Righteous02 - Mighty and Strong (18 page)

“I didn’t call them because I’m done,” she said.

“You’re done.”

“I’m done. Done with the job, done with the FBI. I’m just done.”

“What do you mean done? You’re quitting your job, and you’re going to stay at Zarahemla, is that what you’re saying?”

“Yes.”

“Why, exactly?”

“My husband told me about you, so I don’t expect you to understand. That’s right, I know you don’t believe he’s the prophet. You’re a doubter, you don’t believe.”

“And you do? You believe all that?”

“I don’t cast my pearls before swine.”

“And what does that mean? I’m not good enough to share your beliefs with?”

“You’re a scoffer and a mocker. How could I share my beliefs and deepest feelings with you? Whatever for, so you’ll laugh and sneer?”

“Brother Timothy told me what he believed, why shouldn’t you? Are you better than the prophet?”

Sister Miriam shook her head. “I feel sorry for you. You’ve been given so much. Born under the Principle and raised by believing parents. And now you have an opportunity to sit at the feet of the Prophet. No, better than that, to become one of his generals. That’s right, he told me what he had planned. And all you have to do is let go of your doubt. You’ll have everything.”

Jacob put his hand to his forehead. “Hold on a second. I need to back up, get things straight. You came here as an FBI agent, undercover, to root out some sort of conspiracy. Don’t give me that look. I’ve seen the gun training, I’m not naive about what’s going on at Zarahemla. And then, sometime during the last few weeks, you suffered from some sort of Stockholm Syndrome. Became one of them.”

“Like I said, pearls before swine.”

“I’m listening, I’m trying to understand. Explain it to me.”

“I wasn’t brainwashed, so you can forget that Stockholm Syndrome crap. I felt it before I ever came to Zarahemla. Haven’t you felt it when you read the Book of Mormon, prayed to know if it was true? It’s like a glowing feeling, hot, right down here.” She put her hand across her breast.

“The Still, Small Voice. Burning in the Bosom. You don’t have to explain it to me.”

“I started studying,” Sister Miriam said, “and I wanted to get into the proper frame of mind and so I prayed and fasted, and read the scriptures. Like method acting. I wanted to feel what they would feel, because I had to get right into this role, as deep as I possibly could. Only something happened I wasn’t expecting. I started to feel something.”

“You started to get into the role, in other words. You were method acting.”

“It’s not a role,” she said. “A role was the girlfriend of a drug dealer. That was a role. I played it well, but I never forgot for one minute what I was doing. Do you know what kind of degrading things he made me do, what terrible, humiliating sexual acts I had to perform?”

“And you did it for your job? Doesn’t the FBI have rules about that kind of stuff? Seems beyond the normal list of duties.”

She narrowed her eyes. “I volunteered.”

“So instead you’re the N
^th
wife of a polygamist prophet. Another volunteer job, I suppose. Have you slept with him?” The look on her face was answer enough. “Of course you have. He’s a calm, gentle man. I imagine he’s a better lover than your drug dealer. Probably doesn’t make you snort lines of coke, either.” He shrugged. “But what’s the difference? You’re playing a different role, that’s all.”

“I’m telling you, it’s not a role. Maybe it was at first, but it isn’t now.”

“You prayed, you got a warm, fuzzy feeling. Take a step back. Consider it from an outsider’s perspective and you’ll see what it looks like. You got into the role, that’s all. You worked so hard to fool these people you managed to fool yourself at the same time.”

“You’re wrong.”

“I’ve heard enough. Go back to the market and sell your produce. I’ll tell your FBI friends you’ve gone Patty Hearst. Maybe they’ll stage a raid or something.”

“You do that and I’ll tell Brother Timothy you’re an FBI plant.”

“And I’d just deny it,” he said. “I’d say the Lord came to me in a dream and told me you were false. That you were sent by the government to destroy us. You’re the FBI plant. In fact, I’ve got a car. By the time you come home, I’ll have had all afternoon to fill in the details.” He shrugged. “See how easy that was.”

“They wouldn’t believe you. If I was good enough to fool them the first time, I’d be good enough to do it again.”

“The minute you stepped into Zarahemla,
Agent Kite,
you stepped into the 19
^th
century. And in the 19
^th
century, you’re not some super-spy FBI agent who can lie her way out of any situation. You’re just a woman. A descendent of Eve, cursed to bear children in pain. Commanded to obey her husband. Brother Timothy might be inclined to believe you at first, but at the end of the day, I’m the one with the priesthood, not you. And Timothy has other wives. He’ll get over it.”

“We’ll see.”

“No we won’t,” Jacob said, “because I’m not going back to Zarahemla. So you can tell them I’m a space alien, for all I care.”

“After everything you’ve seen, you’re just going to walk away?”

“That’s exactly what I’m going to do. I came, did my duty, and now I’m getting out while my sanity is intact.”

“What about your wife and kids?”

A cold anger slipped into his voice. “What about them?”

“My husband said you were bringing them to Zarahemla. Aren’t they on their way already?”

“Trust me, my wife isn’t coming anywhere near that place. That goes doubly for my children.” He glanced over her shoulder and she turned to follow his gaze with a worried expression. “Guess you’d better get back,” he added, “before the other sisters miss you. Goodbye.”

He felt her gaze on his back. About fifteen feet away, he couldn’t resist turning with a parting shot. “Tell me this, Sister Miriam. If Brother Timothy is really a prophet, how come he didn’t use his gift of discernment to see that you’re a big, fat fake?”

Chapter Nineteen:

Jacob collected his car and drove away. He felt paranoid, worried that maybe the sisters had minders after all. So he got on Route 6, headed north. A few miles from Price, he pulled off the road in Helper and looked for a pay phone.

Helper was a beat-up railroad junction. Even beyond the ramshackle nature of much of Carbon County—its coal industry mostly mechanized, and its population stagnant—this part of the state felt less Mormon. Getting off the highway, he first passed a Catholic church and then a faded Methodist chapel before he saw a typical, cookie-cutter LDS church.

Dry cliffs loomed to the east. The mountains to the west were higher, gray-green with scrub oak and sage. They were the same mountains you saw from Manti, just from the other side. From Helper, the road choked to a narrow pass as it made its way past coal mines, into the higher plateau and then split. The first branch continued north toward Provo and the second looped around the mountains to come back south, into Manti.

He made his first call from a gas station pay phone. He wanted to hear Fernie’s voice.
I’m done, I’m coming home. Yes, tonight.

A harsh tone sounded, then a voice: “The number you have reached: 801-555-3795, has been disconnected. No further information is available.”

Jacob frowned, tried again. Before he could make the call, he had to wait while a train chugged by, laden with coal. It whistled hard and long as it crossed one road and then another. By the time it was gone, a worm of fear gnawed at his gut. A second time: the harsh tone, the recorded dismissal.

Why would Fernie have disconnected the phone?

Jacob had memorized Agent Krantz’s number and dialed it now. Krantz picked up on the second ring. “Krantz here.”

“This is Jacob Christianson.”

“Hey, are you all right?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. Listen, have you talked to my wife? There’s some problem with the phone.”

“Have you found out anything about Agent Kite?”

The fear burrowed deeper. “Agent Krantz? Is something wrong?”

An awkward pause. “Your wife is missing.”

“Missing?” He grabbed the edge of the phone booth. “What the hell is going on? You said you’d keep an eye on her.”

“Look, don’t stress out. She’s probably okay. We stopped to check in and all her stuff was on the curb.”

“Her stuff was on the curb,” he repeated stupidly.

“Turns out her landlord evicted her. He freaked out about polygamy, a call from the state or something and he paid her a few hundred bucks to move out. Guy claims she agreed to it, took the money and left with the kids. Didn’t say anything about coming back for her stuff.”

“But that doesn’t make sense. What does she need a few hundred bucks for? Things are tight, but I have a job and a decent paycheck.”

“We canvassed the neighborhood. A neighbor said Fernie was coming back to the house from a walk when she discovered the landlord moving her stuff out. There was a confrontation, maybe she felt the money was the best thing of a bad situation.”

“I don’t care who called Hoover, or what they told him,” Jacob said. “That jerk can’t kick her out of her own home.”

“I don’t know rental laws,” Krantz said, “but I wouldn’t think so. Look, whatever happened, I don’t want you to worry. Doesn’t seem she’s in danger. I’m going to bust my balls until I find her, I swear.”

He sounded genuinely concerned, or maybe just guilty. Never mind, Jacob was angry. “You said you’d protect her. We had a deal.”

“I’m sorry. It happened so quickly. We were in the process of arranging round-the-clock surveillance of the house. I guess if we’d moved faster, we’d have been on top of this, but we didn’t think she was in danger. She wasn’t, but…look, I’m sorry. We’ll find her. We checked with your sister, we’re calling local shelters. Fayer has a few other ideas.” He paused. “So, uhm…”

“You want to know about Agent Kite. Of course you do. Yeah, she’s alive.”

“Thank god.“ A big exhale on the other end of the line. “Did they find her out? Are they holding her hostage or what?”

“No, none of that. It’s not what you think.”

Jacob gave a blow-by-blow of his conversation with Sister Miriam. Krantz listened without comment until he finished.

“So she’s still undercover,” Krantz said. “And for some reason she didn’t trust you, thought you were setting her up. Hell of a story to improvise, but that’s why she’s the best.”

“You can tell yourself that, if it makes you feel better. I might believe it too, except she found it easy enough to get away long enough to argue with me. If she could do that, she could have found a way to call and tell you she was all right. And tell you what she’d discovered about the Zarahemla compound.”

Krantz was quiet.

“Agent Krantz, I’m afraid she’s gone Patty Hearst and joined the other side.”

“This isn’t a rich young heiress we’re talking about,” Krantz said. “This is a trained FBI agent and a damn good one. She’s not going to join some whacked-out cult because she spent a few weeks listening to crazy talk.”

“A lot of outsiders have joined this so-called whacked-out cult. No, none of them are so much an outsider as your agent, but there’s something appealing about this guy or people wouldn’t keep signing up for the End of the World.”

“I don’t believe it. Kite’s not even religious. No way they’d brainwash her.”

“They didn’t,” Jacob said. “She brainwashed herself. Someone like Kite has to be convincing. Has to act, think, speak the role. These true believers, who think the world is coming to an end and are waiting to see it happen, maybe they’ve got more layers than, say, a drug dealer. I don’t know. Could be she kept burrowing down and pretty soon she was so far down the hole she couldn’t get out.”

Jacob had come to that point before. As his father once told him after Jacob confessed his doubts, ‘Act like you have a testimony, share that testimony with other people, and pretty soon you really will believe.’

Sometimes he had to follow the advice. If you wanted to survive in a world of believers, you had to keep your doubts to yourself. The longer he followed that path, the more he started to wonder if maybe the facts weren’t so important, that maybe feelings were all that mattered.

“You know, some crazy shit went down at Kite’s last job,” Krantz said in a slower voice. “When we burst into the room to take down this scumbag of a drug dealer, she was giving the guy a blow job. And she knew we were coming. So in a way, I can see this happening. Crazy stuff, but maybe…”

“Looks like you’ve got two choices,” Jacob said. “First, you forget about her. Maybe she comes back, maybe not.”

“We can’t do that.”

“Then you’ll have to kidnap her. I’d say call the police now, except she was expecting it. She might be hiding already. So you can wait until the next time she leaves the compound, or you can bust in there with guns drawn and try to get her out without starting a big shootout.”

“Sounds like you’re telling me how to do my job,” Krantz said.

“Not at all. Just doesn’t seem you’re going to
talk
her into leaving. I tried that. She’s not coming.”

“Try again.”

“No, I’m done,” Jacob said. “She threatened me, as good as threatened my family. I’ve done my job, and I’m out of here. And my wife and kids are missing, which is the only thing that matters right now. I’ve got to get back and find them.”

“Fine, can we at least debrief you when you get back to Salt Lake?”

“You can’t do anything until I’m with my family. You find them and we’ll sit down, you can pick my brain. Whatever you want.”

“Fair enough. Look, don’t worry. We’ll find your wife and kids.”

He hoped so, but he wasn’t going to sit around, waiting for them to turn up on their own.

#

Jacob called his father. He tried the cell first, but one of the wives picked up. She gave him a new number. Jacob plugged in his calling card number again.

“Abraham Christianson. Who is this?”

“It’s me, Jacob.”

“Hey, I was going to call you this weekend. Been meaning to for awhile, but I’ve been castrating sheep, and then we lost a couple of ewes to a mountain lion.”