like I was using her, she begged some more and you know I can’t say no to her.”

He smiles. “Neither can I. Don’t stress it. She knows what she’s doing.”

I smile, trying not to laugh, I don’t want to wake her. “She does. Did you have a good time tonight?”
 

“Not really. It was nice to hang out with the guys. Raine came along with us. Dex, man you should have seen him, I think he’s whipped, dude. I think he’s found the chick to straighten his shit out.”

“No way!”

“I think so. Eric seems much happier since this afternoon. I had a feeling it was true, but you know, I needed confirmation from him.”
 

I smile and nod. “Last Tuesday, when you guys were getting ready to jam,” he nods, “he was in the bathroom when you confessed to me.”

He covers his mouth in shock, “Why didn’t you tell me?”
 

I shrug. “I figured what you did was hard enough, I didn’t need to tell you that we weren’t necessarily alone. I told him that I knew, because I did. I’ve seen him sneak off with a guy or two over the years.”
 

He pushes on my thigh. “Why didn’t you tell me?” he asks again.
 

I laugh silently and Addison shifts a little, snuggling in. “Help me lay her on the bed,” I tell him and he picks up her arm slowly, then puts his hand under her neck, I move enough that he can put her head on the pillow. She adjusts and snuggles in without waking up. I slide out of bed slowly. “Let’s go out here.”
 

He nods and I grab my boxers off of the floor and slide them on and follow him out of the room.

“I didn’t tell you because I knew Eric needed to do it. For the same reason you needed to do what you did today by kissing me in front of everyone. I knew that when he was ready he would, but I think we have Addison to thank for that too,” I tell him as we sit on the couch.

“Why?”
 

I smirk, “She told him to tell you then took his hand while he did. They talked last week, the night we went out, that’s the reason he left the bar early. He was hoping to talk to her. I told him to. I knew she’d give him the courage he needed. I mean, Dex? Come on, that’s not an easy nut to crack.”
 

He snorts, “He knew too. He also helped him look for dudes tonight. I think he needed to do something to keep his dick clean. It was funny to watch.”

“She told me to join you guys tonight.”
 

“Oh? Why didn’t you?”
 

“I needed to hold her. I couldn’t last night because of the hospital. I just needed to feel her in my arms.”

“Dude, you left.”
 

“I wasn’t in the right headspace when I walked out the door. As soon as that elevator closed, I knew I’d fucked up.”
 

“Then why didn’t you come back right away.”
 

“I couldn’t spend the next twenty-four hours looking at her, knowing I was hurting her by not talking to her. I wasn’t ready to talk, I didn’t yet know how to talk to her and by the time my twenty-four hours were up, I was so drunk that I didn’t know what day it was.”

He nods, “I’ve been there, I can understand that. We all have our demons, Kyle. I just hope you were able to tackle them.”
 

“I did. You, her, our babies, are the most important things to me. Losing this family will kill me whether it is long and slow with drugs and alcohol or…” I let the thought drop off.
 

“That’s not going to happen. I won’t let it. If I hadn’t been tied up in the studio, I would have been out looking for you. We added a drum track to ‘To Be Free’, so it took longer, which is why I wasn’t around. The only reason we’re not being fined for yesterday is because she was carried out on a stretcher. She and I have to be in the studio Saturday morning to lay the vocals. Not that I wouldn’t have paid the fine to come and find you, but Monday, after you left, somehow she pulled herself together long enough to lay ‘Your Eyes’, then came back here. So I knew that if I got it done and got her back to the studio, she’d be better, at least for a while. You know the rest.”