ROMANCE: MC BIKER ROMANCE: CARSON (MC Biker Romance)(Bad Boy Motorcycle Club Romance) (Contemporary Military Romantic Suspense Thriller) (54 page)

Chapter 7

Rocco

“Why do you keep looking down the hallway?”

I looked back to Julie on the sofa. I certainly wasn’t going to tell her I was waiting for the hot blonde to come out of her room. Julie and me were supposed to be on a date, but I wanted to stay in instead. It wasn’t because I wanted to take her to my room, what Julie thought she was there for, but because I was hoping to run into Nicole. She had made it clear that she didn’t want to be around me as much and I missed her.

It was a strange feeling because it wasn’t her body I missed. I don’t even remember missing a woman like that before. I had never even felt her wrapped around me yet. Nicole’s personality and quick wit was what I missed most and as Julie looked at me with the vaguely aware look, I sighed to myself. “I thought I heard something is all.”

“Well I think you need to stop worry about noises and take me to bed. When you asked me over, I thought that was what you wanted.”

It was exactly what I wanted, but there was something stopping me from taking her back to my room. Nicole was there and I didn’t want her to think I was taken. I wanted her to think that there was a chance for us and I was becoming more aware of how she must see me. Never thinking that way before, it was a bit alarming. I knew that one time with Nicole would not be enough. But that one time with her seemed almost impossible. She had already told me more than once that I wasn’t her type and a man had needs.

“Don’t you want to talk or something? You can tell me how your day was.”

As soon as I said the words, I wondered what the hell was wrong with me. When had I ever asked a girl to talk? Julie was looking at me as if I had lost my mind. “You want to talk?”

She looked at me so incredulously I felt embarrassed. Was I really that bad?

“Yeah, I mean we have known each other for a couple of years and I don’t think that I even know all that much about you.”

“That’s because you told me that there was only one thing that my mouth was good for. If I remember right, it wasn’t talking that you were alluding to.”

I kind of winced at her words. I really was a jerk sometimes. I couldn’t imagine saying that to Nicole and the idea made me realize that I hadn’t been the best man to women like Julie either. When she put her hand on my chest and started to move down to the ground in front of me, I still didn’t have the decency to stop her. I may not have known much about her, but Julie was very good at using her mouth in that way.

My head fell back and I forgot about the hallway and my new found awareness of being a jerk to women. All I could think about was the feeling of her mouth on my sensitive tip. I couldn’t think of anything else. Of what could happen, who could just walk in as we were just sitting in the living room. It wasn’t what I had planned, but there was no way I could stop her now.

Moving my hand to the back of her head, I heard her struggle a little with my girth. She was soon sucking hard and I was so close to losing it that my grip was getting harder in her hair. Pushing up with my hips to meet her hungry mouth, I suddenly heard a noise over my own slamming heart. It was the sound that I had been waiting for and I opened my eyes in time to see the shocked look on Nicole’s face. It wasn’t just that she was surprised, but she actually looked like she was getting her feelings hurt at the same time. She looked at me as if I had betrayed her in some way.

It was in that moment that I lost it. I don’t know why. Maybe it was because I was looking at Nicole while Julie had her way with me. I wished it was her, but when I opened my eyes back up, she was gone. I didn’t have to hear her and see her up close to know that I had hurt her somehow. Pushing the sucking mouth from my length, Julie whimpered at me. “Do you feel better now Rocco?”

I nodded that I did, but there was nothing good in my heart. I had messed it all up. It didn’t matter that I was single and not even with Nicole, the fact was that I had lost her without even having her. She would never give me the time of day now. The thought bothered me far more than it was supposed to. I had Julie leave quickly after that and she was just another woman that I had offended that night. I shouldn’t be worried about Nicole, but why was I so eager to go see if she was okay?

Why wouldn’t she be okay? I wasn’t her type anyways.

***

Things in the house got weird. Even Carl had noticed the friction between me and Nicole. She had practically ignored my very existence since she had walked in on me and Julie. I could have told Julie no or at least took her into my bedroom. I see that now, but at the time it was impossible to think. I got mad at Nicole, sure that it was her fault for the way I was feeling in the first place. It was all her fault. She had moved into town and changed everything.

I wasn’t the same since meeting her. It was strange ways that I had changed. When I saw the ocean in the background and smelled the sea air, all I thought of was Nicole. Every blonde I saw, was her and every girl’s laugh I heard was her. I was obsessed and the more certain that I was that I couldn’t have her, the more certain I was that I did in fact need her in my life. I was torn between her and reality. It didn’t matter anyways, I thought to myself, she wanted to have nothing to do with me. That much was clear.

A few weeks after the incident, as I was now referring to it in my head, she walked into the kitchen early and stopped in her tracks when she saw me standing there. Her eyes took in my hard body and for an instant, I could have sworn I saw need. It was quickly gone and she was about to leave the room.

“We can’t keep doing this Nicole. We live together.”

“I don’t know what you are talking about Rocco. I just needed to grab a few waters before I took off for the day.”

It was Saturday and she was looking great. I could tell by the lack of makeup and the oversized shirt that she was going to be going to the beach. The pink string from her bikini was showing and I wanted to ask her if I could come, but she wasn’t looking like she ready to give an invitation.

Nicole was about to walk out of the room when I stopped her with a light hand on her arm. She looked down at where I touched her and then slowly brought her blue eyes up to me. “What Rocco?”

“Look I am sorry that you walked in on that the other day. I shouldn’t have done that out there. I just wasn’t thinking.”

She nodded and side stepped me. “It’s okay Rocco, really. I have learned that I need to prepare myself when I am out of my room. I knew it was going to be different living co-ed, but I think we both know that it isn’t working. I have been looking at a couple of places and should be out of your hair soon.”

I didn’t want to be rid of her. It was working just fine until I acted like an idiot and made her feel uncomfortable. There was something in the way that she looked at me then, I couldn’t believe that I had been so stupid. Why was I so worried about her staying? I wasn’t sure, but it was the last thing that I wanted to think of, her not living there anymore.

“I think it is working. I don’t want you to go anywhere.”

It didn’t have to do with the extra rent or the fact that I was going to catch hell from Carl about chasing off another roommate off. It came down to the fact that I felt like she completed me. It may have sounded corny, but it was true. I needed Nicole and I was almost to the point of wanting her whether she was just my friend or something more. I knew that not having her in my life would be worse.

She looked away and pulled her arm back to her body. “I just think we would all be more comfortable if we could live the way we want to.”

There was no arguing with her. She was the type that made a decision and stuck with it. There wasn’t much I could say, but she was still so close to me, looking up at me in that way. I leaned in and brushed my lips against hers. I didn’t even think about it in the beginning and once she made a soft sound in her throat and leaned in against me, I was no longer worried about anything.

Pulling her to me with a strong grip on her waist, Nicole moaned against me and I felt her resolve and body melding with mine. I didn’t want it to end, but then we both heard Carl coming in from down the hall and she pushed me away quickly. “I’ve got to go. See you later.”

I watched her skit away and I was scowling when I saw Carl. “What?”

“You have the worst damn timing. You know that right?”

He looked at me as if I had lost it, maybe I had. I couldn’t forget her soft lips and soft sounds. I had been so close, I was sure of it.

Nicole left me needy, but she also left me with just the slightest bit of hope. Maybe there was a chance for us yet.

Chapter 8

Nicole

My face was burning when I got out of the house. I hoped that Carl hadn’t seen us kissing, but it wasn’t the first thing that I was worried about. I was worried about the kiss that felt too good and the man that I wasn’t supposed to want. I wasn’t supposed to want or need a man like Rocco. He was bad for me. He was the type of man that a woman didn’t get over. If his kiss had anything to judge off of, I had actually been saved from something far worse by seeing him with the other girl from one of my classes.

She was a freshman like me and I didn’t know her name, but I found myself staring at the back of her head in class. I had seen too much and it wasn’t like there was something wrong with him getting his freak on, but that I had been going out there to do the very same thing was what made me upset. Rocco thought that it was because I had seen him in such a state. It wasn’t that and I wasn’t a prude. Maybe it was really because she had gotten to him before I did.

I had seen enough in the minute or less that I had stood in the hallway. It may have only been a few seconds, but it was like time stood still for a moment. I will always remember the way his face changed when he saw me. Then he had come and I had run away, in a very literal sense.

The last couple of weeks I had been doing good to keep my distance from him. There was a haunting need in me that even after seeing him with another girl, it just wasn’t going away. I still wanted him and then his kiss, made me want him even more.

I walked with no real direction. I was supposed to be going to the beach, but now I was mindlessly walking with Rocco on my mind again. It was becoming like habit with him and I needed to get over it. He wasn’t mine and he never would be.

He was the type that wanted many women. I had seen more than a few in my time at the house with them. Carl was just as bad, but Rocco was the one that I cared about. The two men were not short on admirers and even though he showed interest, I didn’t want to be one of many. I wanted to be the one and I knew that it wasn’t a possibility with a guy like Rocco. He wasn’t a one-woman kind of man.

Pushing thoughts of him from my mind, I spent my day as I had planned to. It was a beautiful day and a guy that I had in one of my biology classes was there and I spent most of my day with Dustin. I didn’t like him in the same way as he liked me, but he was nice and kind. He was the kind of man that I had always looked for. He was safe, but now there was something lacking. There was something missing and I knew that it was because of Rocco that I couldn’t see him in that way. It was the kiss that had changed everything. I was sure of it.

When he asked me if I wanted to go get something to eat that evening, I told him that I did. A large smile spread across his face and it was hard to not see the charm in his eyes. Dustin was not just a nice man, but he was quite cute as well. He had the whole beach bum vibe, longer hair and a quick smile. All that was missing was a surfboard. His shirt had been off most of the day and though he wasn’t as buff as Rocco, he had long, lean muscles that sidetracked me.

“So did you want to go?”

“Yea, um let me just get changed. Do you want to meet me there?”

“No, I will just walk with you, if that’s okay.”

I nodded that it was, though I was not looking forward to the idea of it. I knew that one or both of my roommates would be home. If it was Carl it wouldn’t be that bad, but I didn’t want to think about if it was Rocco there too. What would he think if I brought another guy in? Shaking my head, I was sure that I was getting all worked up for nothing. Rocco wasn’t thinking about me and he certainly wasn’t worried about me doing anything with anyone else. The kiss had just happened. It meant nothing.

I kept telling myself that, trying to qualm my fears, but it didn’t help. I was nervous and it was obvious to him that I was. “You okay?”

I turned to him and just kind of shrugged. “I feel like I should warn you or apologize ahead of time about my roommates.”

“You have roommates?”

“Yeah two of them and they are kind of a mess sometimes, so there is no telling what we will be walking into.”

“I am sure it will be fine.”

“Yeah, of course.” I wasn’t so sure though. It wasn’t what I was going to walk into, but how one of them would react. Would he feel the same way I had felt when I had seen that women in between his legs? It was doubtful that he would feel anything at all. That is what I kept telling myself anyways.

But then we were there, not that long of a walk to keep me too worried. I saw Rocco’s truck out front when we turned down our road. I kind of groaned inwardly. I didn’t see Carl’s truck, so there was still the hope that he had left with his friend.

“So seriously Dustin, just don’t mind them if they are here.”

“That’s Rocco’s truck, isn’t it?”

I nodded, not catching the way he looked at me. “You live here with Rocco?”

“And Carl.” Pushing my key in the lock, I finally got the door open. Dustin was slow behind me and he suddenly looked more nervous than I did. It would have appeared that Rocco had a reputation with the guys on campus, as well as the girls.

I looked around for anyone to be there and I sighed a little when I didn’t hear or see anyone out in the common area. I just needed to get into my room for a minute to dress and then we could leave. I knew that I needed to get it done quickly and not take advantage of the reprieve.

“Why don’t you just wait here for a minute? I will be right back.”

He looked uncertain. “Okay, sure.”