Ruin Me (65 page)

Tobias says nothing. He calmly takes another quick drink from his glass and sets it back down again before standing up.

“Burt — calm down,” Amy says with a steady voice. “I never said we were
exclusive
—”

“You fucking bitch!” he seethes, shouting directly into her ear.

“Burt, a word?” Tobias grabs his arm and lays another hand on the back of his neck to forcefully direct Burt away from our table. Amy and I watch with wide eyes as Tobias shoves him into the bathroom in the corner and quickly closes the door behind them.

I look at Amy and a thick grin spreads across her face. “Should we… get help, or something?” I ask.

She shakes her head. “Well… maybe.”

I stare at the bathroom door, my mind buzzing from the fearful possibilities, as she nonchalantly checks her text messages. A few moments later, the bathroom door bursts open and Burt steps outside, followed closely by Tobias. They return to the table slowly and Tobias lays a hand on Burt’s shoulder.

“Amy, Burt has something he’d like to say to you,” Tobias says.

Burt clears his throat. “I’m sorry for my rudeness,” he mutters. “And for marking up your face… even though you seemed to like it—”

“Burt,”
Tobias snips.

“No, he’s right,” Amy says. I look at her in confusion. “I like it a little too rough sometimes and Burt… kinda likes to get carried away sometimes.”

“Well, next time,” Tobias says as he grabs Burt’s arm again, “make sure to avoid her face. Okay?”

“Sure,” Burt stutters. “No problem, man.”

“Now, fuck off.” Tobias shoves him away and returns to his seat at the table.

“Aye yi yi,” Amy says as she fans herself. “All hail our future Alpha.”

“Hear, hear,” I say as I bring my drink to my lips. Tobias looks at me in silence as I take a quick sip.

“I need to dance and work off this awful sexual tension,” Amy says. She grabs my hand and yanks me out of my seat. “Come on.”

I look to Tobias, half-hoping he’ll rescue me. “Wanna join us?” I ask him.

“I think I’ll just watch,” he says as he leans back in his seat.

Amy drags me away, but I glance back to catch Tobias looking me up and down.

***

I come back to the table in desperate need of something to drink.

Tobias looks up at me. “Having fun?” he asks.

“Yes,” I smile. I take a long sip from my glass and look back at the dance floor. Amy passes herself back and forth between two men, neither of whom I recognize. I’m pretty sure she doesn’t know them either. “But not nearly as much as Amy.”

“No one ever has as much fun as Amy,” he chuckles. “In fact, I think she views it as a personal attack if you even try.”

I laugh and turn back around to him. “So… what did you do to Burt?” I ask as I sit down next to him.

“Nothing.”

“That wasn’t nothing.”

He gives a small smile. “I merely reminded him that we have a code of conduct.”

“The Midwest Alphas have a code of conduct?”

“No, gentlemen do.”

“You know, Tobias,” I laugh. “You’re quite possibly the most adorable man I’ve ever met.”

He inhales deep. “I’m not sure how I feel about living in a world where treating women with respect is considered
adorable
rather than
common
.”

I pause, my eyes falling to the table. “Well, in my experience, it hasn’t been all that common.” He looks at me, his eyes soft and warm. “I spoke with my mother today.”

“Yeah?”

“I told her I wasn’t coming home yet.”

“You decided to stay?” he asks.

“What can I say? I’ve grown rather attached to Betty the cow.” I lick my lips and stare back into his bright green eyes. His gaze sends warmth throughout my body, igniting the subtle fires beneath my skin.

He smiles. “Good.”

Chapter 12

Girls And Bad Boys

I open my eyes, fighting an overwhelming urge to sleep, and see the farmhouse come into view of the headlights. I sit up and forget for a moment where I am. My eyes fall to the digital clock on the dashboard. It’s well passed one in the morning. I don’t remember the last time I felt this tired around this time. I’m usually bouncing off the walls until long after three.

Amy parks the car in the driveway near the barn. “Wake up, loser,” she teases me.

I smile at her and unhook my seatbelt. My ears still ring from the loud music and my throat feels coarse from the constant shouting to talk above the thumping bass. I love every ounce of the feeling. “Thank you, Amy,” I tell her. “This was fun.”

“We should do it again sometime,” she says. She adjust the rear view mirror. “How about you, Toby? Did you manage to break out of your dark shell for the evening and have a little bit of the f-word?”

I turn back to look at him. His eyes glare back at Amy in the mirror with a clever mix of annoyance and amusement.

“I’ll take that as a yes,” Amy says. “I’m an optimist.” She claps her hands together. “Right. Now. Go to bed. Get some rest. I want you perfect for tomorrow night. You hear me?”

Tobias smiles. “Yes, ma’am.”

She turns to me. “Make sure he does.”

“I’ll do my best.” I push open the car door and step outside into the warm night air. Tobias follows me out and we give Amy one last goodbye wave before she bolts down the driveway at top speed. “She’s a real hard-ass, isn’t she?” I joke.

Tobias shrugs. “She’s a woman that knows what she wants, I’ll give her that.”

“I’m more terrified of what she’ll do to you if you lose than the fight itself.”

He turns to me. “You don’t have to be scared about the fight, Claire.”

“I know I don’t
have
to be,” I say, “but I still am.”

“Come here,” he smiles. He walks over to the barn and silently pulls the door open.

I follow him in and flick on the lights as he closes the door behind us. I stand against ladder to the loft, watching him closely until he reaches into his pocket and pulls out my phone. “What’s this?” I ask.

“It’s a phone,” he grins as he takes my hand and lays it flat into my palm.

“Yeah, I know…” I say, hesitating to wrap my fingers around it. “Did you steal it?”

Tobias chuckles softly. “No,” he answers. “My dad asked me to give it to you.”

“Why?”

He shrugs. “I guess you’ve earned it back. Or, you know… it’s your birthday. You’re eighteen now. You should get what you want.”

The phone feels heavy in my hands, almost foreign. I stare at it and realize that I’ve forgotten why I clung to it so much before. It feels like there’s a past life hidden somewhere in my subconscious, begging to come back, but there’s no place for it anymore. “This isn’t what I want,” I say. I look up at him with subtle eyes.

“Well, Claire…” he says. “Tell me what you want and I’ll see what I can do.”

I slide the phone into my back pocket. “Will you let me kiss you if I do?”

He pauses with temptation in his eyes. I move in closer to him, saying a silent wish for him not to wander away from me. Luckily, he stands still and licks his lips. I push myself higher onto my toes and he leans down to welcome my kiss.

A magnet binds our lips together. His are soft and warm. The hesitation I felt on them before has completely disappeared. He lays a hand on my cheek and the other against my waist to hold me against him. I don’t fight his perfect embrace. I lean into it, eager and happy to be under his control as he sits me back against the ladder.

My hands move across his hard body. I feel him tremble beneath my touch. I never want to let him go and I can feel his desires driving him to hold onto me forever, too. I kiss him harder and open my knees to him to pull him in closer to me. His hand falls to my thigh and I quiver as his fingers travel up my bare leg.

I moan against his lips, blocking out all other senses. Passion drives me further than ever before. I reach for his belt. His hands push my jacket off my shoulders and his lips fall to my neck. Bolts of electric sex course through me. I can’t think of anything other than this pleasure.

“Hope I’m not interrupting anything.”

Rick.

My blood runs cold as I look towards the door. “Rick?” I ask. He stands in the doorway, the same tall, dark, and handsome boy I was torn away from just a few weeks ago. Now, he seems taller and darker, but not in a good way. “What are you doing here?” I ask. I jump off the ladder and pull my jacket back up onto my shoulders.

Rick steps into the barn, his feet dragging softly across the ground. His eyes fall on Tobias before he speaks and he stares at him like an unwanted pest. “I came to see you,” he tells me. “I’d never miss your birthday.” He pauses a few feet away from me and glances down my body. “You look
nice.
”

I look between the two of them as fear rises in my chest. Now that I see them standing together, I see the similar features of their bloodline plain as day, but I also see the subtle differences in the way they move. Rick strides like an unpredictable animal, eager and twitchy in his boots. Tobias stares back at him, stiff as a board, but prepared to strike at a moment’s notice.

“Hey, Tobias,” Rick mutters. “It’s been awhile.”

“Rick,” he replies, offering nothing more.

“How did you find me?” I ask Rick.

“Where else would they send you?” he jokes as his eyes wander the walls of the barn. “Uncle Charlie’s halfway house.”

Tobias shifts slightly on his feet.

I take in a quick, deep breath. “Tobias, can you give us a minute?” I ask him.

He flicks his green eyes at me, but doesn’t move.

“Yeah, cuz’,” Rick grins. “Give us a minute.”

“It’s okay,” I say to Tobias. “Tell Charlie thank you for the gift for me.”

His eyes find mine again and I nod, hoping he understands my hidden meaning. Finally, he steps back and turns towards the door. “Okay,” he says before walking outside.

Once he’s gone, I look back at Rick and watch as his smile slowly stretches the length of his face. “What are you doing here?” I ask him again.

“I missed you,” he says, moving in closer to me. “It’s time for you to get out of here and come home with me. Remember? Like we planned.” I counter him with a quick step back and he tilts his head in confusion. “What’s wrong?”

“I’m not going home with you,” I say.

A soft chuckle massages his throat. “Yeah, your mom mentioned something about you extending your little vacation,” he laughs. “Stop joking around.”

“I’m not joking.”

He flexes his jaw and his smile drops. “Come on, Claire,” he says. “Go get your shit and let’s go.”

I shake my head. “I can’t.”

“You can’t? What do you mean you can’t?”

“I mean…
I can’t
,” I stutter.

“You don’t belong here, Claire,” he says. “You belong with me.”

“Not anymore.”

“What the hell has gotten into you?” He gestures behind us, pointing towards the house. “My fucking cousin?”

“This has nothing to do with him,” I say. “This is between us and… I’ve realized that this isn’t what I want anymore.”

“Look… Claire…” He steps forward and grabs my shoulders. “I know you’ve been out here in the boonies for a little while and you’re confused, but I can help you with that.” He reaches into his jacket and pulls out a small baggy of white powder. I cringe when I see the blood-red X on the bottom corner.

“Where did you get that?” I ask.

“A friend of a friend I stumbled upon in St. Louis on the drive down here,” he grins. “Should be more than enough to kick-start some fun, eh?”

“No.”

Rick sighs and drops his hands. “What the hell happened to you out here?”

“I’m sorry, Rick,” I say. “That’s just not who I am anymore.”

“Yes, it is,” he argues. “People don’t change, Claire. Especially not girls like you.”

“Well, I have.”