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On my way out, I don’t see Grady or Cheyenne at all. I tell myself that it’s for the best. Really, in all the years I’ve distantly fantasized about the club and the men in it, never did I think I’d be in this position. I walk gingerly to my car, aided by Lisa, and when I climb inside, I find that it’s been cleaned, with no sign that I was bleeding all over the seats just yesterday.

“Someone will be by with the first payment in a few days,” she says. She’s got her hand on the outside handle of the open driver’s side door.

“Oh, I don’t really want the cash. I just want to be left alone,” I say.

“Word of advice? You want to be left alone—take the money and be done with it. Arguing is only going to invite trouble,” she says. I go to defend myself, but she holds her hand up and shakes her head. “I’m just the messenger.”

She shuts the door and steps away from the car. I take that as my cue and pull out of the driveway then drive slowly away from the Grady residence and back to my normal life.

“YOU’RE SURE— YOU
don’t have
any
ibuprofen?” I ask Margot as I rub my temples. Mr. Beck has been in his office with Jeremy Whelan for the last ten minutes and it’s starting to get loud. It doesn’t matter that the door is shut and his office is all the way down the hall. I can hear practically every single word of what’s being said. Jeremy, a senior who is unlikely to graduate, is asking for a work permit. For the fourth time. He’s awfully persistent and if I didn’t know his story, I might think it a little weird that he wants a job so badly. Most kids are reluctant to work¸ but Jeremy’s sister, Nic is the only family he has as far as I know. Nic works with Mindy and neither of them make much. I just wish Mr. Beck would give Jeremy a break— even if the kid is being a real pain in the butt.

My elbows are resting on my desk and I’m hunched over. Everything aches from my ache to my head to my soul. Even the no-longer-bruised spot above my hip aches. It could be cramps or I could be crazy. With how awful I feel right now, it doesn’t really matter. The only thing that matters is that apparently nobody in this godforsaken building has any pain killers and Mr. Beck’s voice carries. I look at the clock on the wall and see that they’ve been in there arguing for longer than I thought. It’s been closer to fifteen minutes of straight-up bitching.

“Sorry, girl,” Margot says.

“Hey Margot, what the hell is actually going on in there?” I ask and blow out a frustrated breath. I know Jeremy needs a work permit, and Mr. Beck won’t give him one, but what I don’t understand is why Mr. Beck hasn’t kicked him out of his office yet. Margot wheels around and leans against my desk. Her eyes are wide and excited. I plaster my best friendly smile on my face and wait for the dirt.

“I thought Sterling would have told you,” she says. We’ve been dancing around the topic of my alleged association with Sterling Grady for a while now. I just shake my head no and try not to fuel her curiosity any further. “Well, anyway. So Jeremy got a job working at Forsaken Custom Cycle. He came to me for a permit and I had to deny him because his grades are too low. He begged me to give him the permit, but I told him to talk to Mr. Beck.”

“Yeah,” I say. I knew all of that. “But why hasn’t Mr. Beck kicked him out of his office?” I’ve never seen a student be so flat-out disrespectful to Mr. Beck before. It’s not that Mr. Beck is a particularly tough man or that he’s intimidating, but most students have some kind of respect for his position and try not to tick him off. When I went to school here, the only kids that got away with much of anything are now members of Forsaken.

“After the second time Mr. Beck denied Jeremy’s permit, Jim Stone came in and personally asked Mr. Beck to approve it. He didn’t and Mr. Stone got pretty mad. I think Mr. Beck is scared of getting another visit from the president of the club.”

It all makes sense now. Mr. Beck is the typical administrator who thinks he knows better than everyone around him. He’s always avoided confrontation with the club as best he can which is why he won’t expel Cheyenne— or Jeremy for that matter— himself, but he pushes both Margot and I to do it for him. If only I had known this before I made the trip out to Grady’s house, I could have saved myself a lot of grief. I didn’t want trouble from the club, either, but I guess Mr. Beck is really only concerned about keeping his own ass out of the fire. That jerk let me chase after Grady for months— even during summer session— and he never once bothered to tell me who he is and what I was walking into.

“Jeremy’s family could use the money. Mr. Beck can’t help at all?” I ask. Sure, Nic is with one of the guys in the club now, and I’m sure he’s going to take care of her and their baby, but that doesn’t mean anything for Jeremy, I don’t think. I don’t really know anything about how the club members earn their money aside from the rumors that swirl around town. If Jeremy says he needs the job to help his family, then I trust that he does.

The door to Mr. Beck’s office swings open and Jeremy stalks out. His feet stomp into the linoleum below and he moves so fast that he clips the corner of Margot’s desk on the way out. With a angry push, the main door to the office flies open and he rushes out, letting the door slam behind him. Margot and I jump in place and move back into place to pretend like we’ve been working the entire time.

It’s just a moment later when Mr. Beck is standing at the end of the hallway. His face is red and in an agitated voice he says, “Holly, can you come in my office, please?”

With a deep breath, I stand from my seat and cross the room, following behind Mr. Beck and into his office. My head is still pounding, but I try to push my own misery out of my head and just deal with whatever it is the boss man wants. He sits behind his desk and folds his arms over his chest. I’m not terribly happy with him right now and don’t want to be in here any longer than I absolutely need to, so I opt for closing the door and leaning against the nearby wall.

“Everything okay, Dick?” I say. Richard Beck asks his colleagues to call him Dick, but he’s never once asked me to. Margot calls him Mr. Beck so I assume he hasn’t asked her to, either. The fact that he doesn’t see me as equal to him has never really bothered me until this moment.

"Holly, where are we at with Cheyenne Grady's expulsion?"

Mr. Beck knows damn well that I don't intend to file paperwork to have Cheyenne expelled. He and I have had this conversation already. In fact, we have had this conversation several times, and I guess it still hasn't seeped into his thick skull. I never had any trouble with Mr. Beck when I was a student. He was always just the principal – a distant authority figure who let the fact that he was underpaid and overworked be known to just about everybody he came in contact with. But Mr. Beck has shown himself to be a real nitwit. He's far too scared to expel Cheyenne Grady on his own, and he's not compassionate enough to give her a break. No, that's why he sends his staff out to do a job we are not paid to do.

"Her expulsion is on hold. Mr. Grady signed the counseling acknowledgment form and Cheyenne knows that she's expected at Saturday school this weekend." It wasn't easy getting that stupid form signed, but it has been, so the job got done. If I spend too long to think about it, I'll come to the conclusion that Mr. Beck never expected me to get Grady to sign the form, and that is just going to piss me off. So instead, I pretend that he's not that big of a tool, even if I know in my heart that he is.

"You got Sterling Grady to sign that form? After months of trying, he finally did it? Does this mean that the rumors are true, that you're seeing Sterling Grady? " he asks. His eyes are wide, his mouth has fallen, and his face goes blank. And whatever tiny little bit of hope that I had that Dick isn't actually a dick vanishes. I should have known that with the way Margot dances around the subject that Mr. Beck would eventually hear the rumors.

"Yes, the form has been signed."

"Ms. Mercer, I can't tell you how to live your life, but I do want to warn you that Sterling's bike club are not the kind of people you want to associate with. Look at Cheyenne Grady and Jeremy Whelan – both of their dads are part of that gang – neither of them have much of a future. Those people go around having kids they don't discipline, nor do they care about. It's none of my business what you do in your off-time, and I apologize for stepping over the bounds, but I like you, Holly. I don't want to see you get hurt or mixed up in their criminal enterprise."

I'm silent for a few moments too long, and Mr. Beck starts talking again. He's never been shy about his disapproval of the club and its members, and that’s fine. But it’s not Jeremy Whelan’s fault that he was given the short end of the stick, and it certainly isn’t Cheyenne’s fault, either. They’re just kids, and I don’t really care what
Dick
thinks of the club. He’s taking it out on a couple of kids, and that’s not fair.

In the weeks since my visit to the Grady residence, I’ve discovered that there are three other students in this school with worse attendance records, poorer grades, and more difficult temperaments than either Cheyenne or Jeremy have exhibited. Despite the fact that I’ve brought those students to Mr. Beck’s attention, he’s shown little interest in pursuing expulsion for them. I suppose Mr. Beck lets them slide because two of them are athletes and the other one is the child of a local business owner. I’m willing to bet none of their parents have a criminal record, and
that’s
what this vendetta is really about. Either way, it ends here.

“Is there a reason you won’t issue Jeremy Whelan a work permit, but you allow Edwin Nielson to continue playing football despite the fact that his GPA is two points below Jeremy’s and he has four more unexcused absences as well?”

“It’s at my discretion to determine whom I may and may not make exceptions for. Jeremy has exhibited no desire to better himself. Edwin Nielson has been struggling with recovering from his football injury during a practice at defense camp over the summer.”

“So, because Jeremy doesn’t play football he doesn’t deserve a chance to graduate high school?” I ask. My jaw locks at the end of my sentence and I have to force it loose. Everything I feared about having this conversation with Mr. Beck is coming to fruition. Our football team isn’t even that good, and we haven’t made state in the last decade, but Edwin Nielson is popular and his dad isn’t an outlaw, so I suppose that’s enough for Mr. Beck to show him a little grace.

“I’m glad you got Mr. Grady to sign the counseling form. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have a busy schedule,” Mr. Beck says by means of dismissal. I exit the room and shut the door behind me as quickly and quietly as possible. I didn’t know it could happen, but my head now feels even worse than it did before I entered Mr. Beck’s office. Now that he’s shown how utterly unfair of a human being he is, I can’t help but rack my brain trying to figure out if there’s anything I can do to help Jeremy, and by extension, help the club. Grady doesn’t need to know that I still feel immense guilt over possibly causing Cheyenne anymore grief. Maybe I can ease some of that if I can help Jeremy.

I’m barely in my seat when Margot turns around and says, “Tell ya what, just take an extended lunch. I’ll eat something here. Go grab something for your head at the store, take a walk. Do something. Just get out of here for a little bit.”

“You’re right.” I should get out of here for a bit. It’s past the time I normally take lunch, and I’ve been cooped up at my desk for weeks now. Actually, I’ve kept myself cooped up at home as well. After leaving the Grady residence I started noticing that someone was following me. At first I figured I was just plain paranoid, but the chances of seeing the same exact person following a few car lengths behind me every single day is probably pretty small. It wasn’t until I saw him in a beige sedan parked in the school parking lot when I came out of work one day last week that I knew for sure that the club had somebody watching me. I can only hope the guy hasn’t told Grady that I know he’s following me because I let my temper get the better of me and I gave him a one-finger wave. It was not one of my finer moments, I’ll admit.

I’m leaving the office when I spot my favorite student leaning against a row of lockers. She’s got her back to me and her head tilted up as she listens to Jeremy Whelan grouching about Mr. Beck no doubt.

He lets out a heavy sigh. I pull my cell out of my purse and peek at the time— and sure enough, just as I thought— they’re both supposed to be in class right now. Jeremy spots my approach before Cheyenne does, but I’m quick to side up to Cheyenne and put on my best smile. I’ve never seen them talk before, but I’m not surprised they know one another considering their connections to Forsaken.

“Going to see Dad?” Cheyenne asks with a wiggle of her brows as she jerks her chin at my purse on my shoulder. She’s good at this— trying to distract people from the task at hand. It worked the first few times we’d met, but I’m onto her game now.

“Heh,” I say and try to stop my eyes from rolling into the back of my head at the suggestion of seeing her father. “No, pharmacy. I have a killer headache, and I wonder why.”

“The more difficult you are, the more he talks about you,” she says wistfully.

“That’s great, but really,” I say in exasperation. “You two are going to be the death of me. Do either of you realize how much Mr. Beck wants you both kicked out of this school? Do you?”

Cheyenne bites her lip and her eyes shift to Jeremy’s. He folds his arms over his chest and scowls down at me. I hate it when the students get taller than me, which unfortunately, happens a lot with the boys. It makes it difficult to feel like I’m really an authority figure when I have to look up to scold them.